December 24, 1849.
I had put on my slippers and my dressing-gown. I wiped away a tear
with which the north wind blowing over the quay had obscured my
vision. A bright fire was leaping in the chimney of my study.
Ice-crystals, shaped like fern-leaves, were sprouting over the
windowpanes and concealed from me the Seine with its bridges and
the Louvre of the Valois.
I drew up my easy-chair to the hearth, and my table-volante, and
took up so much of my place by the fire as Hamilcar deigned to allow
me. Hamilcar was lying in front of the andirons, curled up on a
cushion, with his nose between his paws. His think find fur rose
and fell with his regular breathing. At my coming, he slowly slipped
a glance of his agate eyes at me from between his half-opened lids,
which he closed again almost at once, thinking to himself, "It is
nothing; it is only my friend."
"Hamilcar," I said to him, as I stretched my legs--"Hamilcar, somnolent
Prince of the City of Books--thou guardian nocturnal! Like that
Divine Cat who combated the impious in Heliopolis--in the night of
the great combat--thou dost defend from vile nibblers those books
which the old savant acquired at the cost of his slender savings and
indefatigable zeal. Sleep, Hamilcar, softly as a sultana, in this
library, that shelters thy military virtues; for verily in thy person
are united the formidable aspect of a Tatar warrior and the slumbrous
grace of a woman of the Orient. Sleep, thou heroic and voluptuous
Hamilcar, while awaiting the moonlight hour in which the mice will
come forth to dance before the Acta Sanctorum of the learned
Bolandists!"
The beginning of this discourse pleased Hamilcar, who accompanied
it with a throat-sound like the song of a kettle on the fire. But
as my voice waxed louder, Hamilcar notified me by lowering his ears
and by wrinkling the striped skin of his brow that it was bad taste
on my part so to declaim.
"This old-book man," evidently thought Hamilcar, "talks to no purpose
at all while our housekeeper never utters a word which is not full
of good sense, full of significance--containing either the announcement
of a meal or the promise of a whipping. One knows what she says.
But this old man puts together a lot of sounds signifying nothing."
So thought Hamilcar to himself. Leaving him to his reflections, I
opened a book, which I began to read with interest; for it was a
catalogue of manuscripts. I do not know any reading more easy, more
fascinating, more delightful than that of a catalogue. The one
which I was reading--edited in 1824 by Mr. Thompson, librarian to
Sir Thomas Raleigh--sins, it is true, by excess of brevity, and
does not offer that character of exactitude which the archivists
of my own generation were the first to introduce into works upon
diplomatics and paleography. It leaves a good deal to be desired
and to be divined. This is perhaps why I find myself aware, while
reading it, of a state of mind which in nature more imaginative than
mine might be called reverie. I had allowed myself to drift away
this gently upon the current of my thoughts, when my housekeeper
announced, in a tone of ill-humor, that Monsieur Coccoz desired
to speak with me.
In fact, some one had slipped into the library after her. He was a
little man--a poor little man of puny appearance, wearing a thin
jacket. He approached me with a number of little bows and smiles.
But he was very pale, and, although still young and alert, he looked
ill. I thought as I looked at him, of a wounded squirrel. He
carried under his arm a green toilette, which he put upon a chair;
then unfastening the four corners of the toilette, he uncovered
a heap of little yellow books.
"Monsieur," he then said to me, "I have not the honour to be known
to you. I am a book-agent, Monsieur. I represent the leading
houses of the capital, and in the hope that you will kindly honour
me with your confidence, I take the liberty to offer you a few
novelties."
Kind gods! just gods! such novelties as the homunculus Coccoz showed
me! The first volume that he put in my hand was "L'Histoire de la
Tour de Nesle," with the amours of Marguerite de Bourgogne and the
Captain Buridan.
"It is a historical book," he said to me, with a smile--"a book of
real history."
"In that case," I replied, "it must be very tiresome; for all the
historical books which contain no lies are extremely tedious. I
write some authentic ones myself; and if you were unlucky enough to
carry a copy of any of them from door to door you would run the risk
of keeping it all your life in that green baize of yours, without ever
finding even a cook foolish enough to buy it from you."
"Certainly Monsieur," the little man answered, out of pure good-nature.
And, all smiling again, he offered me the "Amours d'Heloise et d'Abeilard";
but I made him understand that, at my age, I had no use for love-stories.
Still smiling, he proposed me the "Regle des Jeux de la Societe"--
piquet, bezique, ecarte, whist, dice, draughts, and chess.
"Alas!" I said to him, "if you want to make me remember the rules of
bezique, give me back my old friend Bignan, with whom I used to play
cards every evening before the Five Academies solemnly escorted him
to the cemetery; or else bring down to the frivolous level of human
amusements the grave intelligence of Hamilcar, whom you see on that
cushion, for he is the sole companion of my evenings."
The little man's smile became vague and uneasy.
"Here," he said, "is a new collection of society amusements--jokes
and puns--with a receipt for changing a red rose to a white rose."
I told him that I had fallen out with the roses for a long time, and
that, as to jokes, I was satisfied with those which I unconsciously
permitted myself to make in the course of my scientific labours.
The homunculus offered me his last book, with his last smile. He
said to me:
"Here is the Clef des Songes--the 'Key of Dreams'--with the explanation
of any dreams that anybody can have; dreams of gold, dreams of robbers,
dreams of death, dreams of falling from the top of a tower.... It
is exhaustive."
I had taken hold of the tongs, and, brandishing them energetically, I
replied to my commercial visitor:
"Yes, my friend; but those dreams and a thousand others, joyous or
tragic, are all summed up in one--the Dream of Life; is your little
yellow book able to give me the key to that?"
"Yes, Monsieur," answered the homunculus; "the book is complete, and
it is not dear--one franc twenty-five centimes, Monsieur."
I called my housekeeper--for there is no bell in my room--and said
to her:
"Therese, Monsieur Coccoz--whom I am going to ask you to show out--has
a book here which might interest you: the 'Key of Dreams.' I shall
be very glad to buy it for you."
My housekeeper responded:
"Monsieur, when one has not even time to dream awake, one has still
less time to dream asleep. Thank God, my days are just enough for my
work and my work for my days, and I am able to say every night,
'Lord, bless Thou the rest which I am going to take.' I never dream,
either on my feet or in bed; and I never mistake my eider-down coverlet
for a devil, as my cousin did; and, if you will allow me to give my
opinion about it, I think you have books enough here now. Monsieur
has thousands and thousands of books, which simply turn his head; and
as for me, I have just tow, which are quite enough for all my wants
and purposes--my Catholic prayer-book and my Cuisiniere Bourgeoise."
And with those words my housekeeper helped the little man to fasten
up his stock again within the green toilette.
The homunculus Coccoz had ceased to smile. His relaxed features took
such an expression of suffering that I felt sorry to have made fun
of so unhappy a man. I called him back, and told him that I had
caught a glimpse of a copy of the "Histoire d'Estelle et de Nemorin,"
which he had among his books; that I was very fond of shepherds and
shepherdesses, and that I would be quite willing to purchase, at a
reasonable price, the story of these two perfect lovers.
"I will sell you that book for one franc twenty-five centimes,
Monsieur," replied Coccoz, whose face at once beamed with joy. "It
is historical; and you will be pleased with it. I know now just
what suits you. I see that you are a connoisseur. To-morrow I will
bring you the Crimes des Papes. It is a good book. I will bring
you the edition d'amateur, with coloured plates."
I begged him not to do anything of the sort, and sent him away happy.
When the green toilette and the agent had disappeared in the
shadow of the corridor I asked my housekeeper whence this little
man had dropped upon us.
"Dropped is the word," she answered; "he dropped on us from the roof,
Monsieur, where he lives with his wife."
"You say he has a wife, Therese? That is marvelous! Women are
very strange creatures! This one must be a very unfortunate little
woman."
"I don't really know what she is," answered Therese; "but every
morning I see her trailing a silk dress covered with grease-spots
over the stairs. She makes soft eyes at people. And, in the name
of common sense! does it become a woman that has been received here
out of charity to make eyes and to wear dresses like that? For
they allowed the couple to occupy the attic during the time the roof
was being repaired, in consideration of the fact that the husband
is sick and the wife in an interesting condition. The concierge even
says that the pain came on her this morning, and that she is now
confined. They must have been very badly off for a child!"
"Therese," I replied, "they had no need of a child, doubtless. But
Nature had decided that they should bring one into the world; Nature
made them fall into her snare. One must have exceptional prudence
to defeat Nature's schemes. Let us be sorry for them and not blame
them! As for silk dresses, there is no young woman who does not like
them. The daughters of Eve adore adornment. You yourself, Therese--
who are so serious and sensible--what a fuss you make when you have
no white apron to wait at table in! But, tell me, have they got
everything necessary in their attic?"
"How could they have it, Monsieur?" my housekeeper made answer.
"The husband, whom you have just seen, used to be a jewellery-peddler--
at least, so the concierge tells me--and nobody knows why he stopped
selling watches. you have just seen that his is now selling
almanacs. That is no way to make an honest living, and I never will
believe that God's blessing can come to an almanac-peddler. Between
ourselves, the wife looks to me for all the world like a good-for-nothing--
a Marie-couche toi-la. I think she would be just as capable of
bringing up a child as I should be of playing the guitar. Nobody
seems to know where they came from; but I am sure they must have come
by Misery's coach from the country of Sans-souci."
"Wherever they have come from, Therese, they are unfortunate; and
their attic is cold."
"Pardi!--the roof is broken in several places and the rain comes
through in streams. They have neither furniture nor clothing. I
don't think cabinet-makers and weavers work much for Christians of
that sect!"
"That is very sad, Therese; a Christian woman much less well provided
for than this pagan, Hamilcar here!--what does she have to say?"
"Monsieur, I never speak to those people; I don't know what she says
or what she sings. But she sings all day long; I hear her from the
stairway whenever I am going out or coming in."
"Well! the heir of the Coccoz family will be able to say, like the
Egg in the village riddle: Ma mere me fit en chantant. ["My mother
sang when she brought me into the world."] The like happened in the
case of Henry IV. When Jeanne d'Albret felt herself about to be
confined she began to sing an old Bearnaise canticle:
"Yes, Monsieur; and it is time for me to go and skim it."
"Good! but don't forget, Therese, to take a good bowl of soup out of
the pot and carry it to Madame Coccoz, our attic neighbor."
My housekeeper was on the point of leaving the room when I added,
just in time:
"Therese, before you do anything else, please call your friend the
porter, and tell him to take a good bundle of wood out of our stock
and carry it up to the attic of those Coccoz folks. See, above all,
that he puts a first-class log in the lot--a real Christmas log. As
for the homunculus, if he comes back again, do not allow either
himself or any of his yellow books to come in here."
Having taken all these little precautions with the refined egotism of
an old bachelor, I returned to my catalogue again.
With what surprise, with what emotion, with what anxiety did I therein
discover the following mention, which I cannot even now copy without
feeling my hand tremble:
"LA LEGENDE DOREE DE JACQUES DE GENES (Jacques de Voragine);--
traduction francaise, petit in-4.
