NATALIE: My Runaway Wife

PROLOGUE

I'm Back! Matagal tagal ko na ring hindi nakita ang Pilipinas, and I'm happy to be back here. Nandito ako ngayon sa isang hotel na pagmamay-ari ng pamilya namin. Dito na ako tumuloy galing ng airport, saka na lang ako uuwi sa bahay ng mga magulang ko.

I flew all away from Paris, kung saan ako nag-aral ng college. And now, I'm a fashion designer already. I came back just to fulfill my parents' request. My cousin Blue will get married three months from now, at ako ang inobliga nilang gumawa ng wedding gown niya. Hindi pa nga sana ako babalik, pero parang napakasama ko naman para tanggihan ang mga magulang at lalo na ang pinsan kong si Blue.

Kasalukuyan akong nakikinig ng classical music when I heard someone knocked on my door. Maybe it's the room service I've been waiting. Hindi ko na pinagkaabalahan pang sumilip sa peephole sa pag-aakala kong 'yon na ang staff ng hotel. As I opened the door, some asshole just entered in like he's a king. Parang pag-aari niya ang kwarto ko kung umasta siya.

I was about to react and yell at him when he suddenly faced me. Kulang ang salitang nagulat para ilarawan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. I couldn't even move my feet to run away from him again. I didn't expect to see him this soon. I'm not ready yet.

"So you're really back." Its not a question, its a statement and I could feel sarcasm on it. Hindi ko pa rin magawang magsalita 'ni ang kumilos man lang. All I could do was to stare at the man in front of me.

He walked around my hotel suite, looking so mighty like a king. Seeing him again made my heart beats fast. Ninenerbyos ako, hindi ko napaghandaan ang pangyayaring ito. I know eventually magkikita at magkikita kami, but not now. If I could just see myself in a mirror, malamang na ang putla ko na ngayon. Pero bakit ba ako natatakot sa kaniya? I've already moved on. Dapat ay hindi na ako nerbyosin pa.

Moved on? Have you, Nat?

Yes, dahil 'yon naman talaga ang dapat. But what I was feeling now is different from what I should feel. Iba pa rin talaga ang makita ang taong minahal mo, pinakasalan at iniwan ng dahil sa hindi ka niya mahal. Oo aaminin ko, hindi pa rin talaga ako nakakamove on ng lubusan mula sa sakit na idinulot niya sa akin. Ngayon ngang nakita ko siya ay nararamdaman ko na naman ang sakit. Bumabalik na naman ang mga alaala ng nakaraan. Mga ala-alang dapat ko nang kalimutan ng hindi na ako nasasaktan pa.

"What brought you here Fritz?" Tanong ko sa kaniya ng makabawi ako. Pinipilit kong patatagin ang boses ko para hindi niya malaman kung anong nangyayari sa kalooban ko. God! walang ipinagbago ang itsura niya, mukhang mas lalo pa yata siyang naging gwapo. Even his body had changed.

"Aren't you gonna say hi first? or maybe ask me, how am I doing these days." Ang lakas naman talaga ng loob ng lalaking ito na humarap sa akin pagkatapos ng mga ginawa niya. I wanted to punch him on the face and kick his ass palabas ng kwarto ko.

"I'm not, so you better tell me why your here or else, Im gonna call the securities." Hindi pa rin ako umaalis sa kinatatayuan ko. Because until now I couldn't move my feet. Natatakot ako sa kung anoman ang pwedeng mangyari. He's just there, looking at me intently. Mga tinging nanunuot sa pagkatao ko.

"This is not what I expect to hear from my wife, who happens to be missing for almost FIVE YEARS." Hindi nakaligtas sa pandinig ko ang pagdidiin niya sa kung ilang taon akong nawala. Tama, I've been out of his life for almost five years...sa loob ng taong 'yon ay pinilit kong kalimutan siya na akala ko ay nagawa ko na. I needed to run away and left him to fix myself and mend my broken heart. Kinailangan ko iyong gawin upang ibalik ang dignidad kong nakalimutan kong mayroon pala ako simula ng pinakasalan ko siya.

"What do you expect? That I will hug you and tell you I miss you?...In your dreams Fritz." Ngumiti ako ng may pagka-uyam at tinitigan siya ng masama. Anong akala niya? Na ganun ganun na lang 'yon? na aakuin niya akong asawa niya na five years ago lang ay isinusuka niya bilang asawa? I'm not that stupid girl anymore.

"Well 'yon naman talaga ang dapat hindi ba?...I miss you Nat and I know you miss me too." Assuming? Miss? Bakit ko naman siya ma-mimiss. Napakasinungaling talaga ng lalaking ito, I doubt kung na-miss niya nga ba talaga ako.

Hindi mo nga ba siya namiss Nat?

Oh shut up brain. Hindi ko siya namiss dahil galit pa rin ako sa kaniya. Galit ang nararamdaman ko at hindi pangungulila.

"Ang galing mo naman magsalita. You miss me? I doubt it. Dahil simula noong ikinasal tayo ay hindi mo naman talaga ako minahal, so 'wag ka ng magpanggap at pwede bang umalis ka na." I couldn't contain it anymore. I just couldn't stand seeing him again. It just brought back all the memories I had with him. All the sufferings, all the pain.

