The Abused Secret Omega

Mondays the least favorite day of the week and I had just one more reason to hate it, as I collected my things off my desk. "You're fired." Elizabeth had informed me only a few hours ago. I worked for ad company and was at the bottom of totem pole, I had worked so hard for Liz's team, which was solely for products for women from clothing to anti-ageing cream. Our latest job had been for a cream that was like the fountain of youth in a jar, most  of the women in the office were using, and because it was so amazing the manufactures were selling it at a high price, but it was also my idea that was making this product sale like hot cakes, but with all my best work Liz took credit for it which got her promoted. I tried to explain to the boss about the "misunderstanding" but after he shouted at me for even insinuating that he was incompetent at his job, I found out that he and Liz were sleeping together. Now that she has no need for me she was firing me. "Can I at least get a letter of recommdation?" I mumbled trying not to look at her or i might punch that smug smile off her face. "You're getting fired." She scoffed. "Yeah, and i also did all of the work that got you promoted." She glared at me with her green eyes, that seemed to look into your very soul, but i was always able to glare right back at her. "You didn't do anything for me you ignorate b***h, now get you s**t and leave the building or I'll have you dragged out." She whispered at me. I gulped,  got my things together and left the building. Walking out of the building with a hundred things going through my head: what was Greg going do think, where was I going to find a new job, and why was this happening to me, Greg always said everyone walked all over me because I had no spine, I was too much of a coward to stand up to people. He was right I hated confrontation, and fights and so after fives years of working at the ad company I was walking out with my tail between my legs feeling like a complete loser. As I walked past a newspaper stand I saw the commercial for the stupid cream, on the small t.v the man had in his small stand, but then my eyes went to a news paper a body was found, it was a man that had been accused of beating his family to death just a couple months ago, It had been a month old baby, and three year old and the wife. The story told was they had issues in their marriage, he thought she was cheating and was dumping the responsiblility of an other man's kids on him, in a journal they found  in her things said that he was the one cheating and it had been his own fears reflecting. Even after there was a ridiculas amount of evidence against him he wasn't convicted under cailm of mental illness and stress. But just after they released him he disappeared. A whole week he'd just gone and now the only thing found was a mangled body. I was lost in reading the story, that when i felt the box in my hands open at the bottom I was too late to catch anything. I sighed deeply, thinking how this day could get any worse, while everyone stared and didn't move to help. I get on my knees, on the verge of tears, and started putting things back inside my box. How had my life come to this, where had I gone wrong? A sudden feeling of sufication and an  erge to shower in bleach suddenly came over me, I shook my head and quickly finished picking up my things, I couldn't let those old memories come back. "Are these yours?" A deep voice asked, I turned and my eyes met with beautiful hazel eyes. I stared but quickly looked away and instead looked at what he was handing me, took them , mumbled a thank you , and left. "YOU'VE GOT TO BE f*****g KIDDING, CAN'T YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT?!" "I'll get an other job, Greg." "YOU'RE SO STUPID, WHO'LL WANT TO HIRE YOU?!" I had just told Greg about me getting fired after dinner, and he was not taking it well. I guess i was stupid for not fighting harder for my job and now we'll need to budge a little thinner. With Lacy our daughter having the hard time she is, Daniel needing his special classes paid every month, and Johnny asking for the newest video game every other month. Greg worked for a investment company and after twelve years of working there has only gotten one raise which was why we lived in a good house, and his thought has always been, if we wanted to be taken serious we needed to look professional, which meant big house, best neighborhood, and best cars. He was always listening to others opion of us, and because of the kids and me, accourding to him,  we should be thankful he hasn't walked out on us. It has always been this way and I was thankful he took care of us, or else what would I do? Again that same feeling from earlier, wanted to over take me. It was an anger that wanted to burn but if I let it... "I'll clean houses if i need to." "What so you can embarress me further no!" "Then what do you want me to do?" He paced back and forth then sat on the edge of the bed. Then sighed deeply. "Stay home, you can't possibly mess up the house anymore then it already is." "what about all the things we need to pay...." "You think I'm not man enough to take care of my own family?!" "No...I mean...  yes... I mean..." As i stuttered to answer, he grabbed my face and pulled me closer making  me look him in the eyes. He gave me a like that made me go silent, like he wanted to kill me, with just one look. "Do you really need me to remind you, who runs things around here, and how when I say what you do you do it?" "No...I know Greg I know." I tried to pull away but he wouldn't let go. "It seems you need me to refresh your memory." I gulped with fear it scared me to the core when he got like this and what came with it. He threw me on the bed and quickly started ripping my clothes off. He bit down hard on my skin here was no gentleness, no warm in his touch, just pure domination over me in the worse possible way. The term making love has never applied in our marriage, and before I had never questioned it but for some reason after everything that has happened today it feels like I'm seeing things with new eyes. Suddenly he force himself inside me, I whimpered, and tried to pull away which would just encourage him more to be rougher and more forceful. Once he came he got off me whispered "When I say, right?" I quickly nodded and he would walk away proud leaving me raw, sore, all bruised up, and shaking. I climbed out of bed and went to the bathroom I put a bath salt that really helped