Let Me Love You {on your knees} book 1

Chapter # 8

(There's a lot of thinking/talking in this chapter but I'm trying to build a foundation for Andy and Bella since they've only know each other for one day. Some things may sound a bit repetitive but I'm just trying to make a point. I hope you are enjoying the story :) let me know what you think, feedback negative and positive is always appreciated!)

BELLAS P.O.V-

As soon as the words left my lips I regretted them. Stupid. f*****g. Alcohol.... And Andy. He was so good at getting me to talk.

Andy startled me by touching my hand. I didn't look up at him, just at his hand over top of mine. And then he slid a cig between my fingers and relief flooded through my body. I needed one so bad I couldn't stand it anymore.

I put it between my lips and he lit it for me. I closed my eyes taking in a huge drag and then I let it out slowly.

"I'm sorry...." I finally looked up at his face. He turned his head to look at me, while still keeping his eyes on the road. "You don't need to be sorry. You're not the bad guy here."

I didn't know what to say to that because I was also in the wrong. Behaving the way I did with Ace. And then treating Andy like s**t when he helped me.

"Maybe I am...." I switched my cig to my right hand and did something I never thought I'd ever do. I slid my hand over the middle console and onto Andy's leg. And then I grabbed his crotch.

He jumped, obviously not expecting it and then the car swerved a little bit. His hand covered mine and he quickly moved it off.

"Bella! What are you doing!?" Thank God for a red light right? It gave him the chance to GLARE at me. What had I just done?

ANDY'S P.O.V-

I was in complete and utter shock and my heart had started to race. I wanted to scream at her because she had pushed me over the breaking point. I was so incredibly turned on by that simple touch. It had to be the alcohol that had made her so bold.

She was again, like a deer in headlights. Her eyes were wide as I glared at her. I was obviously freaking her out. And that voice inside the back of my head that was very hard to control was telling me not to be gentle with her. Not to take it easy. It was causing war between my brain and my gut.

She took her bottom lip between her teeth and began to chew on it. My breath caught in my throat,

"I d-don't, I don't know...." She said, finishing the last of her cigarette. I watched her throw it out the window and then clasp her hands together.

Dammit. I didn't know what to do with her, she was driving me absolutely crazy. But in a split last second decision I did something I was almost positive I would regret and I made a u-turn.

I glanced over at her as soon as I did and she looked obviously confused. I felt bad for her for a split second. But only a split second, because my hunger for her was consuming my natural thought process. I didn't want to label myself in the same category as Ace, because I was far from it.... But I knew, like I had, from the moment I saw her this afternoon... I was going to have her.

I wasn't just going to have her, I was going to take her. Break her.... My eyes rolled back into my head for a brief second before they focused back on the road. She had purposely wanted to make me jealous. That's why she wanted me to get her the alcohol. I highly doubted that she would have been able to put on that little charade with Ace if she wasn't drunk. She was disgusted by him.

"W-where are we going?" Bellas tiny voice asked me. It too was shaking. I swallowed hard and grinned over at her.

"My place."

BELLAS P.O.V-

His place!!??? I suddenly felt nauseated. I couldn't hold it in anymore.

"P-ull o-ver.."

I covered my mouth with my hand and the car quickly swerved off to the side and stopped. I pushed open the door and immediately began to throw up. I felt horribly embarrassed as I heaved onto the pavement.

And then I felt his hand on my back the other holding my hair.

"It's ok, I'm right here. It's better to get that s**t out anyway." His voice was very calm. It comforted me.

Soon it was over and I groaned as my stomach painfully contracted when I sat straight up again and shut the door. I probably smelled horrible. Andy kept his hand on my back though and he began to rub it. I sighed closing my eyes.

"You silly girl. Why would you drink so much?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "I have no idea. stupid huh?"

He leaned in close, I could tell when I felt his breath on my neck and my eyes flew open. He was grinning ever so brightly. "It was stupid to try and make me jealous because when I get jealous, ugly things usually end up happening.... Ugly and reckless...."

His face got closer for a moment and then he slowly backed away, letting his hand drop from my back.

"I-I wasn't trying to m-make you jealous..." He laughed loudly, irritating my aching head. "This friendship isn't going to last very long if you keep lying to me.."

I rolled my eyes. "OK. Dammit Andy... "

Again he started to laugh. "I think I need to take you home now. You should sleep." I got a hollow feeling yet again in my stomach. Take me home... And when would I see him again? This has turned into something I never thought it would have. He admitted that I had made him jealous but he kept calling this a 'friendship.' I didn't know what to think.

