26 Megan
I’ve seen that face many times when I fall asleep. It’s haunted me ever since that day. Of course, Chris said he didn’t mind whether we had a boy or a girl, and claimed that he was just surprised when the sonographer told us we were having a girl.
I scrutinised his face when Evie was born. I should have been more focused on her, but all that was going through my mind was that Chris was going to be disappointed. That he was going to reject our child. That he was going to resent me for not providing him with a son.
I sometimes wonder if that’s why I’ve had my own problems bonding with Evie. Perhaps I’ve been too focused on keeping Chris happy and making sure he wasn’t genuinely disappointed with our daughter, I’ve let my own care for her slip.
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