Daniel Deronda

Chapter 18

Outside, the house looked very narrow and shabby, the bright light through

the holland blind showing the heavy old-fashioned window-frame; but it is

pleasant to know that many such grim-walled slices of space in our foggy

London have been and still are the homes of a culture the more spotlessly

free from vulgarity, because poverty has rendered everything like display

an impersonal question, and all the grand shows of the world simply a

spectacle which rouses petty rivalry or vain effort after possession.

The Meyricks' was a home of that kind: and they all clung to this

particular house in a row because its interior was filled with objects

always in the same places, which, for the mother held memories of her

marriage time, and for the young ones seemed as necessary and uncriticised

a part of their world as the stars of the Great Bear seen from the back

windows. Mrs. Meyrick had borne much stint of other matters that she might

be able to keep some engravings specially cherished by her husband; and

the narrow spaces of wall held a world history in scenes and heads which

the children had early learned by heart. The chairs and tables were also

old friends preferred to new. But in these two little parlors with no

furniture that a broker would have cared to cheapen except the prints and

piano, there was space and apparatus for a wide-glancing, nicely-select

life, opened to the highest things in music, painting and poetry. I am not

sure that in the times of greatest scarcity, before Kate could get paid-

work, these ladies had always had a servant to light their fires and sweep

their rooms; yet they were fastidious in some points, and could not

believe that the manners of ladies in the fashionable world were so full

of coarse selfishness, petty quarreling, and slang as they are represented

to be in what are called literary photographs. The Meyricks had their

little oddities, streaks of eccentricity from the mother's blood as well

as the father's, their minds being like medi**** houses with unexpected

recesses and openings from this into that, flights of steps and sudden

outlooks.

But mother and daughters were all united by a triple bond--family love;

admiration for the finest work, the best action; and habitual industry.

Hans' desire to spend some of his money in making their lives more

luxurious had been resisted by all of them, and both they and he had been

thus saved from regrets at the threatened triumphs of his yearning for art

over the attractions of secured income--a triumph that would by-and-by

oblige him to give up his fellowship. They could all afford to laugh at

his Gavarni-caricatures and to hold him blameless in following a natural

bent which their unselfishness and independence had left without obstacle.

It was enough for them to go on in their old way, only having a grand

treat of opera-going (to the gallery) when Hans came home on a visit.

Seeing the group they made this evening, one could hardly wish them to

change their way of life. They were all alike small, and so in due

proportion to their miniature rooms. Mrs. Meyrick was reading aloud from a

French book; she was a lively little woman, half French, half Scotch, with

a pretty articulateness of speech that seemed to make daylight in her

hearer's understanding. Though she was not yet fifty, her rippling hair,

covered by a quakerish net cap, was chiefly gray, but her eyebrows were

brown as the bright eyes below them; her black dress, almost like a

priest's cassock with its rows of buttons, suited a neat figure hardly

five feet high. The daughters were to match the mother, except that Mab

had Hans' light hair and complexion, with a bossy, irregular brow, and

other quaintnesses that reminded one of him. Everything about them was

compact, from the firm coils of their hair, fastened back _* la Chinoise_,

to their gray skirts in Puritan nonconformity with the fashion, which at

that time would have demanded that four feminine circumferences should

fill all the free space in the front parlor. All four, if they had been

wax-work, might have been packed easily in a fashionable lady's traveling

trunk. Their faces seemed full of speech, as if their minds had been

shelled, after the manner of horse-chestnuts, and become brightly visible.

The only large thing of its kind in the room was Hafiz, the Persian cat,

comfortably poised on the brown leather back of a chair, and opening his

large eyes now and then to see that the lower animals were not in any

mischief.

The book Mrs. Meyrick had before her was Erckmann-Chatrian's _Historie

d'un Conscrit_. She had just finished reading it aloud, and Mab, who had

let her work fall on the ground while she stretched her head forward and

fixed her eyes on the reader, exclaimed--

"I think that is the finest story in the world."

"Of course, Mab!" said Amy, "it is the last you have heard. Everything

that pleases you is the best in its turn."

"It is hardly to be called a story," said Kate. "It is a bit of history

brought near us with a strong telescope. We can see the soldiers' faces:

no, it is more than that--we can hear everything--we can almost hear their

hearts beat."

"I don't care what you call it," said Mab, flirting away her thimble.

"Call it a chapter in Revelations. It makes me want to do something good,

something grand. It makes me so sorry for everybody. It makes me like

Schiller--I want to take the world in my arms and kiss it. I must kiss you

instead, little mother?" She threw her arms round her mother's neck.

"Whenever you are in that mood, Mab, down goes your work," said Amy. "It

would be doing something good to finish your cushion without soiling it."

"Oh--oh--oh!" groaned Mab, as she stooped to pick up her work and thimble.

"I wish I had three wounded conscripts to take care of."

"You would spill their beef-tea while you were talking," said Amy.

"Poor Mab! don't be hard on her," said the mother. "Give me the embroidery

now, child. You go on with your enthusiasm, and I will go on with the pink

and white poppy."

"Well, ma, I think you are more caustic than Amy," said Kate, while she

drew her head back to look at her drawing.

