Dear Brother

Dear Siblings

"Never cut what you can untie." ~ Joseph Jourbet

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I went for my usual lectures, I swear this was the mondayest Tuesday but I managed to go on with my day you know what they say... You either run the day or the day runs you.

Harry had been avoiding me for some odd reason even during our lectures but honestly I could less. I was so much younger yesterday occasionally caring about people's feelings, opinions and approvals at this moment I was at that stage of my life where I don't pick remnants of judgement from people. As for Zayn he is back to his asshole self well not embarrassing me but just being the antagonistic bastard of a twin he is. We don't talk well what the actual f**k we never talked.

"Hey Zaneh." A familiar voice spoke up as I was currently sitting in the small cosy café around uni...my favourite place to get my mind of things.

" Hey Walter ?" I greeted showing my pearly whites.

"Every time we meet you always reading hopefully I'm not disturbing..." Walter said pleasantry his brown hair in an attractive quiff, black skinny jeans and white shirt. Not bad but Harry is still a better dresser.

"Oh, no don't mind me am just a hopeless romantic." I giggled closing my novel. " Please take a sit how rude of me..." I said quickly and he swiftly sat across me, the café was a very chilled place, it was never busy and a very peaceful place to read.

"So what are you reading ?" He said sniggered holding his takeaway to lay it on the table, the smell was oh so heavenly like fresh chocolate muffins. I sternly avoided asking what was in there because that would be embarrassing considering I just ate three blueberry muffins.

"I'm reading Spud." I replied.

"I have seen the movie, but I would like to read the book there's more detail." He smiles as if to say he is genuinely enjoying this conversation.

"I couldn't agree more although the movie is really interesting since Troye Sivan acted as spud which is hilarious considering now he is a hot guy." I ranted, I'm sure he lost interest.

"So I'm guessing you are a Troye Sivan fan ??" He correctly surmised.

"No I'm not." I blushed.

"Yes and trust me there's nothing wrong with that... My sister is a 5sos lunatic."

"Ncow you have a sister." I smiled then wondered Zayn smiled every time he thought of my stupid habits. Who are you kidding he hardly knows anything about you !

" I didn't know you have a sister ?" I said sipping on my latte.

"Yeah she's back in Australia." He shrugged.

"I always knew there was something Aussie about you and also considering you know Troye Sivan." I genuinely smirked with a smile avoiding to surface.

"Touché." He said as his eyes held mine like poles of magnet. "Anyways my sister is everything to me even though she is a sixteen year old 5sos lunatic." He chuckled. "I'm sure Zayn understands how I feel."

When those words left his lips my stance immediately changed, I stayed silent, I know he didn't mean to snub at me in any way.

"Zaneh ?" He called I hadn't realized I had zoned out for a while.

"Huh ?" I raised my head looking at his innocent face clearly concerned.

"Did I say something wrong ?" He laid his hand over mine across the table.

"No you didn't, I'm sorry." I mumbled.

"Do you want to talk about what bothering you ?" He's stance looked so welcoming and comforting.

"Its just Zayn and I have never been on good terms." I sniffed. "Hearing you talk about you sister that way just overwhelming a little."

"I'm sorry."

"No, Zaneh its okay."

"Zayn hates me and you know all I ever wanted was for him to appreciate my existence but he doesn't and that hurts."

"His clearly d**k, how can anyone not appreciate your existence... You are caring, sweet, kind, beautiful well the list is endless really.

" Thanks Walter." I strayed away from the compliment. I'm not good at accepting compliments okay.

"If you knew me in high school, you wouldn't be saying any of this." I sighed subliminally.

"Well I want to know you now ?" He smirked and I surly didn't want him to continue.

"I do too but you are one of Zayn's many friends and I want nothing to do with him." I snorted getting up.

"I'm not like them Zaneh." He wheedled. Maybe

Then suddenly Harry walked in behind him a girl and Louis immediately when Louis spotted us I inwardly groaned, I was just leaving anyways.

"Zaneh Malik." Louis snorted then Harry turned in my direction our gaze locking until I looked away.

"Hey Lou." Walter stood up standing by my side only giving them the wrong idea.

"I didn't mean supervene your Date, just thought I should give you heads up..." He smiles squinting his eyes. "Zayn is right behind us." He said more as a whisper.

"Okay thanks Lou, I was just about to leave." I lean in to hug Walter and Louis as soon as I turn back Zayn enters the café my smile fades.

Harry soon comes over and feel the need to disappear because clearly my space has been invaded.

"Hey Zaneh."

"Hi Harry." I awkwardly reply.

"Uhm this is Heidi..." He awkwardly sidles.

"His girl friend." Heidi finishes Harry's sentence.

"Nice to meet you am Zaneh." I glance back at her no sign of the green eyed monster. I don't care if Harry dates or what trust me I watched enough of that back in high school.

Suddenly Zayn enters a huge grin on his face when he noticed my presence. I miss my brother.

"Baby sis." He grins coming to hug me whether I like it or not. Clearly shocked by his actions I gasp.

"Gosh get a grip Zayn you are only three minutes older." I giggle hugging him back like we haven't seen each other in ages.

Everyone around us is shocked by this, I don't care I just want to enjoy this moment. My twin brother will always be my stimulant...no matter how much I try to deny it.