Lost In The Parallel World

-CHAP :2

I woke up with a bad headache.

"Uff. It's feels like my head is going to explode." I groaned as i sat in my bed, head resting in my hands.

I sat there for a while in a crouch position holding my head as events from the previous night made there way into my mind. I was a drunken mess, i remember calling Jasmine. I cringed at the memories of the past night. She was there to pick me as i kept laying on the bar floor. Some people were filming me, few people with their shoes lightly hitting me as they passed and others didn't paid attention to me. Which i was grateful for.

My head was throbbing badly, eyes scrunching as sharp sun rays hit my eyes, intensifying the headache.

"Ah s**t!." I cried out in pain, covering my eyes with my hand.  Making mw go blind for a second there.

I am never going to drink alcohol. I mean not too much.

A knock on my door break me out of my self misery.

"Come in." Saying, i removed the covers over me and stood up.

But as soon as i was on my feet, the world in front of me started moving.

"Woah Woah. Easy." Jasmine's voice rang in my ear as her soft hands held mine to save me falling on my face and break my precious teeth.

Dramatic much. Right?

"I am fine." Said , chuckling.

Oh damn, even laughing made my head ache.

"Go shower first, i will bring the medicine and your breakfast. Okay?" She said softly in the end, caressing my head in a loving way.

I looked up at her soft features and nodded my head with a smile on my own.

Groaning, i walked inside the bathroom to take the shower. Today i prefer not to bother my maids, did my things on my own. After gagging and spilling all the contents from yesterday's night, i was finally feeling better. Changing into warm clothes, i walked out of my walk in closet and felt my insides warm just smelling the aurora of the strong coffee.

Jasmine, Harper and Karla stood beside the table, chatting among them.

Upon my arrival, they all greeted me and made me sit on the coffee table which was on the corner of my room.

They sat along with me, i was quiet as i ate and listened to them.

"So how are you feeling about the date?" Harper asked, with a curious look in her eyes.

I scrunched up my face in confusion.

"What? Date?" As words left my mouth, my now slow brain started working again.

A few days back, Kian had made some plans for us to get to know each other before our marriage. I don't know why i agreed, may be for the sake of my parents or deep down in my heart i was expecting may be he was a nice person from within. Which didn't seem possible for now.

"Your date with Kian. You forgot!" Karla said, eye wide in surprise and a smirk playing on her lips.

They all knew about us and that i don't like Kian. They find it fun and poke me here and there.

"Of course. My brain doesn't like to retain s**t information." I said, with a wink. To which they all laughed at me, shaking their heads.

"So?" Harper asked, intertwining her fingers in front of her on the table.

"To be honest, i am in deep shit." I said, sighing.  Hanging my head down in frustration.

"Why?" Karla asked,

"What happened?" Harper asked, frowning,

"What did you do now?" Jasmine's question made me raise my head up in pride and a satisfied smile made it's way onto my lips.

She rose her eyebrow at me at my sudden change of facial expressions.

"Well, actually. I punched him in the face..." Karla gasped, Harper's eye's widen, While Jasmine was trying to hide her smile, miserably.

"And i kicked him in the balls. He was holding me without my consent and was misbehaving. I had to do it." I said, with a scoff and flipped my hair over my shoulder.

"Esme!" Harper said, unbelievableness shone in her eyes.

"Oh my god" Karla laughed out loud.

I looked over to Jasmine who was just sitting there and looking at me.

"Girls, why don't you go ahead and start the work. I will join you in a few." Jasmine said, in a stern voice.

Jasmine was the in charge of the house hold. That's why she ordered everyone around.

Harper and Karla left the room, chuckling. They knew what was about to happen.

Jasmine's lecture.

I leaned back in the chair, bored as i munch on my food. Looking ever so slowly into her eyes.

"Esme. I may not understand your situation fully, but did you ever think. That may be you are looking too much into him. In the negative way. Look he may be bad but don't every person has flaws? And it's on us to look past their flaws and see good in them. Remember, what i always taught you, see good in people. I know he hurt you, but at least give him a chance before pushing him away. This way, you might see the real him past his bad boy facade. And if he is really an ass, then confront your dad about it. Tell him you gave him a chance and you don't want to be together." She said,

Every word touched my heart and mind. She was totally right but it was the hate within that's stopping me from accepting the facts.

I sighed and stayed silent. Wheels turning in my head at 100 kilometers per hour.

"I hope you take your time and find your way." She said, softly. Her fingers hold my mine and patted them in a loving way.

"Okay. I will apologize to him about yesterday and will be on my best behavior. I will give him a chance." I said, looking up at her. Looking uncertain about it.

