Her Long List Of Ex Lovers (COMPLETED)

Chapter 9

“Jericho!” I shouted as I watched him punch Phytos in front of some of my classmates. I gave him a look before helping Phytos get up.

Jericho was about to punch Phytos again but I managed to stop him.

“What are you trying to do?!” I exclaimed, pissed at both of them.

Jericho tightened his jaw and glared at Phytos who did the same. “You watch your words, fucker!” He pointed his index finger to Phytos who just smirked at him.

“You’re guilty because it’s true. You know that Ashejan won’t get back with you because you embarrassed her in front of a lot of people.” Phytos fired back.

“You—” Jericho was about to attack him again and I held onto his hand.

“You both stop this or I’m going to call the police to detain you two!” I yelled at them and they both stopped and looked at me.

I rolled my eyes and I saw that they both looked apologetic. To me, not to each other.

“Go home. Both of you.” I told them and walked out of the room.

Damn it. These ex-boyfriends drama is getting me nowhere near Knight. And to think that he has already laid his eyes on Serena. He even wrote their names in a heart. Like seriously!

He needs to see me. He needs to at least look at me, too.

I sighed nonstop as I walked to the bus stop. And there they were, Serena and Knight, laughing while talking about something else. Maybe about NASA again? Or maybe something about the galaxy? I want to know. But I can’t talk to them. I don’t want them to think that I’m trying to fit in.

I’m not.

I’m not interested in NASA or in the Milky Way Galaxy, or in any of the constellations.

Looking at them laughing like they’re the only people in the world right now, I can’t help but feel a squeeze in my heart. I had to look away. I can’t stomach watching them this happy.

Hell! I’m jealous and I know it’s not supposed to be like this. I don’t have any right to be jealous. He doesn’t like me. He’s not mine.

“Where are you going for Arts Project?” I heard Serena ask Knight.

I tried my hardest to not look at them. Ashejan, look straight. Don’t look to your side.

“Uhh…” Knight’s voice trailed. “We haven’t decided yet.” He replied.

I sighed once again. Call me, Knight. Call me and ask me where to right now.

“Oh,” Serena beamed. “I’m really shy in front of the new guy.” I heard her confess. Hey, girl! Knight is also a new guy and I don’t see a teensy bit of shyness in the way you interact with him!

God! I need to control my emotions because I don’t have any right to have any of these possessiveness episodes. Knight just knew me first. It doesn’t f*****g mean that he would like me more. Although, I wished it’s like that.

“If only we could change partners,” Serena spoke softly.

I shut my eyes and tried hard to not clench my fist and punch her straight to her nose, breaking her extremely huge spectacles.

God! I’m getting hostile.

“Serena, this is a good time for you to be friends with other people.” I heard Knight reply and I secretly smiled. To be honest, I’m really nervous of what Knight would reply. I’m just glad that he is not thinking of exchanging partners.

“I know that but…” I didn’t hear her next words because the bus came and I immediately got in. I really wish that they would not get inside this bus. I wish they would have fun talking about that freaking arts project and would want to hang out more so they would decide to take the next focus.

The bus is almost full and I was lucky enough that there is still this space for me to sit. It’s the last two-sitter in the bus.

I sighed and plugged in my earphones and looked outside the window.

I shut my eyes and just decided to sleep for a while since my stop is twenty minutes away. However, when I was about to ready myself for sleep, I felt a person sit beside me. I had to look at this person as so not be rude and I was shocked when I saw Knight.

He is sitting beside me.

I immediately sat properly and removed my earphones.

I don’t really know what’s happening to me. My heart is beating really fast and it’s getting hard to breathe. Jesus! This is the first time that I’m feeling this way.

“W-where’s Serena?” I asked him.

He looked at me. “She’s not taking the bus today. Her brother is going to pick her up.” He replied.

I nodded and looked away. I realized that I really can’t stare at him because I think my heart is going to really explode. How can he make my heart beat this fast?

“Are you mad at me?” I heard him ask.

