The forbidden alpha queen

Near Death

The water carried me through the rough waves until I got to the falls. The fall hadn’t killed me but I was certain that the fall from the falls would. I tried to remain strong and brave but deep down I knew that there was no way that I was to make it out of this alive. I needed a miracle but where would I get this miracle when I had been forsaken by the moon goddess from birth?

I could hear the water rumbling, I could hear the water rumbling loudly as I neared the edge and I felt like my heart was about to escape through my mouth. I had never been so terrified in my life. It felt like I was looking at death right in the eye and I had nowhere to run to. There was no one I could call to for help as they probably thought I was dead by now. I wished I had died the moment my body came in contact with the water, that death would have been a lot less terrifying than what I was facing now.

I tried to swim back, to swim somewhere safe, I tried to grab onto something so that I wouldn’t fall but I was too exhausted. The fact that I was an alpha wolf seemed to mean nothing at this point. For some weird and sad reason, I wondered what my father would have said if he had witnessed this. I shouldn't have been wondering what that man would think in this situation because this was all his fault. I was looking at death in the eye right now because of the bad decisions he had made on my behalf. He should have been disappointed in himself because female wolves were not meant to live the life that I had lived, the training that I had gone through meant nothing as it was never meant for the body of a female wolf. My wolf was exhausted and so was I. We both wanted to give up.

I wanted to break down in tears and cry because I had fought so hard to stay alive. I had lived through so much, I had been through so much training with James and yet all that training meant nothing right now. It was now almost as if this had been his plan all along. He had sabotaged me by not giving me the training that I would have needed to survive this. he had sabotaged me because while I was busy training he was busy plotting against me.

I wanted to cry because had my father listened to me when I was begging him to let me live my life the way I wanted to I wouldn’t be here. He had died a peaceful death while I was about to die in the most gruesome way. He had warned me against other wolves and told me that they would take advantage of me and would even try to kill me if they sensed that I was weak. I had been concerned about the wrong thinking this whole time because no one would have ever guessed that water would be the one to kill me.

I reached the edge and I wanted to scream but nothing came out. It was almost as if my body and soul and even my wolf had accepted this fate, but I still wanted to fight. I couldn’t go down like this, it couldn’t end like this and yet it was about to, I guess just had to accept that.

As I plummeted down the steep fall, I could feel the ice-cold air rushing past my face almost as if it was preparing me for what lay ahead. The sound of the roaring water was deafening making it harder for me to even contemplate the life that I had lived. But then again, there wasn’t much for me to contemplate because I hadn’t lived much.

My body hit the water hard and I sank to the bottom. Fighting with the current to stay afloat and still proving to not be strong enough to. Somehow the water pushed me back up and I managed to gasp for air but at this point, I couldn’t even see where I was. It was all a blur and my eyes hurt because of all the water that had made its way inside them

For the first time, I wished I could just die. I felt like the water that surrounded me was crushing me and keeping me prisoner. I was moving with the water and yet I couldn’t move my own body as well as I wanted to. Just like every other part of my life, this was something else that I couldn’t control. I dealt like I had been drowning in the water ever since I was born.

I finally resigned myself to my fate, this was how I was going to die. At least I was going to finally meet my mother and thinking of just being in her arms made me forget about the water that felt like it was crushing me. I would finally be able to confront my gather and blame him for the fact that my life was cut short. I would also meet my brother, whose place I was forced to take.

I wondered what my life would have been like if we had grown up together. If he hadn’t died at birth, what if I had been the one to die? Would my death have made any difference to my kingdom since they hated females so much? Probably not, my death wouldn’t have melded much of a difference to the kingdom as long as my brother was alive.

Suddenly, my head hit a rock and for the first time since this ordeal, I felt something warm. I suddenly felt like sleeping.

“What is that?” asked a male voice from a distance. I tried to open my eyes to see who it was but they were too heavy nd blurry.

“I think it’s a woman…” finally someone was going to help me and take me out of this misery.