"No! I'm not going anywhere Natalie. Not without you, kaya sa ayaw at sa gusto mo ay iuuwi kita sa bahay." Then he walked towards me. s**t! No! Ayokong sumama sa kaniya. Not now, never. Tapos ano? Sasaktan na naman niya ako?

"Ayoko! One more move at sisigaw ako." Hindi ako pwedeng sumama, ayoko ng maranasan ang mga sakit na naranasan ko noon sa kaniya. Mauulit lang ulit 'yon, sigurado ako.

"You can shout all you want baby. But no one can stop me, I promise you that." Then he smiled at me. Looking so devil and determined to what he planned to do. At natatakot ako.

"Sisigaw ako ng rape kapag lumapit ka. All the securities will go up here, kaya itigil mo na ito." Hindi ako nagpapakita ng takot though natatakot na ko sa pwede niyang gawin sa akin, lalo na sa pwedeng mangyari oras na magkadikit lang kahit dulo ng daliri namin. My knees were actually shaking.

"Really? Rape huh?" Damn it! what was he doing? patuloy pa rin siyang lumalapit at may nakakalokong ngiti pa sa kaniyang mga labi.

"Isa, I'm not kidding Fritz. I'm gonna shout...." Hindi ko na natapos ang kung anomang sasabihin ko dahil hinatak niya akong bigla papalapit sa kaniya, and to my surprise, he kissed me.

Parang madudurog ang mga labi ko sa halik na ginagawa niya. Pinipilit kong kumawala sa kaniyang pagkakahawak pero masyado 'yong mahigpit at napakalakas niya. Hawak niya ang dalawang kamay ko at hindi ko alam kung paanong naitulak niya ako sa may pinto. He's now pinning my hands on the door. Damn, he's crushing my lips and I couldn't do something about it.

"Fritz this is rape." Sabi ko sa kaniya ng pakawalan niya ang mga labi ko. Pero ngumiti lang siya.

"Rape? we'll see my dear wife." Then he kissed me again. Pinipilit ko pa ring kumawala sa pagkakahawak niya. I couldn't move, dahil na rin sa pagkakadagan niya sa akin. Nanghihina na ako, hindi ko na magawang manlaban pa sa kaniya. Nanginginig na ang aking mga tuhod. He's making me weak.

Namalayan kong nag-iba ang paraan niya ng paghalik sa akin. He went slow, parang may pagsuyo. Parang may pagmamahal. But he doesn't love me.

He kept on kissing me passionately at nadadala na rin ako. Hindi ko alam pero sumasabay na rin ako sa kaniya. I felt he released my hands, and his right hand was now caressing my back. It just added heat to my already burning body.

I clung my arms around his neck to deepened the kiss we're sharing. Bumaba ang mga halik niya sa leeg ko. His hands roamed over my body then travelled down to my butt. He pulled me to feel his member. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagkabuhay niyon. He kissed me again, but this time, his hand got its way inside my blouse and squeezed my left breast gently.

"hmmmm" I moaned between our kisses. I suddenly felt the sensation. And I admit it, I wanted more. My body was now burning. Ipinagkakanulo na ako ng sarili kong katawan.

Its my first time to feel such intimacy and pleasure and its really good, more than good. But the worst part was, the man who's giving me those, was the same man who hurted me five years ago.

Namalayan ko na lang na buhat buhat niya ako, we're now heading towards my bed. He laid me there without breaking the kiss. He seemed so professional of what he's doing.

Sandali niyang iniwan ang mga labi ko. He kissed my neck, down to my collar bone, and the feeling was sensational. Clouds were all over my head and I just couldn't think straight. All I could do was to moan and let him do everything.

Hindi siya nag-aksaya ng panahon, he sucked my n****e. Napadaing ako, pleasures struck me. He licked and sucked my left breast while his other hand was flicking my nip.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ko ipapaling ang ulo ko. My God! I don't know what pleasure means, until now. Napaka-expert ng gumagawa sa akin niyon. I couldn't protest because I'm loving it. His other hand travelled down. Naramdaman ko na lang na naipasok na niya ang kamay niya sa loob ng suot kong short.

I could feel the heat coming from his hand. Touching and feeling my sacred triangle. Liyong liyo na ako sa sensasyong dulot ng ginagawa niya. I'm in seventh heaven as they said it.

"Ahhhhhh Fritz" I cried out of pleasure. He's expert hands are doing magic down there. He kissed me again at hindi pa siya nakuntento, he took off my clothes in one swift move.

"My God baby, you're so beautiful." I heard him said that habang nakatitig lang siya sa katawan ko. I could see desire in his eyes. Wala siyang inaksayang panahon at muli niyang ibinalik ang atensyon sa ginagawa niya kanina.

Lunod na lunod na ako sa mga halik at sa mga milagrong ginagawa ng kamay niya sa kabuuan ko. He kissed me from my lips down to my navel, while his hands were squeezing my breast. Nakita kong nakasuot pa rin siya ng polo niya.

