Scars Reopened (Runaway Angel book 2)

Tortured Soul

**Mila's POV**

It has been a week since Alpha Sanders was here. I do not know what he and Leo discussed exactly, but whatever it was it has made a huge impact on my husband. The only thing Leo told me was he has a lead on his parent's death, but nothing more. Not even the details of the supposed lead. He hardly ever comes out of his office, he doesn't eat with us as a family anymore, and he still won't talk to me. I have tried to offer any type of help, but he just makes me leave him alone in his office. Joey has assured me that Leo has been talking to him, and he just needs space right now, but why would he need space from me? He must have found out something about my family, and that is why he is avoiding me. I know I asked him to leave the matter alone, but if it concerns my family then why is he hiding things from me? I do not know how much longer I can take this. Even when he looks at me, I see no love. 

I am in the kitchen cooking and baking, I haven't done it in a while. Since becoming Luna, my cooking duties were passed to my three omegas Tiffany, Natalie, and Nancy. They have been working with me since the first day I got here, and I am immensely proud. They are now very good cooks, and have even started created their own recipes. I drift off in my thoughts as I am putting the lasagna in the oven. Now to start decorating the cake. I decided to actually put in effort instead of just icing the cake. I am making designs and flowers. All in chocolate. I have learned that everyone in this house is a huge chocolate fan, so this cake should not last long. I am so focused on the task at hand that I do not even notice that I am being watched. 

I look behind me, and Leo is staring at me intensely. We stand there, not breaking eye contact, for like five minutes. I finally try to reach for him, but his face changes. His expression is a mix of anger and pain, and he walks straight to his office and slams the door. My heart starts to break, my wolf is cowering and whining. But all I feel is pure anger. I do not know what is going on, but I do not deserve to be treated this way! Without thinking I rip off my baker's apron and storm for his office. Without knocking I enter his office and slam the door, shattering it into huge chunks. Great, now we have to repair it again. He is sitting behind his desk, looking at me in shock and confusion. 

"I don't know what the hell is going on with you Leonardo Cruz, but you need to think long and hard about how you have been acting towards me! I am your wife, your Luna, and the mother of your children! I will not stand by any longer while you treat me like I am some annoyance in your life! I get it something is going on and you are trying to deal with it, but that gives you no right to act like I have a disease you don't want to catch. So whatever the situation is you either deal with it, tell me about it, or not bring it into our marriage because I want my husband back!!! Until you start acting like my husband you better forget you even have a wife!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. My voice thundered through his office and shook the walls of the entire house. He looked at me with anger and pain. "Do not even give me that look Leonardo! You have been acting like you weren't married this whole week so just keep doing what you are doing. You haven't been eating dinner with your family, you don't speak to me or even look at me, when you do, you have disgust written all over your face! You don't play with your children, and you do not even sleep in the same bed with me anymore!" I could feel the tears pouring out of my eyes and streaming down my face. I do not bother to wipe them away, he needs to see just what he has done. "I love you Leo, but I will not let you treat me like I am nothing." Leo stood up immediately and I knew he was going to rush to me, but I put my hand up to stop him. "Don't. Just don't. Sit here and think about what I have said." 

I walked out of his office and ran straight outside. I shifted into my wolf, mind linked Rose to watch the kids, and I went into the woods for a long run. Tears were still falling from my eyes, my heart was aching, but I still felt hot anger in my blood. I never thought Leo could toss me to the side and ignore me like he has been doing. I don't care what the situation is, he has no right to just act like I do not exist. I run and run, my limbs carrying me further and further away. I am jumping over fallen trees and snapping my jaws. I am just trying to work out this anger inside of me. I haven't felt like this since I faced my ex husband and almost ripped his head off. The difference though is I never imagined Leo making me feel this way. 

Opal is trying to take over control, but I do not want her to. She is more hurt than anything, and I do not want to drown in depression and sadness. I would rather feel anger because at least it fuels me. Sadness just makes me weak. I have had enough of that with Sebastian, I will not do that again! I push Opal to the farthest corner of my mind and continue to run. 

I must have been running for hours because the sun is almost setting. I turn and head back to pack house, probably miles away now, but I catch a glimpse of someone in the trees just a few yards away. I growl loud and they come out from hiding with their hands in the air. It is a man, perhaps a rouge. I go into a fighting stance, but he just laughs. 

"Now, now. I am not here to fight. I just was passing by when I caught a glimpse of your wolf." He took slow steps closer, hands still raised. "I have to say I have never seen or heard of a wolf like you before. Your growl is very fierce. I can tell you are female , you are rather large. Even for a Luna." 

I growl at him once more and snap my jaws. He finally stops walking and sits on a log to his right. I watch him carefully. I also ask Opal to check our surroundings. Sounds, unfamiliar smells. But there is nothing but him. He is alone. 

"I am alone. Do not worry. Like I said I was passing through and saw you running and just had to sate my curiosity." He stared at me. Looked at my fur, my eyes, my body. Honestly he looked a little too pleased. "I understand you cannot shift to your human form, being you have no clothes, and probably feel safer in your wolf form. I just ask that you not tell anyone I was here. I am a rouge and they would hunt me down and kill me. I promise I will be on my way quietly." 

