The Strongest Sagittarian Mother Nammu

Menstruation and love

Nammu hits in puberty stage when she was thirteen years young. She saw the dripping of blood from her genitalia she didn't get an idea to dip into like what is happening with her body. She retreated herself back that something is happening worse in her life. Due to constant bleeding she was recommended to wear a cloth and let her sit in one corner.

Now that was the thing she felt humiliated as being menstruated. She was outcasted. She was recommended not to touch anyone, not to enter kitchen and temple. She was irritated with these rules. When she need hug and cuddle she was treated untouchable. She had to wash her own dishes and had to wash her clothes and clean all the room area. When she crave for love she started hating things and development happening to her body. This was the theoretical taboo of society which made her to hate her body and gender till the time she was in her last stage of cancer. She strive to love herself but she was all way around with responsibilities and nurturing became her habit which leads her to think less about loving herself.

She had an acute pain in her tummy to which she had to silently drink. She used to miss her class as she used to bleed profusely. She had to change four/ five clothes at her school. At that time sanitary pads were expensive and obviously it was the difficult point to buy sanitary pads for five sisters. She used to drench in an excessive sweat and her clothes used to stain Red like a river. Her massive stain had made her uneasiness while walking on street. She used to have bruises around genitalia and sometimes she used to blame her birth seeing the pathetic condition of bleeding and sweating. She used to see all sisters painful situation and she had to stop thinking herself as agile. As all were bearing the same homework of menstrual pain including her mother. Alas she didn't defend such taboos as all were already bearing financially and mentally battered of being a middle class background.

About love

No doubt, when she was on her prime beauty 20 years young, she used to get proposals but she nevermind about such things. It's a natural thing to get hordes of proposals at that time. She avoid and avoid. She had to look after her education and family and it was a waste of time and she let it spread in her own child genes too. s*x was a huge taboo at that time. She was less aware about s****l education and intercaste marriage affairs. She used to discuss with her mother and her sister Meena about love things. As her mother used to shy away and Meena used to say philosophical stuffs that love is a sin before marriage and she should not lose her virginity before marriage.

She was brought up in a concept that kiss can make her pregnant, forget about the ethics of m**********n and s*x. She think love as a cinema, where a guy came and give love to her lady love and they live happily ever after. What about kid? She used to think God will germinate the baby seed in our body and it will come with no any pain. This fussy fantasy was till in her head till she married to Sudeep.

Many guys affirmed her as a ladylove seeing her hardworking etiquettes but she feel that she need that type of man who will ease her mental, financial, physical and emotional burden and let her rest in peaceful mode. She had a dream list of his man. Albeit many guys teachers, professors proposed her to bring moon on her feet but they all were rosy promises. One guy of another religion which I won't state here used to follow her as she used to speak fluent hindi. She was so humble and polite which thunder the heart of that man. The array of fortune goes parallel when his sister was her friend. Her friend tried to investigate the matter but she turn down as Nammu was of another religion. Nammu mother was too displeased seeing this. She doesn't want to taint her family prestige by marrying with that person. What society will say buzzes her ?

One guy who was a professor asked to take Nammu hand as he love her endearingly and he promised that she will be happy. Even Nammu felt the tinge of responsibility in his face and the way humbly folded his hands infront of her mother shows the deepest respect for seniors. But her mother turn down that Meena is not married and she wanted her second daughter to be married like in a chronological order. She also said that she does not want Nammu to be married in a same state and with same creed as they don't want to live India forever. Their ancestral roots in another country and they want to die there. That guy couldn't sit listening to this and he never came back.

This things were going to different path so she didn't allow herself to be bounded in any aphorisms. She knew that she had to marry according to her mother choices and five sisters were still in darkness of things that after marriage what will happen? Lack of s****l orientation and knowledge and the rejection kind of things were kind of distraction to her ambition. So, she had decided that she won't be thinking about this topic and she will live a jolly life being a principal of school.

She had let her future Marriage thing in her mother hand as she had an utmost belief that even if she will be married she will continue her journey with her blood toil and sweat. Remaining things are history and mystery. Her biggest test was approaching in her life, which will change the entire stream of her. The transformation was here to begin.