with the rawness, and i sat in the tub to soak a while. Something inside felt empty and hurt it's been 20 years of marriage and it seemed like it's always been like this at first i would try to make sense of it, and had even asked my mom after years of not seeing her, and her advice had been. A woman does what she must to keep her husband happy, and if he looked outside of the marriage to get what he needed then you knew you weren't doing things right. I sat there and listened a little to the empty feeling inside me, have I really been so out of tune with my life that I'm seeing things that aren't there or have I been ignoring the truth for too long. Once I got out of the tub Greg was gone and I put on some clean pjs and went to sleep. The next morning i told the kids and they were unbothered to hear i was going to be staying home while i look for a new job.They were out of school for the summer. "Hey, Mom, you have a hundred dollars I can borrow?" "No, sorry sweetie." "You're such a loser Mom, whatever." Before i could even say anything Lacy was out the door. Daniel was so zoned out i waved my hand in front of his face then he seemed to come back to life but not much. As i started laundry everyone was in their own corners doing their own thing, but when I thought I was done Daniel and Lacy brought two more baskets out of their rooms, Once I was finally done, I headed into the kitchen to start lunch, while things cooked I cleaned, and picked thing up.While I was putting some things away in some bottom cabert, and was organizing as I went, so I was sitting on the floor. When I heard Lacy get something from a drawer that was right over me, where she then stepped on my fingers. "Excuse you?" I pushed her foot off my fingers. "You get out of the way." she commented back, " there's no food in here when the hell are you going food shopping?" "There's a lot of food." "Mom, If i eat any of that I'll get fat." As I was getting to my feet, my head slammed into the drawer she left open above me, I shoved it closed walked around her and put the rag i had in the sink. Looking at my daughter who was stick thin, with hardly any butt, and a small chest I wondered who the hell told her she was fat? After a while she scoffed and left. Later I caught Daniel trying to sneak friends into his room. "Hey, boys what you up?" I asked. "Mind your own business, Mago!" he yelled at me, i was so stunned that i was left speechless, and they were gone. I really felt lost when in the hell, did the kids become so disrespectful? Later i heard Johnny come over and I was so lost in thought, I jumped. :What's up baby?" "ma, could you take me to the mall, Jeff and Manny are going to hang out for a bit?" "Sure let's go." we got in the car and as he hung out with his friends, i kept my distance, and looked in the window displays. I walked past a lingerie shop and felt my face warm up and shame seemed to wash other me, to even want to go inside, but i looked at the pieces on display. If only i was confident enough to wear things like this. I was so zoned out myself when the smack to the butt came i almost fell into the glass window. "Jeez, girl, didn't mean to catch you that off guard." "Jessi, what the hell?" I laughed and gave her a hug.She hugged me back. "Hey i heard you got fired, that b***h actually had the freakin nerve." "Yeah, but i was thinking of quiting anyway." "how did Greg take it?" I didn't say anything but i couldn't lie to Jessica, We've been friends sense elementary school and fell for two best friends too, too bad she got the nice one of the two. The first time Greg forced s*x on me I had told her and she advised me to go to the police, but either i was too in love or too stupid I never did it and yelled at her for wanting to ruin my life with Greg. "Not well, but I'll find something." "Yeah, you've been in tougher jams then this." We laughed a little and we continued looking at the lingerie for a bit then continued walking around, but as we turned she suddenly became very giggly. "Girl, there's a guy behind us, who hasn't stopped looking at you  sense the lingerie window." Very carefully I turned my head and at the corner of my eye I saw him.I gasped and turned back to Jessi but carefully looked back at him, I could never forget those beautiful eyes, even if I wanted to, and even though I hadn't looked too much at his face I knew it was the man from when i dropped my things in front of the news stand, but i could see all of him now. He could be in his early thirties, beautiful hazel eyes, and beautiful full lips. His black hair was in a quiff style that made him look like a model. He was scanning me with his eyes and my breath caught in my throat when he gave me a side smile. I felt my body heat up or was that just my face, but i looked away and pretended he wasn't looking me. "You know him?" Asked Jessi as gave me a playful smack on shoulder, and a sly smile. "No..Yes...I mean I dropped my things when I was leaving work and he helped me pick things up. "A gentleman on top of it, girl!" "Stop!" We both looked back at him and he was still standing there, but would give sexy side glances. "Girl, that man is undressing you with his eyes!" "No, he's not Jessi, he can be my son he's too young for me." "Don't do that, Maggie, you take care of yourself sense nobody else seems to give a damn, you have a killer body for being close to forty." "But I'm no cougar." "No that's when you're older not right now." When I looked back in the guys direction he was gone. My mind wondered had i really  caught a young man's attention or had it been a misunderstanding. "Hey, Mom, I'm ready to go." Johnny was back. "Alicia, how are you sweetie you're getting so big." "Hey Mrs Perez, I'm getting there." Alicia was a year older then Johnny, and Jessi's oldest of two,  they've been friends, but I could tell Johnny really liked her.  "yeah, she can actually wear my clothes now girl." "As if Dad would let me walk out of the house in any of your outfits." We laughed and said our goodbyes and we headed our sperate ways. That night as I slept that man was there his touch and kiss had me coming undone. I had never thought s*x felt so good, we were amazing and even though it was a dream I enjoyed every moment of it. When I woke up I found my shorts wet, and my usual s****l frustration was higher.  The rest of the day I was so aroused and every graze my body had with things, had me going crazy. even after my third cold shower the feeling would just ebb, but much less.