"This MS. of the fourteenth century contains, besides the tolerably
complete translation of the celebrated work of Jacques de Voragine,
1. The Legends of Saints Ferreol, Ferrution, Germain, Vincent, and
Droctoveus; 2. A poem 'On the Miraculous Burial of Monsieur Saint-Germain
of Auxerre.' This translation, as well as the legends and the poem,
are due to the Clerk Alexander.
"This MS. is written upon vellum. It contains a great number of
illuminated letters, and two finely executed miniatures, in a rather
imperfect state of preservation:--one represents the Purification of
the Virgin, and the other the Coronation of Proserpine."
What a discovery! Perspiration moistened my forehead, and a veil seemed
to come before my eyes. I trembled; I flushed; and, without being
able to speak, I felt a sudden impulse to cry out at the top of my
voice.
What a treasure! For more than forty years I had been making a
special study of the history of Christian Gaul, and particularly of
that glorious Abbey of Saint-Germain-des-Pres, whence issued forth
those King-Monks who founded our national dynasty. Now, despite the
culpable insufficiency of the description given, it was evident to
me that the MS. of the Clerk Alexander must have come from the great
Abbey. Everything proved this fact. All the legends added by the
translator related to the pious foundation of the Abbey by King
Childebert. Then the legend of Saint-Droctoveus was particularly
significant; being the legend of the first abbot of my dear Abbey.
The poem in French verse on the burial of Saint-Germain led me
actually into the nave of that venerable basilica which was the
umbilicus of Christian Gaul.
The "Golden Legend" is in itself a vast and gracious work. Jacques
de Voragine, Definitor of the Order of Saint-Dominic, and Archbishop
of Genoa, collected in the thirteenth century the various legends of
Catholic saints, and formed so rich a compilation that from all the
monasteries and castles of the time there arouse the cry: "This is
the 'Golden Legend.'" The "Legende Doree" was especially opulent in
Roman hagiography. Edited by an Italian monk, it reveals its best
merits in the treatment of matters relating to the terrestrial
domains of Saint Peter. Voragine can only perceive the greater
saints of the Occident as through a cold mist. For this reason the
Aquitanian and Saxon translators of the good legend-writer were
careful to add to his recital the lives of their own national saints.
I have read and collated a great many manuscripts of the "Golden
Legend." I know all those described by my learned colleague,
M. Paulin Paris, in his handsome catalogue of the MSS. of the Biblotheque
du Roi. There were two among them which especially drew my attention.
One is of the fourteenth century and contains a translation by Jean
Belet; the other, younger by a century, presents the version of
Jacques Vignay. Both come from the Colbert collection, and were
placed on the shelves of that glorious Colbertine library by the
Librarian Baluze--whose name I can never pronounce without uncovering
my head; for even in the century of the giants of erudition, Baluze
astounds by his greatness. I know also a very curious codex in the
Bigot collection; I know seventy-four printed editions of the work,
commencing with the venerable ancestor of all--the Gothic of Strasburg,
begun in 1471, and finished in 1475. But no one of those MSS., no
one of those editions, contains the legends of Saints Ferreol,
Ferrution, Germain, Vincent, and Droctoveus; no one bears the name
of the Clerk Alexander; no one, in find, came from the Abbey of
Saint-Germain-des-Pres. Compared with the MS. described by
Mr. Thompson, they are only as straw to gold. I have seen with my
eyes, I have touched with my fingers, an incontrovertible testimony
to the existence of this document. But the document itself--what
has become of it? Sir Thomas Raleigh went to end his days by the
shores of the Lake of Como, whither he carried with him a part of
his literary wealth. Where did the books go after the death of that
aristocratic collector? Where could the manuscript of the Clerk
Alexander have gone?
"And why," I asked myself, "why should I have learned that this
precious book exists, if I am never to possess it--never even to
see it? I would go to seek it in the burning heart of Africa, or
in the icy regions of the Pole if I knew it were there. But I do
not know where it is. I do not know if it be guarded in a triple-
locked iron case by some jealous biblomaniac. I do not know if it
be growing mouldy in the attic of some ignoramus. I shudder at the
thought that perhaps its tore-out leaves may have been used to cover
the pickle-jars of some housekeeper."
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August 30, 1850
The heavy heat compelled me to walk slowly. I kept close to the
walls of the north quays; and, in the lukewarm shade, the shops of
the dealers in old books, engravings, and antiquated furniture drew
my eyes and appealed to my fancy. Rummaging and idling among these,
I hastily enjoyed some verses spiritedly thrown off by a poet of the
Pleiad. I examined an elegant Masquerade by Watteau. I felt, with
my eye, the weight of a two-handed sword, a steel gorgerin, a
morion. What a thick helmet! What a ponderous breastplate--
Seigneur! A giant's garb? No--the carapace of an insect. The
men of those days were cuirassed like beetles; their weakness was
within them. To-day, on the contrary, our strength is interior, and
our armed souls dwell in feeble bodies.
...Here is a pastel-portrait of a lady of the old time--the face,
vague like a shadow, smiles; and a hand, gloved with an openwork
mitten, retains upon her satiny knees a lap-dog, with a ribbon about
its neck. That picture fills me with a sort of charming melancholy.
Let those who have no half-effaced pastels in their own hearts laugh
at me! Like the horse that scents the stable, I hasten my pace as
I near my lodgings. There it is--that great human hive, in which
I have a cell, for the purpose of therein distilling the somewhat
acrid honey of erudition. I climb the stairs with slow effort.
Only a few steps more, and I shall be at my own door. But I divine,
rather than see, a robe descending with a sound of rustling silk.
I stop, and press myself against the balustrade to make room. The
lady who is coming down is bareheaded; shi is young; she sings; her
eyes and teeth gleam in the shadow, for she laughs with lips and
eyes at the same time. She is certainly a neighbor, and a very
familiar one. She holds in her arms a pretty child, a little boy--
quite naked, like the son of a goddess; he has a medal hung round
his neck by a little silver chain. I see him sucking his thumb and
looking at me with those big eyes so newly opened on this old universe.
The mother simultaneously looks at me in a sly, mysterious way; she
stops--I think blushes a little--and holds out the little creature
to me. The baby has a pretty wrinkle between wrist and arm, a pretty
wrinkle about his neck, and all over him, from head to foot, the
daintiest dimples laugh in his rosy flesh.
The mamma shows him to me with pride.
"Monsieur," she says, "don't you think he is very pretty--my little
boy?"
She takes one tiny hand, lifts it to the child's own lips, and,
drawing out the darling pink fingers again towards me, says,
"Baby, throw the gentleman a kiss."
Then, folding the little being in her arms, she flees away with the
agility of a cat, and is lost to sight in a corridor which, judging
by the odour, must lead to some kitchen.
I enter my own quarters.
"Therese, who can that young mother be whom I saw bareheaded on the
stairs just now, with a pretty little boy?"
And Therese replies that it was Madame Coccoz.
I stare up at the ceiling, as if trying to obtain some further
illumination. Therese then recalls to me the little book-peddler who
tried to sell me almanacs last year, while his wife was lying in.
"And Coccoz himself?" I asked.
I was answered that I would never see him again. The poor little
man had been laid away underground, without my knowledge, and,
indeed, with the knowledge of very few people, on a short time after
the happy delivery of Madame Coccoz. I leaned that his wife had
been able to console herself: I did likewise.
"But, Therese," I asked, "has Madame Coccoz got everything she needs
in that attic of hers?"
"You would be a great dupe, Monsieur," replied my housekeeper, "if
you should bother yourself about that creature. They gave her notice
to quit the attic when the roof was repaired. But she stays there
yet--in spite of the proprietor, the agent, the concierge, and the
bailiffs. I think she has bewitched every one of them. She will
leave the attic when she pleases, Monsieur; but she is going to leave
in her own carriage. Let me tell you that!"
Therese reflected for a moment; and then uttered these words:
"A pretty face is a curse from Heaven."
"Then I ought to thank Heaven for having spared me that curse. But
here! put my hat and cane away. I am going to amuse myself with a
few pages of Moreri. If I can trust my old fox-nose, we are going
to have a nicely flavoured pullet for dinner. Look after that
estimable fowl, my girl, and spare your neighbors, so that you and
your old master may be spared by them in turn."
Having thus spoken, I proceeded to follow out the tufted ramifications
of a princely genealogy.
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May 7, 1851
I have passed the winter according to the ideal of the sages, in
angello c*m libello; and now the swallows of the Quai Malaquais
find me on their return about as when they left me. He who lives
little, changes little; and it is scarcely living at all to use up
one's days over old texts.
Yet I feel myself to-day a little more deeply impregnated than ever
before with that vague melancholy which life distils. The economy
of my intelligence (I dare scarcely confess it to myself!) has
remained disturbed ever since that momentous hour in which the
existence of the manuscript of the Clerk Alexander was first revealed
to me.
It is strange that I should have lost my rest simply on account of
a few old sheets of parchment; but it is unquestionably true. The
poor man who has no desires possesses the greatest of riches; he
possesses himself. The rich man who desires something is only a
wretched slave. I am just such a slave. The sweetest pleasures--
those of converse with some one of a delicate and well-balanced
mind, or dining out with a friend--are insufficient to enable me
to forget the manuscript which I know that I want, and have been
wanting from the moment I knew of its existence. I feel the want
of it by day and by night: I feel the want of it in all my joys
and pains; I feel the want of it while at work or asleep.
I recall my desires as a child. How well I can now comprehend the
intense wishes of my early years!
I can see once more, with astonishing vividness, a certain doll
which, when I was eight years old, used to be displayed in the
window of an ugly little shop of the Rue de Seine. I cannot tell
how it happened that this doll attracted me. I was very proud of
being a boy; I despised little girls; and I longed impatiently for
the day (which alas! has come) when a strong beard should bristle
on my chin. I played at being a soldier; and, under the pretext
of obtaining forage for my rocking-horse, I used to make sad havoc
among the plants my poor mother delighted to keep on her window-sill.
Manly amusements those, I should say! And, nevertheless, I was
consumed with longing for a doll. Characters like Hercules have
such weaknesses occasionally. Was the one I had fallen in love with
at all beautiful? No. I can see her now. She had a splotch of
vermilion on either cheek, short soft arms, horrible wooden hands,
and long sprawling legs. Her flowered petticoat was fastened at
the waist with two pins. Even now I cans see the balck heads of
those two pins. It was a decidedly vulgar doll--smelt of the
faubourg. I remember perfectly well that, child as I was then,
before I had put on my first pair of trousers, I was quite conscious
in my own way that this doll lacked grace and style--that she was
gross, that she was course. But I loved her in spite of that; I
loved her just for that; I loved her only; I wanted her. My soldiers
and my drums had become as nothing in my eyes, I ceased to stick
sprigs of heliotrope and veronica into the mouth of my rocking-horse.
That doll was all the world to me. I invented ruses worthy of a
savage to oblige Virginie, my nurse, to take me by the little shop
in the Rue de Seine. I would press my nose against the window until
my nurse had to take my arm and drag me away. "Monsieur Sylvestre,
it is late, and your mamma will scold you." Monsieur Sylvestre in
those days made very little of either scoldings or whippings. But
his nurse lifted him up like a feather, and Monsieur Sylvestre
yielded to force. In after-years, with age, he degenerated, and
sometimes yielded to fear. But at that time he used to fear nothing.
