IMPERFECTLY ENOUGH

wanted to

Lee's pov

I was no longer mad at him but, I just couldn't face the rejection. When he didn't respond to the kiss, it made me feel and proved everything I thought. Made me realize that it was true that I was not desirable.

We will be returning home today and I wasn't looking forward to been in the place as him for hours. I could tell that I had angered him yesterday when I was talking to one of the other PAs. I don't know why he is mad at me.

I practically ignored him when we were together. I was packed and ready to go. I will miss this place and I'm sad that I never really got to site see. Who goes to a new place and never moves around.

I carried my bags and went out to the living room area. He was waiting for me there.

"Good morning, Lisa. Let me help with those."

"good morning."

He moved closer and grabbed the bags, he seemed in a happy mood and that was strange. Not so long ago, he was so mad at me.

"There is breakfast on the table. I ordered your favorite mint tea, with chocolate chip pancakes and some strawberries on the side. I thought you would enjoy them. I also got you some apple juice. You can eat that as I check us out and some last minute shopping. We have about three hours before our flight."

He smiled at me and left the room. I stood there shocked because since we came here, he had never done anything like this. I didn't even think he knew anything I liked, most especially food. I walked towards the table and uncovered the lid. I found everything he side with a little surprise.

Lisa, I know this won't make up for not showing you a good time here. I hope you enjoy your breakfast and I hope we can talk finally. Dante.

Now, I feel guilty for ignoring him the whole time. He did reject me so what was he expecting.

I sat down and had my breakfast. Just when I was finishing up eating when he walked in.

"Are you ready to go?" I nodded yes and got up. I walked towards the door and as we walked he put his hand on the lower part of my back. I felt nervous when I felt the heat from his hand and at the same time felt really good with his hand there. He shocked me further when he opened the car door for me. I whispered a thank you and got in.

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As soon as I opened the door, Kate was there. She rushed towards me and hugged me.

"How was it? Did you do it? How was it?"

"Babe, let her be. Let her at least rest up."

"okay but, I need details."

I walked to my room and she followed me there.

"So? What happened?"

"nothing happened."

"I know you are lying to me. Something did happen. Spill the beans." she gave me a look. So I explained what had happened. She was silent when I was done so, I looked up at her. She had a funny look on her face.

"what is wrong with you? Why didn't you allow him to explain?"

I looked down and started playing with my fingers. She put her hand on top of mine. I looked up again.

"Lee, I know you have never been in a relationship and would have little information about it. I think he likes you but, maybe he was in shock and he didn't want to scare you. You need to give him a chance to talk."

"What will people say? I don't think that he can like a girl like me. Maybe it is because he just feels pity for me."

"I hate that you think so low of yourself. You are brilliant, beautiful and I wish you could see that about yourself. Not that you need validation from a man or let alone a person. Any man would be lucky to have you in their life. People will always talk and speculate. Its not logical for an employer and employee to have a relationship but, relationships aren't meant to be logical. I always pray that one day, you can feel and see the beauty and happiness you deserve. That I will see you as carefree as I see you in my heart." She gave me a hug and left the room.

I lay on my bed like that the whole night, thinking about what Kate said.

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Things had gone back to normal, as normal as can be. Dante clearly was acting strange. He would randomly compliment me and he tries to touch me every chance he gets.

Like today, people at the office decided to meet up at the bar by the corner and guess who came for the first time. Dante! Everyone is in shock but he seems laid back like the day we arrived in Italy.

At first, things were a bit awkward when he arrived. As people kept having shots of tequila, it seemed to loosen them up. It was also karaoke night. Now that was fun because let me tell you one thing, alcohol and singing is not the best combination. I was trying out some cocktails, one called s*x on the beach. I was also sitting next to Tammy who was ever so bubbly. With the alcohol in her system, she was even more. Dante was sitting right across me and I did everything to avoid looking at him.

"you know I was shocked when I saw him here and now I understand why he came." Tammy tried to whisper to me though I'm sure everyone heard. I looked at her and said.

"who?"

"The boss because he hasn't stopped looking at you since he walked in here."

Stupid me couldn't resist looking at him and sure enough he was looking at me. There was a look on his face that I couldn't make out. I heard Tammy giggling and I turned back to look at her.

"You see what I meant. Any way we need you to try out some of the shooters." She called for a waiter. When she was handed a menu for drinks. She pointed out an item on the menu.

"b*****b?" I heard someone cough and turned to Dante who was chocking on his drink.

"Oh yes."and she ordered it. She showed me how I was suppose to take it without using my hands. I gave it a try and I noticed that Dante's eyes were darker. I excused myself.

I was standing outside getting some air when I saw a shadow of a man. I was about to scream then I heard his voice.

"It's just me." He moved closer to me and trapped me between himself and the wall.

"You sure like to play with my feelings. don't you?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean you won't let me explain and you also just played with my feelings in there."

I looked down and spoke nervously. "I-I don't understand."

"you took that drink and made my mind go everywhere." he moved away from me. "you kissed me and you wouldn't let me explain."

"you are drunk"

"No, maybe. But I am confused. I was scared that I would scare you and I froze. I tried to explain but, you wouldn't talk to me. I thought that if I showed you then you would make it easier. I only seem to push you away. What can I do?"

I was silent because I didn't know what to say. I was scared.

"Say something please. Did you kiss me because you were drunk or you wanted it." He moved closer to me. "please say something."

"I wanted to..." I never got to finish the sentence because he kissed me.