Sunflower x One night wedding

Dear diary, my name is Ava Kinsella. I’m a sixteen-year-old mixed girl from Georgia. I cheer, write poetry and make art. My parents, Taylor and Mark Kinsella, are the most supportive people, but sometimes I don’t think they understand me as a person. I woke up out of bed, struggling with my curly hair. ‘Ava, get ready for school,’ my mother said  I moved from my desk and closed my diary; I hopped in the shower for a quick wash and then went into my closet to grab my baggy ripped jeans and my lore Olympus oversized tee from Hot Topic and my combat boots. I rushed to get dressed so that I could eat breakfast when I got downstairs, my mother with her brown hair in a ponytail. Her eyes were brown, as was mine, just like my father. My mother brushed my golden almond skin and kissed my forehead as I crunched on my frosted flakes. ‘School and then home, if your going somewhere after please let me or your father know,’ she said  I nodded and then she was out of the door; I finished up my breakfast and then walked out the door. I got in my old pickup truck and drove off to Sundale High school. When I got to the school; I noticed a girl with a mid-length choppy blonde with a black highlight bob. She had a nose piercing and her skin was ivory. She was on the phone with someone. ‘f**k’ She said and then hung up ‘Are you Ava Kinsella?’ She asked, I nodded. Something about her is mad. That was Nora, the one I was giving the tour to. My friends Nina and Brooklynn came up to us. Hopefully, they haven’t seen Logan. I'm not ready to talk to him. ‘Hey A, you didn’t see Logan he with a girl,’ Nina said  ‘Who cares,’ I replied  My friends walked in front of me and Nora. I walked Nora over to the primary office to check in to get her schedule. When we got there; we wanted principal Diaz to come out from his meeting. Nora's eyes brown raised up. ‘What’ I said  ‘Who, Logan’ she asked  ‘He my ex’s who want attention but he not getting it,’ I replied  Speaking of the devil, Logan comes out of the office with the principal looking disappointed. I rolled my eyes at him. Logan gave me a little wink, and I ignored it. ‘Why can’t you be like your sister,’ Principal Diaz whispered  ‘Aww dad playing favorites,’ Logan said  He walked past his father over to us and he blew me a kiss as he walked out of the office. Mr. Diaz called us over and we walked into his office. ‘Ms. Rivers, you can’t have a nose piercing,’ Mr. Diaz said  He explained to Nora about the dress code which is bullshit because the guys only code is no open-toed shoes and they don’t even enforce it. I rolled my eyes when he said we enforce it.  ‘Um sir you enforce the girls more than you do the boys even your son Logan has dragged girls down,’ I said  ‘As you can tell, I had a meeting with my son about his reckless behavior going on in the school,’ He said  My eyes went to Nora’s lips. I don’t know why I’m reacting to how I am. My parents texted my phone as Mr. Diaz talked, I looked at it as he was explaining the rules to Nora. *Dad*: Ava, we won’t be home tonight so it just be you alone tonight  *Me*: Okay, dad  Once Diaz was done we left the office Nora looked at me and she had a grin on her face. ‘Let’s skip’ she said  ‘And go where, I replied  She grabbed my keys from my pocket and dropped her schedule. We had all the same classes. Logan came up to me and grabbed my hand. ‘Hey babe’ He said  ‘Yeah, lets go’ I said  ‘Where are you to off’ He said Me and Nora just looked at each other and then grabbed each other's hand . We walked towards the door, we didn’t stop until we got to my car. Nora looked at me and she had an uneasy grin.Nora drove the car and I looked at her. ‘Where are we going?’ I asked  She grabbed my hand. I can tell where it's going to be like Brittany and Sanatana. I didn’t get that far into Glee but they had a cute friendship.Nora drove off of school property. I don’t know where we are going. I didn’t question where we are going because I know. ‘I just moved here and I found this place, it’s a bar’ She said  She brushed her hand against me as she drove. Nora was focused, her blue eyes never fell off the road.She took me to a bar, this is like our first date as friends. 'You're acting like this your first time you been alone with a girl before' She laughed  How long I was staring at her was losing it, I like boys not girls. I thought about this more than once before but I always keep it deep down. There were so many questions I had. What would my family think?Would I be a whole new person? How would I find a girlfriend or ect. 'Tell me about yourself?' Nora said  'Being mixed, I could never fit in. They cursed me on one side. I was black like my mom, but I wasn't black enough for them and I wasn't white enough like my dad.' 'Am i'm depressed and anxious, I put that all in my art' I said  Nora's eyes widened. She turned to me when we reached the stop light art she questioned. Everyone questioned the art part, but they questioned the depression part as well.They looked at me and said why do you have to be sad and then give me this line you're the beautiful mix kid why be sad smile. 