You know that awkward feeling when someone you have the biggest crush on is just sitting there staring at you? Well if you've never experienced that before just be thankful.
Now that Noah knew how I felt and I knew he felt just the same, the tension between us had grown tenfold. I was currently in the emergency room at the hospital being watched by him as the nurses and doctors hurried around us and I was so aware of his eyes.
I was also aware of his attention on the people attending to me, watching over like a protective father should. He even had made a comment to one of the nurses telling them that they needed to stop moving my leg in a way that had me yelling in pain.
Hah. A comment, more like he scolded them in an extremely rude way.
The drive to the hospital was excruciatingly painful. Maybe even more painful than my ankle. Now that our feelings were out in the open, I couldn't help but feel more nervous around him.
We only talked about my ankle and how it was hurting me. How I had hurt it, which he scolded me again for.
The drive was only ten minutes so I didn't have to be in an enclosed space with him for too long.
I knew we would have to drive back home but I needed some time to collect myself before we ended up back in the car together.
When we got back to the house it would be a whole other story. We would have to talk. In fact we had a lot of talking to do.
We both knew this situation was wrong but did that mean we would work out getting over our feelings? After he told me he 'wanted every single part of me' I didn't think that, that would be the case.
Noah Carter was a very forward man. A very determined man.
He had said that he was surprised I had kissed him first. I was wrong the whole time. He felt the same attraction to me that I did to him. The whole time.
If I hadn't kissed him out of the blue, overwhelmed by feelings of love and safety made me do it- he would have eventually kissed me. It made me wonder what would have happened if I didn't run away, scared out of my mind. Would it have gone further?
Since my X-rays had finally come back, determining that I had broken my ankle, I was now finally getting it wrapped.
Noah ignored every text and phone call while he waited for me. I sure was taking up a lot of his busy, important time. It made me feel bad although I was happy he was with me. Who wouldn't want a man like this to spend his time on you?
How many women would be extremely envious of me? If I wasn't his daughter anyway.
I couldn't even imagine how our conversation would go. Would he come to his senses and change his mind? That's what I couldn't help but continue to think. This was too good to be true really.
"Alright Miss Harper, you are all free to go now that your father has filled out your discharge papers." The doctor smiled down at me.
When did that happen? I hadn't even noticed them give him anything whatsoever. Not that I was complaining, I wanted out of here. Even though I knew what was coming once we left.
They wheeled me out to the parking lot with Noah in tow and I noticed how all the females looked at him. It made me red with envy. Most of them were so much more beautiful than me. Fully developed WOMEN.
Compared to them I was still a little girl, even if I was turning 18 in a year.
The woman that Noah had been fücking in the kitchen the other night was perfect. She had a body to die for. Even if she had annoyed him and he never wanted to bring her home in the first place or not.
Noah insisted on helping me into the car himself, shooting away all the nurses. It made me smile, I couldn't help it.
When I was all buckled in and he got in as well, I dropped the smile though. Nerves were getting the best of me like usual.
We were both silent as we pulled out of the parking lot. I didn't know what to say. I couldn't find any words to start a conversation. I was waiting for the worst.
"I've made it 100% clear that you're never to do something like this again, correct?" Of course he would break the ice.
"Y-yes..."
"Yes what?"
"Y-yes...sir?"
It made sense. He was my father and deserved my respect.
"Do you want to know how I knew that you had feelings for me?"
He was starting early... it was going to happen sooner or later. I guess he couldn't help himself and he just had to bring it up.
"How..."
"You blush every time I talk to you. You stutter, your voice is soft. I know I'm intimidating but I can read you so easily baby girl. Most women come onto me strong but you're so innocent, I love it. I know you feel ashamed for feeling the way that you do but I don't want you to. I know that I don't and I'm not sorry. We came into each other's lives for a reason even if it's not conventional but fück conventional."
He barely swore. Sometimes when he was on the phone doing business but that was about it. He was very well put together, a gentleman if you will. But I knew deep down he wasn't going to be a gentleman with me.
"Harper..." He turned to me as he pulled up into the very large garage. I was having trouble looking at him again. I always did. Those eyes of his pulled me right in and did things to me. He was devilishly handsome and my body reacted just simply by looking at his face.
Finally, I turned my body to look at him, pressing it against the door.
"I will never make you do anything that you don't want to. I will never hurt you unintentionally but we aren't going to talk about those things right now..."
'Unintentionally.' Noted. I knew what that meant...ahhhh...
