Chapter 21
Ryder's only been gone for a few days, but it's unreal how much I miss him. I guess I never realized how much he means to me until I didn't have him around anymore. When he first left, I was angry. I was angry that he just disappeared and left me wondering where he's at and what he's up to. I was angry that he would make me worry with no kind of explanation whatsoever.
Not even a full day after he left, that anger turned to sadness. I started to question everything about our relationship and his feelings for me. And of course, that turned my sadness into depression.
And that's the state that I currently find myself in as I sit in front of the TV watching reruns of I Love Lucy and stuffing my face with double bubble ice cream. My hair is a matted up mess and I haven't chang
