Chapter 6
In his bedroom, Xavier cracked the window open and blew a trail of smoke into the slit. It was raining and pretty cold out for late July, and he was feeling blue. He’d been lifting weights after work to try to clear his mind, and his arms were still pumped from the work out. There was something gratifying about lighting up after he’d exerted himself, though he knew it wasn’t healthy.
Was this how an after-s*x cigarette felt like?
He didn’t know. Never gone all the way with anyone.
Xavier’s heart skipped a beat and he felt his cheeks get hot. His first time had to be with Billy. He wanted to touch Billy’s lips. Needed to see Billy out of clothes. But then what?
“Are you smoking in there?” Aunt Diane shouted from somewhere in the apartment. “And Camels, too. You know I hate th
