I have to say that the conversation with Joshua really boosted my confidence. I was able to let go of my ego and think clearly. I returned home and although it was late, I took Beth to my pool room (Yes there was actually an indoor hot pool in the penthouse) and played the new symphonies which bought forth new shades of white to my heart.
I turned on the water heating coils and when the pool was warm enough, I soaked my legs in it and played the tunes that were formulating in my heart. I don't know how long I stayed up but I played Beth to my heart's content. I got to give Tommy Jacob's some credit; he has truly polished my amateur skills and almost made a professional in just two months of learning under him.
Strange, I almost feel hollow inside; I don't want to think about the past or