I swallowed audibly and nodded. In that moment he placed his fingers on my chin and pulled my face closer to him while he leaned in closer as well. "Such beautiful lips sweetheart."
The smell of his minty breath made me dizzy. My eyelids fluttered as his lips skimmed mine gently. He whispered against them. "I want to devour you."
I couldn't help but whimper before he smashed his lips onto mine. And then my eyes rolled shut and I had to hold onto his thighs to keep myself upright. He helped me, undoing my seatbelt and pulling me against him.
He licked my lower lip multiple times before I opened up to him. As soon as our tongues slid against each other he groaned deep in his throat.
Fück, he tasted as good as sin. Lucky for me I had kissed before so I semi knew what I was doing. But honestly it didn't matter, he was controlling everything and my God he was good at kissing.
Before I knew it, he was pulling me into his lap and I immediately felt his hardness between my legs. I whimpered into his mouth and he pulled back slightly to chuckle before taking my bottom lip between his teeth.
"I want to give everything to you. I want to own you but I want you to own me to. Consider that all of yours baby girl. I don't want to touch, love or take care of anyone like I want to do you."
His hips jutted up and he ground his bulge into me. His hand held the back of my neck as I let out little cries. "Fück Harper you are so beautiful. I can just imagine you bare and whimpering beneath me sweetheart."
Again I whimpered. His voice was husky and chilling to the bone. My body was hot with need and I knew I had soaked through my panties.
I had never experienced physical contact with a man of Noah's stature before and he was a strong, hard and fully dominant, alpha male.
I loved his possessive nature. I loved his dominance. The smell of him alone made me wet.
I wanted to see beneath his perfect and expensive fitted suits. I wanted him more than I had ever wanted anything in my whole entire life.
In that moment he stopped his motions and pulled me against his chest, just holding me and breathing heavily. "I'm sorry baby girl I have to stop now or I won't be able to at all. My control with you is way too weak. You make me want to lose all of it and never take it back. I want us to talk more..." His hands were busy, one running through my hair, one rubbing my back.
"I want you to really think about what YOU want. I know what I want and that won't change." Hearing him say it wouldn't change helped calm my fears of him changing his mind a little bit and I'd take it for now. "Of course anything between us would have to stay between us. For now anyway. I would move anywhere if it meant being able to be free with you."
He grinned at me, learning back again to kiss me on the tip of my nose. And then he did something that made me lurch forward and press the top of my head into his chest.
His hand made its way between my legs and he grabbed me over my pants. Unable to control myself I moaned.
He chuckled and pressed a kiss to my hair. "You soaked through onto me baby girl. I'm sorry I had to feel for myself..."
Again he was tilting me up so he could look in my eyes with the hand that wasn't between my legs. He took the one from between my legs and made me watch him run his tongue up the palm of it.
Oh my fücking holy hell that was hot!
His eyes fluttered, then closed for a few moments and then he ran his tongue over his bottom lip. "You have no idea how badly I wanted to taste you. It's not enough..." He pulled my face closer to his again and the tips of our noses touched.
"I hope I'll get to get through all these layers and make you scream Harper. Have you ever had a man's mouth on your sweet, little p***y baby?"
I shook my head rapidly, trying as best as I could to hold back my whimpers.
"Good. I want it all to myself if you'll let me. I want to be your first princess. You're first every single, little thing."
He made me keep eye contact as I felt my face grow increasingly hotter. "I love when you blush for me. You sweet little thing you." Again he ran his tongue across my bottom lip and then slowly lowered his lips to mine.
I opened without any invitation and he quickly took charge, gently pushing his tongue into my mouth. My eyes fluttered shut and I moaned into him.
"That's my girl, opening for me." He bit my lip and continued to devour my mouth, his hand once again gripping the back of my neck roughly.
After a few seconds of heated kissing I whimpered. This time in pain. He broke the kiss right away and pushed my hair off of my forehead. "I'm sorry baby, I don't think I'll ever get enough of you. We need to get you inside and take care of you."
He gently placed me on the seat and got out of the car. I so badly wanted to protest. Fück my ankle, I wanted more of him!
He opened my door and carefully picked me up bridal style. "Let's get you rested and fed sweetheart. I've got your medicine. It's going to make you sleep so let's get you ready for the night."
I nodded, resting my cheek against his chest as we walked out of the garage and into the house.
"The decision is yours Harper but I really want you to think hard about us. I don't want you to rush into anything without really feeling comfortable. Either way I will always be here for you, love you and take care of you. That I promise you."