I was unhappy. An unreasoning but irresistible shame prevented me
from telling my mother about the object of my love. Thence all my
sufferings. For many days that doll, incessantly present in fancy,
danced before my eyes, stared at me fixedly, opened her arms to me,
assuming in my imagination a sort of life which made her appear at
once mysterious and weird, and thereby all the more charming and
desirable.
Finally, one day--a day I shall never forget--my nurse took me to
see my uncle, Captain Victor, who had invited me to lunch. I admired
my uncle a great deal, as much because he had fired the last French
cartridge at Waterloo, as because he used to prepare with his own
hands, at my mother's table, certain chapons-a-l'ail [Crust on
which garlic has been rubbed], which he afterwards put in the chicory
salad. I thought that was very fine! My Uncle Victor also inspired
me with much respect by his frogged coat, and still more by his way
of turning the whole house upside down from the moment he came into
it. Even now I cannot tell just how he managed it, but I can affirm
that whenever my Uncle Victor found himself in any assembly of twenty
persons, it was impossible to see or to hear anybody but him. My
excellent father, I have reason to believe, never shared my admiration
for Uncle Victor, who used to sicken him with his pipe, give him
great thumps in the back by way of friendliness, and accuse him of
lacking energy. My mother, though always showing a sister's
indulgence to the Captain, sometimes advised him to fold the brandy-
bottle a little less frequently. But I had no part either in these
repugnances or these reproaches, and Uncle Victor inspired me with
the purest enthusiasm. It was therefore with a feeling of pride that
I entered into the little lodging he occupied in the Rue Guenegaud.
The entire lunch, served on a small table close to the fireplace,
consisted of cold meats and confectionery.
The Captain stuffed me with cakes and undiluted wine. He told me of
numberless injustices to which he had been a victim. He complained
particularly of the Bourbons; and as he neglected to tell me who the
Bourbons were, I got the idea--I can't tell how--that the Bourbons
were horse-dealers established at Waterloo. The Captain, who never
interrupted his talk except for the purpose of pouring out wine,
furthermore made charges against a number of dirty scoundrels,
blackguards, and good-for-nothings whom I did not know anything
about, but whom I hated from the bottom of my heart. At dessert
I thought I heard the Captain say my father was a man who could be
led anywhere by the nose; but I am not quite sure that I understood
him. I had a buzzing in my ears; and it seemed to me that the table
was dancing.
My uncle put on his frogged coat, took his bell shaped hat, and we
descended to the street, which seemed to me singularly changed. It
looked to me as if I had not been in it before for ever so long
a time. Nevertheless, when we came to the Rue de Seine, the idea
of my doll suddenly returned to my mind and excited me in an
extraordinary way. My head was on fire. I resolved upon a desperate
expedient. We were passing before the window. She was there,
behind the glass--with her red checks, and her flowered petticoat,
and her long legs.
"Uncle," I said, with a great effort, "will you buy that doll for
me?"
And I waited.
"Buy a doll for a boy--sacrebleu!" cried my uncle, in a voice of
thunder. "Do you wish to dishonour yourself? And it is that old
Mag there that you want! Well, I must compliment you, my young
fellow! If you grow up with such tastes as that, you will never
have any pleasure in life; and your comrades will call you a precious
ninny. If you asked me for a sword or a gun, my boy, I would buy
them for you with the last silver crown of my pension. But to buy
a doll for you--by all that's holy!--to disgrace you! Never in the
world! Why, if I were ever to see you playing with a puppet rigged
out like that, Monsieur, my sister's son, I would disown you for my
nephew!"
On hearing these words, I felt my heart so wrung that nothing but
pride--a diabolical pride--kept me from crying.
My uncle, suddenly calming down, returned to his ideas about the
Bourbons; but I, still smarting under the weight of his indignation,
felt an unspeakable shame. My resolve was quickly made. I promised
myself never to disgrace myself--I firmly and for ever renounced
that red-cheeked doll.
I felt that day, for the first time, the austere sweetness of
sacrifice.
Captain, though it be true that all your life you swore like a pagan,
smoked like a beadle, and drank like a bell-ringer, be your memory
nevertheless honoured--not merely because you were a brave soldier,
but also because you revealed to your little nephew in petticoats
the sentiment of heroism! Pride and laziness had made you almost
insupportable, Uncle Victor!--but a great heart used to beat under
those frogs upon your coat. You always used to wear, I now remember,
a rose in your button-hole. That rose which you offered so readily
to the shop-girls--that large, open-hearted flower, scattering its
petals to all the winds, was the symbol of your glorious youth.
You despised neither wine nor tobacco; but you despised life.
Neither delicacy nor common sense could have been learned from you,
Captain; but you taught me, even at an age when my nurse had to wipe
my nose, a lesson of honour and self-abrogation that I shall never
forget.
You have now been sleeping for many years in the Cemetery of Mont-
Parnasse, under a plain slab bearing the epitaph:
But Therese is not here. And how, indeed, could she be near me,
seeing that I am at the rondpoint of the Champs-Elysees? There,
at the termination of the avenue, the Arc de Triomphe, which bears
under its vaults the names of Uncle Victor's companions-in-arms,
opens its giant gate against the sky. The trees of the avenue are
unfolding to the sun of spring their first leaves, still all pale
and chilly. Beside me the carriages keep rolling by to the Bois
de Boulogne. Unconsciously I have wandered into this fashionable
avenue on my promenade, and halted, quite stupidly, in front of a
booth stocked with gingerbread and decanters of liquorice-water,
each topped by a lemon. A miserable little boy, covered with rags,
which expose his chapped skin, stares with widely opened eyes at
those sumptuous sweets which are not for such as he. With the
shamelessness of innocence he betrays his longing. His round, fixed
eyes contemplate a certain gingerbread man of lofty stature. It
is a general, and it looks a little like Uncle Victor. I take it,
I pay for it, and present it to the little pauper, who dares not
extend his hand to receive it--for, by reason of precocious
experience, he cannot believe in luck; he looks at me, in the same
way that certain big dogs do, with the air of one saying, "You are
cruel to make fun of me like that!"
"Come, little stupid," I say to him, in that rough tone I am
accustomed to use, "take it--take it, and eat it; for you, happier
than I was at your age, you can satisfy your tastes without
disgracing yourself."...And you, Uncle Victor--you, whose manly
figure has been recalled to me by that gingerbread general, come,
glorious Shadow, help me to forget my new doll. We remain for ever
children, and are always running after new toys.
-
Same day.
In the oddest way that Coccoz family has become associated in my
mind with the Clerk Alexander.
"Therese," I said, as I threw myself into my easy-chair, "tell me
if the little Coccoz is well, and whether he has got his first teeth
yet--and bring me my slippers."
"He ought to have them by this time, Monsieur," replied Therese;
"but I never saw them. The very first fine day of spring the mother
disappeared with the child, leaving furniture and clothes and
everything behind her. They found thirty-eight empty pomade-pots in
the attic. It passes all belief! She had visitors latterly; and
you may be quite sure she is not now in a convent of nuns. The
niece of the concierge says she saw her driving about in a carriage
on the boulevards. I always told you she would end badly."
"Therese," I replied, "that young woman has not ended either badly
or well as yet. Wait until the term of her life is over before you
judge her. And be careful not to talk too much with that concierge.
It seemed to me--though I only saw her for a moment on the stairs--
that Madame Coccoz was very fond of her child. For that mother's
love at least, she deserves credit."
"As far as that goes, Monsieur, certainly the little one never wanted
for anything. In all the Quarter one could not have found a child
better kept, or better nourished, or more petted and coddled. Every
day that God makes she puts a clean bib on him, and sings to him
to make him laugh from morning till night."
"Therese, a poet has said, 'That child whose mother has never smiled
upon him is worthy neither of the table of the gods nor of the
couch of the goddesses.'"
-
July 8, 1852.
Having been informed that the Chapel of the Virgin at Saint-Germain-
des-Pres was being repaved, I entered the church with the hope of
discovering some old inscriptions, possibly exposed by the labours
of the workmen. I was not disappointed. The architect kindly
showed me a stone which he had just had raised up against the wall.
I knelt down to look at the inscription engraved upon that stone;
and then, half aloud, I read in the shadow of the old apsis these
words, which made my heart leap:
"Cy-gist Alexandre, moyne de ceste eglise, qui fist mettre en argent
le menton de Saint-Vincent et de Saint-Amant et le pie des Innocens;
qui toujours en son vivant fut preud'homme et vayllant. Priez
pour l'ame de lui."
I wiped gently away with my handkerchief the dust covering that
gravestone; I could have kissed it.
"It is he! it is Alexander!" I cried out; and from the height of
the vaults the name fell back upon me with a clang, as if broken.
The silent severity of the beadle, whom I saw advancing towards me,
made me ashamed of my enthusiasm; and I fled between the two holy
water sprinklers with which tow rival "rats d'eglise" seemed
desirous of barring my way.
At all events it was certainly my own Alexander! there could be no
more doubt possible; the translator of the "Golden Legend," the
author of the saints lives of Saints Germain, Vincent, Ferreol,
Ferrution, and Droctoveus was, just as I had supposed, a monk of
Saint-Germain-des-Pres. And what a monk, too--pious and generous!
He had a silver chin, a silver head, and a silver foot made, that
certain precious remains should be covered with an incorruptible
envelope! But shall I never be able to view his handiwork? or is
this new discovery only destined to increase my regrets?
-
August 20, 1859.
Shakespeare, after having terminated the third act of the "Winter's
Tale," pauses in order to leave time for little Perdita to grow up
in wisdom and in beauty; and when he raises the curtain again he
evokes the ancient Scythe-bearer upon the stage to render account
to the audience of those many long days which have weighted down
upon the head of the jealous Leontes.
Like Shakespeare in his play, I have left in this diary of mine a
long interval to oblivion; and after the fashion of the poet, I make
Time himself intervene to explain the omission of ten whole years.
Ten whole years, indeed, have passed since I wrote one single line
in this diary; and now that I take up the pen again, I have not the
pleasure, alas! to describe a Perdita "now grown in grace." Youth
and beauty are the faithful companions of poets; but those charming
phantoms scarcely visit the rest of us, even for the space of a
season. We do not know how to retain them with us. If the fair
shade of some Perdita should ever, through some inconceivable whim,
take a notion to traverse my brain, she would hurt herself horribly
against heaps of dog-eared parchments. Happy the poets!--their
white hairs never scare away the hovering shades of Helens,
Francescas, Juliets, Julias, and Dorotheas! But the nose alone of
Sylvestre Bonnard would put to flight the whole swarm of love's
heroines.
Yet I, like others, have felt beauty; I have known that mysterious
charm which Nature has lent to animate form; and the clay which
lives has given to me that shudder of delight which makes the lover
and the poet. But I have never known either how to love or how to
sing. Now in my memory--all encumbered as it is with the rubbish
of old texts--I can discern again, like a miniature forgotten in
some attic, a certain bright young face, with violet eyes.... Why,
Bonnard, my friend, what an old fool you are becoming! Read that
catalogue which a Florentine bookseller sent you this very morning.
It is a catalogue of Manuscripts; and he promises you a description
of several famous ones, long preserved by the collectors of Italy
and Sicily. There is something better suited to you, something
more in keeping with your present appearance.
