The Cruel Alpha's Mate!

Feelings And Confessions...

"Stop holding on to what hurts... It's only taking up space from what feels good. Let it go..."

Liam's pov

I am standing in front of the men and the women we had been training yesterday with Mira. 

I came some minutes earlier with James in order to wait for Mira and Cassie to come and prevent them from training the men again. 

Yes, I know I am jealous and James is also jealous of Cassie after last day's incident but I have no problem to admit it and make it clear. They all know that we are mates after all, last day they saw our behavior, some rumors about us have been heard already and after we had s*x last noon we smell differently, I smell like her and she smells like me. I couldn't have been happier that she listened to me and took no bath keeping my scent on her. 

This is a proof she is accepting me gradually and this is a big relief for me (even if she is still too difficult to deal with).

Last night I couldn't sleep, I was thinking of her and what we did the last whole day. 

We had so much fun at the river with our kids and friends, I felt like a real father and a mate back there and Mira was so sweet and cute, okay I know she was a bit nervous but once I touched her she seemed to calm down and enjoying everything. I felt so well when we fell in the river and she landed on top of me. Our connection made my whole body shudder and my heart felt full of love and happiness. I would stay like this forever, she was so cute when she blushed, I wanted to kiss her but Ethan and Angel stopped me.

These kids... My kids!

These kids are adorable, they have stolen my heart already. 

Ethan is such a great boy, he acts like a grown up man. He is taking care of Mira and Angel like I should have been doing. I am very proud of him, I am sure that he is going to make a great Alpha one day. My son is five years old boy that scolds Mira with every chance and makes her soften and take care of herself. I am surprised that Mira is so obedient to him, she is acting like she has no power in front of him, she doesn't want to get him sad and worried.

And then comes my baby girl...

Angel is my little angel! She is just like Mira but she has my eyes' color. This girl is a true angel with all the meaning of the word. Her smile and laughter makes my heart melt and her affection and grace reminds me of Mira when I first met her, she is so humble, pure, kind... I love staring at Angel in my arms, she acts like she knows I am her father and she loves touching me, burying herself in my embrace, caressing my cheeks and hair. I am melting like a crazy dad when I hold her in my arms, I am feeling prouder than ever and she looks like she understands it.

They are both very energetic and smart. Mira did a fantastic job with them, she raised them alone without me and made them happy and strong. The three of them have an extremely strong bond, they take care of each other and no one can separate them. Mira is their greatest strength and they are her biggest weakness. The way Mira is staring at them makes me realize how much she dedicated herself to them. She had to become a mother without me, she replaced me with success and I am glad that her family and Cassie helped her in my place.

This woman is... I can't find the right words to describe her!

Mira is the whole world for me, I am the luckiest bastard she is my mate and the biggest asshole for what I did to her. I think about it all the time and the pain is unbearable. I was so selfish and so arrogant with her. She was not even 18 and she was so patient and strong, she never complained about anything I did to her, she never left me or betrayed me. 

Now I know that everything in my life the last about six years was always about her. My existence, my every breath, my anger, my disappointment, my truculence and pain all these years were about her and her absence from my life. No other woman managed to touch me like her and made me whole!

Mira gave me everything! She gave me my life, my smile, the reason to live and fight with myself to become better. She has given me two amazing kids and her presence gives me life and hope. 

From the moment we slept together I feel like I have become another man, I am asking for her body, I need her love, her heart, her affection, her acceptance. I can't stay away from her, the bond is pulling me straight on her and my body needs hers. 

After I talked with Ryan I feel a bit better, I am grateful to him for his help. Also, April, Cassie, Lily and James are on my side and try to give me chances to stay with her alone.

Last day we had s*x again... 

Well... 

Not exactly, I caused it but I felt her pleasure and need for me. She is jealous just like me and tries to resist me but I am not planning to let her stay away from me. She challenged me yesterday with her behavior, I could feel she wanted it just as much as I did, she was impatient and ready for me. She came too fast and she was very sweet and warm with me in the end, she kissed me so gently with emotion. Her expression when I pulled out of her showed me her feelings, she wants me and her barriers are falling slowly. 

