His Repudiated Luna

Distraught

*Valerie*

I dabbed at my flowing tears gently after what seemed like hours. I never expected Adam to be cool with the news about our s*x resulting in the twins but I also didn't expect this reaction from him.

He just yelled at me for not telling it to him earlier and I couldn't help but just feel hurt. I also pretended not to see the hurt on his face when I broke the news to him.

Well, I didn't expect any of it. The worst I ever expected his reaction to be was me being so daft to not use protection. I thought he'd insult me for getting pregnant, I thought he would behave nonchalantly to the news but this was completely different.

Now I don't even know what to do, I don't know if I should go after him or just stay here and cry my eyes out. I'm confused! And I truly hope my boys are okay.

The thought of them made my eyes well up with more tears. What if they refused to eat anything given to them? What if they've been starving since the day before?

What if they fall sick because of the change in environment? All these thoughts made me shed more tears. I don't need all these reactions from Adam. I only need him to tell me his decision, whether he'll help me find them or… not.

I heard the door flip open and I quickly cleaned my tears off.

"I'm sorry for how Adam reacted to you, Valerie" I heard the awfully familiar voice and I felt the sudden urge to take off my heels and create a beautiful hole in her face.

"Why are you apologizing on his behalf? Who are you to do that?" I found myself asking, hatred fully cloaking my voice.

"I'm his Luna, his second in command, the closest to him in this pack and that's why I could apologize on his behalf" Analisse replied and I fisted my hands tightly against my lap.

"I don't want your presence in this office.. I don't need your apology, either. If any apology should be needed, it should be from Adam , the Alpha and not you, Analisse" I replied hotly and she let out a sigh.

"I don't mean any harm, Val. I wasn't here when you guys were talking, I don't know how he even reacted to you… but seeing how mad he was when he left the office now, I just thought you might need an apology" Analisse muttered with a frown and I couldn't help but scoff.

Does she still have the guts to talk to me? "Can you please just leave me to my problems? I don't need your damn apology. Don't you get that? Is your brain too dumb to understand that?" I yelled in frustration and she let out a sigh.

It's obvious she's trying not to get mad. She is obviously trying to stay calm with me… she's trying hard to be rational about the situation, but I didn't need that.

Seeing her makes me want to forgive her and let her give me an explanation… or an excuse but I couldn't bring myself to do that. At least not now, when my sons are missing.

"I understand that you're so angry right now. I'd be no different if I were in your shoes…

"Analisse! I appreciate your concern but you don't talk about being in my shoes, not to my face when you clearly pushed me to where I am today" I interrupted her stupidly soothing words.

"Fine! I'm sorry, okay? You just have to trust me… "

"I trusted you with my entire life, with my heart and everything I had but what did that earn me? Not in an entire lifetime, will I ever trust you again. You're the last person I'll ever trust even in my second life" I made that clear and I was relieved to see the hurt behind those shady eyes of hers.

She should feel even the tiny bit of hurt I was feeling, the one I have felt in the past and the one I was bound to feel if Adam eventually refuses to find Jaden and Jordan.

The door flicked open again and I recognized the scent to be Kenneth's.

"What's going on here?" His voice rang in the air and I inhaled hard.

"Let's not let this shady piece of beauty get on our nerves" I reminded myself with a little nod.

"Nothing much. I'll show you to your room" Analisse offered and Kenneth shot me a small smile before taking my hands in his. He pulled me out and we followed Analisse through the familiar hallway.

She stopped at the guest room and gestured for us to go in.

"You look good together by the way"

"And a pretty ring to go with it" she said and I could swear that I heard the mockery behind those sentences.

"That's enough, Analisse. I don't need your hospitality. I wonder if Adam didn't take his time to teach you common manners. You're too nosy for a mere acquaintance" I retorted sharply, twisting the door knob with my face sending her the threat of slamming the door to her face but she didn't budge. Her smile didn't even waver.

"I'll leave you guys to have a good time together" she said with that fake smile and I wanted to throw up so badly.

"Can you please let that smile off your face? It disgusts me to see you smiling amidst all these" I muttered and she sighed again.

"Valerie, I thought you'll at least be rational after losing your sons. I thought you'd think to the better side and not try to pick fights but you disappoint me"

"I thought you'll understand that this isn't a time to showcase our weaknesses, our flaws and the awkward relationship between us yet you keep talking about me trying to understand!"

"This isn't a time to see all that happened to us in the past. Let's get past all these first before you start displaying all hidden reactions and hurt"

"We should join hands and work together to find those kids, Valerie" Analisse said all at once and I felt another round of unshed tears burning behind my eyes.

"Okay… fine, let's work together to find them but I don't want you butting into my business asides that" I said weakly and she pressed her lips into a thin line before nodding curtly.

"We'll try our best and set our differences aside to find those kidnappers and bring them down but until then, we shouldn't be at odds with each other" she continued and I could see the sincerity in her eyes.

With the look in her eyes right now, I could fall for her lies and truth. I wanted to believe her so much but I couldn't forget the fact that she was the root of my downfall.

I had confided in her then and she let me down right in the next day without looking back.

I can't possibly put my trust in her after all that but I can at least trust her enough to find those kids with me.

"Thanks for your determination to help me, Ana" I mumbled without facing her.

"It's my duty, Val. Let's do our best" she replied and I nodded quickly.

"You should rest up tonight and things would be sorted out tomorrow" she added and I turned to face her again.

"Okay… "

"Goodnight Valerie," she concluded and turned to leave.

"Goodnight Analisse," I said after hesitating for a second.

I shut the door and slipped into the ground.

No one needed to preach to me before I knew what kind of b***h I was out there. No matter what she might have done to me… it was all in the past and I shouldn't feed on my past.

Deep down I knew I was too harsh on her and I found myself regretting it.

"Are you okay?" Kenneth said gently as he bent to my level.

"I'm not, but I have to be for the sake of Jaden and Jordan" I whispered and planted a lingering kiss on my lips.

"You're the coolest person I've ever met, Valerie. You don't hide your true feelings, you're a representation of love and care, and of course, the most stubborn person in the world… "

That made me laugh.

"You think I'm stubborn?" I inquired and he nodded

"But now, I'm starting to regret that I'm not really stubborn" I told him and he stroked my hair.

"That's because you're only stubborn when it's your will and choice to be stubborn. I, Kenneth can explain that much" he laughed and I laughed in unison, feeling some of my guilt and worry go away.

"Thanks Kenneth. You're the best thing that has happened to me ever since I met you" I muttered silently.

"I know, milady. No one can be better than me" he bragged and I laughed even harder.

"Just stay strong no matter what happens" he said and I nodded in affirmation.