Betrayed from Birth – Alpha’s Unvalued Daughter
Raven’s POV
The night sky seems even darker than usual tonight, with just a sliver of the moon shining down on us. I silently run through the woods letting my wolf Emerald out tonight. She has been anxious all day, well really the last few days, and I could tell that she needed to come out for a run. So, we did what we normally do, took a small nap to wait until after 1 am to make sure no one would be around, and then headed out for our run. I would always stick to the woods just over the far ridge from my pack, as it is near my favorite stream when I need a little peace. It is always quietest over on this side of the pack, as it is the closest to our neighbor’s, the Blood Walker pack. They are our neighbors to the north, but their land only borders ours for about two thousand feet. They have never entered our land, and the whole pack has all been warned not to trespass onto their land. We were all advised of the dire consequences that would arise if someone ever did. We would be at war instantly, as we are not friendly neighbors and we do not have a treaty with them. I have heard horror stories about their Alpha. They are a very strong pack, and the outcome of a war between us would not be favorable to us here at the Silver Blade pack.
Alpha Cole Walker is the Alpha of the Blood Walker pack. He is said to be one of the most dangerous Alphas in the United States. It is said that he would kill anyone who dared to enter his packlands uninvited. Due to this fact, most of our pack members studiously avoid this area altogether. I take advantage of that and use this area to enjoy my solitude, and what little freedom I can get from the packhouse, by coming here when I do manage to get out. The Goddess knows that I need it too. I do not know what I ever did to deserve the life I live, yet I live it every single day. The blatant hate in the pack member’s eyes. The nasty comments and physical abuse I suffer are bad enough. But I have to say the worst of it is the disrespect and unwarranted anger that the pack has for me. My twin sister, Reagan, on the other hand, is the golden child of the pack. They all love her unconditionally. She is cherished and appreciated, no matter what she does. They all seem to ignore the fact that she is a horrible and mean she-wolf. I was born first, and with that should come the respect that after I find my mate, I will officially be the Luna here, and he will take over as the Alpha of the pack. Yet they all treat her as the next Luna.
“No, you won’t Raven. I have already seen it, you know in your heart that we will never be given this pack. In fact, you should have listened to me and packed before we got our nap tonight. I already know our fate, but you have to take your own steps in this. I cannot tell you what is about to happen, as what you decide to do tonight will seal out fate. Whether we will live or die, will all be decided by you” Emerald tells me through our link.
“I know they hate us, for whatever innocent reason. I have known this for a while since I have been treated like this from a young child. There was nothing that I could have done to deserve this treatment that I have received, not from my earliest memory until today. There is nothing that we can do about it, I feel it too Emerald. Something really bad is about to happen, and I am scared” I linked her back. I can tell that something big is about to happen, and when it does, I know that my life will be changed completely.
“Get dressed and hide, I can hear them coming this way. You will need to hide in a tree, but I will block our scent from whoever it is to protect us” Emerald tells me, and we took off further into the woods heading away from the packhouse. I head to an area that I know has a change of clothes for me to wear. Even with the outcome known to her, she doesn’t ever want to hurt me. She has been the only good thing to happen to me in my young life, and I love her like a sister. I wish she were my sister, instead of Reagan. I got my wolf two months ago when Reagan and I both turned eighteen years old. Emerald is a strong wolf, and she is really smart. She is a pretty large wolf too, but I have never been phased and near another wolf to see how much bigger she will be next to them.
I phased back to human and dressed quickly because whoever it is, they are very close to where I am now. I won’t take the chance of getting hurt again by just standing here. As the firstborn child of the Alpha of the Silver Blade pack, I really should be able to defend myself. My sister and I are the only children that our parents had. The Goddess never blessed them with another child, even though they tried for years. My father, Alpha Graham Sullivan, is very strict with me. I am not allowed to leave my room other than to eat my meals and then return back to my room again. I am also not allowed to leave our packland for any reason. I have never even crossed the border of the Sliver Blade packlands in my life. I have always been told it is for my own protection but never given a reason for why I need the protection. Reagan is not a prisoner here, she goes to the movies, shopping, on dates, and leaves the pack all the time. I get her hand-me-down clothes, well at the least clothes that I consider acceptable. We do not have the same taste in clothes. I like my but to be covered, so her dresses and skirts are all unacceptable. I will take her jeans and t-shirts though. I have no idea what is out there, outside the pack walls, other than what I have read in the books in the library. I have made a lot of use of the books in our library. They really helped when I finally got my wolf when I turned 18 two months ago. That was the only way that I knew what was about to happen to me when I phased into my wolf for the first time. The level of pain I was in was pretty bad, but now in just two short months, I can phase into my wolf very quickly, and it is painless to phase for me now.
