When I wake up again I am laying in a bed but I am not alone in the bed, I slowly turn around to see who is spooning me and sure enough it was the man. I get out of the bed quickly, not harshly because I am sure this was not something pervy but I did not consent to this. He wakes up from my movements and looks at me, he looks sad and he looks worried.
“Okey I am not sure how this happened but I am sure this was not just for you to cuddle with me so “ I didn't get further.
“You are in great pain Esme”
I freeze, I just stare at him, I feel the tears build up in my eyes.
“I have sucked a lot of people's pain out from them but I have been touching you for a few hours now and I am sure I have just scratched the surface”
I don't say anything, I don't want to say anything.
“I get my magic from peoples sadness and pain, I can suck the pain from you and turn that into my magic and power. I have helped widows, soldiers and all kinds of people but I have never needed to touch anyone for more than a half an hour and they are as happy as they can be but you ...”
He narrows his eyes at me still lying on the bed. I feel the tears start to run down my checks.
“How can you live with so much pain?”
I suck it all in and push my feelings down like how I have been doing these last few weeks, I have been on the road for almost three weeks now.
“If you take all my pain and turn that into magic could you break my mate bond?” I ask with a broken voice.
He rubs his chin, he looks down on the sheets and after a while he looks up at me again.
“No I can not”
I let out the breath that I had been holding, he can not help me, can anyone help me? He jumps up from the bed and walks over to me, he opens up his arms but I just wrap myself in my own arms. He puts down his arms, I look at him, he really is beautiful, he has dark red hair, strong build and almost a head taller than me. His face is one of a model and I am sure that he could have been a famous one. He then takes a few steps closer to me but I back away from him but he just smiles at me warmly and puts his hand on my neck. I feel his ice cold hand on my skin, Ava growls a little at him but then I feel it. He is pulling my hurt, sadness and depression out of my skin. I feel how his ice cold arm pulls at my feelings, ripping them up by the roots, it feels so good to be rid of those feelings but I can now understand what he means. Even though this feels good it is like ripping one hair at a time off the top of your head.
“Kurt! I can feel she is awake! Bring her down for dinner!” Mama yells from the other side of the door.
I open my eyes, I had not realized that I had closed them but when I look at him, his eyes were glowing. He looks angry and mean again but now his eyes were glowing bright blue, I shake his hand off me and he closed his eyes. Then when he opens them again they are normal again but he still looks angry and mean like the first time I saw him.
He is bad news, I don't want him touching us again.
But he is helping?
Esme don't let him touch us again!
Okey okey calm down I won't.
We walk out of the room after he put on a shirt, I follow him into a small and crowded kitchen where Mama and Adriana are sitting and talking. Without even looking at me Mama says.
“So you are awake! I thought that you would be out until morning at least, you are strong little wolf”
I smile at her but then I realize that she can not see me.
“Thank you Mama”
I take a seat next to her and she sniffs me a little.
“Kurt, she is not someone for you to snack on! So leave her alone! I mean it, I let you suck her when she was in great pain but do it again and I will hex you!” she snaps.
Kurt's eyes widen and he freezes in his steps holding two plates, he looks from me and Mama.
“Mama, she is in pain! I can take that pain from her!”
“You don't care about her! You only want the power for yourself and I can already feel that you are at your limit so don't touch her again!”
He sighs and puts the plates down in front of me and Mama, she cursed into the air low but then picked up the fork and started to dig in into the pasta. I look shocked at them, she really has them wrapped around her finger. Kurt and Ariana sit at the table as well and I look at them now side by side, they both have red hair, both really beautiful and I could not pick out a single flaw on them. They are not her children I am sure about that.
“But what about me Mama can I taste her a little?” Ariana asked.
Mama looked up from her plate at Ariana and raised a brow.
“Does she look like someone with any happiness inside of her?” Mama asked offended.
Ariana looks at me up and down, then her face turns bored.
“No Mama”
We continue on eating in silence, when everyone was finished, I stood up and started to clear the table and do the dishes.
“What are you doing?” Kurt asks
“Doing the dishes? You cooked I can clean” I say worried I should have asked.
They just look weirdly at me but then the siblings just shrugged their shoulders and looked at their phone. I watched my mind not to travel away from the things I was doing but this little memory creeped up on me.
Flashback.
I was cleaning the dishes after a lovely dinner with him. Then all of a sudden I feel arms wrap around me from the back. I feel the tingles from the mate bond and from nowhere a smile appears on my face.
“You are so sexy”
Then he starts to kiss the back of my neck, then my earlobe. I smile and giggle at him and just sigh at the tingles from his kisses. I love his man so much, he even makes cleaning the dishes something enjoyable. We had this lovely dinner just the two of us that I made, he completed the food the whole time even though I knew it was not the best.
“You are so perfect you know that?” he whispers into my ear.
I pick up a towel to wipe my hands then I turn around to face him, he is so beautiful and perfect that I gasped a little. I wrap my hands around his neck and we kiss, then the kiss turns into something more right there in the kitchen where so many people come and eat. All the time he was holding me so close and whisperings sweet things. I felt so happy in that moment so complete. Everything he did was so perfect and he just knew everytime when I needed him, he just knew when to make me smile and when to take me seriously.
End of flashback.
I look down at the dishes in my hands, I was holding the last dish.
I am so sorry Esme.
I feel the tears stream down my checks, my heart is hurting so much, I feel like just lying down right there and just hold myself. This is so unfair, why could I not just get my happy ending? Why does this world have to be so cruel? Why was I not enough for him? How is it that my life is like this now? I am miles and miles away from everything I know and love, I have no pack and I have no one. I am on some strangers kitchen cleaning dishes and thinking about the mate that broke me and betrayed me.
I finish the last dish and put it in the rack with the other dishes but then I just stand there for a little while. I am hurting all over, I am so hollow. I do not feel like myself anymore, I don't know who I am. Then I feel an arm pull on mine, I don't even look at the person pulling me I just follow and the person shows me to a room with a bed and a window. I clip into the bed with all my clothes on and just lay down.
I am not sure for how long I can live like this. I need to break the mate bond and find myself again, I need to get further away from him and I need to be free of this. I am a strong wolf, I have alpha blood in me, I was a Luna of a big pack! I can do this but I need to be free of him and his impact on my life. I need to forget him.
We need to forget him. You only need me and I only need you. We can do this together.