The Cruel Alpha's Mate!

When Everything Started...

Hello everyone!

I want to officially welcome you, thank you for being here!

I am writing this (14th of May 2020) because I saw something that pissed me off, hurt me and I feel the need to share it with you and this is a chance to tell some general things about me and my books! 

I added this note at the beginning of this book (there is some chapters later as well) but I was asking from the readers to read it before and few did so I decided to add it all here because there are many things you need to know! I am sorry from now if anything I say next seems rude (I am not trying to be mean, I never do this because I have been treated this way and I know how it feels like).

So, this note is here today (and any other day you are reading this) because of an answer on a comment and I have to say I am shaking and I don't understand the hatred and the reason to lie later from the person that did it!

I want to make some things clear in this book as well as I did to my other two books you certainly know, His Rejected 'Queen' and Alpha's Abused Mate!

So, I read two comments in another book about two days ago (I am not very sure), they were in two chapters! These comments had to do: 1) with the lovey moments and 2) with the characters and 3) she used hard language and I guess this is why Dreame made her comment already invisible but I have reported her to make sure this app knows what is happening! The 'reader' had problem with these and I found her way rude or even aggressive and I replied saying that she can stop reading if she doesn't like it so much or maybe write her own stories and things got out of control! I won't say something else because she used a charactirization for me! I had to ignore the comments because this costed me my peace and it is not worthy of my attention but we all make mistakes, I just won't do it again!

For this let me explain some things generally for everyone (I am not saying you are like her but I think I have to put this note to every book of mine just to inform you about some things) because I can't hide the fact that I am shaking right now and she frustrated me (yes, I am doing her the honor of admitting it!).

First of all, as for my plots and characters, I have to say only one thing: I am the writer and I decide (logical I think), it's my imagination and if I want them to cry for example or anything else I am going to put them crying! If someone does not agree that much and it is annoying or tiring or anything else, he can easily stop reading the book! I never said my plots are perfect or right because we are all different with different standards and this is why nobody is forcing us to read something we do not like! It's so simple! I don't think I am saying something crazy, offensive or so difficult to imagine and think on our own! I want to pass some messages through my stories but if you want to know about it, you have to wait until the end and you are not forced to agree (obviously)!

Also, he can write his own stories! I tottally mean it, he can do something creative instead if nagging and complaining or being aggressive! I love reading comments with your opinion even if you disagree but have manners and don't be rude because we are somehow talking in public in here!

And last but not least... I saw some comments with some people saying that they read the first 8 chapters (some read more but again they went straight to the epilogue and it made no difference, believe me) and then read the epilogue immediately (yes, the skipped exactly 32 chapters) and then they commended  and tried to shake their finger to me and tell me about my plot! I don't know how it sounds generally but to me it sounds at least stupid! I am sorry but this is the truth, this is not clever, they are trying to expose me but in fact they are exposing themselves because nobody can open his mouth to judge when he has read the 28% of the book! Am I so crazy? I don't think so! I am going to be honest, these kind of 'readers' are just impatient to reach to a quick, easy conclusion and say their bitterness and I think I am going to disappoint them because I am not getting sad at all, in fact I am laughing with these kind of things! I know my plots better than anyone and nobody can fool me by doing this! When somebody wants to judge, he has to read all the book (I am sorry if they are bored to do this, they can stop reading it completely in that case, thank you) because when we want to talk about something we need to know everything (logical, right?)!

Secondly, about my english, grammar and everything! I think we are not born all Americans or Britishs! I am Greek and this is what I can do! If someone doesn't like it or wants better and perfect things, he can stop reading my stories, I am saying it again and I will be happy if he finds something better! 

Why so much hatred when some do not like something!? I don't know!

Also, my books are for free and maybe this is the problem! Some think that they can do anything they want and be disrespectful exactly because it is free and I decided it! The app suggested me to sign a contract four times and I never did it! Imagine what would have happened if I had agreed to sign a contract for my books, they would have killed me I guess!

I had no idea of some being so disrespectful in here! Reading and writing are supposed to help us and not make us lose our humanity or manners but this counts only if we have!