I read; I cry out! Hamilcar, who has assumed with the approach of
age an air of gravity that intimidates me, looks at me reproachfully,
and seems to ask me whether there is any rest in this world, since
he cannot enjoy it beside me, who am old also like himself.
In the sudden joy of my discovery, I need a confidant; and it is
to the sceptic Hamilcar that I address myself with all the effusion
of a happy man.
"No, Hamilcar! no," I said to him; "there is no rest in this world,
and the quietude which you long for is incompatible with the duties
of life. And you say that we are old, indeed! Listen to what I
read in this catalogue, and then tell me whether this is a time to
be reposing:
"'LA LEGENDE DOREE DE JACQUES DE VORAGINE;--trduction francaise du
quatorzieme sicle, par le Clerc Alexandre.
"'Superb MS., ornamented with two miniatures, wonderfully executed,
and in a perfect state of preservation:--one representing the
Purification of the Virgin; the other the Coronation of Proserpine.
"'At the termination of the "Legende Doree" are the Legends of Saints
Ferreol, Ferrution, Germain, and Droctoveus (xxxviij pp.) and the
Miraculous Sepulture of Monsieur Saint-Germain d'Auxerre (xij pp.).
"'This rare manuscript, which formed part of the collection of Sir
Thomas Raleigh, is now in the private study of Signor Michel-Angelo
Polizzi, of Girgenti.'"
"You hear that, Hamilcar? The manuscript of the Clerk Alexander is
in Sicily, at the house of Michel-Angelo Polizzi. Heaven grant he
may be a friend of learned men! I am going to write him!"
Which I did forthwith. In my letter I requested Signor Polizzi to
allow me to examine the manuscript of Clerk Alexander, stating on
what grounds I ventured to consider myself worthy of so great a
favour. I offered at the same time to put at his disposal several
unpublished texts in my own possession, not devoid of interest. I
begged him to favour me with a prompt reply, and below my signature
I wrote down all my honorary titles.
"Monsieur! Monsieur! where are you running like that?" cried Therese,
quite alarmed, coming down the stairs in pursuit of me, four steps
at a time, with my hat in her hand.
"I am going to post a letter, Therese."
"Good God! is that a way to run out in the street, bareheaded, like
a crazy man?"
"I am crazy, I know, Therese. But who is not? Give me my hat,
quick!"
"And your gloves, Monsieur! and your umbrella!"
I had reached the bottom of the stairs, but still heard her protesting
and lamenting.
-
October 10, 1859.
I awaited Signor Polizzi's reply with ill-contained impatience. I
could not even remain quiet; I would make sudden nervous gestures--
open books and violently close them again. One day I happened to
upset a book with my elbow--a volume of Moreri. Hamilcar, who was
washing himself, suddenly stopped, and looked angrily at me, with
his paw over his ear. Was this the tumultuous existence he must
expect under my roof? Had there not been a tacit understanding
between us that we should live a peaceful life? I had broken the
covenant.
"My poor dear comrade," I made answer, "I am the victim of a violent
passion, which agitates and masters me. The passions are enemies
of peace and quiet, I acknowledge; but without them there would be
no arts or industries in the world. Everybody would sleep naked
on a dung-heap; and you would not be able, Hamilcar, to repose all
day on a silken cushion, in the City of Books."
I expatiated no further to Hamilcar on the theory of the passions,
however, because my housekeeper brought me a letter. It bore the
postmark of Naples and read as follows:
"Extremum hunc, Arethusa, mihi concede laborem."
-
October 25, 1859.
My resolve had been taken and my preparations made; it only remained
for me to notify my housekeeper. I must acknowledge it was a long
time before I could make up my mind to tell her I was going away.
I feared her remonstrances, her railleries, her objurgations, her
tears. "She is a good, kind girl," I said to myself; "she is
attacked to me; she will want to prevent me from going; and the Lord
knows that when she has her mind set upon anything, gestures and
cries cost her no effort. In this instance she will be sure to
call the concierge, the scrubber, the mattress-maker, and the seven
sons of the fruit-seller; they will all kneel down in a circle
around me; they will begin to cry, and then they will look so ugly
that I shall be obliged to yield, so as not to have the pain of
seeing them any more."
Such were the awful images, the sick dreams, which fear marshaled
before my imagination. Yes, fear--"fecund Fear," as the poet says--
gave birth to these monstrosities in my brain. For--I may as well
make the confession in these private pages--I am afraid of my
housekeeper. I am aware that she knows I am weak; and this fact
alone is sufficient to dispel all my courage in any contest with her.
Contests are of frequent occurrence; and I invariably succumb.
But for all that, I had to announce my departure to Therese. She
came into the library with an armful of wood to make a little fire--
"une flambe," she said. For the mornings are chilly. I watched
her out of the corner of my eye while she crouched down at the
hearth, with her head in the opening of the fireplace. I do not
know how I then found the courage to speak, but I did so without
much hesitation. I got up, and, walking up and down the room,
observed in a careless tone, with that swaggering manner
characteristic of cowards,
"By the way, Therese, I am going to Sicily."
Having thus spoken, I awaited the consequence with great anxiety.
Therese did not reply. Her head and her vast cap remained buried
in the fireplace; and nothing in her person, which I closely
watched, betrayed the least emotion. She poked some paper under the
wood, and blew up the fire. That was all!
Finally I saw her face again;--it was calm--so calm that it made
me vexed. "Surely," I thought to myself, "this old maid has no heart.
She lets me go away without saying so much as AH! Can the absence
of her old master really affect her so little?"
"Well, then go, Monsieur," she answered at last, "only be back here
by six o'clock! There is a dish for dinner to-day which will not
wait for anybody."
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Naples, November 10, 1859.
"Co tra calle vive, magna, e lave a faccia."
I understand, my friend--for three centimes I can eat, drink, and
wash my face, all by means of one of those slices of watermelon
you display there on a little table. But Occidental prejudices
would prevent me from enjoying that simple pleasure freely and
frankly. And how could I suck a watermelon? I have enough to do
mereley to keep on my feet in this crowd. What a luminous, noisy
night in the Strada di Porto! Mountains of fruit tower up in the
shops, illuminated by multicoloured lanterns. Upon charcoal furnaces
lighted in the open air water boils and steams, and ragouts are
singing in frying-pans. The smell of fried fish and hot meats
tickles my nose and makes me sneeze. At this moment I find that my
handkerchief has left the pocket of my frock-coat. I am pushed,
lifted up, and turned about in every direction by the gayest, the
most talkative, the most animated and the most adroit populace
possible to imagine; and suddenly a young woman of the people,
while I am admiring her magnificent hair, with a single shock of
her powerful elastic shoulder, pushes me staggering three paces back
at least, without injury, into the arms of a maccaroni-eater, who
receives me with a smile.
I am in Naples. How I ever managed to arrive here, with a few
mutilated and shapeless remains of baggage, I cannot tell, because
I am no longer myself. I have been travelling in a condition of
perpetual fright; and I think that I must have looked awhile ago
in this bright city like an owl bewildered by sunshine. To-night
it is much worse! Wishing to obtain a glimpse of popular manners,
I went to the Strada di Porto, where I now am. All about me animated
throngs of people crowd and press before the eating-places; and I
float like a waif among these living surges, which, even while they
submerge you, still caress. For this Neopolitan people has, in its
very vivacity, something indescribably gentle and polite. I am not
roughly jostled, I am merely swayed about; and I think that by dint
of thus rocking me to and fro, these good folks want to lull me
asleep on my feet. I admire, as I tread the lava pavements of the
strada, those porters and fishermen who move by me chatting,
singing, smoking, gesticulating, quarrelling, and embracing each
other the next moment with astonishing versatility of mood. They
live through all their sense at the same time; and, being philosophers
without knowing it, keep the measure of their desires in accordance
with the brevity of life. I approach a much-patronised tavern, and
see inscribed above the entrance this quatrain in Neopolitan patois:
And yet life decides in favour of friend Flaccus, and his philosophy
is the only one which adapts itself to the course of events. There
is a fellow leaning against that trellis-work covered with vine-
leaves, and eating an ice, while watching the stars. He would not
stoop even to pick up the old manuscript I am going to seek with so
much trouble and fatigue. And in truth man is made rather to eat
ices than to pore over old texts.
I continued to wander about among the drinkers and the singers.
There were lovers biting into beautiful fruit, each with an arm
about the other's waist. Man must be naturally bad; for all this
strange joy only evoked in me a feeling of uttermost despondency.
That thronging populace displayed such artless delight in the simple
act of living, that all the shynesses begotten by my old habits as
an author awoke and intensified into something like fright.
Furthermore, I found myself much discouraged by my inability to
understand a word of all the storm of chatter about me. It was a
humiliating experience for a philologist. Thus I had begun to feel
quite sulky, when I was startled to hear someone behind me observe:
"Dimitri, that old man is certainly a Frenchman. He looks so
bewildered that I really fell sorry for him. Shall I speak to him?
...He has such a goo-natured look, with that round back of his--do
you not think so, Dimitri?"
It was said in French by a woman's voice. For the moment it was
disagreeable to hear myself spoken of as an old man. Is a man old
at sixty-two? Only the other day, on the Pont des Arts, my colleague
Perrot d'Avrignac complimented me on my youthful appearance; and I
should think him a better authority about one's age than that young
chatterbox who has taken it on herself to make remarks about my
back. My back is round, she says. Ah! ah! I had some suspicion
myself to that effect, but I am not going now to believe it at all,
since it is the opinion of a giddy-headed young woman. Certainly
I will not turn my head round to see who it was that spoke; but I
am sure it was a pretty woman. Why? Because she talks like a
capricious person and like a spoiled child. Ugly women may be
naturally quite as capricious as pretty ones; but as they are never
petted and spoiled, and as no allowances are made for them, they
soon find themselves obliged either to suppress their whims or to
hide them. On the other hand, the pretty women can be just as
fantastical as they please. My neighbour is evidently one of the
latter.... But, after all, coming to think it over, she really
did nothing worse than to express, in her own way, a kindly thought
about me, for which I ought to feel grateful.
These reflections--include the last and decisive one--passed through
my mind in less than a second; and if I have taken a whole minute
to tell them, it is characteristic of most philologists. In less
than a second, therefore, after the voice had ceased, I did turn
round, and saw a pretty little woman--a sprightly brunette.
"Madame," I said, with a bow, "excuse my involuntary indiscretion.
I could not help overhearing what you have just said. You would
like to be of service to a poor old man. And the wish, Madame, has
already been fulfilled--the mere sound of a French voice has given
me such pleasure that I must thank you."
I bowed again, and turned to go away; but my foot slipped upon a
melon-rind, and I should certainly have embraced the Parthenopean
soil had not the young lady put out her hand and caught me.
There is a force in circumstances--even in the very smallest
circumstances--against which resistance is vain. I resigned myself
to remain the protege of the fair unknown.
"It is late," she said; "do you not wish to go back to your hotel,
which must be quite close to ours--unless it be the same one?"
"Madame," I replied, "I do not know what time it is, because
somebody has stolen my watch; but I think, as you say, that it must
be time to retire; and I shall be very glad to regain my hotel in
the company of such courteous compatriots."
