MY MATE

finally

goddess i am now sitting by the table trying eat some chicken bbq and its making me so naucious. damon is watching me i am so tired of being watched, i dont want feel like i am a fragile doll.

"what" i yelled getting annoyed with being watched, goddess i am pregnant its not like i going drop dead.

"sorry, i....." s**t i didnt mean to yell he just angered me.

"damon. im sorry okay, i just been constantly watched all the time and i feel like i cant breath, i need to be treated normally and not so fragile im pregnant not a glass doll damon" i can tell he is finally thinking and understanding where i am coming from i need people stop obsessing.

"love you know you will have get used to people doing things for you" f**k i didnt think about that, this baby needs rest and stop making me sick.

"s**t, damon i dont want to, i want do things i am not one to let others do it for me, i know i am the future queen it is just alot to handle. the dresses. the pregnancy. kelly, you, i have to rule by your side. be a mother, find my family, and learn my powers, you may have marked me but i cant mark you"

"you will be fine. together we will do this love. we can do this i promise. i know it is alot to handle and kellys mark is still there thats why you cant mark me" i knew it, i knew there was a reason he didnt want me mark him i just thought it was because it was to early.

"s**t, love i didnt...." i f*****g knew it.

i got up and left to go for a walk on my own and went to the forest to clear my head and sit on my bench.

so much is going on i wanted to mark my mate and now, i cant because of kelly, again why is the goddess doing this to me, i see the lake in front of me shimmering, i go sit on the rocks take my shoes off and put my feet in the cool water.

hmm that feels so nice. i close my eyes basking in the sun and the coolness of the water, deep breaths, breathing in the lovely fresh air around me.

feels so peaceful. my life started off a nightmare all those lashings, infections. rape. slavery, watching my parents die because of the beta my mother was close to this girl called mira she became beta as my mother didnt have worry about her hitting on my dad because she was lesbian.

i still dont know what made her betray us. we were good to her, she was like an aunt to me, she showed me nothing but love but whatever happened cost my parents life.

i look up at the sky. so much peace i feel.

i hear a twig snap, i already know its damon.

"hey, look please just listen. i am sorry about the marking thing i really didnt mean it like that, i was drunk and didnt realise she marked me love, can i come sit" he asks me hesitantly.

i know he didnt mean it like that its just hard to know my mark wont be on him.

"sure" i sigh.

he sat with me in silence for 15 minutes he is wringing his fingers trying think of how bring it up. im not thick i am actually quite observant.

"i....it....i was out with some friends got a little drunk, well very drunk, i will admit i slept with her but when i woke up next morning i noticed the mark, told her to leave and she did but came back pregnant, i felt forced to accept it and really on edge about the whole thing and i was afraid of what would happen"