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I could not even scream. I was silenced by shock and horror and fear. My heart almost leaped out of my chest, my eyes open wide, staring at the place I was just sitting at, watching it move far and far away from me by each passing second.
The night sky twinkled in front of my gaze but all that I could see was darkness.
I had not expected my end to be this easy, this terrifying. Those ten seconds of the fall felt like an eternity of falling into a black hole that I could not escape.
And just as I expected the pain to blind me and tear my existence away from the world, I got blind.
The darkness consumed my gaze suddenly and then almost in the very next second I was looking at the glaring red eyes.
"I wanted to die." These were the words that slipped out of my mouth immediately before I could even take a breath. It was a confession, a deadly truth.
His eyes bored into mine, there was chaos behind them and the victim was I.
"You should not have done that." I said as his fingers clutched my waist tightly, "you should not have saved me."
"Your death is not going to be this easy!" He barked, "I am going to make you regret betraying me."
As the words came out of his mouth, the suppressed feelings inside me could not get contained anymore. I was upset, furious, happy and sad. Everything, every emotion that existed in the world, was running through my veins like lava.
"Then do it!" I screamed, pushing at his chest so his fingers left my waist, "do whatever you want to do and get it over it god f*****g damn it!"
We were standing in a dark ally, there was no one to witness the quarrel going on between us both.
"Come back here." He ordered with an emotionless face.
But I had had enough of this suffering and fear. I had had enough pain.
"I... I do not want to endure anymore." I gulped loudly, trying to push back the hurt rising inside my chest, and started shouting instead, "Whatever I did, it was for you! To save you from dying. I did not do anything wrong. I did not commit any crime! Why the hell am I having to go through this hell? Why in the f*****g world everyone hates me so much?!"
"You can do anything to save your skin, shed countless crocodile tears if you want to." Elijah scoffed, his eyes glaring down at me, "you humans are pathetic. YOU are unbelievably pathetic."
"Yes, I am pathetic!" I hissed, "I am a f*****g moron who did whatever the soul of a dead person asked me to do blindly to save your f*****g life without caring about myself. There is no punishment in the world is enough to hail down for my crimes."
As I stopped speaking to control my erratic breathing, the pause engulfed both of us in silence. His eyes were still shooting daggers at me, but there was confusion on his face,
"What the hell are you talking about?" He spat out loudly.
For so many days, months, I had been dying to tell him the truth, to tell him everything that had been happening to me in reality and in my dreams. I wanted to pour out everything that had been burning me but now? Now all I wanted was to get the f**k away from him and all the mess.
"Go f**k yourself, Elijah." I heaved out the words furiously, turned around and started walking away.
I had barely taken five quick steps when a hand grabbed my wrist and pulled me back. I almost fell down on the ground, tripping over my own feet. But then I straightened to find him standing in front of me. His hand threw my wrist back like my skin had burnt him,
"You make excuses, you cry, you scream, and you say things that do not make any f*****g sense. That is all you are good at Ally." he snarled, "Has there been even a day when you said a word of f*****g truth?"
"NO!" I growled, stepping back slowly inch by inch, "Everything I said was a lie. All I know is to lie. That is the way I was born, Elijah. It is all my fault. I was so f*****g eager to get your c**k inside me that I faked my own k********g and forced you to pay money to buy me."
"Shut up!" he fumed.
"And right now? Just a few minutes ago when you saw Neil trying so desperately to pull my pants down? That was a show as well. I wanted him to r**e me. I was so f*****g desperate to have s*x with someone that I went inside a f*****g dump with an excuse of getting your f*****g whereabouts just so he can f**k my brains out."
"ALLY, SHUT THE f**k UP!" Elijah roared so loudly that my heart started pounding in fear.
"I won't." I said, my voice hoarse from screaming and crying for so long, "All I wanted to do was tell you how much I have been suffering just because of being with you, just because I saved you without giving a damn about what was going to happen to me. But now I have had enough."
"You did n..."
I raised my voice over his interruption, "I DO NOT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU ANYMORE! You can go to f*****g hell for all I care and I will not open my mouth to utter a word. I have tried enough. I have sacrificed enough and I do not have strength anymore." My hands pushed back the hairs sticking to my cheeks with the tears that just won't stop streaming down,
"I am so exhausted and in constant pain. Every time I close my eyes I am in pain. I do not know how much longer I can keep up with my life but for f***s sake, leave me alone. If you want to kill me, then kill me. If you plan on torturing me, I will not give you a chance for that because I am already on the verge of committing suicide."
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