Also, I want to say that I have been getting bullied, some called me 'sick', some problematic and many other things because of some of my plots in my books and one of these books is this one! Honestly, it was hurting me a lot at the beginning but not anymore and I won't delete my books because of them, because this is what they are trying to do! I think that people that in public dare to say all these charactirizations for anybody are not worth of my time! They just want to say their bitterness because they just don't agree and they willingly forget that my books have an explanation in the end! I want to thank them for their charactirizations but I am going to disappoint them because my mental health is prefectly fine! You see, I had depression for years and I went to a doctor to deal with it and I did it easily, so as you understand all those that say so 'heavy', offensive things are just offending themselves and not me! I feel sorry for them because they do not have the basic manners and logic, they are nothing else than mean and allow me to say that they are not here to read, they are here to release their anger, hatred and bitterness! So, we thank them for giving us the worst example there is and reminding us how rude people look like! 

I think most of you that read my stories or have seen my profile know I am sensitive and this is probably why I am writing because it helps me forget my problems or the reasons and conditions that hurt me and this is why this 'incident' affected me so much in order to write a note only because of it!

And last but not least, I want to thank you all, all, all! I know I am not answering sometimes (I won't answer to the rude ones, I am informing you from now) but I am really trying and I am reading all of your comments and it's an honor for me everything you say! Thank you for standing on me even from just an app because I feel your love and support although we can't see each other!

I won't stop writing because I feel good to know that so many people are really enjoying my stories! I love making people happy because I know how it feels like to be miserable dealing with problems and losses or anything else, we all have our own problems!

You are all the best no matter if we agree or not as for my story lines because you are all unique on your own way! This is the world's magic and our power but we have to believe it and I began believing more in me from the moment I began writing and I met you!

So, this is it!

I love you, I adore you and feel happy I have you!

Now you can read the first chapter (I wish you didn't skipped this note, seriously)!

Love you all,

                Marie!

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"You can move on only if you accept that it is over..."

Mira's pov

"Mira are you ready? They are all down waiting for you." Cassie shouts and knocks my door nervously.

I sigh and look myself at the mirror again.

Ι am wearing a short, black leather, narrow dress, black high heels and I have a simple makeup with a black mascara, eyeliner and a dark red matte lipstick while my chocolate brown hair is down in big curls.

How did I agree in this?

How am I going to stay calm with that monster there?

I take a deep breath again, it's the tenth in less than a minute but nothing is helping.

Why?

"Because he is our mate?" Moira, my wolf tells me sarcastically and I groan annoyed.

"He was our mate! He is not anymore and he will never be again." I correct her frustrated.

"And because he is the father of Ethan and Angel... As much as I hate it he is..." She continues and I growl.

If I could punch her believe me I would!

"He is not my children's father. My children are only mine." I say through my teeth and my hands turn into fists.

"Our pups. You are not alone you know!" Moira growls me and I nod sighing.

"Alpha open the door! We are all waiting for you. You will be late." Cassie yells again and I rush to open to her.

"What do you want Cas?" I ask when I open the door and she gets in my room.

"You are nervous, aren't you? Are you afraid of meeting him again?" She asks me worried.

"I am not afraid of anyone Beta. I just don't want to see him. Unfortunately I have to." I explain but it seems I can't convince her.

"Mira why don't you just accept your feelings? I know it is hard for you but you are not helping yourself like this." she says and I roll my eyes angry.

"Says the one who wants to stay here to avoid James. Are you kidding me?" I yell and I start going up and down in my room nervously.

"I am not ready to face him yet Mira. If you needed me I would come but you also need me here so please don't talk about it now. Please!" She begs me with a sad expression and I exhale disappointed.

We sit together on my bed and hug each other.

We have spent so many things together. We were always next to each other in everything. We were even rejected the same night, we left our old pack together, we got trained together, we are together and best friends since childhood. I feel her pain and she feels mine!

"If you need anything please inform me and I will come immediately. You know I love you, right?" she asks me softly and I nod.

"Are you nervous about Angel and Ethan?" she asks and I take a deep breath scared.

"Yes, what if he tries to take them away from me Cas? What if he wants them?" I wonder and she caresses my back gently.

"You won't let him. No one will. We will all stand by your side and we will stop him." She assures me and smiles encouragingly.

"You are not the girl you used to be five years ago. You are not the girl he was abusing and raped back at the private college Mira. You are strong and believe me I am more afraid of your reaction than his now." She adds and I shake my head confused.

"I thought the old Mira was dead but today it's the first time I am afraid she is still somewhere inside me alive. I don't know what I am going to do, really." I confess and she stares at me concerned.

"Don't think about it now baby! You will have your father, April, Harper, Oliver and your best fighters with you. Not to mention that you are going to meet our old pack and families there. We missed them, you will finally see them again, just make me a favor and tell my parents and brother to come and see me, okay?" She says and I nod smiling.