I tried to reach him and when I did, hinila ko siya pataas para magkalapat ulit ang aming mga labi. I started unbuttoning his polo. I've never done it before kaya naman hirap akong tanggalin 'yon. Kung kaya naman ay winasak ko na lamang ito.

"Got no patience baby?" Tapos ngumiti siya at pinagpatuloy na ang paghalik sa akin. Again his hands were doing wonders to my body. Unti-unti na namang bumababa ang halik niya hanggang sa marating niya ang pinakaiingatan kong kayamanan.

"This is mine." And he started kissing it, licking it.

"Goodness Fritz." I shouted. Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong mapaliyad at mapasabunot sa buhok niya. Temperature was rising up. My breathe's becoming uneven.

He thrusted his tongue in my core and his thumb played my clit. Mabaliw baliw ako sa kakaibang karanasang ipinapadama niya sa akin. His tongue went faster and faster, hanggang sa manginig ang tuhod ko. Something was building up inside me. And when he thrusted deep, liquids flow between my legs.

"Sh*t!" I cussed. That was an earthshaking orgasm. And it's my first. Akala ko 'yon lang 'yon.

"Wait baby, hindi pa tayo tapos." Tumayo siya to remove his pants. And to my surprise napa "Oh!" na lang ako sa nakita ko. He's huge! He's really huge.

"Don't worry it will fit." Sabi niya ng makita niya ang reaksyon ko. Then he positioned himself. In one move, he's already inside me. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi mapasigaw with his sudden intrusion. Feeling ko may napunit na kung ano sa aking katawan. It really d*mn hurts.

Natigilan siya at tumingin sa aking mga mata. "Please don't tell me to stop." Nakita ko ang mga mata niya, may pagsuyo at paghihirap doon. I just nodded at him. I didn't want him to stop neither.

At first it hurts, pero habang tumatagal ay nawawala ang sakit. Napapalitan na 'yon ng masarap at nakakakiliting pakiramdam. Sumasabay na ako sa galaw niya. It's really good, him...filling me was ecstacy.

"Fvck Fritz, faster." Hindi ko alam kung saan nanggaling ang mga salitang "yon, but I really wanted him to go faster. Naramdaman ko na naman ang pakiramdam na 'yon. I know I'm almost there.

"Shout my name babe." He then went faster and faster. After that, I felt my released.

"Ahhhhhh" Hindi naman nagtagal ay sumunod siya sa akin. I could feel the hot liquid shooting inside me . We're both panting. Hindi pa rin siya umaalis sa pagkakadagan sa akin, and I could still feel him inside me.

"That was wonderful Nat." I heard him say. Yeah! that was wonderful. The best experience I've never had. "You're still a virgin and I'm glad, I'm still your first."

D*mn it! yeah you're my first. Still my first. Dahil ng mga panahong nawala ako ay ikaw pa rin pala ang laman ng pesteng puso na ito. The one and only man that I love, and could hurt me at the same time. Dahil sa isiping "yon ay parang sinaksak ng paulit ulit na naman ang puso ko. I pushed him on the side.

"So what if you're my first? Masaya ka na?" I told him. Sounding so sarcastic. I didn't want to cry right now, not in front of him.

"Yes I am. With that five years you had gone, hindi malabong may nakarelasyon ka...But knowing you're a virgin? I'm really glad about it." Nagpanting ang tenga ko, anong akala niya sa akin? pumapatol kahit kanino? Siya nga lang ang minahal ko pero sinasaktan naman niya ako ng paulit ulit.

"I'm not a wh*re Fritz...Pwede ba umalis ka na, nakuha mo na naman ang gusto mo diba? So please leave me alone." I told him with irritation. Nasasaktan na naman ako. Ang tanga tanga ko kasi eh. All these years akala ko nakalimutan ko na siya, pero hindi pa rin pala.

"I'm not going anywhere Nat." Ang tigas din ng mukha nitong lalaking ito eh.

"Just leave me now Fritz. Please." I couldn't take this anymore. I didn't want him to see me crying. Hindi ko hahayaang makita niyang mahina ako.

"I'll leave you now but I promise you, I'll be back tomorrow. By hook or by crook, sasama ka sa akin pauwi sa bahay. You're still my wife Natalie and nothing's gonna change that." Noon lang siya tumayo at isinuot ang mga damit niya at narinig ko na lang na ibinalibag niya ang pintuan.

Naiwan akong nagiisa at umiiyak. Ang tanga ko, ibinigay ko pa ang pinakaiingatan kong p********e sa kaniya. Sa lalaking nagsisising pinakasalan ako at sumumpang kahit kailan ay hindi ako mamahalin. Na gagawin ang lahat para saktan ako.

"Yeah, Im still your wife Fritz. Just your freaking wife." He promised to make my life a living hell the day that I married him. I thought, ito na iyong karma ko sa ginawa ko noon. Maybe tomorrow he'll be back again, just like what he said, and maybe tomorrow I'll start paying the fruit of my deeds before. Being Fritz's wife was my curse.