The Bad Boy Alpha

Chapter 21 (Waking up)

Yesterday I spoke to the moon goddess and it was so surreal to me to even think I was good enough for her to come visit me and she did , she made me realize that I must not stand for less ,but fight for myself and so I need to open my eyes now , and as I try it's like my eyelids is so heavy but I keep on trying and as I lay in my hospital bed I can feel my legs pain pounding like drums in my head so just as I want to cry I feel a hand on mine and then the voice that seems to calm me, it's Alex. "Mia I know you think ill of me but please wake up now your parents are so worried and I need to talk to you also, to ask you some stuff. Do you hear me Mia, I am your mate and the doctor says I must summon you or order you with my Alpha voice to wake up but I don't think that is how we should do this so yes you are my mate , I feel this pull towards you, my beast needs you to be ok and well I want that to so come on open those beautiful eyes and give me grieve again ok". He says and my heart is feeling all happy but he just want me awake for my parents sake and well I must say he is not being mean so that is a first hearing his true feelings for ones. 

Alex (Pov) 

Mia is still out cold lying in her bed not even responding and seeing her like this almost broken over my stupidity makes me mad at myself and the quilt is eating away at me but I need to talk to her , the doctor did say we should because it could help her , he was sure she could hear us and so I did. After telling her we needed her to wake up because I also need to talk to her, I felt a bit weird and so I took her hand while talking and Blade was so mad at me  he did not wane talk but when I sat by Mia he would be in my head helping me to try ease her pain and tell her he needs her were in truth I need her too . Mia will not forgive me and I so wish I did some stuff different then what I did, I did hurt Mia along the way but she did too and some days I miss hanging out with her, catching fireflies and just playing catch by the river and having my best friend. If only I can erase some stuff I also did to her to try and fix it . Sitting at her side touching her soft small hands made my heart feel alive again like when we were kids and she has turned into this beauty that my soul wants to be with and my wolf wants to make sweet love too, I know Mia is still pure , we can sense it and I know as soon as she turns 18 she will feel this pull a lot more then now, does she even feel it ?. Other male's will too.

In two days she turns 18 years old and that is the day she must get her wolf and turn but now how can she so I lean into her sweet face looking at this stunning picture of a girl and I want her awake, I want her to forgive me and I want her to be again . "Mia please wake up, you don't want your birthday in this bed do you?, do you remember on your sixth birthday when you wanted that bunny and your mom said no because bunnies and wolves don't go together..., you were so sad and I decided to get you one and then we build him a save home, you were so happy that day , I want that for you and I want you to see I have changed Mia I want to be your friend again please wake up. 

Alex was done talking and he felt a bit in-between his feelings so he just put his head in his hands on the bed and that is when Blade told him , "Mia,, is waking you i***t!". He looked up and the only thing he saw was her teary eyes looking like crystal balls looking straight at him and then he got up yelling to get the doctor . Mia was awake finally and this new found man was indeed her mate and she new this already but was she ready to just be friends and forgive him all he did?. The doctor examined her and was happy to announce that Mia was indeed healing and fine but for some reason her leg was slow but the doctor said it's because she doesn't have her wolf but little did they know she did but healing fast would make everyone suspicions, so Snow slowed the healing and Mia was ok with it. The pain in her leg was nothing her mind and heart was feeling. How could Alex be by her side all this time, he did not want her, so why even care she thought. "Mia how do you feel?" Alex asks looking worried.".  "I am fine Alex, go home and rest , you look tired too", I say back but I see he is getting iterated at my statement. "Mia I want to see that you are ok, ok?". "I am Alex and thanks for being here, but really you can go rest too ok we can talk later", I say and he frowns because I think now he gets it, I heard him , I heard his wants and what he said while I was in a semi coma. "Ok I will , only because you ask but I'll be back later ok?" , he answers and I was still a bit drowsy so I just agreed so he can leave to let me breath, it's so hard to have your mate so close and not be able to hold or kiss him like I wanted too, No !! Alex just want to be friends so I just, just chill and think this through first, he wants Melissa so he will most likely reject me and claim her like he always wanted to do. 

My heart is torn because if he wants friendship again it will be on my terms not his, and if he rejects me I will need to leave him and this pack behind . Just as my heart starts to cry the only other boy I ever liked besides Alex steps into my room . Liam hugs me and seems very happy to see me and I felt guilty to like him too, even if it was in a different way then I liked Alex .Liam was a very sexy man and very confident in his body and the way he moved around me, and he was fit as hell but in the back of my head I was still looking for my images of Alex and the way he looked today and the way my wolf Snow was purring in my head while when she saw Liam it was more like retreating to the back of my head. "Mia I'm so happy you are ok love, how do you feel?". He says so sincere. "I'm ok just a bit drowsy still but ok, just my leg that hurts a bit but ok". "What happened, did Alex hurt you or was it Will?". "No they didn't, I was running and I sliped and fell being clumsy , but hey I'm ok , ok!", I say and I see him relaxing a bit. "So what did I miss, you know when sleeping my but of?" I smile . He shakes his head sitting on the bed next to me. "Well your so called bad boy wanted to throw me out the first day, but I would not let him , so he allowed it but only for a few moments every time". He says looking mislabel ."I am so sorry, I don't know what his problem is". "his problem Mia is you are his mate but I cant see this happening, he is hanging on Melissa at this moment , and I heard him say to Will last night he just needs you to wake up, he was bored to be here with you, he needs to go home and get on with things". "O ok I thought he would, I, I think he... wants to reject me for Melissa :Liam". "Sorry Mia but I think so too and if he does then what ?". I say. Let him then , you have me don't you?" he admits to me making me blush and I feel helpless. "Yes I do but I don't think I could stay here Liam not with them around me all the time". "Then you leave with me pretty lady and who knows maybe be part of my pack". As Liam says his words to me I feel relieved that at least it seems he wanted me still and now I know Alex was just nice because he feels he must , that is what a good leader does, helping his pack members and I guess they want too seal the deal too .

 Liam stayed a bit longer, so we ate my lunch and he told me about his training and so I was glad to have him and who knows maybe I can find a second chance mate in him and start fresh too in a new pack. So I lean forward and he does too and so I kiss him slowly and he complies happily holding my head with his one hand while  kissing me back and the moment is still to roar. and then all hell broke loose as soon as Alex steps in  seeing us so close, then ripping Liam from me throwing him to the floor in anger . "No Alex stop it you are hurting him,!!" I shout and luckily the doctor comes in telling Alex to rather leave and Liam too and so he left while Alex stood in the door looking like he wanted to rip him apart and for what, he wanted Melissa not me, I am broken and not Luna material at all to him. 

So I wake up to this ?, to a man that doesn't want me but want me at the same time, o why the hell did I wake up at all, just to be played a fool again and to be used and be the second choice?... "Just leave Alex go to Melissa ok , I want to be alone". I say to him so mad I can ring his neck. "Mia I …..", "No Alex just go away please". As I was done he looked hurt in some way and so he looked at me one final time and left walking out as if he lost the battle, he was shocked because I think this is the first time in my live I ever shouted at him in this tone and I did not even feel bad, I just woke up and my live is already so complicated, why ?, why me?, I think and as I start to cry the sleep invaders me and so I give in to the darkness just to let my mind rest from all this and so I sleep at last.