the wife of jesus

my story begins on a plane from Detroit Michigan to well...to my destination israel. i looked at my refection in the window. my blue eyes and short hair staired back at me. it was dark out and raining a little. I've been on the plane for hours now. anyways my name is Mandy... you see my story began when i had a sickness called schizophrenia. i had it since i turned 20. i got it because i had s*x with a guy for the first time and he r***d me... hence why i got it. anyways now im 31 years old. my life has not been good since that day. my relationship with men went to shits. except...for one. the one i love most of all. the one i had a crush on since i turned 22. how that happened... well mostly due to my schitzophrenia. i had an episode i thought i was his wife and well...lets just say my life changed. i mean yeah shure i dated men. i also made mistakes with them. but...i never felt more happy with that one person. iv been in a pyscward 12 times. mostly due to my schitzophrenia...i cried for hours in there everytime i went. they shoved meds down my throat. i had to take them...i had no choice. i sighed as i stared at myself. i turned my attention to the man sitting besides me. he was just snoring away as the other people around me where still awake and talking. i turned my atention to the front of the plane. a flite attendant came and took the microphone. "we are now in isreal. please buckle your seatbelts for landing and i hope you had a good flight!" the lady said smiling. as we did as we were told. including the man i shook awake. we landed in minutes. i was jumping for joy in my seat as we landed. i watched as everyone got off. i quietly stood up then and walked off the plane. i made it. i thought as i smiled. i always thought that i was ment to come across the world... i looked around.... the airport was huge. my mouth was opened as i walked around. nothing made since because of the language. but it didnt stop me from being happy. i wanted to run around. but decided not to. so i just went to find my luggage. as i did. it took me a few. as i found my black purple luggage... i grabbed it. then quitly i carefully blended in with the crowd. i headed towards the front of the airport. and as i stepped outside. it was still raining and dark. i breathed in the air around me... it was cool and comfortable. i smiled... a woman i seen with a white board was holding my name on it. i smiled as i walked up to her. "hi im mandy!" i told her as i shook her hand. the lady was beautiful. she had long brown hair in a bun. her outfit was black and suffisticated. her heels where cute too. "hello im raylen your tour guide!" she told me in perfect english. i nodded. my heart started to pound fast as we walked to a black car. i put my suitcase in it and off we went. i was on cloud nine. i took my camera out of my bag and started to take pictures. Isreal was beautiful at night. people where everywhere. i was falling in love with the country as we rode to the hotel i was to stay at. my phone dinged then. i looked at it. my mother sent me a txt on sss. asking me if i finally made it. i sighed. she had such a hard time letting me come here. i remmber the day i asked her. she threw a fit. but i didn't care. i was going because it wasn't up to her. i was a grown ass adult. not a child. i rolled my eyes as i txt her back. stating to her i was finally here and told her to quit worrying so much. after 30 minutes in the car and taking pictures at the night life. we ended up at the hotel. i was getting tired as raylen checked me in for the next 12 days here. as i took thecard she gave me. i headed up to my room. i opened the door and stepped in. i was in love the room was big and spacious and clean. i threw my luggage on my bed and went to my balcony. i took a deep breath in as i studied the night sky. i yawned. i went back in. i grabbed some PJs and took a shower. then i brushed my teeth and layed in my bed. i snuggled so deep into it. i passed out in a matter of minutes. i dont know how long i slept...but something woke me up. i opened my eyes. there in the middle of the room was a bluish light. i know you think id be freaking out...but i was use to weird things like this. ill come back to that later. anyways i got up from my bed and carefully walked to it. i carefully took my right hand and reached out. i touched it. as soon as i did.. i landed on hard grown and passed out.