I was alone for my first phase, and that was as expected too. Instead of mom and dad having us together for our first shifts, they were both with Reagan and left me behind. My mother the Luna, Cassandra Sullivan, was positive that I would not be given a wolf. The whole pack in fact believed that I was wolfless, as neither she, nor my father, or anyone else in the pack for that matter had ever sensed that I had a wolf. Emerald has hidden her scent from the pack this whole time. When we leave our room and go downstairs, she hides our scent, she hid it when I was finishing my last month at school too. I am more thankful that Emerald did that for me than her healing me from when I had my little “accidents.” I would prefer everyone to think that I have no wolf, as I think I need to get out of the Silver Blade pack. Things are really bad here, and the chances of my mate being here in this pack are pretty slim. Even if he were in this pack, the probability of him rejecting me right off the bat is 50/50. I get bumped, shoved, tripped, and bones broken, more than it should be possible for me to have as the daughter of the Alpha of this pack. That is why I am required to stay in my room, or the library, when I do get permission to go there from mom. She is nicer to me than my father is, but that isn’t saying very much. She has never taken my side in front of him, for in anything in my life.
Dad has never hit me, or physically hurt me. What he does is actually worse, it is all emotional abuse, and it has cut me to my core on each and every occasion. You would think that I would have learned that fact by now. I honestly should never get hopeful that he might have a change of heart and love me too. For him to see how much I love him, and my mother. But it never happens, he has never said a kind word to me. He has never taken up for or supported me, and that fact alone is what hurts the most. He thinks the very worst of me all the time. He is the most important person in my life, the one I look up to the most, and he actually hates me more than anyone else in this innocent pack.
I guess I will never know why, I have asked numerous times, and all I am met with is anger, and then my parents leaving whatever room we were in at the time. They both leave, heading in two separate directions, and neither of them will tell me anything. Whatever the secret is, it is the pack’s biggest secret, and that makes me even more nervous about why they hate me so much. My sister hates me too, but she is really smart about how she hides it, faking concern as if she cares. She totally works up my tormenters, and then walks away while I call out for help. I learned the real truth of our relationship at fourteen years old. The truth was that I would not be able to trust her, ever again. I was hurt more than I had ever previously been hurt and ended up in the pack hospital with several broken bones and knocked out from hitting the ground so hard.
Reagan was there when it happened, but as I was waking up, I heard the story that she was telling dad. The whole thing was a lie. When I was finally able to speak, I did tell dad what had actually happened, and then he slapped me for lying. He immediately took her side of it, not mine, and I actually learned two lessons on that day. The first is just how much Reagan will boldly lie to our parents, or really anyone, to get her way. Second, she started that whole event, and never got in trouble for attempting to kill me. She walked right out the door with dad, giving me a smirk as they left, knowing that dad totally believed the lies she told. He had broken my heart again, and I swore from that day forward that I was locking him out of my heart. I was never going to hope that he would change, or truly love me, ever again. I can still remember him walking out of my hospital room with his arm around her shoulders murmuring to her about how much he loved her, and her smirking back at me. That was the cherry on top of the sundae, and I decided right then and there that I would not be allowing either of them to catch me unawares, or off guard again.
Mom had given me a little smile before she went to leave my hospital room before stopping at the door and telling me, “I will be back to check on you in the morning. I will have an Omega bring you a book to read tonight.” I watched her as she walked out of the room, leaving me alone with the silence that was overwhelming, and seemed to take over the room. It was at that moment that my heartbreak was complete. A short time later all that could be heard from my room were the sound of my sobs, as I cried myself to sleep. I knew the book would never come, and it didn’t. Even if mom did manage to remember what she had said to me, The Omegas never really cared for me at all. I was unimportant in the pack, as that fact had been drilled into me every single day. No one had to listen to me or fulfill any of my requests. Like my own birthday cake, or at least for them to put both of our names on our birthday cake. Instead every year it was only Reagan’s name on the cake, and me not allowed to come to the party. No gifts were ever for me, they were always just for Reagan. My mom had come back alone to the hospital the following afternoon to get me checked out, and to go back to my room to complete the healing process. I was back in my room that night, with no dinner because I couldn’t maneuver the stairs. Goddess forbid someone had to bring food up for me. It was at the 48-hour mark when my mom decided to check on me to see why I hadn’t come down to eat any of my meals. They had forgotten that I was not able to use the stairs to get down to the dining room and we had no elevator here at the packhouse. I healed slowly, according to my family, and that was the first time the rumor that I had no wolf, started to spread. It ran rampant, and my dad did nothing to stop it, it actually seemed to please him that I didn’t have a wolf.
