" She is still grieving her loss, Amiera. I don't want to add another one. " He answered honestly. I've heard the same thing with Drake. " What's your plan with her?" I asked. "I'll reject her when she's ready." He told me. "She will never be ready, Derek. She still loves you. " I said bitterly. "I know. I just don't know how to reject her without hurting her." He reasoned. He sounded like he still care about her and I felt another pain struck my aching heart. " You seem troubled, Derek. Why don't you give yourself time to figure out what you feel with me and with Sarah. Maybe you're being pressured with me. I'm not in a hurry to get married since I won't even last more than a year." I said coldly. "Don't say that! You're going to live. Let's not mind Sarah anymore and just focus