So saying, I bowed once more to the young lady, and also saluted
her companion, a silent colossus with a gentle and melancholy face.
After having gone a little way with them, I learned, among other
matters, that my new acquaintances were the Prince and Princess
Trepof, and that they were making a trip round the world for the
purpose of finding match-boxes, of which they were making a
collection.
We proceeded along a narrow, tortuous vicoletto, lighted only by
a single lamp burning in the niche of a Madonna. The purity and
transparency of the air gave a celestial softness and clearness to
the very darkness itself; and one could find one's way without
difficulty under such a limpid night. But in a little while we
began to pass through a "venella," or, in Neopolitan parlance, a
sottoportico, which led under so many archways and so many far-
projecting balconies that no gleam of light from the sky could
reach us. My young guide had made us take this route as a short
cut, she assured us; but I think she did so quite as much simply
in order to show that she felt at home in Naples, and knew the
city thoroughly. Indeed, she needed to know it very thoroughly
to venture by night into that labyrinth of subterranean alleys and
flights of steps. If ever any many showed absolute docility in
allowing himself to be guided, that man was myself. Dante never
followed the steps of Beatrice with more confidence than I felt in
following those of Princess Trepof.
The lady appeared to find some pleasure in my conversation, for
she invited me to take a carriage-drive with her on the morrow to
visit the grotto of Posilippo and the tomb of Virgil. She declared
she had seen me somewhere before; but she could not remember if it
had been a Stockholm or at Canton. In the former event I was a
very celebrated professor of geology; in the latter, a provision-
merchant whose courtesy and kindness had been much appreciated.
One thing certain was that she had seen my back somewhere before.
"Excuse me," she added; "we are continually travelling, my husband
and I, to collect match-boxes and to change our ennui by changing
country. Perhaps it would be more reasonable to content ourselves
with a single variety of ennui. But we have made all our
preparations and arrangements for travelling: all our plans have
been laid out in advance, and it gives us no trouble, whereas it
would be very troublesome for us to stop anywhere in particular.
I tell you all this so that you many not be surprised if my
recollections have become a little mixed up. But from the moment
I first saw you at a distance this evening, I felt--in fact I knew--
that I had seen you before. Now the question is, 'Where was it
that I saw you?' You are not then, either the geologist or the
provision-merchant?"
"No, Madame," I replied, "I am neither the one nor the other; and
I am sorry for it--since you have had reason to esteem them. There
is really nothing about me worthy of your interest. I have spent
all my life poring over books, and I have never traveled: you
might have known that from my bewilderment, which excited your
compassion. I am a member of the Institute."
"You are a member of the Institute! How nice! Will you not write
something for me in my album? Do you know Chinese? I would like
so much to have you write something in Chinese or Persian in my
album. I will introduce you to my friend, Miss Fergusson, who
travels everywhere to see all the famous people in the world. She
will be delighted.... Dimitri, did you hear that?--this gentleman
is a member of the Institute, and he has passed all his life over
books."
The prince nodded approval.
"Monsieur," I said, trying to engage him in our conversation, "it
is true that something can be learned from books; but a great deal
more can be learned by travelling, and I regret that I have not
been able to go round the world like you. I have lived in the same
house for thirty years and I scarcely every go out."
"Lived in the same house for thirty years!" cried Madame Trepof;
"is it possible?"
"Yes, Madame," I answered. "But you must know the house is situated
on the bank of the Seine, and in the very handsomest and most famous
part of the world. From my window I can see the Tuileries and the
Louvre, the Pont-Neuf, the towers of Notre-Dame, the turrets of
the Palais de Justice, and the spire of the Sainte-Chapelle. All
those stones speak to me; they tell me stories about the days of
Saint-Louis, of the Valois, of Henri IV., and of Louus XIV. I
understand them, and I love them all. It is only a very small
corner of the world, but honestly, Madame, where is there a more
glorious spot?"
At this moment we found ourselves upon a public square--a largo
steeped in the soft glow of the night. Madame Trepof looked at
me in an uneasy manner; her lifted eyebrows almost touched the
black curls about her forehead.
"Where do you live then?" she demanded brusquely.
"On the Quai Malaquais, Madame, and my name is Bonnard. It is not
a name very widely known, but I am contented if my friends do not
forget it."
This revelation, unimportant as it was, produced an extraordinary
effect upon Madame Trepof. She immediately turned her back upon
me and caught her husband's arm.
"Come, Dimitri!" she exclaimed, "do walk a little faster. I am
horribly tired, and you will not hurry yourself in the least. We
shall never get home.... As for you, monsieur, your way lies over
there!"
She made a vague gesture in the direction of some dark vicolo,
pushed her husband the opposite way, and called to me, without even
turning her head.
"Adieu, Monsieur! We shall not go to Posilippo to-morrow, nor the
day after, either. I have a frightful headache!... Dimitri, you
are unendurable! will you not walk faster?"
I remained for the moment stupefied, vainly trying to think what I
could have done to offend Madame Trepof. I had also lost my way,
and seemed doomed to wander about all night. In order to ask my
way, I would have to see somebody; and it did not seem likely that
I should find a single human being who could understand me. In
my despair I entered a street at random--a street, or rather a
horrible alley that had the look of a murderous place. It proved
so in fact, for I had not been two minutes in it before I saw two
men fighting with knives. They were attacking each other more
fiercely with their tongues than with their weapons; and I
concluded from the nature of the abuse they were showering upon
each other that it was a love affair. I prudently made my way into
a side alley while those two good fellows were still much too busy
with their own affairs to think about mine. I wandered hopelessly
about for a while, and at last sat down, completely discouraged,
on a stone bench, inwardly cursing the strange caprices of Madame
Trepof.
"How are you, Signor? Are you back from San Carlo? Did you hear
the diva sing? It is only at Naples you can hear singing like
hers."
I looked up, and recognised my host. I had seated myself with my
back to the facade of my hotel, under the window of my own room.
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Monte-Allegro, November 30, 1859.
We were all resting--myself, my guides, and their mules--on a road
from Sciacca to Girgenti, at a tavern in the miserable village of
Monte-Allegro, whose inhabitants, consumed by the mal aria,
continually shiver in the sun. But nevertheless they are Greeks,
and their gaiety triumphs over all circumstances. A few gather
about the tavern, full of smiling curiosity. One good story
would have sufficed, had I known how to tell it to them, to make
them forget all the woes of life. They had all a look of
intelligence! and their women, although tanned and faded, wore
their long black cloaks with much grace.
Before me I could see old ruins whitened by the sea-wind--ruins
about which no grass ever grows. The dismal melancholy of deserts
prevails over this arid land, whose cracked surface can barely
nourish a few shriveled mimosas, cacti, and dwarf palms. Twenty
yards away, along the course of a ravine, stones were gleaming
whitely like a long line of scattered bones. They told me that was
the bed of a stream.
I had been fifteen days in Sicily. On coming into the Bay of
Palermo--which opens between the two mighty naked masses of the
Pelligrino and the Catalfano, and extends inward along the "Golden
Conch"--the view inspired me with such admiration that I resolved
to travel a little in this island, so ennobled by historic memories,
and rendered so beautiful by the outlines of its hills, which reveal
the principles of Greek art. Old pilgrim though I was, grown hoary
in the Gothic Occident--I dared to venture upon that classic soil;
and, securing a guide, I went from Palermo to Trapani, from Trapani
to Selinonte, from Selinonte to Sciacca--which I left this morning
to go to Girgenti, where I am to find the MS. of Clerk Alexander.
The beautiful things I have seen are still so vivid in my mind that
I feel the task of writing them would be a useless fatigue. Why
spoil my pleasure-trip by collecting notes? Lovers who love truly
do not write down their happiness.
Wholly absorbed by the melancholy of the present and the poetry of
the past, my thoughts people with beautiful shapes, and my eyes
ever gratified by the pure and harmonious lines of the landscape,
I was resting in the tavern at Monte-Allegro, sipping a glass of
heavy, fiery wine, when I saw two persons enter the waiting-room,
whom, after a moment's hesitation, I recognised as the Prince and
Princess Trepof.
This time I saw the princess in the light--and what a light! He
who has known that of Sicily can better comprehend the words of
Sophocles: "Oh holy light!... Eye of the Golden Day!" Madame
Trepof, dressed in a brown-holland and wearing a broad-brimmed straw
hat, appeared to me a very pretty woman of about twenty-eight.
Her eyes were luminous as a child's; but her slightly plump chin
indicated the age of plenitude. She is, I must confess it, quite
an attractive person. She is supple and changeful; her mood is
like water itself--and, thank Heaven! I am no navigator. I thought
I discerned in her manner a sort of ill-humour, which I attributed
presently, by reason of some observations she uttered at random,
to the fact that she had met no brigands upon her route.
"Such things only happen to us!" she exclaimed, with a gesture of
discouragement.
She called for a glass of iced water, which the landlord presented
to her with a gesture that recalled to me those scenes of funeral
offerings painted upon Greek vases.
I was in no hurry to introduce myself to a lady who had so abruptly
dropped my acquaintance in the public square at Naples; but she
perceived me in my corner, and her frown notified me very plainly
that our accidental meeting was disagreeable to her.
After she had sipper her ice-water for a few moments--whether because
her whim had suddenly changed, or because my loneliness aroused her
pity, I did not know--she walked directly to me.
"Good-day, Monsieur Bonnard," she said. "How do you do? What strange
chance enables us to meet again in this frightful country?"
"This country is not frightful, Madame," I replied. "Beauty is so
great and so august a quality that centuries of barbarism cannot
efface it so completely that adorable vestiges of it will not always
remain. The majesty of the antique Ceres still overshadows these
arid valleys; and that Greek Muse who made Arethusa and Maenalus
ring with her divine accents, still sings for my ears upon the barren
mountain and in the place of the dried-up spring. Yes, Madame, when
our globe, no longer inhabited, shall, like the moon, roll a wan
corpse through space, the soil which bears the ruins of Selinonte
will still keep the seal of beauty in the midst of universal death;
and then, then, at least there will be no frivolous mouth to blaspheme
the grandeur of these solitudes."
I knew well enough that my words were beyond the comprehension of the
pretty little empty-head which heard them. But an old fellow like
myself who has worn out his life over books does not know how to
adapt his tone to circumstances. Besides I wished to give Madame
Trepof a lesson in politeness. She received it with so much
submission, and with such an air of comprehension, that I hastened to
add, as good-naturedly as possible,
"As to whether the chance which has enabled me to meet you again be
lucky or unlucky, I cannot decide the question until I am sure that
my presence be not disagreeable to you. You appeared to become weary
of my company very suddenly at Naples the other day. I can only
attribute that misfortune to my naturally unpleasant manner--since,
on that occasion, I had had the honour of meeting you for the first
time in my life."
These words seem to cause her inexplicable joy. She smiled upon me
in the most gracious, mischievous way, and said very earnestly,
holding out her hand, which I touched with my lips,
"Monsieur Bonnard, do not refuse to accept a seat in my carriage.
You can chat with me on the way about antiquity, and that will amuse
me ever so much."
"My dear," exclaimed the prince, "you can do just as you please; but
you ought to remember that one is horribly cramped in that carriage
of yours; and I fear that you are only offering Monsieur Bonnard
the chance of getting a frightful attack of lumbago."