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After he helped me get pajamas out of my dresser, he went downstairs to get me some food. He had helped me get the rest of my pants off, since they had to cut the leg off of the one side to put a cast on my foot.
I was silent the whole time feeling so embarrassed that he was seeing me partially without clothes for the first time. It wasn't too bad, at least I still had underwear on.
I slipped off my bra and shirt to put on a long nightgown and then crawled myself up to lay my head on my pillow.
He had also turned the tv on for me, handing me the remote. I had never been taken care of like this before.
I fiddled on my phone while half watching some stand up comedy show. I looked through social media again and checked my texts. My mother hadn't even bothered to get in touch with me since I had left her house.
She probably was glad to be rid of me and felt like she had won the jackpot with Noah coming back to take care of me. She knew like I did, that our relationship would never be the same. I was absolutely sure of it.
To an extent I was saddened, I mean after all she was still my mother. She had still raised me and kept me alive up until now. I used to think we were ok.
As I began to drown in my depressing thoughts my door opened. Noah was holding a tray with a bowl and a cup of something.
"Chicken noodle soup and some ginger ale. Now I know you're not sick but I think this is a good thing to eat before bed and after everything you've been through today. Comfort food." He smiles softly helping place it on my lap after I sat up.
"Thank you... after everything I've d-done toda-"
"Shhhh. Forget about it for now, yeah? You need to heal quickly. And at the beginning of next week you start homeschooling."
I groaned causing him to chuckle. "It's all part of the process sweetheart. You need an education. Even if our relationship is different from an actual father- daughter thing, I have to take care of you in every way possible. That means tending to your future as well. I want you to be happy baby. I want you to be able to do what you want when you're older."
I nodded, giving him a small smile. "I completely understand... I do want to, g-go to college and stuff..." I trailed off, grabbing my spoon.
He stood up and came over to place a gentle kiss on my lips. I hummed in content as I took the first bite of my soup.
"Good?"
"Amazing." I praised. And it really was.
"Homemade. Your grandmother's recipe. I told you I knew how to cook. You won the jackpot princess."
I couldn't help but chuckle at that.
"I'll keep proving myself to you. You'll see sweetheart. I'll satisfy you until your heart's content."
Hearing him say that made me accidentally drop the spoon back into the bowl. He meant that one, just like all the others.
He laughed hard, his eyes creasing and I felt my face turn hotter.
"You are so sweet baby girl. I'm going to leave you to eat now, give your body and mind a rest. However long you need to think, you do it. Just let me know when your done. If you don't have an answer for me by tomorrow I completely understand. There is no rush, ok love?"
I nodded.
He gave me a pill with a glass of water as well and I swallowed it down.
Again he leaned over and placed his lips against mine, making sure to lick some broth from the corner of my mouth.
This man would be the death of me I was sure.
"Sleep well sweetheart, I love you, sweet dreams."
He left another kiss on my forehead before he left my room watching me until the door was completely closed.
My heart was racing.
He told me to think over being with him. I already knew I wanted him but I would 'think' for him. Being with him in the way we wanted wouldn't be without complications but I still wanted it. I needed it, I needed him.
I hadn't even known him for a week yet but I was sure. How could anyone not be sure about a man like Noah. He had made me the center of his universe.
And I'm sure a lot of women were also attracted to his money. I didn't care a single thing about that. He, himself was enough.
My attitude about what my mother had done and having to live with him had totally done a 180. I was extremely thankful that I had to live with him.
How could I have known that it would turn into what it was? I would have never.
As I finished my soup and ginger ale I felt my eyelids begin to feel heavy. I had never taken heavy pain medicine before and it was really hitting me hard.
How was I supposed to do any thinking while sleeping? If I remembered my dreams tomorrow I was almost completely positive they would be about Noah.
The way he had touched me tonight made me want so much more. I had never felt anything better in my life. I had made out with boys but never a MAN. Just imagine what it would feel like to...
I had to stop myself. I was freaking me out.
I wanted it but of course I was scared. Scared to disappoint Noah more than anything else. I hoped my body was good enough... I hoped after one time he'd want more. All of these thoughts were reasons it could be a mistake- being intimate and physical with Noah. But I had to give it a shot. I couldn't let my insecurities ruin a good thing.
He would still take care of me if it didn't work out... right? If something went wrong... he'd still stick around to be a 'father'...he loved me.
When things got rough I usually ran. I didn't stick around and tough it out. I didn't want to be that person anymore. I had faith in Noah, now it was time to prove to him that I was mature enough to do this.