Let Me Love You {on your knees} book 1

Chapter # 6

BELLAS P.OV-

I rubbed my throbbing shoulder, refusing to look at him.

My whole body was trembling from the touch of his hand on my thigh. I wasn't expecting him to be so bold with me. Not yet anyway. But the fact that he knew I was lying worried me. Was I really THAT transparent.

He tried to put his hand on my shoulder and I flinched away.

"Bella, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you. Is your shoulder ok?" I shrugged off his concern and turned to smile at him. "Yeah Im ok. Just a little sore but I'll live. And I'm not trying to lie to you....just so you know."

Out of the corner of my eye I saw him slowly take his hand off the wheel again and this time he cautiously reached over and stroked my leg gently. I closed my eyes from the intense thrill it sent through my body. It got quiet and I felt his hand move upwards a few inches, pushing the fringes of my dress to the side.

My legs involuntarily separated a bit and he continued his upward movement, finally trailing a circled along the inside of my thigh.

And then he stopped abruptly. I opened my eyes, immediately looking at him. He was smiling sweetly. "We're here." I looked out the window to see that we had stopped moving and were parked. "O-oh... Well...." He unbuckled and leaned over to me, our faces were only inches apart. And then he kissed me gently on the forehead.

"It's going to be a fun night. I'll make sure of it."

I swallowed hard as he backed away from me and then proceeded to get out of the car.

ANDY'S P.O.V-

I was so turned on by the feel of her skin on my fingers. And when she began to separate her legs for me it was almost impossible for me to control myself. To stop.

I felt like maybe I had gone a little too far. I felt like maybe I was pushing her too fast. Even though I could feel her caving into me.

I stood by her door, watching her pull her dress down and get out to stand beside me. The bright lights from the bar reflected in her eyes and I could see the glimmer of fear that still resided. It made me want to take her in my arms and kiss her until it completely melted away.

What was I doing? Really... I mean I knew what I was doing and what I wanted to do, but seeing the innocents in Bellas face gave me second thoughts.

She had just turned 18 and I didn't even have to ask or be told to know she was a virgin. Did I really want to do this.

"Bella!!!! There you are girl!!!" A high pitched and shrill voice broke through my thoughts and we both turned to look behind us.

"Ellie! Emmett!" Bella ran to the girl and gave her a huge hug. "I'm so glad to see you guys!" Her comment made my stomach churn. Almost as if she wanted to put space in between us. That thought only made me want her more though.

I noticed two more guys and a girl walk up behind all of us. The one immediately gave me a dirty look. Ace, I was guessing.

"Sooo, everyone, this is Andy Biersack and he's the reason we're all here tonight." Bella turned to me and gave me a cute little smile.

"I'm so happy to meet you! I've been wanting to for a very long time. I love everyone else in the band, we got to talk for a little while before you and Bella showed up." Ellie said, putting her hand out and I shook it and then Emmetts.

The other guy who I learned was Jake and the other girl his girlfriend Lindsey shook my hand too, exchanging hellos. The only one who completely ignored me was Ace, and he quickly walked passed everyone into the bar. Just then CC, Ash, Jinxx and Jake pulled up with their dates for the night. I suddenly felt a little relieved and no longer outnumbered.

Bella whispered in Ellies ear and they both started to giggle. I raised an eyebrow at Bella when she turned around to look back at me.

"Come on guys, seriously let's get this party started!" Emmett exclaimed and just then Cc and Jake walked up wa-hooing at Emmetts words. "f**k yeah!" Cc agreed. He was already a tad tipsy I could tell and I knew I was going to have a little bit of trouble with distraction. I knew the guys got pretty rowdy when they were drinking and I would just have to keep my cool.

As I watched everyone pour into the bar, my mind started to race. I knew once I went in there, there would be no turning back. I'd get drunk, Bella would get drunk and I'd take her back to my flat and that would be that.

Bella and Ellie were walking hand in hand while giggling. My gut suddenly clenched. Bella was so cute.. So tiny and so innocent....

"Andy?" I was shocked out of my thoughts by that sweet little voice. Bella had looked back at me. I hadn't noticed that I was actually sitting on the hood of my trunk.

"Yes my dear?" I watched Ellie look at Bella with questioning eyes before letting go of her hand and leaning forward to whisper in her ear. Bella nodded and then Ellie walked inside without her.

Bella walked over to me and pulled a cig out of her purse, lighting it up. "You seem plagued by something. Did you want to talk about it?" If only she knew. If only I could really talk about it with her. If only I could tell her I wanted to rip her apart in the most carnal of ways.... That I was fighting an internal battle with myself.

I had decided that I wanted her. That I would have her and now I was feeling bad about it. This wasn't like me. This never happened to me. I had gone through this exact same situation over and over again, having been single for 2 years now. I just didn't have time for relationships and they always ended tragically. Huge fights ensuing....

"It's nothing too serious. I just think the lack of sleep is starting to catch up to me. I feel a bit out of it all of a sudden. But don't let that ruin your birthday. You're supposed to have fun tonight."

BELLAS P.O.V-

I thought he had said no lying. He was obviously lying. His voice didn't sound at all convincing, for a matter of fact it was bland. Boring, almost.

"Andy... I may be young, but I'm not gullible. Besides I thought lies didn't benefit friendships. Definitely not newly forming ones..."

His face suddenly dropped and he looked like he was in pain. It startled me and my heart started to gallop in my chest. I had never anywhere in any picture seen him make that... tortured face. Had I said something wrong?

He reached out suddenly and grabbed my hand, pulling me between his legs and he hugged me, very tightly. I thought about pulling away, but instead I wrapped my arms around him and laid my head on his shoulder.

"Andy.... What's wrong?"

And then he loosened his grip around my back and his hands slid down my hips, slowly finding their way around to my ass and I jerked against him. "Andy... What are you-"

He put his lips to my ear and whispered very quietly. "Don't give me any sympathy, I don't deserve it."

He slid his hands from my ass down the back of my legs and up again, causing my dress to rise up.

"Andy- don't-"

Again he whispered in my ear.

"I have bad intentions with you...I have from the moment I decided to invite you out tonight. Don't fall for anything I try."

With that he suddenly stood me up, standing up with me. I was completely flabbergasted. My heart still racing. I watched him walk around me and shove his hands in his pockets before glancing back at me and walking into the bar.

ANDY'S P.O.V-

I had decided that I couldn't do what I wanted to, to this sweet innocent girl. Something in the way she looked at me and talked to me... It made me feel completely guilty for thinking the things I had been thinking about her. She truly thought that I wanted to be just her friend and she was flirting so innocently with me. I was hoping that, that was enough to get her to completely dislike me and keep her distance. I was hoping that was enough to scare her away.