Asha
I just have a bad case of cold feet. The way he just made me feel terrified me. It brought back memories of feelings I have been suppressing. Suddenly, I don’t feel like I can do it. I do what I do best, try to sabotage everything. The fear of loss overpowering all other emotions. I am safer alone, I tell myself. How do people enter relationships? It’s f*****g terrifying.
He asks me to tell him why. I know how he must feel. He didn’t do anything wrong. I am the one that’s leading him on, and then, just stepping back whenever things get too personal. I owe him the truth. I need to tell him the truth about Emmit.
I never wanted to have this conversation with anyone. Definitely not the guy I have fallen for. Yes, I said it. I am completely smitten. Who wouldn’t be? He is sexy, kind,