My eyes widened and I stared at him. “What? No! Why would I?” I asked, sounding a bit hysterical.

He stared back at me. “I don’t know. You just seem to not talk to me these past few days.” He told me.

I raised my brow. Is it me who’s not talking to him these past few days? I did no such thing! I’m not talking to him because he’s not even looking at me. He doesn’t even talk to me.

I want to tell him these but I’m afraid I might scare him. Knight is innocent and fragile and I don’t want him to get scared of me.

“I was afraid that you don’t want to talk to me anymore.” I replied.

He looked at me with an unknown expression in his eyes. Damn it! My heart is beating like crazy and my mind is starting to get crowded.

“Why would you think that?” He asked me softly.

I sighed. “Because I was scared that you’re slowly thinking that I am not ordinary. I am what they say. I am what the people are shouting at. I am what the public is screaming for.” I replied.

“Ashejan, why would you think that I would think of you that way?”

I shrugged. “You saw Jericho kiss me in the cafeteria and then you saw me with Phytos later that day inside a restaurant.” I started. “I smiled at you but you didn’t even acknowledge me. I was thinking that you’re probably—”

“Don’t overthink things, Ashejan.” He cut my words. “I saw you with Phytos in the restaurant and I tried to not smile at you because I was afraid that I would ruin your date.” He started to explain. “And as for the k-kiss…” His voice trailed. “…I know that Jericho Marquez is really just a jerk like that.”

I looked at him. “So you’re not avoiding me?” I asked him.

He shook his head. “Why would I avoid you?” He asked.

“Because you’re so distant all of a sudden.” I pouted. “Since you started hanging out with Serena.” I continued softly.

I want to ask him if he likes Serena. I want to personally ask him right now. I want to know. I want to know so I would not prolong this lingering feeling in me. I want to know because I want to know if-

“She’s someone who’s so bright and intelligent.”

I stopped thinking and blinked at his words.

Shit. He must really like her.

“She’s always in the library so I had the time to talk to her and then…” His voice trailed and I can see him blush. I wanted to shut my eyes because I can feel my heart getting ripped into millions of pieces. “…then we became close because we share the same interests—”

“You like her, right?” I smiled, trying to mask the pain that’s eating up my whole being. I had to ask him like it’s a confirmation because I don’t want him to think that I’m trying to insert myself in his life.

He chuckled. “I like her.” He replied and I felt my whole world falling under my feet. “Who wouldn’t like her?” He asked me.

I forced a smile. Yes, he would really like girls with purity and knowledge and not girls with a long list of ex-lovers. He’s not going to like me more than how I wanted him to be.

Who would like me anyway?

“So…” I contemplated if I’m going to tell him this. “…are you going to confess your feelings for her?” I asked.

He stared at me. “She knows it.” He replied. “She already knows that I like her.”

“Ah…” Then I chuckled.

Fuck! My eyes are starting to get clouded with tears. And I had to look away.

Why do I have to feel this way for him? Why did it have to happen this fast? Why didn’t I even feel the attraction? Why didn’t I stop this phase?

I swallowed a big lump in my throat to prevent the tears from falling.

“She’s really worried about the Arts project, though.” He continued insensitively. “She’s partnered with Phytos and she’s shy about it.”

I took a deep breath and looked up, blinking a few more times.

“Phytos is a good guy.” I spoke. “You don’t have to feel jealous of him.” I continued. “No offense but Serena is too intelligent to be his type.” I smiled.

He chuckled. “Of course, Serena is the crème of the crop.” He started to boast for his girlfriend. “Serena is really shy, though. I just hope she doesn’t bore Phytos.”

I smiled. “Phytos wouldn’t mind. He’s a gentleman.” I spoke. I looked at him. “Serena is really lucky because she has you and you like her a lot.” I tried to say it in the most normal way I could ever do.

He narrowed his eyes on me. “Don’t worry, Ashejan.” He told me as he tapped my shoulder and it sent a million shivers in my spine.

“I like you, too.” He spoke and my jaw literally dropped.