She nodded her head with a kind smile on her face, encouraging me.

"Now hurry up and pick up your outfit for the day. I will be back." She said, leaving me alone with my thoughts.

It was late evening, when i started getting ready. I had a bad vibe coming to be. Ignoring it, i got to my work. I was sitting on my bed with my legs dangling, as i rock them back and froth.

My phone ringed, pulling me out of my thoughts. Grabbing my phone from the side table, i looked at the caller id. It was Kian.

"Hey."

"Hello. " I answered, already bored.

"Are you ready?  " He asked,

"Yes."

" I am almost there. Be down in five." With that he hung up.

Such a gentleman.

Rolling my eyes, i wore my shoes and headed down.

The house was silent as always. I sighed with a heaviness in my heart. I missed my parents.

"You look so beautiful." Henley's voice made me look up at her.

She stood at the end of stairs, looking up at me with bright eyes and smile on her face. I felt my lips turning up into a smile as i beamed up at her.

"Thank you, Henley." I said, descending the last stair and hugged her.

"Is everything okay?" She asked, putting her arms around me, caressing my back soothingly.

"Yes. Everything's fine. Just wanted a hug from my favorite person." I said, moving back and winked at her. To which her worried expression resolved to a happy one.

We heard a loud honking outside. It must be Kian.

"I guess your date?" She asked with distaste.

I chuckled while nodding my head.

Saying bye to her, i went outside. He sat inside the car, typing furiously on his phone. Rolling my eyes, i grabbed the door handle and put my self in.

What was i even expecting from him. To open the door like a gentleman? He was far more from a gentleman.

"Where are we going?" I asked, as he started driving.

No hello hi nothing. It was like he was fulfilling a job. It made me angry and a little hurt. At least he can pretend to be nice.

"To a nice restaurant." He said, looking straight.

May be he was angry at me for punching him.

"Look, i am sorry, for yesterday. I just hate being held without being my consent." I said, looking at him.

He grinded his teeth and nodded his head.

He was testing my patience now. I was apologizing.

I said nothing after that and sat silent, looking outside lost in my own world.

I wish i meet someone who could understand me even in my silence. Respect me and my decisions. Love me no matter whatever happens. Stay beside by my side even when i pushing him away. He who completes me, emotionally.

I always believed in soul-mates. I have read so many articles, documentaries about soul-mates. The day i began understanding the world, i have been reading and searching about the whole soul mate thing. Found some really heart throbbing stories which made my heart cry in happiness. I wanted that bond, unfortunately which was not happening any time soon.

Sometimes, i wonder what my soul mate would be doing now? Did he know i exist, his other half? Was he looking for me? Well, this one was a crazy thought, but i didn't mind thinking about impossible things.

The car stopped with a jerk, almost making me bang my head against the dashboard.

"What the hell, Kian?" I hissed, glaring at him, who was trying to hide his smile.

"It is not funny. What if i smashed my head against it!" I said, not ecstatic  with his behavior.

"Sorry, you were just zoned out. I decided to make it a little fun." He said, nonchalantly and walked out of the car, leaving me with mouth gape.

Was he crazy or what?

Taking depp breaths, i calmed myself down and get out of the car. I decided to have fun of my own, so i intensionally, slammed the car door very hard.

Bang.

His head whipped back so quickly, making me think he snapped his neck.

"What the f**k, Esme!" He said, forehead creased in anger as he clenched his fists tightly.

"Oops, my mistake." I said, flipping my hair over my shoulder, almost hitting him with them as i walked past him.

I could hear him curse under his breath.

Serves him right. I had enough of hus bad behavior, I won't tolerate anymore. I tried being nice to him.

I walked inside the restaurant and waited for him to come. Huffing, he walked past me and talked to the guy who stood behind the desk making reservations.

"This way please."

I followed them quietly, looking around the gorgeous decor.

The waiter, pulled back the seat for me to sit. He was more of a gentleman than Kian.

Thanking him, i sat down and looked up at Kian. Who looked bored.

Well, mutual feelings.

"So how's everything?" I asked, trying to start a descend talk without fighting. 

"Fine. Having fun here and there." He said, with a relaxed posture.

I hummer along and drummer my fingers on the table in anxiousness.

"Lets make something clear here. If we want this to work, we need to stay truthful to each other and put trust in both of us." I said, softly

"You hate me, how do you want me to make a move?" He asked, rolling his eyes

Clenching my fists, " I don't hate you, i just hate what you do. Playing with girls here and there. And don't make a move, try to make an effort." I said, calmly.