"Yes you are right. So is everyone ready?" I ask her.

"Of course Alpha. They are all waiting for you at the parking lot. Ethan and Angel are very excited." She says and I sign to follow me downstairs and outside the pack house.

I get out of the house and find my father waiting for me, he looks worried...

I walk to his side and give him a small smile. He pulls me in his arms and I bury my face in his chest like a little girl. I adore this man, I want to replace all the lost time the last five years I have found him.

"Are you alright Alpha Mira?" he teases me and I giggle.

"I am fine Alpha Jacob. I am your daughter and Alpha of the Silver Moon Pack, what did you think?" I ask him wickedly and we smirk to each other.

"Your father is here! This bastard will never touch you or my grandchildren as long I am alive. So head up and be strong like always, yes?" he whispers and I can see how much he means his every word.

He is right, Cassie is right! I can't be scared when I have them!

"Mom! Come on, we will be late!" My children shout and run to me.

And here they are!

My two twins, my stars, my little angels, the two reasons I live and breathe, the reason I smile and stay strong all these years!

Angel is some minutes older from Ethan. She has my chocolate brown hair, my full lips, my nose, my face but her father's eyes, they are big and light blue.

Ethan from the other side has his father's hair which is dark brown almost black, his nose, his face and my light green eyes.

They are tall for their age and very energetic.

They come and hug me tightly. They giggle happily, they don't know about him, I never told them and I don't want to.

They are the best thing that has ever happened to me but the way it happened was the worst.

I still can't get over it and some nights I jump up from my sleep panicked.

"We are leaving now my loves! Say bye to aunt Cassie and the others." I say and after we all say goodbye I get in my car with Angel and Ethan, I help them put on their belts and when I am done I take my sit and turn it on.

Everyone else gets in their cars and we start our way to the palace when we are going to meet with the King and some packs.

One of these packs is my old pack, the Greenwood Pack and one other is my 'mate's' pack, the Bloody Killer's Pack.

If our King wasn't so persistent I would have never agreed to go but he needs our help with some problems he has and I can't refuse to help him.

Damn it!

I take a deep breath and get focused on the road thinking about the past.

So, let me tell you how everything started...

~five years ago~

"Come on cousin, get a life, in two days you are turning 18! Let's go out for clubbing for once." Lily my cousin and second child of my Alphas begs me.

My name is Mira Anderson and in two days I am turning 18. I am the next Beta of my pack. I have a younger brother who is 15 years old and his name is Paul. My parents, Zoey and Ryan are the Betas of my pack and my mother is the sister of the Alpha. She has alpha's blood in her but when she met my father, her mate she accepted to become a Beta, she loves him a lot!

Anyway...

I have long chocolate brown hair, light green eyes and full lips. I have a regular height and some curves but I am not fat, I like my body and who I am. My wolf is Moira and she is a great companion for me, I love her very much.

I am lucky, I have a great pack and family. My uncle and Alpha of the pack is Nolan and my aunt and Luna is Hannah. They have a son who is 19 years old, my cousin Colton and a 17 years old daughter, my cousin Lily. We have a very strong bond and we love each other very much. I also have many friends. My most trusted ones are Cassie the future Gamma, who is 17 years old too and Dominic, my cousin's best friend and the next Delta who is 19 years old just like Colton.

Some months ago I came with Lily and Cassie at a private college in order to get trained for our future duties. Our studies last for only one year so in less than 5 months we will leave back to our pack and Cassie and I will become Gamma and Beta next to Colton. I was really happy when I came here some months ago but my enthusiasm changed when I met Liam.

Liam is my mate, he is 25 years old and the cruelest Alpha there is. He is very tall, with muscles, strong arms and hard body with six pack, dark brown almost black hair, light big blue eyes and he has a scar on his left eyebrow from a fight. His pack is the most fearful and the cruelest there is and it's very strong with a big number of pack members. He came here for one year too as a trainer. He trains us in our human form as we will shift on our 18th birthday.

Fortunately for me, I will change the group I am training in three days and I will move in another one in which everyone gets trained in his wolf form.

Lots of you will ask me why I am so happy about it... Well...

It's because Liam may be my mate but he hates me, he says I am disgusting, fat, weak, pathetic, worthless and ugly.

