"You have to help me distract Ethan so he doesn't notice when I get home."
"Okay, I'll help you distract him."
Coming home is a challenge to keep him from finding out; I need to talk to my mother, but she's not answering the calls I've left her. I'm desperate not to run into him and to talk to my mother first.
Right now, I don't even know where my head is; my mind is filled with things. I need to clear my thoughts before facing anything. Despite telling my best friend that I could confront him, the truth is it's not time yet. I need to gather a bit of courage before looking into his eyes again and feeling nothing for him.
"I'll call you to let you know you can enter the house."
"I'll be waiting for the call, please don't let anything go wrong. I still don't know what to do."
I run my
