unwanted life

my life is not like the other kids who always play around doing anything they want with their parents around them, care for them, give them love and everything a child or a kid could ever wished for. i did want that kind of life but maybe God gave me this kind of life to know how strong I am inside. Let me tell you my characteristics.  I am shy, nervous always, clumsy, a liar, always making up stories when they knew it's my fault, and many things. Things had gotten really rough for me. I don't know why my mother always yell at me punishing me for everything even though I didn't do such thing. When I was 4, I guess.. My mother pulled my hair while I was playing outside our house because she said I was grounded, something like that I really am ashamed to my friends for what my mother did to me. She pulled my hair and dragged me home. "Mommy !! please stop !! " I was pleading for her to let me go. "I told you that you are grounded right?!" she yelled at me when we got home. " yes.. sorry i thought you were gone I really wanted to play with my friends." I explained to her while crying. "you are so stubborn! Do you not understand what i just said earlier?!! what kind of brain do you have ?!" she yelled at me  "I really a-.." I spoke but she answered "What?!!! you dare to speak ! what right do you have to speak?!! did i let you to speak?!!" she yelled while strucking me with various things she hold.  wounds and bruises from my body that morning.i cant barely move from lying on the floor.