And to be honest I wanted more because I miss her all the time but I followed Ryans advise and tried to act like a strong, independed man.

"Man they are late!" James tells me worried through the link and I gain my thoughts again.

"You are right! What happened to them?"

"You wοn't like it..." Phobos whispers wickedly and I start feeling panicked.

Yes, kill me more now! What is she going to do? She has already made me jealous so...

"My wolf is frustrated Liam." James adds confused after a while and I roll my eyes in frustration.

This is definately a bad sign!

"Mine too." I reply getting ready to say more but I freeze once I take her sweet scent. 

She is here!

"Good morning everyone!" Mira shouts from somewhere behind me and everyone bow with respect.

Some men are staring at somewhere behind me hungrily and some women seem jealous and annoyed so I turn around quickly and open my eyes widely from Mira's appearance. 

Huh?

This woman is playing with my nerves and tries my patience! 

She is wearing black short shorts and a white sports bra with her hair up on a high ponytail and Cassie is wearing something familiar with her but her shorts are not that short like Mira's. 

Both of them are acting like James and I don't exist and stand next to us casually. 

I groan doing my best not to start screaming and feel my range raising while James seems to be in the same state of mind. 

Mira is still challenging me, she ignored my rules and I am running out of patience!

"Okay guys, are you ready? Today we are going to get trained in our wolf form and we will work with partners. My partner for today will be George from Alpha Jeremy's pack and my Beta's will be Milton from the same pack. Girls, Alpha Liam and Beta James will tell you what they want from you, you are dismissed from me!" Mira announces calmly preventing me from doing a thing and at this point I am shaking from anger.

I grab her hand the gentlier I can and pull her some meters away with James doing the same thing to Cassie while she is smirking.

Goddess just help me!

"What are you doing? I was clear last day Mira. I told you two things and you ignored me completely." I say through my teeth.

"You said more than two things..." she says raising her eyebrows wickedly.

"I talked with David, the groups stay as they are! You have the girls and I have the boys and as for my clothes..." she continues but I interrupt her.

"These are not clothes Mira, these are underwears!" I yell as lowly as I can in order not to be heard from everyone.

"I am hot and I think you know very well how my underwears look like..." she whispers smirking challenging me.

"I won't let that i***t touch you or stare at you so obviously hungry for your body. I am your mate and I don't accept it."

"I don't care what you want or allow Liam, I am a free woman, remember?"

"Do you want your punishment that much? Do you want to drive me crazy?" I ask breathless.

"You were always crazy Liam and maybe yes! Maybe I want a punishment and now excuse me but I have a training to attend." She says with audacity and walks away.

I run my hands through my hair and sigh.

My gaze travels on Cassie and James that are still talking in a high tone and they look too angry at each other. 

Damn it!

I am worried about them as well. I know that the girls got jealous yesterday and now they want to pay us with the same thing but I have to think about something quickly, I need to stop this madness!

"Make an announcement in front of everyone, don't let anyone touch my mate!" Phobos screams angry and bingo.

I walk quickly next to Mira and join her side in front of the crowd we have to train. I wrap my hand around her waist casually and she turns and looks at me confused yet speechless. 

I give her a big smile and clear my throat as everyone is staring at me shocked and James with Cassie joins our side obviously distant with each other.

"The plans just changed guys. Alpha Mira and I decided to unite the groups for as long as we think it is necessary so we are going to get trained together. Choose a partner from the opposite gender and get ready. Alpha Mira and I will be the first partners and Beta James and Cassie the second. Once you are done we are starting our training." I say and Mira lets out a low growl annoyed and surprised.

Awesome!

James is smirking devilishly to Cassie who seems as surprised as Mira and Jacob, Mira's father is staring at me speechless. 

I think he likes the way I am dealing with the whole situation, I am not fighting his daughter, I am just catching her off guard. Cilia walks next to Cassie and giggles making Mira look at her angrily while some men are staring at me scared, some smile encouraging me and some women look at Mira with hatred and disgust. 