'Art' She question Thank god that she didn't question my depression, because I didn't want to go into details. I explained I would paint, draw and write stories or poetry. ‘I’m like that with my skateboard. I skate to move away from the drama that is caused by my father,’ she said  She explained that her mother and brother died in a car crash after which her father became drunk and that’s all she told me. ‘We’ll I don’t know the whole story but if you don’t want to go home, you can stay at my place tonight my parents aren’t going to be home so we don’t have to explain the whole story to them’ I said  ‘Thank you, you don’t even know me and your doing this’ She said  ‘I care for people we can get pizza and in return you can help me dye my hair,’ I said  She agreed we got to the bar before we walked through the door and she pulled out a fake I.d. I had one, if that was what she was giving me that look for. Nina made me get one to sneak into the club. ‘Id,’ the bouncer said  We pulled out our I.d cards, and they gave us the okay to go in and we did just that. Nora ordered herself a whiskey and I appletini. We walked over to a table with our drinks when they were done. ‘I’ll just stop home and get some stuff,’ she said  She held my hand and looked in my eyes. Is Nina making moves on me? I'm trying to see how I feel. ‘So you 're straight, she said ‘Yeah kinda.. I don’t know,’ I said  ‘ What’s there not to know, I found out when this girl informed me about XVideos and I watched women on women action. It felt right, but I also knew that I liked boys too. I’m Bi.’ She said  Bisexuality, women love men and women and men love women and men.I don’t think I could just like men and women I can see myself liking more than just the two. ‘I don’t just see myself dating just women and men I just want to love a person’ I said  I grabbed my drink and walked to the dance floor, I swung my hips  to the beat.I moved over to the bar and ordered two beers and went back to the table and handed one over to Nora.After we finished our beer we left the bar. ‘My father won’t be home he’s at work’ She said  ‘Why drink knowing that your fathers a drunk’ I said  ‘I don’t abuse my drinks. I will drink one or two drinks and all my dad will drink will mix it with drugs.’ She said  I held her hand. We were at this bar for two hour, Nora grabbed my hand and we walked to the car.Nora and I sang songs and had the time of our lives as we drove to her father’s house. ‘Stay in the car’ She said  I did as I was told cause I didn’t know where I was, Nora came back with a bag of stuff.After a hour of driving to the mall of Georgia and back after shopping.  ‘Do you ever see yourself being with a girl?’ She asked  ‘ I don’t know who I see myself with, I just see me with someone who makes me happy’ I said  I wanted to stop talking about this because what was I going to add to the conversation? I think I like only boys or and I am holding out who I really am.She pulled me to her, our lips touched and I had all these feelings that I wasn’t understanding.When we got to my house nobody was home, I laid in my bed as Nora was in the kitchen getting a snack, there was a tap from my window. ‘Let us in’ Nina said I went downstairs to let Nina and Brooklyn in but Nina acted like she didn’t like Nora. I don’t know the deal with that but she can deal with her going home. ‘Ava,what’s she doing here’ Nina said  ‘Were getting to know each other and if don’t want to you can go’ I said  ‘Ava, she could be a killer,’ She whispered  I rolled my eyes and made myself an ice cream sundae. I drizzled the caramel on the ice cream.We are having fun despises the small comments Nina was making, Nora tried to ignore them until Nina got too drunk.  'What the hell is your issue' Nora said  'My issue is that you think you can come here and steal Ava as a friend, what you get her drunk and then have a good time, ' Nina said  'Nina cut the bullshit, okay, ' I said  Nora mouthed thank you and then helped me make the milkshake. Nora and Brooklyn talked about their goals after high school Nora explained she didn't know where she saw herself after high school. Every time Nora talked, I keep looking at her with amazement. She was confident about herself and I don't know who I am. 'Yeah, I'm going to head to sleep come on Nina, ' Brooklyn said  We nodded as they went upstairs to the guest room and left me alone with Nora and feelings I don't understand. I tried not to look at here because I don't know these feeling this is wrong in my mind from what my grandparents told me but in my heart it's feels right. 'Hey what's wrong with you' She said  'Nothing' I said  Our eyes met. I tried not to look at her lips, but I couldn't stop myself from looking at her pink lips as my eyes went back to her face, trying to hide the fact that I was staring at them. Nora came closer as she dug her fingers in the thread on my ripped jeans. I could feel the heat raising in my cheeks. I heard someone coming downstairs. 'What do you like girls now?' Nina asked ' Is that why Logan left you because he wanted a girl who didn't like rubbing fronts'  'No, your brother was an ass who could pleasure anyone, not even your step-mother I heard, ' I replied Nina went onto the couch and went to sleep. I felt scared if this is how my friends feel about me how will everyone reacted. I pulled away from Nora. I can't act on my feelings I walked over to my house phone and called logan. 'Hey can we talk' I said  'Yeah, Nina said you had a sleepover tonight I can come over, ' He said  Logan has done me bad in the past, but that was in the past and we can't change anything in the past we can only aim to fix ourselves towards the future. Nora grabbed her stuff and walked towards the door. 