Lesson's on Love

Love Lesson 4: No Amount Of Sorry Excuses Abuse

Chapter 1

Love lesson 4: No amount of sorry excuses abuse

I have been one of those girls that took her man back after hitting her and begged for forgiveness.

I believed him when he said it would never happen again, but you know what it did over and over again.

I know you’re thinking I’d never be like that.

I’d fight back.

I’m stronger than that.

I deserve it because I took him back.

Well I said the same thing but it happened to me.

I became weak.

I hated myself.

I wouldn’t eat.

I couldn’t sleep in fear he would kill me.

I didn’t leave because he threatened to harm my family.

To me family is everything.

He would break me down by calling me fat and ugly.

He would look at other girls right in front of me.

I knew he was cheating on me and wondered if he beat them too.

I became the victim I just wasn’t strong enough.

I let him tear me down.

Then I found out at 18 I was pregnant because of the one night he forced himself on me.

I cried for hours not knowing what to do, but I knew I was going to keep this baby.

That night I came back to the apartment we shared after working two jobs.

He was mad accusing me of being out cheating on him when I tried telling him I wasn’t he hit me, and I don’t know where my strength came from but I hit him back and took off to the gas station by my house.

I quickly called a friend to come and get me because I knew he was following me.

I was right he came up to me and cut me with a knife twice then took off.

My baby wasn’t harmed thank goodness.

My son is now 20 and is a great kid.

My ex never went to jail for what he did because well money talks, but I did get a restraining order.

I’m telling my story to help others because I am no longer a victim, I am a survivor.