"Oh--oh--oh!" cried Mab again, rising and stretching her arms. "I wish

something wonderful would happen. I feel like the deluge. The waters of

the great deep are broken up, and the windows of heaven are opened. I must

sit down and play the scales."

Mab was opening the piano while the others were laughing at this climax,

when a cab stopped before the house, and there forthwith came a quick rap

of the knocker.

"Dear me!" said Mrs. Meyrick, starting up, "it is after ten, and Phoebe is

gone to bed." She hastened out, leaving the parlor door open.

"Mr. Deronda!" The girls could hear this exclamation from their mamma. Mab

clasped her hands, saying in a loud whisper, "There now! something _is_

going to happen." Kate and Amy gave up their work in amazement. But

Deronda's tone in reply was so low that they could not hear his words, and

Mrs. Meyrick immediately closed the parlor door.

"I know I am trusting to your goodness in a most extraordinary way,"

Deronda went on, after giving his brief narrative; "but you can imagine

how helpless I feel with a young creature like this on my hands. I could

not go with her among strangers, and in her nervous state I should dread

taking her into a house full of servants. I have trusted to your mercy. I

hope you will not think my act unwarrantable."

"On the contrary. You have honored me by trusting me. I see your

difficulty. Pray bring her in. I will go and prepare the girls."

While Deronda went back to the cab, Mrs. Meyrick turned into the parlor

again and said: "Here is somebody to take care of instead of your wounded

conscripts, Mab: a poor girl who was going to drown herself in despair.

Mr. Deronda found her only just in time to save her. He brought her along

in his boat, and did not know what else it would be safe to do with her,

so he has trusted us and brought her here. It seems she is a Jewess, but

quite refined, he says--knowing Italian and music."

The three girls, wondering and expectant, came forward and stood near each

other in mute confidence that they were all feeling alike under this

appeal to their compassion. Mab looked rather awe-stricken, as if this

answer to her wish were something preternatural.

Meanwhile Deronda going to the door of the cab where the pale face was now

gazing out with roused observation, said, "I have brought you to some of

the kindest people in the world: there are daughters like you. It is a

happy home. Will you let me take you to them?"

She stepped out obediently, putting her hand in his and forgetting her

hat; and when Deronda led her into the full light of the parlor where the

four little women stood awaiting her, she made a picture that would have

stirred much duller sensibilities than theirs. At first she was a little

dazed by the sudden light, and before she had concentrated her glance he

had put her hand into the mother's. He was inwardly rejoicing that the

Meyricks were so small: the dark-curled head was the highest among them.

The poor wanderer could not be afraid of these gentle faces so near hers:

and now she was looking at each of them in turn while the mother said,

"You must be weary, poor child."

"We will take care of you--we will comfort you--we will love you," cried

Mab, no longer able to restrain herself, and taking the small right hand

caressingly between both her own. This gentle welcoming warmth was

penetrating the bewildered one: she hung back just enough to see better

the four faces in front of her, whose good will was being reflected in

hers, not in any smile, but in that undefinable change which tells us that

anxiety is passing in contentment. For an instant she looked up at

Deronda, as if she were referring all this mercy to him, and then again

turning to Mrs. Meyrick, said with more collectedness in her sweet tones

than he had heard before--

"I am a stranger. I am a Jewess. You might have thought I was wicked."

"No, we are sure you are good," burst out Mab.

"We think no evil of you, poor child. You shall be safe with us," said

Mrs. Meyrick. "Come now and sit down. You must have some food, and then

you must go to rest."

The stranger looked up again at Deronda, who said--

"You will have no more fears with these friends? You will rest to-night?"

"Oh, I should not fear. I should rest. I think these are the ministering

angels."

Mrs. Meyrick wanted to lead her to seat, but again hanging back gently,

the poor weary thing spoke as if with a scruple at being received without

a further account of herself.

"My name is Mirah Lapidoth. I am come a long way, all the way from Prague

by myself. I made my escape. I ran away from dreadful things. I came to

find my mother and brother in London. I had been taken from my mother when

I was little, but I thought I could find her again. I had trouble--the

houses were all gone--I could not find her. It has been a long while, and

I had not much money. That is why I am in distress."

"Our mother will be good to you," cried Mab. "See what a nice little

mother she is!"

"Do sit down now," said Kate, moving a chair forward, while Amy ran to get

some tea.

Mirah resisted no longer, but seated herself with perfect grace, crossing

her little feet, laying her hands one over the other on her lap, and

looking at her friends with placid reverence; whereupon Hafiz, who had

been watching the scene restlessly came forward with tail erect and rubbed

himself against her ankles. Deronda felt it time to go.

"Will you allow me to come again and inquire--perhaps at five to-morrow?"

he said to Mrs. Meyrick.

"Yes, pray; we shall have had time to make acquaintance then."

"Good-bye," said Deronda, looking down at Mirah, and putting out his hand.

She rose as she took it, and the moment brought back to them both strongly

the other moment when she had first taken that outstretched hand. She

lifted her eyes to his and said with reverential fervor, "The God of our

fathers bless you and deliver you from all evil as you have delivered me.

I did not believe there was any man so good. None before have thought me

worthy of the best. You found me poor and miserable, yet you have given me

the best."

Deronda could not speak, but with silent adieux to the Meyricks, hurried

away.