"I can't do that. What's fun without it?" He said, shrugging his shoulders.

See Jasmine, he is not serious. I thought to myself.

"If you want to continue being like this. Then simply do me a favor. Tell your dad to finish this off." i said, point between us.

"No, I can't do that. If i do, my dad won't give me the company. Why don't you tell your dad to cut this off and make us free." He said, arrogantly.

"I did but he said it would affect the friendship with your dad." I said, grinding my teeth in anger.

"And you think if i say it won't?"

"Yes it won't because you are being a jerk, that you are. Even your own dad knows what a jerk his son is. So it won't affect in anyway." I said, shrugging my shoulder and hiding my smile behind my blank face.

"Why don't you cry in front of your dad? As you are his little princess." He said, enraged plastered on his face.

Rolling my eyes at his pathetic words.

"I never liked you. I didn't come here happily, it was my compulsion. I am only wasting my breath on you." He said, grinding his teeth, anger visible in his eyes.

"Feeling mutual. I hate your guts. You think people like you? They use you for your own reasons! You are useless piece of s**t!" I spat at him.

"You are very unthankful. I need to remind you, i was the one who saved you from that car accident years back. I wish i never had never done that." He said, standing up from the chair angrily, his voice low and stern.

I sat there in shock, looking at his angry face. How a person can stoop so low?. I get it, he was angry but how can a person say that to someone?

"I never asked you to do it. And listen Kian, you think you can have people at your side by throwing your money at them. It's never going to happen. And sorry to burst your bubble, your dad is never going to give you the company. He is planning to give it to your little brother who is a lot more smarter and kind than you." I said, standing from from my own seat as i glared at him with all my being.

I never hated anyone in my life. But this person in front of me, just topped the chart of being hatred.

"I will clearly end this today. And Kian, you will regret it one day, mark my words." I said, leaning towards him and hissed in his ear.

Quickly turning around, i walked outside of the restaurant. Anger boiling inside me, wanting to come out. I pulled out my phone from my bag and dialled my dad's number.

I have to end this right now. I can't take it anymore.

"Hello dear." His cheerful almost made me regret calling him.

But i had to do it.

"Dad, i have enough now. I gave Kian a chance, he insulted me and you. He doesn't want this either. So please dad end it. I assure you it won't affect your friendship with his dad." I literally begged him on the phone.

I continued walking down the side walk in the lonely night.

My dad sighed and remained silent.

"Esme dear. You both are young right now. It will over once you two are together. And the contract has been signed. It will cost a great loss for both of us." He said, his words were like knife to my already broken heart.

"Dad, do you even love me? I am your only daughter. I never once in my life say no to your decisions. Your image of Kian is so good that you can't see things properly. I haven't tell you many things for your sake. So let me tell you today. He has been banging other girls behind all this. He do drugs without all of you knowing. And today he stooped so low. He said he wished he never saved me from the car accident. Do you hear this? And you still think we are good for each other." I said, in a single breath.

I breathed heavily as i leaned back against the cold wall as i catch my breath. He stayed silent may be because of shock.

"I will talk to David about it. He will give him a piece of his mind. Don't worry." He said, softly.

"What the hell dad!? Can't you understand. I don't want this. I hate him!" I shouted in the phone. The people around me looked at me weirdly

"I will leave the house if you don't end it today. That's final. I won't show you my face, even if you are dying." It was not right to threaten him. But i had no other choice.

Without listening to his answer, i hung up the phone as angry tears made it's way down my face. I hate him. I hate everything.

I cried as i walked back home. It must be late at night when i reached back, everyone was pacing here and there and on phone shouting to someone.

"She is here!" Our guard said.

Jasmine and everybody ran to me. Worried laced their faces as they hold me. Jasmine looked angry as she took my appearance. Harper and Karla stood worried. Henley had me in her arms.

"Come inside." Jasmine said, holding my hand in hers.

I walked behind her, quietly. Everyone looked worried for me. They never saw me like this before. I was a cheerful person so it was new for them.

"Talk to your parents, they were worried for you." Harper said, holding the phone towards me.

I glared at the phone and spoke loudly to they could hear it.

"I don't want to talk to them. It's all their fault, i am suffering because of them."

I snatched my hand out of Jasmine's and ran up to my room and shut it loudly.

"Open up Esme." Jasmine knocked the door softly.

"Please leave me alone. I don't want to talk to anyone." I said, looking out od the window at the bright moon.

It was shining brightly against the dark coat of sky.

She sighed and retreated. Finally i was alone.

I want to run away from here.

I looked up at the sky and prayed.

Help me. Help me get out of this.

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