15 Chris
It isn’t doing Megan any good sitting around the house, moping.
I almost snapped. I almost went for her. I was this close to breaking and doing something I would have regretted. And I wonder how long I can carry on before I finally do it. Before I can’t keep that side of me at bay any longer.
There are ways I can keep it down, though. Now I have a channel for my frustrations. It’s wrong — it’s so wrong — but it’s got to be better than the alternative. If the truth got out it would ruin my family, but in many ways I’m protecting them. It gives me a huge release and ensures I don’t take out my frustrations on them.
It’s like a dog that needs exercising. A big, black dog. If you don’t let it out to run around and kill rabbits every once in a while, it’ll go for you or your family
