“It is a pretty good haircut,” I said. “But they’re not all hairdressers and interior decorators, you know.”
“I get it, dude.” He nudged me with his elbow. “You want to say something? I got your back. It’s cool, you can do it.”
I nodded, but I was breathing pretty hard. “f*****g scared,” I said.
“No doubt.”
I stood up and said, “Hey,” in a much quieter voice than I’d intended. I tried again, and this time I managed to get the attention of most of the guys. I did my best not to look at Trey, but I did catch a glimpse as I was scanning the room. He was glaring at me, but I could see there was real fear behind the anger. I looked away. “Hey, I just wanted to tell you guys something. I wish I didn’t have to make a big dramatic thing out of it, because it’s not like that for me. It’s just a
