Secret Obsession With My Dad

Chapter 2 Isla Deseo del Corazón

BLAZE P.O.V

I WAS DRIVING to the nearest resort, to spend the night there with Nathalie.

Kanina, nang makita kong namutmutla siya, nakaramdam ako ng matinding pag-aalala. At ito ang unang beses na makaramdam muli ako ng pag-aalala para sa ibang tao. Akala ko ay manhid na ang puso ko... sa dami ba naman ng masasaklap na nangyare sa buhay ko... nakalimutan ko na makaramdam ng awa.

Hindi ko na nga alam paano kaaawaan ang sarili ko... Sa totoo lang, I'm just living my life controlled by my parents. I couldn't do anything but follow their every wish even if it cost me... my freedom and happiness. I have to follow them because I owe them my life. And to prove that I am fit to be an heir of the Delvaje family.

Nang makita ko siya kanina na takot na takot... na para bang may nasabi akong mali para ikatakot niya... I feel responsible for her fear.

Hindi maipinta ang mukha niya habang nasa loob ng kotse. She was holding her chest as if she was having a hard time to breath. At nang mawalan siya ng malay, nakaramdam ako ng matinding takot para sa kanya. Nakakapagtaka man kung bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko, may kakaibang kirot sa puso ko ng makita ko siyang nahihirapan... hindi ko alam kung bakit pero naawa ako sa kaniya... Siguro dahil siya ang childhood crush ko? o baka dahil minsan na akong naging obsess sa kaniya?... pero matagal na panahon naman na iyon.

She was my crush when we were teens, but I don't know if she still remembers me. And I guess sa nakita ko kanina, mukhang hindi niya ako natatandaan.

Nang mawalan ito ng malay kanina, sa pag-alala, hindi ko sinasadyang basagin ang bintana ng kotse. Dadalhin ko na sana sa Ospital ngunit naalala ko noong mga bata kami ay madalas itong nahihimatay kapag takot o kaya naman ay nasobrahan sa pagod... kailangan lang ng pahinga at tiyak magigising na din ito maya-maya.

Inabot na din kami ng gabi sa daan, so I decided to spend the night at the nearest resort here in Tagaytay... Hindi ko din naman alam kung dapat iuwi ko ba siya sa kanila dahil sa nakita ko kanina, mukhang hindi pa din sila nag kaka-ayos ni Samantha.

So as we got to the resort, agad akong lumabas sa kotse at iniwan siyang wala pa din malay. Nang makuha ko na ang key card ng cabin ay agad akong bumalik sa kotse para balikan siya.

Pagbalik ko ay wala pa din itong malay. Kaya napabuntong hininga ako. At dahil wala pa din siyang malay, napilitan akong kargahin siya. While I was walking in the white sand of Isla Deseo del Corazón namumutla na naman siya and her whole body was sweating, pabaling baling ang ulo nito habang umiingit.

"Nathalie wake up" tinapiktapik ko ng mahina ang pisngi niya at pilit na ginigising. We were right in front of the cabin so I immediately swiped the key card to open the door.

When I got in, I slowly laid her on the bed. "Luna?" I called her by her nickname.

When we were teens, we loved to go to the hills, we ran away every midnight just to see the moon clearly. That's the reason why I called her Luna, while she used to call me "Cielo'' sky/heaven, in English.

"Luna? Wake up, you're having a nightmare." I tried to wake her up.

I felt pity for her... so I lay down next to her, then hugged her tightly while nuzzling her back. " shhh, it's okay I'm here " I caressed her back until she settled down and slept soundly. She's tucked into my neck, and her breath hits my skin... causing my body to heat up.

I feel the pressure. I can't stop groaning "augh", I cleared my throat to get back on track.

"This is bad" I whispered

Kalmado naman na siya habang natutulog kaya dahan-dahan akong bumangon para iwasan ang init na nararamdaman ko sa tuwing magkalapit ang katawan namin. Nahihibang na ata ako.

Lumabas ako ng cabin at pumunta sa dalampasigan. Isang malamig at sariwang hangin ang tumambad sa akin at animo'y musika naman sa aking pandinig ang ingay ng pag agos ng tubig sa dagat.

I took off my shirt and pants... pagkatapos ay sumuong sa malamig na tubig sa dagat upang pahupain ang init ng aking katawan.

And when morning came, I left a letter next to her breakfast. May company meeting pa kase akong kailangan siputin and I don't want to scare her again, so I'd better just go.

NATHALIE'S P.O.V

I woke up in an unfamiliar place. Kaya agad akong nag panic.

"Where the f**k am I?."

I immediately stood up and opened the door. My eyes widened when I saw "T-ubig?! I'm on the beach?... W-hat happened to me yesterday." I went back inside the cabin and saw a piece of paper on the side table so I picked it up to read.