"I-I don't want to go home." I fumbled out. I felt a panic rising in my chest and I would say anything to get him to stay. I was suddenly afraid I'd lose him and I'd never see him again... Physically anyway.

He had lit up a cig and was puffing away on it. He handed me another one as well and we sat there smoking together.

"You need to go home Bella. You need to rest and get hydrated."

I shook my head rapidly. "Let's go t-to your place... Like you said." My voice sounded desperate and I hated myself for it. I must have looked pathetic.

Andy smiled gently and carefully placed a hand on my leg. His touch set my skin on fire again. "I changed my mind. It's not a good idea tonight ok. Be patient."

Be patient... Did that mean we would actually hang out again?

ANDY'S P.O.V-

Her eyes looked so sad and it broke my heart. I had turned many girls down before but never in my life had it bothered me so much to do so right now. I had known she was different from the beginning I just didn't think I'd start to form an attachment type feeling. I didn't want to call it an attachment just yet because I barely knew this girl. I knew how sweet she was and I knew how attracted I was to her. I knew how badly I wanted her... But there was more to it than that.

She was sweet and innocent and adorable... And sexy.... She was caring and she had a good heart. I could read her like a book even after only knowing her for a single day.

I was frustrated, sexually and mentally. My emotions were a confused ball of s**t and part of me did just want to cave. Bring her home and f**k her until she couldn't take it anymore and then some...,I just didn't want her to be wasted. Or feeling like complete and utter s**t when I did.

"Let me take you home and I promise I'll text you tomorrow. Deal?" I could see her sad eyes light up a bit. She had a look of hesitation on her face and I could tell she didn't know if she believed me or not. "I PROOOOMMISE."

Without warning and almost uncontrollably my body leaned into her space and I kissed her on the forehead.

She nodded, noticeably unstiffening her body. "Sounds good, new friend."

I fought back the urge to laugh at her. She was going to be waaaaaaay more than just a friend. She had no idea. When I set my eyes on someone like I had with her, it was always a game for me. A challenge. But with her it was a different kind of challenge. Not just a chase, catch and conquer. I wanted to do nice things for her. I actually wanted to take it slow with her.

After I pretty much declared I had changed my mind about wanting to be friends with her because that's not actually what I wanted from her, just friendship, she went off the rails. That in itself turned me on. Not just turned me on but Intrigued me because I've had many girls try to make me jealous before. Key word, try. But she actually did. That in itself made this a whole different situation. And I had to admit... Knowing she was a virgin made this a bit more Intriguing yet. To think that I would be the first one to touch her...in that way. It made me hard just thinking about it. To be the first one to bring her to her knees. It scared the living s**t out of me too... But it wasn't going to scare me away

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I started up the car and we pulled away from the curb, making another u-turn before heading down the road again. Bella was quiet most of the way to her house, so I hummed a bit to fill in the empty space. I wasn't in the mood for the radio and I just wasn't sure what to say to her at the moment. I was still taking this minute by minute. I had no play book for this.

I hadn't 'fallen' for someone in years. I hadn't taken a legit liking to any girl. I used s*x to get out the frustrations performing couldn't. I wasn't proud of it... But that had been my life for so long now. And now here I was... Sitting next to Bella. Taking her home instead of back to my place. It felt so awkward.

BELLAS P.O.V-

The ride home with Andy felt like the longest car ride I had ever experienced in my life. Besides his beautiful humming there was nothing but silence between us. He didn't say a word and neither did I.

I had no idea what was going to happen from here on out but it killed me to think about not seeing him again....

OH GOD I WAS STARTING TO SOUND LIKE ELLIE. And what would she say? I could only imagine all the questions she would ask.

"Do you have your phone?" Andy asked.

I pulled it out of my bra and flashed it in front of his face. "It's the one thing I never leave in my purse." That familiar devilish look spread across his face. "Girls and their phones.... Do you need me to walk you in?"

I shook my head, unsure if id let him leave if he came in... I was having a hard time resisting the urge to touch him. It had to be the alcohol because this just wasn't me.

"I'll be fine. Thank you. I think throwing up helped a lot. Now I just need to sleep."

He reaches over and strokes my cheek with his hand. "Are you sure you want to get to know me? You can change your mind and I won't be offended."

I wasn't quite sure why he was asking me this but it gave me a weird feeling in my gut. I ignored it immediately though because I knew I didn't have to think about it whatsoever.

"Yes, Andy. I want to get to know you."

Again he kissed my forehead, sending chills up and down my spine.

"Ok beautiful. No take backs now...."