Married to a Gangster (English)

Chapter 7

He never let go of my hand even when he needed to face Shaw so he can talk to him.

And I don’t know how to respond to what’s happening. I was scared earlier but now that Seije is here, I feel like everything's gonna be alright. 

I didn't hear them talk that much, and Shaw was watching me behind Seije. When our eyes met, he smiled at me. "Are you okay now?"

I nodded, "Thank you Shaw.."

"You ask your husband about what happened, he's the only person who can tell you and make you understand." He then glanced at Seije infront of us.

Seije remained silent. I'm not sure of what look he's giving his brother but I feel like they aren't in good terms like normal siblings, I feel like there's a gap between them, because I can only feel the coldness and nothing more.

"Let's go Lorraine," Seije pulled me and I can only smile at Shaw as a goodbye,

His eyes followed us until we got out of his house though.

I saw a black Mercedes Guardian waiting outside. Kysler opened the door and Seije motioned me to get in. He went inside and sat beside me at the backseat. I thought he's gonna drive but then Kysler sat on the driver's seat and I also noticed another car behind us.

The car roared to life and we went off. Silence stretched inside the car that I thought Seije can already hear my heartbeat. I realized then that the travel time is quite far and how am I supposed to survive with the awkwardness I'm feeling? Me with him, and this few spaces between us feels so uncomfortable, and he's still holding my hand.

I tried to calm myself down. This is just a few minutes and then I can go to my room and lock myself up all day. I stared at the window and decided to just watch the road but that’s when I felt his hand snake to my waist. I looked at him, shock evident in my eyes.

He looked into my eyes like he's looking into my soul. His thick eyebrows accentuated his eyes, I can’t help but be mesmerized.

"I thought I lost you.." he murmured. He pressed his forehead to mine.

"I.. I was scared.."

"I'm sorry.."

"What was that? What happened? Shaw won't tell me, please tell me.."

He sighed, "I will tell you soon."

"But.. I want to know.."

"You will know, alright? But not now.."

I stared back. His eyes suddenly look soft, like he can show me so much emotions. They went down to my lips and he looks so enticed. He leaned down until he caught my lips. His kisses were feathery, his warm breath enveloped my mouth.

It's too passionate that I had to close my eyes. He pulled me closer so he can kiss me fully and I can't help but respond. It's enchanting, it's very soft and careful. I never imagined someone as dark and hard like him can kiss this way.

He stared at my eyes with so much intensity after that kiss. He studied my face and then his thumb traced my cheek down to my lips. "I’m sorry, for hurting you, for making you feel scared. I’m sorry." Each phrase is punctuated with soft kisses.

My eyes watered. It feels like a dream, that Seije is doing things like this. He wiped my unshed tears and pulled me for a hug.

"I promise, I won't hurt you, no one can ever hurt you." I never felt safe in anyone's arm before, but him..

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"How’s my friends?" I asked when we're home already. My friends aren't here anymore, I hope they are all safe.

"I let the other guys handle them," he opened the door of my room and helped me to bed.

"Now can you tell me what exactly happened?" He asked while holding my hand.

I nodded, "Someone called me and asked me to go out because she pretended she can't hear me properly."

His eyebrows furrowed,  "Someone called you? Why didn’t you tell me?" He asked, now looking more worried.

"I didn't expect things will turn out that way,"

"I have your phone and your sim card, I found it at the scene when you disappeared. I'll throw them away, I'll buy you a new one. This time, make it private, don't let anyone have your number."

I want to ask why, I want to know why but in the end, I nodded. I should just trust him, like what he said, he'll tell me about it, I will hold onto that.

"Listen Lorraine," he held my hand and placed it on his lips, kissing it gently. "Don't answer any calls from unregistered numbers. Don't go out of this house alone anymore. Don't open the door without me beside you or without knowing who’s outside. Do not leave the house without me. Just please follow me, I'll explain everything to you on the right time."

I nodded, I chose not to ask anymore. He seems so worried and so upset that I just want to agree to everything that he says

"Good. Now, lay down and sleep." He pat my bed.

“You’re not leaving right?” I asked. I feel so vulnerable to him now but I want to be honest that I’m scared to be alone right now. I don’t want another trauma.

He held my hand and gently squeezed it, "No, I won't leave. I'll stay here." He leaned down and planted a soft kiss on my forehead. Just a few minutes after, I drifted to sleep.

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