"By the time you read this, I made sure I was gone before you even woke up. I don't want to scare you again... Maybe I'm a scary man, but I won't hurt you. Eat up, your car is in the parking lot, be careful when you go home. Hope we meet again sweetie."

-Blaze

B-laze? I whispered.

I can't help but smile, he wasn't that bad at all, and he didn't take advantage of my weakness. Maybe he can be trusted... well, I hope so.

While I was eating, Nakaramdam ako ng pag-iisa, nakakalungkot na isipin na wala na akong makakasama sa buhay, wala na si Lolo Dad at hindi ko man lang siya nakita sa kanyang huling hantungan. Natatakot ako at kinakabahan sa tuwing iniisip ko ang kinabukasan ko. Bumibilis ang t***k ng puso at hindi mapakali. "Bakit nangyayare ito" malalim akong napabuntong hininga.

Suddenly my phone rang, it was Vanessa... my sister.

"Hello??"

"Where are you? Did you know that mommy is getting married?" bungad ni Vanessa.

Nasamid ako ng marinig ang balita ng kapatid ko," What? with who?" nawala lang ako na hindi pa naman katagalan and now I had no idea what was going on with my mom. This family is really f****d up.

"I don't know, ngayon ko lang din nalaman and I just want to let you know. Pero huwag ka na mag-abala na pumunta. Baka galit pa rin siya sayo Ate. Bakit ba kase allergic siya sayo?."

"I don't know either, Take care of mom... uuwi din ako kapag pwede na"

"I will, please come home as soon as possible Ate... I need to hang up the phone, take care, bye" pagkasabi no'n ni Van ay pinatay na niya ang tawag at hindi na nag-abala na sumagot pa.

BLAZE P.O.V

"Maupo ka Blaze", my mom said. I just nodded.

My parents called early in the morning hindi ko na tuloy nagawa na umattend ma sa meeting. They said they had something important to talk about, so I went home immediately. But I had bad feelings about this.

"Why did you call me mom?? Is there a problem?."

"Dederetsuhin na kita anak... We had previously agreed to reconcile the two of you. You are getting married today, Blaze." my Mom said.

"What?" bulalas ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano na naman ang tumatakbo sa utak ni Mom... but this is too much to ask.

"I know it's sudden but we need Salazar's so we can save our company. The judge is coming as well as Samantha. I know you won't have a hard time doing what we asked because you and Samantha are friends."

So Sam agreed with this foolish Idea. "What if I don't want to?" there was no emotion on my face as well as in my voice. I try to calm down even though I'm already boiling with anger. I'm so tired of being controlled by someone else.

"Blaze!!!" his mom's voice was furious.

"What ?! I don't want to marry a woman I don't love. I will not marry her, never!."

When I was young, I knew that Samantha liked me. She confessed her feelings before I came back from Seattle. But in those days, Nathalie was the one I wanted but she was still too young for me. She was 15 years old, while I was 20 years old.

"Blaze, this is our last request. You know how important this company is to us, this is our life. And this is the only way we can save our company."

"You will lock me in a situation that will never let me be able to get out of?. Hindi ako papayag sa kasalan na ito, hindi kailan man!!." kinukulong na nila ako sa mga kamay nila... pati ba naman ang karapatan ko mag mahal ng babaeng gusto kong mahalin?.

Muntik nang matumba ang kanyang ina. Buti na lang at nandoon ang kanyang ama para saluhin ang kanyang ina. Inalalayan ng kanyang ama ang kanyang ina at pinaupo sa mahabang sopa sa kanilang opisina."Will you marry Samatha or will you be the cause of my death?. You choose between the two, Blaze. Matitiis mo ba ako?" nangungusap ang mga mata habang nakatingin sa sa akin.

Wala na naman akong nagawa kundi ang sundin nais nila. We were in my parents' office, and Samantha was there as well as the judge too. No ceremony took place, we just signed the marriage contract.

I was silent the whole time after signing. I am mad hindi lang sa magulang ko ngunit pati sa itaas na hinahayaan na mangyare ito sa akin.

When I got in the car, I immediately drove to the resort where I left Nathalie. Nag babakasakali na hindi pa siya umalis.

But when I arrived at the resort, she had already left.

I knew I was not allowed to drink at the resort, but I badly need alcohol right now. I smuggled a drink into the cabin. I was leaning on the floor while drinking.

Walang tigil sa pag laklak ng alak habang nakatingin sa pinto at tinatanaw ang karagatan. "My life is a f*****g mess" he whispered. "How could they do this to me, I'm like a dog who is submissive to them."

"They cut my wings... they stealing my own life."