'I'm leaving. When you figure yourself, let me know' She said  Logan is what I want.. right Nora walked out the door, and I didn't even try to stop her I needed some drink because I thought about what I did. I took a mix of pina colada that we still had left. I took a sip and I just sat in the kitchen before I got a text from Logan. Logan: Yeah, I can't make it I'm going to have s*x with Kathleen Me: What the f**k, Logan, I was going to talk to you about getting back together, but you keep doing this bullshit. I blocked him and then went into my room; I don't have Nora's number but I remember where she lives, but she told me not to show up there on Monday I will talk to her. I laid in my bed, fluttering my eyes, trying not to go to sleep. When I got up in the morning, my friends left and my parents were home, s**t my parents were home. I rushed downstairs to face them. I gave them a powerful smile once I got downstairs my mom gave me that do you have something you want to tell us. 'Ava, what happened last night?' My mom said,  'Mom, I had friends over, that's it, and we are all in the house and you said if we're going to drink it's good that we're in the house, ' I said  'Dad, I need money for shopping Saturday, ' I said  My father handed me forty dollars, and I went back upstairs and grabbed my diary to update it on the events of my life. Dear dairy,  This figuring out your own sexuality thing. I know I like boys and I feel some way around Nora, but I don't know. I heard about Pansexuality. Liking someone not because of their gender but there personality. I don't know how my friends would react to this news. Nina was kinda a b***h when she found out last night but she was drunk so she won't remember a thing.But speaking about Nora she wonderful she likes art and she skateboards. Nora is just beautiful and her mind is beyond amazing, well I have to get ready for shopping Saturday. Shopping Saturday is a thing my friend and I do because the clothing is 50 percent off. I moved away from my diary and got ready the oversize shirt in my closet that covered my curvy sides; I thought about it.I'm always hiding my body because I hated it but today I went in a different direction with the clothing that I wear. I grabbed my yellow plaid skirt and matching blouse to show my love for 90s queen Cher Horowitz. I walked into the bathroom to freshen up and when I finished drying off; I got ready. My phone went off it was Nina and I didn't have time for this but answered the phone. I could hear the desperation in her step-mother voice.Kelly just stays horny and she just needs batteries. 'Nina, where your brother' Kelly asked  I hung up after I heard Kelly's voice because couldn't deal with this already; I rolled my eyes and Nina's entire family f****d her father who wants to f**k anyone close to his child's age, Logan the womanizer , Nina the cunt and Kelly the lady who f***s her stepson.I decided to unblock with Logan because I know my parents are going to be f*****g cunts and they won't let me leave down last night. *Logan: Hey  what are you doing tonight *Me: Nothing can I come over, tonight or are you seeing Kelly *Logan: I told you that was a one time thing and it never happen again  I rolled my eyes at that bullshit, Nina texted me telling me there a party tonight and I wanted to know if Nora will be there tonight. I need to know this. My mother banged at my door, I didn't have time for this, I walked out of the room. 'Ava Kinstell what the hell are you wearing' She said 'Chill mom; I said  I rolled my eyes and grabbed my rainbow tie-dye hoodie and wrapped it around my waist and walked downstairts and grabbbed my keys. Nina and Brooklyn texted me asking if I could be there ride which I didn't have time for this. 'Nina and Brooklyn were talking about how you had a girl name Nora over.Nina also said you two were about to kiss' My mother said  'Nina, was drunk off her ass, she doesn't know what she saw' I said  I walked out the door I don't have time for this, my mind went to wondering what going on with Nora I was debating if I should go to her house or not.But in the end I wanted to know what happend to her after she left. Logan was still texting me about coming over after the party, I didn't have time for this I'm worried about Nora the most and my mom found out about me almost kissing Nora.When I got to the mall I seen Nora with a girl and my heart just sinked because of this news.She looked at her she looked at me our eyes matched,Brooklyn and Nina came up to me and Nora and that girl walked away. 'Are you ready to shop' Nina said  I walked past them and went to the first store it was s*x store, Nora friend and her came out of the dressing room Nora's friend was f*****g beautiful.Nora tapped at her friend and pointed at me, what was she saying. 'Hey Ava my friend thinks your hot' Nora friend yelled 'She not into girl, cunt' Nina said  I rolled my eyes, I looked at Nina like what the f**k I walked out of the store. I found out Nora into me and Nina being a f*****g cunt. Someone just walked out the store I put my hoddie on quick to cover myself up.  'I'm sorry about Kenny she a b***h' Nora said  'No it's cool' I said  I covered hair behind my eye scared out of my mind, Nora was there and she just chil and goes with the flow and i'm just a f*****g mess and I don't even know what I want or who I am. Nora gave me a smile I could see Nina with her bitchy face like come one and I just wanted to be like go ahead. 'There a party tonight if you want to go hell you can drive and Kenny can come' I said 'But now I have to get Kelly, Nina's stepmom batteries'  'I know this is like a bad w*****d fanfic but I kinda like you ' She said  My friends were gone and Kenny was picking up d**k shaped lolly, kids from my school were walking around the mall. Nora's eyes meet mine and I couldn't breath.My eyes were on her lips and I think she notice. 'What do you want to kiss me' She said  ' I don't know' I said