Looks like they thought that they can deal with the competition and I feel sorry for them! 

Now I know that no one can replace Mira's place in my heart and life and no one can replace me in hers.

I turn and look at her smiling pleased and she groans annoyed but tries to stay calm in front of everyone. I smirk, lean closer to her and caress her bare back slowly.

"Get ready for your punishment love..." I whisper and she lets of a low seductive moan.

This is going to be fun... 

~some time later~

"Alright guys! We are done for today. Well done and keep on trying. See you all tomorrow morning here the same time! Dismissed!" Mira says after they all bow and greet us leaving quickly from the training field.

If I was one time angry with her before now I am two! 

She won me, beated me down in front of everyone and I am officially humiliated. 

I am proud of her, she is my mate, my future Luna but my ego is hurt and I know that this woman is going to be the death of me...

"Sweet death... Isn't she adorable?" Phobos pops out of nowhere and smirks aroused.

"I coundn't agree more with you man. What the f**k is she doing to us?" I ask in frustration.

"She does nothing else than being perfect! I hope you didn't forget her punishment..." he whispers wickedly.

"Of course not! She needs it and she asked for it!" I say and move closer to her wrapping one hand around her waist.

"What do you want now Liam?" she asks me furious.

Nothing is enough for her, really! She won me and now she is still angry?

See? This is my mate so pray for me!

"We need to 'talk'... Come with me." I say and start walking away pulling her with me and I give one last look to James who got Cassie with him at the opposite direction from us.

I hope he has a better luck than me because I am sure that talking or having s*x with Mira is going to be a pain on my ass!

Mira tries to push me away and leave after some seconds but I tighten my hold around her hand and pull her in the woods. I walk too quickly and she tries to free her hand from my hold. I laugh and continue but she stops catching me off guard, pulls me violently on her and grabs my neck with her free hand.

And now she will try to kill me! Fantastic!

"Stop playing with me Liam! Let me walk without touching me, I am not a baby." She screams and pushes me off her.

I lose my patience and reach her again, grab her tightly, place her on my shoulder and start walking again quickly towards the river. 

She is hitting my back with her fists and kicks my stomach like a wild cat screaming and cursing but I love her resistance when I know she won't be able to resist me for too long. 

After some time I reach the place we were last day and place her down on the ground but she stands up immediately and slaps me shaking outraged.

Alright, this hurt, a lot!

"Are you an i***t Holder? Why did you do that back there? What are you trying to do? I didn't want to be a partner with you! You lied in front of everyone, you did it on purpose. Asshole!" she screams and I walk to her and pin her on a tree behind her carefully.

"You asked for it! I warned you that I don't want any other male to touch you, I told you to wear less revealing clothes and you ignored me! I did the least I could in order to fix what your childish behavior caused..." I whisper and place a soft kiss on her neck.

"What do you want from me Liam?" she exclaims frustrated and try to push me off her again.

"I think I made myself pretty clear doll... I want you, end of discussion." I say smirking and hold her tightlier on the tree placing another long kiss on her neck.

She sighs and caresses my cheek softly as I feel her body's muscles relaxing and then I bite her neck gently and she moans aroused.

"Are you ready for your punishment now doll?" I ask in a husky voice and she gasps shaking under my touch.

"Liam... Please! Don't..."

"What baby? You did everything on purpose, didn't you?" I say pulling her hair back making her look at me.

"I don't know why I did it." She whispers breathless and her cheeks get red from embarrassment.

"It's okay... If you don't want to admit it I can wait... But I can't wait for doing what I want..." I say and move my hand pushing it inside her shorts and underwear.

Her core is already wet and once my fingers touch her lower lips she groans and bites her lip closing her eyes. I bury my face in her neck and begin sucking her skin gently with my fingers doing circles above her clit. She wraps her arms around me and whisper my name breathless making me more aroused than I already am.

"You were a bad girl love... But your punishment won't be that rough this time..." I say huskily and she groans trying to move her hips towards me but I stop her with my body and push her shorts and underwear down on her knees.