Madame Trepof simply shook her head by way of explaining that such
considerations had no weight with her whatever; then she untied her
hat. The darkness of her black curls descended over her eyes, and
bathed them in velvety shadow. She remained a little while quite
motionless, and her face assumed a surprising expression of reverie.
But all of a sudden she darted at some oranges which the tavern-keeper
had brought in a basket, and began to throw them, one by one, into a
fold of her dress.
"These will be nice on the road," she said. "We are going just where
you are going--to Girgenti. I must tell you all about it. you know
that my husband is making a collection of match-boxes. We bought
thirteen hundred match-boxes at Marseilles. But we heard there was
a factory of them at Girgenti. According to what we were told, it
is a very small factory, and its products--which are very ugly--never
go outside the city and its suburbs. So we are going to Girgenti just
to buy match-boxes. Dimitri has been a collector of all sorts of
things; but the only kind of collection which can now interest him
is a collection of match-boxes. He has already got five thousand
two hundred and fourteen different kinds. Some of them gave us
frightful trouble to find. For instance, we knew that at Naples
boxes were once made with the portraits of Mazzini and Garibaldi on
them; and that the police had seized the plates from which the
portraits were printed, and put the manufacturer in gaol. Well, by
dint of searching and inquiring for ever so long a while, we found
one of those boxes at last for sale at one hundred francs, instead
of two sous. It was not really too dear at that price; but we were
denounced for buying it. We were taken for conspirators. All our
baggage was searched; they could not find the box, because I had
hidden it so well; but they found my jewels, and carried them off.
They have them still. The incident made quite a sensation, and we
were going to get arrested. But the king was displeased about it,
and he ordered them to leave us alone. Up to that time, I used to
think it was very stupid to collect match-boxes; but when I found
that there were risks of losing liberty, and perhaps even life, by
doing it, I began to feel a taste for it. Now I am an absolute
fanatic on the subject. We are going to Sweden next summer to
complete our series.... Are we not, Dimitri?"
I felt--must I confess it?--a thorough sympathy with these intrepid
collectors. No doubt I would rather have found Monsieur and Madame
Trepof engaged in collecting antique marbles or painted vases in
Sicily. I should have like to have found them interested in the
ruins of Syracuse, or the poetical traditions of the Eryx. But at
all events, they were making some sort of a collection--they belonged
to the great confraternity--and I could not possibly make fun of them
without making fun of myself. Besides, Madame Trepof had spoken of
her collection with such an odd mingling of irony and enthusiasm that
I could not help finding the idea a very good one.
We were getting ready to leave the tavern, when we noticed some
people coming downstairs from the upper room, carrying carbines under
their dark cloaks. to me they had the look of thorough bandits; and
after they were gone I told Monsieur Trepof my opinion of them. He
answered me, very quietly, that he also thought they were regular
bandits; and the guides begged us to apply for an escort of gendarmes,
but Madame Trepof besought us not to do anything of the kind. She
declared that we must not "spoil her journey."
Then, turning her persuasive eyes upon me, she asked,
"Do you not believe, Monsieur Bonnard, that there is nothing in life
worth having except sensations?"
"Why, certainly, Madame," I answered; "but then we must take into
consideration the nature of the sensations themselves. Those which
a noble memory or a grand spectacle creates within us certainly
represent what is best in human life; but those merely resulting
from the menace of danger seem to me sensations which one should be
very careful to avoid as much as possible. For example, would you
think it a very pleasant thing, Madame, while travelling over the
mountains at midnight, to find the muzzle of a carbine suddenly
pressed against your forehead?"
"Oh, no!" she replied; "the comic-operas have made carbines absolutely
ridiculous, and it would be a great misfortune to any young woman
to find herself in danger from an absurd weapon. But it would be
quite different with a knife--a very cold and very bright knife blade,
which makes a cold shudder go right through one's heart."
She shuddered even as she spoke; closed her eyes, and threw her head
back. Then she resumed:
"People like you are so happy! You can interest yourselves in all
sorts of things!"
She gave a sidelong look at her husband, who was talking with the
innkeeper. Then she leaned towards me, and murmured very low:
"You see, Dimitri and I, we are both suffering from ennui! We
have still the match-boxes. But at last one gets tired even of
match-boxes. Besides, our collection will soon be complete. And
then what are we going to do?"
"Oh, Madame!" I exclaimed, touched by the moral unhappiness of this
pretty person, "if you only had a son, then you would know what to
do. You would then learn the purpose of your life, and your thoughts
would become at once more serious and yet more cheerful."
"But I have a son," she replied. "He is a big boy; he is eleven
years old, and he suffers from ennui like the rest of us. Yes, my
George has ennui, too; he is tired of everything. It is very
wretched."
She glanced again towards her husband, who was superintending the
harnessing of the mules on the road outside--testing the condition
of girths and straps. Then she asked me whether there had been many
changes on the Quai Malaquais during the past ten years. She declared
she never visited that neighbourhood because it was too far way.
"Too far from Monte Allegro?" I queried.
"Why, no!" she replied. "Too far from the Avenue des Champs Elysees,
where we live."
And she murmured over again, as if talking to herself, "Too far!--too
far!" in a tone of reverie which I could not possibly account for.
All at once she smiled again, and said to me,
"I like you, Monsieur Bonnard!--I like you very, very much!"
The mules had been harnessed. The young woman hastily picked up a
few oranges which had rolled off her lap; rose up; looked at me,
and burst out laughing.
"Oh!" she exclaimed, "how I should like to see you grappling with the
brigands! You would say such extraordinary things to them!...
Please take my hat, and hold my umbrella for me, Monsieur Bonnard."
"What a strange little mind!" I thought to myself, as I followed
her. "It could only have been in a moment of inexcusable
thoughtlessness that Nature gave a child to such a giddy little
woman!"
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Girgenti. Same day.
Her manners had shocked me. I left her to arrange herself in her
lettica, and I made myself as comfortable as I could in my own.
These vehicles, which have no wheels, are carried by two mules--one
before and one behind. This kind of litter, or chaise, is of ancient
origin. I had often seen representations of similar ones in the
French MSS. of the fourteenth century. I had no idea then that one
of those vehicles would be at a future day placed at my own disposal.
We must never be too sure of anything.
For three hours the mules sounded their little bells, and thumped
the calcined ground with their hoofs. On either hand there slowly
defiled by us the barren monstrous shapes of a nature totally African.
Half-way we made a halt to allow our animals to recover breath.
Madame Trepof came to me on the road, took my arm, and drew me a
little away from the party. Then, very suddenly, she said to me in
a tone of voice I had never heard before:
"Do not think that I am a wicked woman. My George knows that I am a
good mother."
We walked side by side for a moment in silence. She looked up, and
I saw that she was crying.
"Madame," I said to her, "look at this soil which has been burned
and cracked by five long months of fiery heat. A little white lily
has sprung up from it."
And I pointed with my cane to the frail stalk, tipped by a double
blossom.
"Your heart," I said, "however arid it be, bears also its white
lily; and that is reason enough why I do not believe that you are
what you say--a wicked woman."
"Yes, yes, yes!" she cried, with the obstinacy of a child--"I am a
wicked woman. But I am ashamed to appear so before you who are so
good--so very, very good."
"You do not know anything at all about it," I said to her.
"I know it! I know all about you, Monsieur Bonnard!" she declared,
with a smile.
And she jumped back into her lettica.
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Girgenti, November 30, 1859.
I awoke the following morning in the House of Gellias. Gellias was
a rich citizen of ancient Agrigentum. He was equally celebrated
for his generosity and for his wealth; and he endowed his native
city with a great number of free inns. Gellias has been dead for
thirteen hundred years; and nowadays there is no gratuitous
hospitality among civilised peoples. But the name of Gellias has
become that of a hotel in which, by reason of fatigue, I was able to
obtain one good night's sleep.
The modern Girgenti lifts its high, narrow, solid streets, dominated
by a sombre Spanish cathedral, upon the side of the acropolis of
the antique Agrigentum. I can see from my windows, half-way on the
hillside towards the sea, the white range of temples partially
destroyed. The ruins alone have some aspect of coolness. All the
rest is arid. Water and life have forsaken Agrigentine. Water--the
divine Nestis of the Agrigentine Empedocles--is so necessary to
animated beings that nothing can live far from the rivers and the
springs. But the port of Girgenti, situated at a distance of three
kilometres from the city, has a great commerce. "And it is in this
dismal city," I said to myself, "upon this precipitous rock, that
the manuscript of Clerk Alexander is to be found!" I asked my way
to the house of Signor Michel-Angelo Polizzi, and proceeded thither.
I found Signor Polizzi, dressed all in white from head to feet, busy
cooking sausages in a frying-pan. At the sight of me, he let go
the frying-pan, threw up his arms in the air, and uttered shrieks
of enthusiasm. He was a little man whose pimply features, aquiline
nose, round eyes, and projecting chin formed a very expressive
physiognomy.
He called me "Excellence," said he was going to mark the day with a
white stone, and made me sit down. The hall in which we were
represented the union of the kitchen, reception-room, bedchamber,
studio, and wine-cellar. There were charcoal furnaces visible, a
bed, paintings, an easel, bottles, strings of onions, and a
magnificent lustre of coloured glass pendants. I glanced at the
paintings on the wall.
"The arts! the arts!" cried Signor Polizzi, throwing up his arms
again to heaven--"the arts! What dignity! what consolation!
Excellence, I am a painter!"
And he showed me an unfinished Saint-Francis, which indeed could
very well remain unfinished for ever without any loss to religion
or to art. Next he showed me some old paintings of a better style,
but apparently restored after a decidedly reckless manner.
"I repair," he said--"I repair old paintings. Oh, the Old Masters!
What genius, what soul!"
"Why, then," I said to him, "you must be a painter, an archaeologist,
and a wine-merchant all in one?"
"At your service, Excellence," he answered. "I have a zucco here
at this very moment--a zucco of which every single drop is a pearl
of fire. I want your Lordship to taste of it."
"I esteem the wines of Sicily," I responded, "but it was not for the
sake of your flagons that I came to see you , Signor Polizzi."
He: "Then you have come to see me about paintings. You are an
amateur. It is an immense delight for me to receive amateurs. I
am going to show you the chef-d'oeuvre of Monrealese; yes,
Excellence, his chef-d'oeuvre! An Adoration of Shepherds! It is
the pearl of the whole Sicilian school!"
I: "Later on I will be glad to see the chef-d'oeuvre; but let us
first talk about the business which brings me here."
His little quick bright eyes watched my face curiously; and I
perceived, with anguish, that he had not the least suspicion of the
purpose of my visit.
A cold sweat broke out over my forehead; and in the bewilderment of
my anxiety I stammered out something to this effect:
"I have come from Paris expressly to look at a manuscript of the
Legende Doree, which you informed me was in your possession."
At these words he threw up his arms, opened his mouth and eyes to
the widest possible extent, and betrayed every sign of extreme
nervousness.
"Oh! the manuscript of the 'Golden Legend!' A pearl, Excellence!
a ruby, a diamond! Two miniatures so perfect that they give one
the feeling of glimpses of Paradise! What suavity! Those colours
ravished from the corollas of flowers make a honey for the eyes!
Even a Sicilian could have done no better!"