I still have not moved from my defensive stance. Every cell in my body is telling me not to trust him. He looks too clean to be a rouge. Usually they are dirty and smell like they have died three times over. His blonde hair doesn't have a spot of dirt in it, his brown eyes show no sign of being lost, his thin lips are curved into a mischief smile, and his chiseled jaw is clenched tight like he is holding something back. I snarl at him again and growl. I do not want him anywhere near my pack. 

"Okay, I get it. I have overstayed my unwelcome." He got up and raised his hands again. He backed away slowly. "I will leave quietly without causing any trouble. It was a pleasure to meet you, Luna. You are such a beautiful wolf." His smile stretched across his face, and he continued to walk away slowly before shifting and running away. 

I stood there for another ten minutes. Listening carefully to make sure he was not going to try and sneak up on me. When I was sure I was alone, I continued to run back home. Home. Doesn't feel much like a home anymore. Not when the one man I love with all I am is making me feel like he hates me. Opal starts to whine again, and for once I let myself feel the pain she feels. 

I f*****g regret feeling what Opal does. I can hardly walk, let alone run. Every muscle in my body is aching, my blood feels like its on fire. I am in so much pain. I finally step out of the tree line and collapse on the ground, not able to go further. Soon some of my pack members and the warriors run to me. They are asking me if I am injured, and what happened, but I can't answer. All I can do is lay there and whine. 

Soon I am carried into the pack hospital, and doctor Adrianne Greene comes to check on me. Just as she asks me to shift, Leo comes barging in the room. Opal is so excited, but I am furious. He did this to me. He is making me weak after promising me that I would be safe and loved here. He lied! I growl at him and snarl. Both the doctor and Leo are looking at me with so much shock and fear. 

"Alpha Cruz, please go back to the pack house. I will alert you if you are needed." Doctor Greene said quietly. Seeing that I wanted him no where near me. 

"I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE." Leo growled at her. 

My growls and roars filled the room. Causing Leo to jump back. "I am sorry, Alpha, but your Luna seems to think otherwise. Please leave." She says again with more determination in her voice. Finally he storms out of the room and slams the door. I nod to her, thanking her for understanding. She turns to me and I lay on the floor of the room. More like plop on the floor. "I can see no serious injuries, and I can hear that you heart is strong. Can you tell me what is wrong? Can you shift?" She asks concern filling her voice. 

I shake my head, not wanting to be in my human form. If I shift my emotions will flood inside me and I will lose control. I do not want to be weak, I can't be like that again. I can deal with pain a little better as a wolf, but as a human, I would shatter.

"I understand, can you mind link me and tell me what is wrong? Or how about I try to link with your wolf? It is something that takes a lot of energy, mostly from me. My wolf will be able to feel whatever you are feeling. That way I can understand what is going on better. Would that be okay?" She clasped her hands in front of her and looked into my eyes. I can tell she is being sincere and just wants to help. I nod. 

After a few moments I start to feel an unsettling feeling in my head. Doctor Greene assures me that it is her wolf linking to mine. I try to relax and let her in. After a few minutes I feel her retreating and I look up at her. Her eyes are filled with tears, and her hand is clasped over her chest. 

"Oh, Luna. You are feeling everything a wolf feels when being rejected. I cannot imagine the pain you are in. I am only able to feel a small portion and it is enough to have me begging on my knees. Luna, I cannot help. The only one who can is your mate." Her voice is soft and reassuring, but her words make me angry. 

I snarl and she jumped. She says she understands why I do not want to see him, but until we work whatever issues we have, then I will be in pain. I slowly get up, my limbs still hurting, and walk out of the door. I have to wiggle out of the doors since my wolf is so huge. I head for the pack house and walk through the gigantic double doors without a problem. Each step I take I let out a whine and whimper. I am truly in pain, but I am not ready to see Leo. I start heading for the stairs when I hear a door open and slam. Leo comes from around the corner and when he sees me, his eyes are filled with regret and sadness. He reaches for me, but I growl low. He hangs his head, and I continue up to my room. 

I stand in front of the door, not wanting to even be around his scent cause I know there is a chance that will only make it worse. I turn around and head for Amelia's room. I need my little girl. I slowly push open the door with my snout and walk over to her bed. She is sound asleep, little snores escaping from her tiny body. I lay on the floor and rest my head by her feet. I slowly fall asleep, still feeling like I am dying slowly. 

**Alpha Leo's POV**

I run to my office and slam the door. I can't believe she will not even let me apologize or even check on her! I do not even know why she is still in her wolf form. I need answers as to why she is being this way. Yes I have been a little distant, but only because every time I look at her, all I see is the secrets I am keeping from her. I am angry at myself, not her. I hate myself for not being able to find out anymore information. I want to talk to her, but not until I know everything. When I saw her earlier today, cooking and baking, she looked like she had so much peace inside of her. I wanted so bad to run into her arms, but when she looked at me I couldn't. 