I kneel in front of her slowly and take them off together and then I stare at her in the eyes and move my hand again between her thighs and at the edge of her core. The moment I touch her sensitive skin she bites her lips and lifts her head back while burying her hands in my hair desperately. I press two fingers in her and she moans loudly so I move closer to her and with my free hand I place her one leg on my shoulder opening the way to her thighs for me. She seems confused from my move and stares at me breathless but I smirk and move my head between her legs making her gasp and I start licking her clit and lower lips slowly while moving my fingers in and out of her. 

She is more aroused now, I feel her walls clenching around my fingers and every second it passes she gets closer to her peak.

"Liam, I need to... I want you. I can't wait any longer!" She screams and I moan with my mouth on her clit.

I pull a bit back and pull my fingers out of her and she lets out a low murmur disappointed making me smirk satisfied. 

I won't leave her like this but I won't give her what she wants either.

"You can come for me babe..." I say and move again between her legs but this time I move a bit back.

I lick her lips and then move on her core. I lick her entrance and she groans shaking above me. I press my tongue slowly in her wet core and she screams like crazy my name and buries her hands in my hair pressing me on her more. I start moving my tongue in and out of her eating her juices and making her lose her breath from the orgasm. 

She is ready, her body is betraying her...

"Liam!" she screams one more time and finally comes with my tongue deeply inside her and my fingers on her clit.

I pull my tongue out and lick her for some more minutes cleaning her up. 

Her legs are still shaking, her breath comes back to normal after some time and her face's expression softens. I pull back, help her take her leg from my shoulder and then I stand up slowly and  crash my lips on hers not very hard or rough and kiss her slowly with passion. She wraps her hands around my neck and I caress her whole body from top to toe.

After some time I break our kiss and touch my forehead on hers with closed eyes.

God! I think I enjoyed it as much as she did! I can't hide my excitement.

"This is the first time I did something like this to a woman... You are the first and the last. You are the one for me!" I whisper rubbing my nose on hers softly.

"Uh Liam... You are killing me..." she murmurs and kisses me shortly one more time.

I pull back again after a while and kneel taking her shorts and underwear from the ground. I help her wear them and take her hand in mine to return back when she stops me.

She has a tired yet dizzy expression and I narrow my eyes worried.

What is happenning?

"I can't move. My legs are still shaking." She explains embarrassed and lowers her head.

Mmm... She is honest and cute, this is what I wanted and how can I deny to be her knight now?!

"Come here." I say and take her in my arms carrying her back to the palace in bridal style.

She wraps her arms around me and buries her face in my neck taking my scent. I don't know what to say, I feel relieved but something is missing... 

I know she feels the same way but her distance and her logical thought is killing me. I need her completely mine and I am not sure if she is going to accept me soon.

What if she rejects me in the end?

~some hours later, night, palace~

Mira's pov

I am sitting with Cassie and Lily in my room! It is quite late at night and some time ago we took our dinner. 

Ethan and Angel wanted to sleep with my parents today and I gave them permission to stay there the night becauseI am really confused and troubled with...

Liam!

"Oh, come on you two. Stop being so stubborn! I feel sorry for them." Lily murmurs in frustration.

"I am not stubborn damn it. Stop defending them!" I shout annoyed.

"You have problem with James too now?!" she exclaims surprised.

"No i***t! I agree with you when it comes to James but it is not the same for Liam."

"Thanks God! There is still a bit brain inside your f*****g head cousin."

"Don't talk to me like this! What am I suppose to do? Accept Liam and forget everything? I am sorry but I can't, it still f*****g hurts!" I scream overwhelmed.

"Shut up both of you!" Cassie shouts ready to cry and Lily and I freeze.

What the f**k now?

"James asked to mark me today and I didn't know what to say!" She continues without giving us time to react and I blink my eyes surprised.

"What?" Lily and I exclaim in union shocked.

"Are you an i***t Cas? Why do you keep him away? He has been always being the nice one between them! He deserves a chance, he won't screw it up!" I say and Lily nods.