"Let me see it, then," I asked; unable to conceal either my anxiety
or my hope.
"Let you see it!" cried Polizzi. "But how can I, Excellence? I
have not got it any longer! I have not got it!"
And he seemed determined to tear out his hair. He might indeed have
pulled every hair in his head out of his hide before I should have
tried to prevent him. But he stopped of his own accord, before he
had done himself any grievous harm.
"What!" I cried out in anger--"what! you make me come all the way
from Paris to Girgenti, by promising to show me a manuscript, and
now, when I come, you tell me you have not got it! It is simply
infamous, Monsieur! I shall leave your conduct to be judged by all
honest men!"
Anybody who could have seen me at that moment would have been able
to form a good idea of the aspect of a furious sheep.
"It is infamous! it is infamous!" I repeated, waving my arms, which
trembled from anger.
Then Michel-Angelo Polizzi let himself fall into a chair in the
attitude of a dying hero. I saw his eyes fill with tears, and his
hair--until then flamboyant and erect upon his head--fall down in
limp disorder over his brow.
"I am a father, Excellence! I am a father!" he groaned, wringing
his hands.
He continued, sobbing:
"My son Rafael--the son of my poor wife, for whose death I have been
mourning fifteen years--Rafael, Excellence, wanted to settle at Paris;
he hired a shop in the Rue Lafitte for the sale of curiosities. I
gave him everything precious which I had--I gave him my finest
majolicas; my most beautiful Urbino ware; my masterpieces of art;
what paintings, Signor! Even now they dazzle me with I see them only
in imagination! And all of them signed! Finally, I gave him the
manuscript of the 'Golden Legend'! I would have given him my flesh
and my blood! An only son, Signor! the son of my poor saintly wife!"
"So," I said, "while I--relying on your written word, Monsieur--was
travelling to the very heart of Sicily to find the manuscript of the
Clerk Alexander, the same manuscript was actually exposed for sale
in a window in the Rue Lafitte, only fifteen hundred yards from my
house?"
"Yes, it was there! that is positively true!" exclaimed Signor
Polizzi, suddenly growing calm again; "and it is there still--at least
I hope it is, Excellence."
He took a card from a shelf as he spoke, and offered it to me, saying,
"Here is the address of my son. Make it known to your friends, and
you will oblige me. Faience and enameled wares; hangings; pictures.
He has a complete stock of objects of art--all at the fairest possible
prices--and everything authentic, I can vouch for it, upon my honour!
Go and see him. He will show you the manuscript of the 'Golden
Legend.' Two miniatures miraculously fresh in colour!"
I was feeble enough to take the card he held out to me.
The fellow was taking further advantage of my weakness to make me
circulate the name of Rafael Polizzi among the Societies of the
learned!
My hand was already on the door-knob, when the Sicilian caught me by
the arm; he had a look as of sudden inspiration.
"Ah! Excellence!" he cried, "what a city is this city of ours! It
gave birth to Empedocles! Empedocles! What a great man what a
great citizen! What audacity of thought! what virtue! what soul!
At the port over there is a statue of Empedocles, before which I
bare my head each time that I pass by! When Rafael, my son, was
going away to found an establishment of antiquities in the Rue
Lafitte, at Paris, I took him to the port, and there, at the foot
of that statue of Empedocles, I bestowed upon him my paternal
benediction! 'Always remember Empedocles!' I said to him. Ah!
Signor, what our unhappy country needs to-day is a new Empedocles!
Would you not like me to show you the way to his statue, Excellence?
I will be your guide among the ruins here. I will show you the temple
of Castor and Pollux, the temple of the Olympian Jupiter, the temple
of the Lucinian Juno, the antique well, the tomb of Theron, and the
Gate of Gold! All the professional guides are asses; but we--we
shall make excavations, if you are willing--and we shall discover
treasures! I know the science of discovering hidden treasures--the
secret art of finding their whereabouts--a gift from Heaven!"
I succeeded in tearing myself away from his grasp. But he ran after
me again, stopped me at the foot of the stairs, and said in my ear,
"Listen, Excellence. I will conduct you about the city; I will
introduce you to some Girgentines! What a race! what types! what
forms! Sicilian girls, Signor!--the antique beauty itself!"
"Go to the devil!" I cried at last, in anger, and rushed into the
street, leaving him still writhing in the loftiness of his enthusiasm.
When I had got out of his sight, I sank down upon a stone, and began
to think, with my face in my hands.
"And it was for this," I said to myself--"it was to hear such
propositions as this that I came to Sicily! That Polizzi is simply a
scoundrel, and his son another; and they made a plan together to ruin
me." But what was their scheme? I could not unravel it. Meanwhile,
it may be imagined how discouraged and humiliated I felt.
A merry burst of laughter caused me to turn my head, and I saw Madame
Trepof running in advance of her husband, and holding up something
which I could not distinguish clearly.
She sat down beside me, and showed me--laughing more merrily all the
while--an abominable little paste-board box, on which was printed a
red and blue face, which the inscription declared to be the face of
Empedocles.
"Yes, Madame," I said, "but that abominable Polizzi, to whom I advise
you not to send Monsieur Trepof, has made me fall out for ever with
Empedocles; and this portrait is not at all of a nature to make me
feel more kindly to the ancient philosopher."
"Oh!" declared Madame Trepof, "it is ugly, but it is rare! These
boxes are not exported at all; you can buy them only where they are
made. Dimitri has six others just like this in his pocket. We
got them so as to exchange with other collectors. You understand?
At none o'clock this morning we were at the factory. You see we
did not waste our time."
"So I certainly perceive, Madame," I replied, bitterly; "but I have
lost mine."
I then saw that she was a naturally good-hearted woman. All her
merriment vanished.
"Poor Monsieur Bonnard! poor Monsieur Bonnard!" she murmured.
And, taking my hand in hers, she added:
"Tell me about your troubles."
I told her about them. My story was long; but she was evidently
touched by it, for she asked me quite a number of circumstantial
questions, which I took for proof of her friendly interest. She
wanted to know the exact title of the manuscript, its shape, its
appearance, and its age; she asked me for the address of Signor Rafael
Polizzi.
And I gave it to her; thus doing (O destiny!) precisely what the
abominable Polizzi had told me to do.
It is sometimes difficult to check oneself. I recommenced my plaints
and my imprecations. But this time Madame Trepof only burst out
laughing.
"Why do you laugh?" I asked her.
"Because I am a wicked woman," she answered.
And she fled away, leaving me all disheartened on my stone.
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Paris, December 8, 1859.
My unpacked trunks still encumbered the hall. I was seated at a
tabled covered with all those good things which the land of France
produces for the delectation of gourmets. I was eating a pate
le Chartres, which is alone sufficient to make one love one's
country. Therese, standing before me with her hands joined over her
white apron, was looking at me with benignity, with anxiety, and with
pity. Hamilcar was rubbing himself against my legs, wild with
delight.
These words of an old poet came back to my memory:
"Happy is he who, like Ulysses, hath made a goodly journey."
..."Well," I thought to myself, "I travelled to no purpose; I have
come back with empty hands; but, like Ulysses, I made a goodly
journey."
And having taken my last sip of coffee, I asked Therese for my hat
and cane, which she gave me not without dire suspicions; she feared
I might be going upon another journey. But I reassured her by telling
her to have dinner ready at six o'clock.
It had always been a keen pleasure for me to breathe the air in those
Parisian streets whose every paving-slab and every stone I love
devotedly. But I had an end in view, and I took my way straight to
the Rue Lafitte. I was not long in find the establishment of Signor
Rafael Polizzi. It was distinguishable by a great display of old
paintings which, although all bearing the signature of some
illustrious artist, had a certain family air of resemblance that
might have suggested some touching idea about the fraternity of
genius, had it not still more forcibly suggested the professional
tricks of Polizzi senior. Enriched by these doubtful works of art,
the shop was further rendered attractive by various petty curiosities:
poniards, drinking-vessels, goblets, figulines, brass guadrons,
and Hispano-Arabian wares of metallic lustre.
Upon a Portuguese arm-chair, decorated with an escutcheon, lay a copy
of the "Heures" of Simon Vostre, open at the page which has an
astrological figure on it; and an old Vitruvius, placed upon a quaint
chest, displayed its masterly engravings of caryatides and telamones.
This apparent disorder which only masked cunning arrangement, this
factitious hazard which had placed the best objects in the most
favourable light, would have increased my distrust of the place, but
that the distrust which the mere name of Polizzi had already inspired
could not have been increased by any circumstances--being already
infinite.
Signor Rafael, who sat there as the presiding genius of all these
vague and incongruous shapes, impressed me as a phlegmatic young man,
with a sort of English character. he betrayed no sign whatever of
those transcendent faculties displayed by his father in the arts of
mimcry and declamation.
I told him what I had come for; he opened a cabinet and drew from it
a manuscript, which he placed on a table that I might examine it at
my leisure.
Never in my life did I experience such an emotion--except, indeed,
during some few brief months of my youth, months whose memories,
though I should live a hundred years, would remain as fresh at my
last hour as in the first day they came to me.
It was, indeed, the very manuscript described by the librarian of
Sir Thomas Raleigh; it was, indeed, the manuscript of the Clerk
Alexander which I saw, which I touched! The work of Voragine himself
had been perceptibly abridged; but that made little difference to
me. All the inestimable additions of the monk of Saint-Germain-
des-Pres were there. That was the main point! I tried to read the
Legend of Saint Droctoveus; but I could not--all the lines of the
page quivered before my eyes, and there was a sound in my ears like
the noise of a windmill in the country at night. Nevertheless, I
was able to see that the manuscript offered every evidence of
indubitable authenticity. The two drawings of the Purification of
the Virgin and the Coronationof Proserpine were meagre in design
and vulgar in violence of colouring. Considerably damaged in 1824,
as attested by the catalogue of Sir Thomas, they had obtained
during the interval a new aspect of freshness. But this miracle
did not surprise me at all. And, besides, what did I care about
the two miniatures? The legends and the poem of Alexander--those
alone formed the treasure I desired. My eyes devoured as much of
it as they had the power to absorb.
I affected indifference while asking Signor Polizzi the price of the
manuscript; and, while awaiting his reply, I offered up a secret
prayer that the price might not exceed the amount of ready money
at my disposal--already much diminished by the cost of my expensive
voyage. Signor Polizzi, however, informed me that he was not at
liberty to dispose of the article, inasmuch as it did not belong
to him, and was to be sold at auction shortly, at the Hotel des
Ventes, with a number of other MSS. and several incunabula.
This was a severe blow to me. It tried to preserve my calmness,
notwithstanding, and replied somewhat to this effect:
"You surprise me, Monsieur! Your father, whom I talked with recently
at Girgenti, told me positively that the manuscript was yours. You
cannot now attempt to make me discredit your father's word."
"I DID own the manuscript, indeed," answered Signor Rafael with
absolute frankness; "but I do not own it any longer. I sold that
manuscript--the remarkable interest of which you have not failed
to perceive--to an amateur whom I am forbidden to name, and who,
for reasons which I am not at liberty to mention, finds himself
obliged to sell his collection. I am honoured with the confidence
of my customer, and was commissioned by him to draw up the catalogue
and manage the sale, which takes place the 24th of December. Now,
if you will be kind enough to give me your address, I shall have
the pleasure of sending you the catalogue, which is already in
the press. you fill find the 'Legende Doree' described in it as
'No. 42.'"