I mind link doctor Greene and tell her to come to my office. She tried to refuse, but I commanded her. She should be here within a few minutes. What could possibly be wrong that Mila can't shift? I hope she was not injured when she went out for a run. I saw how angry and hurt she was when she was yelling at me. I never even noticed how everything was affecting her. I messed up really bad, and I do not know how to make things right. There is a light knock on my door and I tell them to enter. Doctor Greene enters and bows her head. I gesture for her to take a seat in front of my desk. Finally she is settled, but for some reason she will not look at me, and has a scowl on her face.

"Tell me what I want to know, Adrianne." I speak low and calm. 

"I cannot describe it, Alpha." She whispers. Her voice cracking. "In simple terms, your mate is feeling rejected and her heart and body are breaking. Her limbs feel painfully sore and her body is heavy. Her blood is on fire, and her chest feels like there is a gigantic weight on it. Every cell in her body is suffering." 

I see tears start to fall from the doctor's face, but I am unable to react. The only thing I can do is sit here, and let her words sink in. Mila is going through the pain of a rejection. She is in serious amount of pain, so much that her body is beginning to break down. This is all my fault. I did this to her. I could have just been honest from the beginning, and we could have figured things out together. But no. I had to be stubborn. Now I may have pushed my mate too far. 

"That will be all doctor Greene." I say as I storm passed her. I need Mila. I need to make this right. 

I run up the stairs and head straight for our bedroom. The bed is empty, she isn't in the bathroom or on the balcony. I check the nursery, but all I find is little Brandon sound asleep. I check Amelia's room, and the image in front of me makes me go to my knees. Mila is still in her wolf form, on the floor next to Amelia's bed. She is curled up into a ball and even though she is asleep, I can hear small whimpers of pain. I did this. I broke the woman I love. Now I understand why she will not shift. Our human forms are so much more vulnerable, are feelings are harder to control. If she is feeling this much pain in her wolf form, I cannot imagine what she will feel when she shifts back. 

I know she is angry at me, but I need to help her. I need to make this up to her. I slowly get up from my knees and walk over to her. I lean down, and run my fingers through the fur between her ears. She stirs and looks up at me. I look into her big eyes, and even though I can see her anger, I see so much pain and despair. 

"Treasure," I try to speak, but my voice cracks. Tears are spilling, and I am trying everything I can to not throw myself on the floor and cry and beg for forgiveness. I clear my throat and try again. "Treasure, I know you probably do not want to see me or talk to me. But please, you are hurting. Let me help. Please. Come to the room with me. If you want to stay as your wolf I will shift also, and lay with you. Just let me help." 

Mila studies me for a moment. After what seems like forever, she tries to stand, but is still weak. She collapses back on the ground and whimpers. My heart clenches and my breath is stuck in my throat. She tries again and takes a few steps. Each step she is whimpering and tears are filling her eyes. We finally make it to the room and she shifts back into her human form. Her back is facing me, but I can see how defeated she is. Her head is hung, shoulders slumped over, and her body is shaking. She lets out a heart wrenching cry and falls onto the floor. I run to her and scoop her naked body in my arms, walking over to the bed. I lay her down and crawl in bed next to her. I lay on my side and pull her body closer to mine. She cries harder and harder. Not being able to stop. I hold her tighter and kiss her forehead. Tears start to fill my eyes, and soon I am unable to control it anymore. I begin crying with my mate, each of us holding onto each other like our lives depended on it. 

I can feel our mate bond straining and it is putting her in physical and emotional pain. I can feel what she is now feeling, and I hate myself for doing this to the love of my life. I did what I promised her I would never do, I took the light from her just like Sebastian did. Even though I did not do it intentionally. Mates are connected in so many ways that keeping my distance and ignoring her made her feel like she was being rejected for real. I should have been more careful with the way I went about everything. I just hope she will soon forgive me. 

"Mila, my love, my treasure." I speak, but my voice is cracking horribly due to how much I am crying. "I am so sorry. I never intended to hurt you, I swear on my life that I was never angry at you, but at myself. I promise I will explain everything soon, just please. Please do not hate me, please don't leave me. I love you, Mila. I love you." I cry and cry, feeling so afraid that this will be the last time I hold her. 

We lay in bed, holding each other close and crying. Soon my throat is sore, and I feel like I have cried every single tear I had. Mila fell asleep in my arms, her body still shaking and twitching every now and then because of how hard she cried. My heart is aching and I feel like I cannot sleep. I feel restless and on edge. My muscles are aching, my blood feels like it is burning, and every cell in my body is in pain. I'm feeling her pain. I ball up my fist and raise it to my mouth, trying to quiet the tears and screams that want to escape. I don't want to wake her, but I feel like my body is breaking and my soul is being tortured.. 

I look down at Mila, and quiet tears start to fall down my face. I'm sorry Mila. I'm so sorry I made you feel like you didn't matter. I'll do better. I promise. I kiss her forehead, and lay my head back on the pillow. I stare at the ceiling, and think about everything I need to tell her. I'll tell her what I know so far, the rest we will figure out. Together. Like its supposed to be.