"I know but I got so jealous yesterday and today I wanted to make him feel the same way and I did and he seemed so angry... I thought he asked it in frustration and he doesn't mean it. I don't want to please his egoism because he wants me stuck with him."

"You are the stupidest woman there is Cas! He is thinking about marking you from the first day he saw you and I know it for sure. He was jealous, yes, but he really meant it. Accept him damn it!" I reply and shake her arm gently.

"Are you sure? Today both of them were really angry and jealous... I was afraid of someone's anger for the first time. When Liam came and took you with him James did the same with me, we talked and he was in a such a bad mood. He said that I was acting like a child."

"You did!" I hiss coldly.

"Hey! It was your idea!" She screams and jumps up annoyed.

"The hell it was! I had the idea to tease them yesterday, today it was your decision to wear what you wore and choose Milton as your partner. I warned you that you are pushing it and you ignored me." I yell and throw her a pillow.

She starts crying almost immediately and I stand up and walk to her quickly with Lily behind me.

I was expecting such a reaction this time! 

I pull her in my arms and caress her back as she is crying and then I turn and look at Lily thoughtfully and she seems to understand me. 

We have to help her!

Lily just nods her head seriously, we put Cassie to sit on my bed and I quickly leave to find James. 

This madness with them stops now! 

I walk heading to his room, reach out of it after a while and knock the door without taking any respond. I knock again a bit louder but still nothing. 

He is not here and I know the place he must be... He is surely with Liam in his room and I take a deep breath and walk one door before his room.

I am going to see him but anyway...

Okay Mira! Do it for Cassie!

I take another really deep breath and gain my strength so I raise my hand and knock the door shaking. Some seconds pass and the door opens with a surprised and speechless Liam standing in front of me.

"Mira?" he says breathless ready to smile and I feel my cheeks burning from embarrassment.

This is what I wanted to avoid!

"Is James here?" I tremble awkwardly and his smile freezes.

"Um... Yeah!" he murmurs while lowering his head and signs for pass inside.

I get in with small timid steps and James walks to me worried like he knows...

"Mira what is wrong?"

"Look, I shouldn't be doing this but I can't sit and watch Cas crying and I am tired from your fears. She told me you want to mark her. She is confused and she needs answers. I think you need them as well so come with me, take her with you and solve the whole thing once and for all." I say awkwardly feeling Liam's eyes on me.

"Is she crying?" James repeats hurt unable to believe it.

"Yes. So will you come with me?" I ask impatiently.

"Of course. Thank you Mira. You are saving me, I am a mess all these hours."

"I can imagine. Follow me, she is in my room." I say and walk out of the room quickly without looking or talking to Liam.

James follows me in hurry, we reach my room and get in together without knocking to find Cassie shaking in Lily's arms with watery eyes. Once they see each other James rushes on her side, takes her in his arms gently with a painful expression and Lily smiles to me relieved.

"Babe, can we talk?" James asks Cassie softly and she nods quickly.

She gets up slowly, he takes her hand in his, they walk to the door, stop on my side and smile at me thankfully.

"Thank you Alpha... And... I think you should have a revealing conversation with your mate too. You two are worse than us..." James whispers worried.

I nod unwillingly, Cas gives me a quick kiss on the check smiling warmly and they get out of the room together while I close the door sad and broken. 

I walk again back to my bed and lie down ready to cry while Lily comes next to me and wraps one arm around me.

"He is right baby... I know Liam was the biggest asshole and a monster back then but... He has changed Mira. He loves you very much, he adores your kids. He is so patient and caring. I know what he did today, Cilia told me. He acted so wisely, he didn't want to fight you or lose the battle in front of everyone. He wanted no other man to touch you and he found the best plan, he acted very maturely."

"I am mad!" I whisper sighing.

"With him?"

"With me, him, us, the past, my heart, my body."

"You are still crazy for him." she murmurs and I nod.

"I always was, I was just pushing all these feelings away from me all these years. I wanted to convince myself that I hate him but now I can't. He is my heart and he is killing me from the first day we met." I say and start crying softly.