I gave my address, and left the shop.
The polite gravity of the son impressed me quite as disagreeably as
the impudent buffoonery of the father. I hated, from the bottom of
my heart, the tricks of the vile hagglers! It was perfectly evident
that the two rascals had a secret understanding, and had only devised
this auction-sale, with the aid of a professional appraiser, to force
the bidding on the manuscript I wanted so much up to an outrageous
figure. I was completely at their mercy. There is one evil in all
passionate desires, even the noblest--namely, that they leave us
subject to the will of others, and in so far dependent. This
reflection made me suffer cruelly; but it did not conquer my longing
to won the work of Clerk Alexander. While I was thus meditating, I
heard a coachman swear. And I discovered it was I whom he was
swearing at only when I felt the pole of a carriage poke me in the
ribs. I started aside, barely in time to save myself from being run
over; and whom did I perceive through the windows of the coupe?
Madame Trepof, being taken by two beautiful horses, and a coachman
all wrapped up in furs like a Russian Boyard, into the very street
I had just left. She did not notice me; she was laughing to herself
with that artless grace of expression which still preserved for her,
at thirty years, all the charm of her early youth.
"Well, well!" I said to myself, "she is laughing! I suppose she must
have just found another match-box."
And I made my way back to the Ponts, feeling very miserable.
Nature, eternally indifferent, neither hastened nor hurried the
twenty-fourth day of December. I went to the Hotel Bullion, and
took my place in Salle No. 4, immediately below the high desk at
which the auctioneer Boulouze and the expert Polizzi were to sit.
I saw the hall gradually fill with familiar faces. I shook hands
with several old booksellers of the quays; but that prudence which
any large interest inspires in even the most self-assured caused me
to keep silence in regard to the reason of my unaccustomed presence
in the halls of the Hotel Bullion. On the other hand, I questioned
those gentlemen at the auction sale; and I had teh satisfaction of
finding them all interested about matters in no wise related to my
affair.
Little by little the hall became thronged with interested or merely
curious spectators; and, after half an hour's delay, the auctioneer
with his ivory hammer, the clerk with his bundle of memorandum-papers,
and the crier, carrying his collection-box fixed to the end of a
pole, all took their places on the platform in the most solemn
business manner. The attendants ranged themselves at the foot of the
desk. The presiding officer having declared the sale open, a partial
hush followed.
A commonplace series of Preces dia, with miniatures, were first sold
off at mediocre prices. Needless to say, the illuminations of these
books were in perfect condition!
The lowness of the bids gave courage to the gathering of second-hand
booksellers present, who began to mingle with us, and become more
familiar. The dealers in old brass and bric-a-brac pressed forward
in their tun, waiting for the doors of an adjoining room to be
opened; and the voice of the auctioneer was drowned by the jests of
the Auvergnats.
A magnificent codex of the "Guerre des Juifs" revived attention. It
was long disputed for. "Five thousand francs! five thousand!" called
the crier, while the bric-a-brac dealers remained silent with
admiration. Then seven or eight antiphonaries brought us back again
to low prices. A fat old woman, in a loose gown, bareheaded--a
dealer in second-hand goods--encouraged by the size of the books and
the low prices bidden, had one of the antiphonaries knocked down to
her for thirty francs.
At last the expert Polizzi announced No. 42: "The 'Golden Legend';
French MS.; unpublished; two superb miniatures, with a starting bid
of three thousand francs."
"Three thousand! three thousand bid!" yelled the crier.
"Three thousand!" dryly repeated the auctioneer.
There was a buzzing in my head, and, as through a cloud, I saw a host
of curious faces all turning towards the manuscript, which a boy was
carrying open through the audience.
"Three thousand and fifty!" I said.
I was frightened by the sound of my own voice, and further confused
by seeing, or thinking that I saw, all eyes turned on me.
"Three thousand and fifty on the right!" called the crier, taking
up my bid.
"Three thousand one hundred!" responded Signor Polizzi.
Then began a heroic duel between the expert and myself.
"Three thousand five hundred!"
"Six hundred!"
"Seven hundred!"
"Four thousand!"
"Four thousand five hundred."
Then by a sudden bold stroke, Signor Polizzi raised the bid at once
to six thousand.
Six thousand francs was all the money I could dispose of. It
represented the possible. I risked the impossible.
"Six thousand one hundred!"
Alas! even the impossible did not suffice.
"Six thousand five hundred!" replied Signor Polizzi, with calm.
I bowed my head and sat there stupefied, unable to answer either yes
or no to the crier, who called to me:
"Six thousand five hundred, by me--not by you on the right there!--it
is my bid--no mistake! Six thousand five hundred!"
"Perfectly understood!" declared the auctioneer. "Six thousand five
hundred. Perfectly clear; perfectly plain.... Any more bids? The
last bid is six thousand five hundred francs."
A solemn silence prevailed. Suddenly I felt as if my head had burst
open. It was the hammer of the officiant, who, with a loud blow on
the platform, adjudged No. 42 irrevocably to Signor Polizzi.
Forthwith the pen of the clerk, coursing over the papier-timbre,
registered that great fact in a single line.
I was absolutely prostrated, and I felt the utmost need of rest and
quiet. Nevertheless, I did not leave my seat. My powers of
reflection slowly returned. Hope is tenacious. I had one more hope.
It occurred to me that the new owner of the "Legende Doree" might be
some intelligent and liberal bibliophile who would allow me to examine
the MS., and perhaps even to publish the more important parts. And,
with this idea, as soon as the sale was over I approached the expert
as he was leaving the platform.
"Monsieur," I asked him, "did you buy in No. 42 on your own account,
or on commission?"
"On commission. I was instructed not to let it go at any price."
"Can you tell me the name of the purchaser?"
"Monsieur, I regret that I cannot serve you in that respect. I have
been strictly forbidden to mention the name."
I went home in despair.
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December 30, 1859.
"Therese! don't you hear the bell? Somebody has been ringing at the
door for the last quarter of an hour?"
Therese does not answer. She is chattering downstairs with the
concierge, for sure. So that is the way you observe your old master's
birthday? You desert me even on the eve of Saint-Sylvestre! Alas!
if I am to hear any kind wishes to-day, they must come up from the
ground; for all who love me have long been buried. I really don't
know what I am still living for. There is the bell again!... I get
up slowly from my seat at the fire, with my shoulders still bent
from stooping over it, and go to the door myself. Whom do I see at
the threshold? It is not a dripping love, and I am not an old
Anacreon; but it is a very pretty little boy of about ten years old.
He is alone; he raises his face to look at me. His cheeks are
blushing; but his little pert nose gives one an idea of mischievous
pleasantry. He has feathers in his cap, and a great lace-ruff on
his jacket. The pretty little fellow! He holds in both arms a
bundle as big as himself, and asks me if I am Monsieur Sylvestre
Bonnard. I tell him yes; he gives me the bundle, tells me his mamma
sent it to me, and then he runs downstairs.
I go down a few steps; I lean over the balustrade, and see the little
cap whirling down the spiral of the stairway like a feather in the
wind. "Good-bye, my little boy!" I should have liked so much to
question him. But what, after all, could I have asked? It is not
polite to question children. Besides, the package itself will
probably give me more information than the messenger could.
It is a very big bundle, but not very heavy. I take it into my
library, and there untie the ribbons and unfasten the paper wrappings;
and I see--what? a log! a first-class log! a real Christmas log, but
so light that I know it must be hollow. Then I find that it is
indeed composed of two separate pieces, opening on hinges, and
fastened with hooks. I slip the hooks back, and find myself inundated
with violets! Violets! they pour over my table, over my knees, over
the carpet. They tumble into my vest, into my sleeves. I am all
perfumed with them.
"Therese! Therese! fill me some vases with water, and bring them
here, quick! Here are violets sent to us I know not from what country
nor by what hand; but it must be from a perfumed country, and by a
very gracious hand.... Do you hear me, old crow?"
I have put all the violets on my table--now completely covered by the
odorous mass. But there is still something in the log...a book--a
manuscript. It is...I cannot believe it, and yet I cannot doubt
it.... It is the "Legende Doree"!--It is the manuscript of the Clerk
Alexander! Here is the "Purification of the Virgin" and the
"Coronation of Proserpine";--here is the legend of Saint Droctoveus.
I contemplate this violet-perfumed relic. I turn the leaves of it--
between which the dark rich blossoms have slipped in here and there;
and, right opposite the legend of Saint-Cecilia, I find a card
bearing this name:
"Princess Trepof."
Princess Trepof!--you who laughed and wept by turns so sweetly under
the fair sky of Agrigentum!--you, whom a cross old man believed to be
only a foolish little woman!--to-day I am convinced of your rare and
beautiful folly; and the old fellow whom you now overwhelm with
happiness will go to kiss your hand, and give you back, in another
form, this precious manuscript, of which both he and science owe you
an exact and sumptuous publication!
Therese entered my study just at that moment; she seemed to be very
much excited.
"Monsieur!" she cried, "guess whom I saw just now in a carriage, with
a coat-of-arms painted on it, that was stopping before the door?"
"Parbleu!--Madame Trepof," I exclaimed.
"I don't know anything about any Madame Trepof," answered my
housekeeper. "The woman I saw just now was dressed like a duchess,
and had a little boy with her, with lace-frills all along the seams
of his clothes. And it was that same little Madame Coccoz you once
sent a log to, when she was lying-in here about eleven years ago.
I recognized her at once."
"What!" I exclaimed, "you mean to say it was Madame Coccoz, the widow
of the almanac-peddler?"
"Herself, Monsieur! The carriage-door was open for a minute to let
her little boy, who had just come from I don't know where, get in.
She hasn't changed scarcely at all. Well, why should those women
change?--they never worry themselves about anything. Only the Coccoz
woman looks a little fatter than she used to be. And the idea of a
woman that was taken in here out of pure charity coming to show off
her velvets and diamonds in a carriage with a crest painted on it!
Isn't it shameful!"
"Therese!" I cried, in a terrible voice, "if you ever speak to me
again about that lady except in terms of the deepest respect, you
and I will fall out! ...Bring me the Sevres vases to put those
violets in, which now give the City of Books a charm it never had
before."
While Therese went off with a sigh to get the Sevres vases, I
continued to contemplate those beautiful scattered violets, whose
odour spread all about me like the perfume of some sweet presence,
some charming soul; and I asked myself how it had been possible for
me never to recognise Madame Coccoz in the person of the Princess
Trepof. But that vision of the young widow, showing me her little
child on the stairs, had been a very rapid one. I had much more
reason to reproach myself for having passed by a gracious and lovely
soul without knowing it.
"Bonnard," I said to myself, "thou knowest how to decipher old texts;
but thou dost not know how to read in the Book of Life. That giddy
little Madame Trepof, whom thou once believed to possess no more
soul than a bird, has expended, in pure gratitude, more zeal and finer
tact than thou didst ever show for anybody's sake. Right royally
hath she repaid thee for the log-fire of her churching-day!
"Therese! Awhile ago you were a magpie; now you are becoming a
tortoise! Come and give some water to these Parmese violets."