19 Megan
It’s seven o’clock in the evening by the time Chris comes back home. Evie’s asleep on my chest. I don’t say a word as he enters the living room. I keep my eyes fixed on episode twelve of Orange is the New Black. It’s not because I don’t want to wake Evie up — it’s because I can’t stand to even look at Chris, never mind speak to him.
He sits down on the sofa on the other side of the room and says nothing for a couple of minutes. I can feel his eyes on me, and for the first time in my life I feel scared in the presence of my own husband. I try not to let it show, though.
Eventually, after what seems like an age, he speaks.
‘Do you want a glass of wine?’ he says.
I shake my head.
He doesn’t speak again for a little while.
‘I went for a walk,’ he finally says. ‘Followed the riv