From the moment we met and we understood we are mates he is abusing me. He bites me, punches me, kicks me, insults me and threatens me all the time in every chance he has. He is sleeping with other girls but I don't feel any pain physically as he hasn't marked me or mated with me. He is the reason I have lost my happiness and I want to stay locked in my room. I avoid him and try to stay away from him as much as I can.

Cassie and Lily are the only persons I told everything and they are standing by my side all the time. They promised they will keep it as a secret and I feel relieved because if anyone else finds it out Liam will kill me and everyone else related.

"Come on Mira, she is right! Forget about the jerk and come have some fun! Please!" Cassie pleads me and I agree unwillingly.

"Okay but please don't push it too far, okay? He mustn't find out anything." I say and they nod.

Liam might not want me but he warned me to stay away from any other male. He is the only one that can touch me or lay his eyes on me, that's what he says every time he hits me. I am not having a lot male friends as you can imagine, I try to stay away from some friends I have from some other packs who are here with us and we know them since childhood.

"Great! We will come to take you at 10 o'clock at night. Get ready and wait for us, okay?" Lily yells excited and Cassie joins her.

I nod biting my lower lip nervously and they leave my room some seconds later.

I have an awful feeling but I do my best to forget about it.

I have to get ready...

~some hours later, night, club~

"Come on, you look great, relax silly!" Cassie shouts near my ear as we sit on our table at the club.

I am wearing a dark red narrow dress which reaches my knees and a pair of black heels. I made a simple makeup and I left my hair down in big waves.

I feel some pairs of eyes on me and I stiffen on my sit awkward. If Liam finds out he will kill me immediately.

I spot Cooper the next Alpha of the Full Moon Pack who is 19 years old and a friend of us walking towards our table. He says hi and joins us sitting next to me. He places his hand on my back and we start a small chat about the college and his training lessons in which I will join him in few days.

We have a great time, we laugh and after some minutes he asks me to dance with him a ballad song. I agree after some seconds thinking about it, I have to say I have a bad feeling but Cooper is very kind and caring with me all these months even if I keep avoiding everyone.

He leads me on the dance floor and wraps his arms around my waist gently and Moira is purring, he likes him a lot, she thinks he is sweet and kindhearted.

We continue dancing like this for some more minutes and some more songs when Moira starts growling warning me about something.

I turn my head and find Cassie and Lily running to me panicked almost shaking.

The strong well known scent hits my nose and I instantly open my eyes widely and start looking around me panicked, Liam...

Liam is here, he is close!

I pull away from Cooper who looks at me confused and with concern.

I try to tell him to leave but a strong arm grabs me back and I hit on a hard body. The scent of chocolate and caramel makes me dizzy and the sparks I feel are making my skin shudder.

I gasp in shock and spontaneously I start shaking from fear.

Moira is screaming for me to run but I can't leave from his hold. Liam lets out a loud, deep warning growl, places me on his arms and rushes outside from the club quickly.

I hear Lily, Cassie and Cooper calling my name panicked, I manage to take a look of them and I see a tall, dark blonde man stepping in front of them and preventing them from following us. I scream and hit Liam to let go of me but he ignores me. He walks to his car, unlocks it, opens the driver's passenger door and throws me inside violently. I hit my hit on the car dashboard and let out a loud cry. Liam gets in the drivers' sit and he quickly turns the car on and drives back to the college.

He is not talking, he is breathing quickly and harshly, he is shaking from anger and I am shaking from fear. His jaw is clenching and I can see some veins on his neck from his body's tension while Moira is howling frustrated. She is strong and proud, she hates his behavior all these months and now she says she had enough!

I close my eyes and I feel tears falling from them. I want to calm down but I can't, his presence is always making me scared.

We reach back to the college in silence after some minutes! He gets out of the car, comes to my side, opens my door and places me on his shoulder, again. He locks the car and walks quickly to my room! The corridors are empty, everyone is either sleeping or having fun outside.

He reaches my room, unlocks my door with his own keys because he has his own to check on me all the time and gets in my room. He throws me on my bed with force, bangs my door and locks it. I quickly sit up and curl into a ball at the head of my bed scared!

This is going to be my end, he will kill me!

He walks quickly to me, grabs my arms and pulls me on him roughly, he hurts me and I let out a loud cry. He slaps me with force and pushes me on the bed.

His eyes are black, his face is red from anger and he is holding his breath frustrated.

"What did I tell you?" he screams and slaps me again.

"I was clear, you are mine even you like it or not, even I want you or not. YOU.ARE.MINE!" He screams and rips my dress into pieces without giving me time to fight with at first.

