Alone
1500 Words
**Amelia's POV**
I could hear the panicked voices of my loved one's around me. I felt Roman's hand in mine, and his forehead resting on my arm. My parents were by my side, my mother sobbing and my dad trying to soothe her. Maddie is sitting by my feet and I can hear Brandon Jr's heavy footsteps pacing the room . I smiled inwardly at my brother's tedious actions when he is worried.
"Stop pacing." I whispered, my eyes still closed. "You're making me anxious."
There was sighs of breaths all around the room and I flickered my eyes open slowly. I looked around and saw that we were in Roman and I's bedroom. It was dark outside so I guess I have been out a while. "How are you feeling?" Roman whispered and his hand caressed my cheek. I felt the pain and worry resurface and my chest started getting tight. "Shh. Shh. It's okay, love."
"I'm so scared. What are we going to do? Why are they doing this? Even if I pass on being Luna, they will not let me have a real life with my mate." I cried. "I can't- I can't..." The sobs got stronger as they raked over my body. Tears streamed down my face, and I let out all of the pain I was feeling. My family tried to embrace me, but I pushed them away. "I just want to be alone."
"No. I am not leaving-" Roman started but I turned away from him and continued to cry. His hand stroked up and down my back as he whispered that it would be okay, but it only made my pain worse because I knew it was a lie.
"Please. Everyone just leave." I begged.
After a few moments, one by one my family left after they hugged me and told me they loved me. Roman of course was the last to leave and I know it hurt to see me like this and not let him help, but the way I needed to cry, I didn't want an audience. After Roman shut the door. my breathing started to come faster and shallower. The sobs would not stop and I clutched my chest, hoping it would ease my heartache. I screamed and screamed as I cried. I pulled my knees up to my chest trying to just hold myself together. I was falling apart and there was nothing no one could do to help. Elder Hamilton made it clear. I had two choices. One: become Luna and a wolf but without my mate. Marry someone I do not know and will never love. Or two: stay a human but never have a full life with my mate. He can't change me, and I'll never be able to have his children.
My whole life was being tore to pieces and it was barely starting. I was supposed to get married in a few days and be changed to a wolf. I was supposed to continue online business classes while I managed pack responsibilities. Roman and I decided that we would have a baby after I graduated with my degree. We had a plan. We were ready. Now it's all gone.
I am not sure how long I cried for, and I did not even realize I had fallen asleep. I woke up with a splitting headache, a sore throat from all the screaming, and my eyes burned so bad. My body felt weak, and so heavy. I looked around and noticed that Roman was not here. When I checked my phone it was almost three in the morning. Where was everyone? I tried to get up, but dizziness suddenly came over me and I laid back down. I calmed down and tried to mind link Roman.
Amelia: Roman?
I waited a few moments, but he didn't answer. Usually if he is asleep, Ares answers, but all is quiet.
Amelia: Roman?
I sounded more desperate and sad. I know it was wrong of me to push him away, but I needed space. I needed to hurt without someone lying to me by saying everything was going to be alright. Nothing is going to be alright!
When I realized that I was not going to get an answer I pulled out my phone and dialed Maddie's number. She answered on the third ring. "Hello?" She croaked. She was asleep.
"Maddie?" I cried.
"Amelia!" She sounded worried. "What's wrong?"
"Maddie, I can't get up. I'm so dizzy and my head is pounding." I tried not to cry because it would only make everything hurt more. "Everything hurts."
"I'm coming." I could hear her shuffling around and then she hung up the phone.
I was expecting Maddie to come in a few moments but she took about twenty minutes. When she came through the door, she was carrying a food tray. She helped me sit up and helped me get situated so I was comfortable. "You didn't have to do all of this."
"Yes, I did. You only ate breakfast yesterday and it was just a bowl of cereal and soup fruit. You feel like s**t because your hungry and you drained a lot of energy when you were crying." My little sister replied.
Maddie placed the food tray on my lap and then she turned on the TV. She put on Netflix and one of our favorite movies. She then crawled into bed next to me and watched the movie while I ate. She brought me some broccoli cheddar soup with cornbread and a glass of tea. The soup really soothed my throat and I was feeling better after a little while. When I was done eating I took the tray to the kitchen. On my way back to the room I bumped into a hard chest. I looked up and saw his beautiful eyes. But they looked at me with no emotion. No love.
"Roman." I whispered. I looked at his appearance and saw that he was covered in dirt and was sweating. "Where were you? It's late. I woke up and you weren't in bed."
"You wanted to be alone." He answered coldly. "I gave you what you wanted."
"Roman-"
"Did you not think for a second that I was hurting too? That it wasn't just your life and your future being ripped away from you?" His tone remained unchanged, but his words still stung. I didn't think about his hurt. Just my own. "We feel what our mate does on top of our own feelings. When you laid in OUR bed alone and cried, I felt every single ounce of pain you felt plus mine and Ares'. I needed you, but you pushed me away."
Without another word, Roman left back out of the front door and into the night. I didn't know what to do or say. He was right. My mate was hurting and instead of facing this together, I pulled away from him. The one I am so in love with and who has been by my side through everything. I failed him, and I hated myself for hurting him.
**Roman's POV**
I didn't mean to be so cold with Amelia, but I was already having such a difficult time holding back Ares from going insane. She is marked. I feel her pain, panic, and fear. When she let go of control I knew every tear she cried, every sob that shook her chest. We are mates, we need to face things together, not separate. We shouldn't separate now, but I can't face her right now. I feel like when things got hard she pulled away from me. I need her to see that, that is not how we need to handle problems.
Even though Ares and I went out for a long and exhausting run, I still felt so on edge. On guard. I know the Elder and his cocky son left, but I don't like this feeling. A feeling like I am really going to lose Amelia. This unshakable shadow of doom feels so different than when she was kidnapped. I knew I would one day find her, I knew I would never give up until Alpha Travis paid for taking Amelia away from me, but now this is something that feels beyond my control. The Council has decided the paths in front of us, and now Amelia has to choose which one to take. Even though it affects me as well, this is ultimately her choice.
Thinking about what she might decide broke my heart. She either becomes Luna, but accepts another man or she stays with me but we never have children. Those cannot be the only choices. There has to be another. With determination and sure will to not give up, I mind link Leo to meet me in his office.
I said I would kill anyone who tries to take her from me, and if that is what must be done. Then so be it.
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