"Oh, baby! Don't be afraid. He loves you too, he admits it, he will never take it back. Talk to him, explain yourself. Both of you deserve a second chance. Think about Ethan and Angel, they need their father."

"I know. They adore him already, you know what they told us yesterday... I was ready to pass out." I whisper sniffling.

"Yes cousin, I know. Don't keep yourself away from the one you love. We all see the love between you. He is another Liam and if you see that he can't make you happy later just end it but give him one last chance!"

"I will think about it. Thank you Lily. I love you!" I reply and she kisses my forehead giggling.

"Okay, I have to go now. Try to calm down and think about it. If you need anything come to me. I love you too!" she says softly, gets up and leaves my room.

I get up unwillingly, change my clothes and wear a long, dark blue nightdress with lace. I head to the bathroom, wash my teeth, face and brush my hair. and once I am done, I walk back to bed and jump on heavily.

"Talk to him!" Moira whispers calmly.

"And tell him what?"

"Everything! The reasons you are so hurt. The reason you took the decision to get out that night. How long are you going to keep it as a secret? It has been more than five years already."

"He will think I am a weak, silly woman." I cry out desperate.

"You will face the past, yours or better our fears. Make a move to help him understand our side."

"How are you doing this? You are so close to convince me..." I ask nervously and she chuckles.

"You can punish him too before you talk you know... He needs a punishment for today's occurrences." she continues wickedly and I open my eyes widely.

"Stop making me horny!" I yell and try to push away some images from what he did to me back at the river today.

"Make the same to him..."

"You know this is going to be difficult for me after what I saw that day... I mean..."

"No Mira! Stop it! You are a strong Alpha and a mother. If you want you can make it happen. After you are done with him explain yourself and see his behavior after." she shouts and I stiffen thoughtfully but some seconds later...

I take one deep breath and jump up frustrated.

"I will do it!" I state with confidence.

"That's my girl! Now go, don't waste more time!" she howls encouragingly and I get out of the room quickly.

I run to his room and stop nervous yet  breathless in front of his door. I get ready, put my thoughts in a queue, knock his door and he opens it almost immediately and stares at me obviously unprepared. 

He seems too surprised to even talk.

"May I?" I whisper shaking from nervousness and he nods slowly.

He lets me get in and closes the door but I turn and lock it without giving him time to react

"What is going on? Are Ethan and Angel alright?" he asks worried.

"Shh!" I whisper and pin him on the wall behind him.

"Mira?" he whisper shocked.

"I like the fact that you are wearing only trousers, it makes your punishment easier for me." I tell him seductively, lean on his neck and kiss him softly.

"Punishment? What punishment?" he asks breathless almost trembling.

I smirk and crash my lips on his with power. We start kissing hungrily with passion, he is a bit confused at the beginning but after some seconds he takes full control over our kiss and I groan annoyed. I move my hands down on his trouser and rub his manhood under the fabric. He moans in my mouth surprised and I feel him getting hander in my hand from arousal and I break the kiss smiling wickedly. 

He has the funniest expression I have ever seen, he is way too astonished and I slowly kneel in front of him, pull his trousers and then his boxers down on his ankles.

"Next time you plan on playing with me think wiser." I whisper smiling devilishly and he nods a bit lost.

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I am still resting my head on his stomach and we stay like this for some more time. 

I am happy, I feel good, it is the first time I am doing something like this and to be honest I had never imagined I would take a blowjob and enjoy it like I did. 

And right now I want to cry and leave but my heart and body don't want to listen to me.

"Love? Are you alright?" he asks me worried and kneels in front of me as well.

I don't reply, I just stare at him without saying a thing, his expression shows wary and affection and some seconds later he smiles softly and kisses me on the lips gently. 

Soon he deepens the kiss and presses his tongue in my mouth softly making me moan. He suddenly wraps his arms around me, helps me stand up, breaks our kiss and carries me in bridal style to his bed. He places me down in the center of it, lays next to me and covers both of us with some blankets. 