I try to get away from him once I realize what is happening and push him away from me but he is too strong and I can't.

He slaps me one more time making me a bit dizzy dizzy and with one move he rips my black panties with lace into pieces too. I let out a scream but he places his hand on my mouth and stops me violently.

"Do you like to be a slut? Fine, you will be one but you will be my slut!" He screams, unzips his trousers' zipper and leaves his trouser and boxers fall down on his knees.

He spreads my legs apart fighting my sudden resistance and slaps me one more time with more power than before. I get dizzy for sure now, I lose my strength and stop moving...

~some time later~

He is trying to catch his breath and my sobs get louder than before.  

He marked me!

Liam marked me and...

Raped me...

I feel so... I can't even find the right words...

"You were a nice slut for a virgin mate..." he whispers in a husky tone and I get mad in a second.

His words wake up my anger!

I gain all the power I have left and push him off me, he loses his balance and falls on the floor. I sit up quickly with difficulty because of the pain! My thighs are killing me, I have blood between my legs, on my neck, my arms and shoulders and I am sure my face is not in a better condition.

Moira is howling in pain. She was asking from me to fight him before even if she knew I couldn't and now she is begging me to run away from him afraid about my life.

I move back on the head of my bed again and cover myself with a blanket while Liam gets up angry and stares at me in the eyes.

"I, Liam Holder, Alpha of the Bloody Killer's Pack, reject you, Mira Anderson from the Greenwood Pack as my mate and future Luna." He says with hatred and disgust and starts getting dressed.

I close my eyes as the pain hits my heart and travels all over my body.

I won't cry, I won't show him he is right. I will stay strong until he leaves or kills me.

"Did you really believe I was feeling anything for you? How could I? I need a strong woman, an alpha to give me heirs! And you are a worthless and useless Beta. You are ugly, weak, fat, stupid. You don't deserve anything. I hate you and you disgust me. I will let you live only to have you suffering from now on every time I sleep with someone else. I will leave for about three weeks, when I come back we will have a small talk again, after you leave from this college I don't want to see you again in front of me. I hate you." He says and gets out of my room banging the door behind him and leaving me alone in pain.

"Stay strong Mira, I am here for you. We are together, we will leave and never see him again. He won't harm us again. Be patient and strong please." Moira pleads me and I break into sobbing.

He did it! He just killed me, he...

"Mira!" I hear Lily and Cassie scream and my door opens widely and they rush to me panicked.

They freeze once they see my face, my ripped clothes, the blood on me and my sheets and gasp shocked.

Once they realize what happened some seconds later they run to me hug me tightly and start crying with me loudly.

I can't breathe anymore, I just want to die!

The pain is unbearable.

I feel Cassie crying harder than before and I stop and stare at her worried, something happened to her, her eyes...

Her expression...

"His Beta, James... He is my mate and rejected me some minutes ago back at the club." She shouts in desperation and I gasp in shock.

No!

I hug her more than before and we continue crying for some more minutes that seem like a century.

We steadily calmed down a bit and Lily pulled us in her arms softly.

"Both of you are going back home and this is final. I won't let anyone harm you again, you are my sisters! You are not coming back here. I will talk to everyone. We are leaving tomorrow morning." She says and we nod in agreement.

"We will help you take a warm bath baby. It will help with your bleeding, we can call the doctor if you want." Cassie suggests me gently but I refuse.

"I don't want anyone else to know. Only our parents and brothers will learn about it but not Liam's identity. I will surely need your help to make it to the bathroom although. The pain is killing me. Am I clear about Liam?" I ask and they not sadly.

Tomorrow...

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Hello everyone, glad to see you here!

Welcome to my forth book called 'The Cruel Alpha's Mate.' and let the story of Mira and Liam begin!

I am excited because I love this book very much and I am looking forward to know your opinions and thoughts about the first chapter and what do you believe it is going to happen in the next one! 

As you see the story begins about five years after everything started and now Mira is not alone or a Beta... Liam seems to be a monster, right? They are going to meet each other and... They have to kids that Liam knows nothing about! So what is going to happen? And their past... We don't know so many things about it... So? What do you think?

If you liked this chapter and you want more please write me a comment and tell me your opinion or even share the story! 

This is for now! See you again in the next chapter or in one of my other books (there are three more for those that don't know it yet) or even this one if you want another chapter so much! Until next time have fun, be safe and smile!

Love you all,

                             Marie!