I sigh burying my face in his neck and wrap one hand around his waist while he turns his whole body to mine and pulls me in his embrace.

"What is wrong baby? Did I do anything wrong? I didn't want to pressure. I just..." he begins but I place some fingers on his mouth and stop him.

"No, it is not that. You did nothing wrong now... I have to tell you... So many things and I..." I say and stop as I feel some tears making their appearance on my eyes.

I need to make some confessions and it hurts, no one knew about these. Only me, Moira and... 

I take a deep breath and he wipes my tears with wary and pain in his eyes but fortunately he says nothing, he is still waiting.

"That night... That night I decided to go out and have some fun because... I have been receiving some photos for some weeks and I..." I say and pause shaking and he stiffens nervously.

"These photos were about you sleeping with other women, the last one I received that night was about you and one blonde woman who was kneeled in front of you. I couldn't take it anymore. I was afraid of you but I wanted to get out of my prison and take some air." I whisper and he stays frozen staring at me.

"What do you mean? Who did this? Why didn't you tell me?" he asks me with a breaking voice some seconds later and I shake my head confused.

"I thought you were behind this. You hated me so much and I was sure it was one more of your ways to hurt me." I whisper and he pulls me even closer to him and kisses my forehead. 

I feel better almost immediately, the pain is already less than it was some minutes ago.

What a big help is a kiss from him!?

"I was a true monster but I would have never made anything like this Mira. You should have told me." he says after a while and I lower my gaze nervously.

"I was afraid. That night I didn't want to go out at first but then I changed my mind. I needed to leave that room for a while and Lily and Cassie was pressuring me that much and I..."

"You don't have to explain more my love. I understand. I was a monster, everything was my own fault."

"It hurts and I am still afraid. What if you change your mind and decide you don't want me and our kids one day Liam?" I ask breathless doing my best not to cry but in vain.

My heart breaks even in the thought and I can't control myself.

He lifts my head up to face him and I see tears falling from his eyes. He looks to be in so much pain and it is breaking my heart!

"I will never change my mind again. You are my whole life now. I can't live without you, I don't want to. All I need is you and our kids." he says and caresses my cheek.

"I want to trust you. I really do, it's just that..." I start but he places one finger on my lips and I stop.

"Take your time. We will make slow steady steps. We have all the time we want in front of us. I can wait for you for an eternity."he states with...

Determination!?

"Are you sure?" I ask worried.

"Absolutely my love. And I promise you, I will find who was behind these photos. I will find out everything. Whoever he is he is going to pay." he says and I smile emotional.

"Liam, I..." I start but pause again.

I want to say I love him because I know I do but my fears are stopping me again... He Seems to read my thoughts as smiles in understanding and kisses my nose giggling.

"I love you too Mira. More than anything and everyone." He whispers and I blink my eyes surprised ready to burst into sobs.

Am I dreaming?

It is the first time he is telling me he loves me! 

I was trying to imagine it for so many years in my dreams and now everything came true. 

I sniffle caressing his cheek and bury my face in his neck again closing my eyes and he places soft long kisses on the top of my head.

"Sleep love. I am here now. Everything is going to be alright, I promise." He assures me and I nod.

"I love you." He whispers again and I fall asleep in the most peaceful sleep I have ever had.

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Hello my friends!

This is the 10th chapter after some days of delay and I am sorry but I had lots of things to do (and chapter to write)!

Now I am back, I left one hot scene in this chapter but I decided to skip the second one a lot because I don't feel so comfortable with it anymore (I have no idea why, really)!

So what do you think of this chapter? Did you like Laim's behavior? What about James and Cassie? How about Mira and the revealing about the photos she has been receiving? 

Also what is going to happen next now? Is Liam going to find out who is hiding behind the photos? 

Also if you liked this chapter and you want more please write me a comment and tell me your opinion or even share the story! 

This is for now! See you again in the next chapter or in one of my other books or even this one if you want another chapter so much! Until next time have fun, be safe and smile!

Love you all,

                             Marie!