I started climbing a tree to hide and got about 20 feet up from the base of the tree. I picked a spot where there were two strong branches coming out very close together, stretching out from the tree trunk, and got comfortable on the branches. Whoever was coming their way here are near, and I didn’t want to get caught out of the house. I wasn’t very well known to the whole pack just the kids that had gone to school with me would really know me, otherwise, they would have to have seen me eating in the dining hall with my parents. I was the Alpha’s daughter, but I was not a valued member of this pack. Telling on me has always resulted in a bonus for whoever told on me to my father. I have had to learn how to overcome this on my own. It has made me very independent over the years, as well as a very good climber. I use the tree outside my window at the packhouse, to climb up and down to get in and out of my room.
From my vantage point, I can see who is coming now and rolled my eyes so hard I almost saw my brain. Goddess, it was Reagan, and she was pulling the arm of a pretty large guy, as she headed toward the grassy bank near my tree. I realized right this moment that I have picked a terrible place to hide. I should have doubled back and then climbed in my window to my room and I would have been safe and sound in my room. Reagan is clearly out with one of her many men, as she was allowed to stay out and do whatever she wanted to. I mean how else could she beat me to finding her mate if she didn’t sleep with all the unmated men in our pack? I rolled my eyes again and then froze when I looked at them again and got a good look at his face. That smell coming off of him was starting to drive me wild, he smelled like freshly baked cinnamon buns, and I was now pissed off. She had come here with the guy that I had a crush on, someone with whom she had never shown any interest in before. It was our Beta’s son and the guy that I have had a crush on for the last year and a half. I had dreamed of him becoming my mate, and now I am completely disgusted as my twin sister Reagan is about to sleep with my mate, and I had no way to stop her from doing it.
Raven’s POV
“No, don’t stop them, Raven, she has already been sleeping with him for the last few months. This is not the first time, it has been well before he returned to the pack earlier this week. They are together now, dating, and they have both vowed to reject their actual mates to stay together to take over and run this pack. Please, just try to bear it, I will help you get through it. I am glad that you are in a secure location, this may make you pass out” Emerald linked me, and I felt physically sick. How am I supposed to ignore the fact that I had just found my mate, and he was making out with my sister? I don’t know if I can just ignore it.
“How do you know this? Did she know that he is my mate? Why can’t I approach him? Maybe he wants me, Emerald. Please let me stop this. He might not know that I am his mate, he may still want me, want US! I don’t want to lose him, Emerald. He may not be aware his true mate is here. Can’t he already smell our scent up here, like I smelled his scent? Are you sure that this is the only way? Please Emerald” I linked her back, and I feel the tears that are already sliding down my face. I have questions, and I need answers. I am miserable and frustrated. I don’t want to give up on my true mate. I know that a true mate is a blessing to you given by the moon Goddess and she takes the bonds that she puts together very seriously. I know that he is supposed to be a great blessing to me, and I am supposed to be one for him. I am supposed to make him even stronger than he is now. He doesn’t even know that I am here, and I do want him. I don’t want to give him up, especially not to my sister Reagan. I don’t know if I can survive this level of betrayal.
“I have seen through my visions who he is, and what will happen. I am so sorry Raven. I know this is painful, and if I could take all your pain from you, I would. I can only bear the brunt of it, but it will be painful to you as well. I am angry about this too, I wanted our mate, they were made just for us both. Apparently, they didn’t want us and decided that it was acceptable to take Reagan as a chosen mate. He wants to accept Reagan so he can become the next Alpha of the Silver Blade pack. Just pay attention and listen to what they say when they talk, it may help you decide what you need to do next. I am truly sorry Raven, but Reagan has been leaving the pack for the last three months and meeting him at a hotel near where he is training. It is Justin Evans, and I know that you have feelings for him, even before you realized that he was your mate. Reagan has decided to focus on him as her chosen mate to be able to take over the pack. She, and your parents, came up with this plan from what I have seen in my visions. I am hiding our scent, so he won’t smell us up here” Emerald told me, and I can’t stop the gasp that erupts from me when I find out that Reagan made up this plan, just to take over the pack. Not because she loves Justin, but because she is a greedy, manipulative she-wolf. I can see Reagan and Justin both tense up on the ground from hearing my gasp, and they both start looking around cautiously to see if they can hear anything else, before going back to making out a few minutes later.
My tears are steadily running down my face as I silently sob in pain that I finally found my mate, and I have already lost him. I have gotten pretty good at crying without making a sound, although I wish I had never had to learn how to do it. I just cannot stand for Reagan to know when she has cut me to the core. I feel my shoulders shaking and I realize that this is it, they have done it. My heart is completely broken knowing that this was planned out to hurt me. Reagan did this because she knew that I liked him, a few months after I turned sixteen years old. She caught me on several occasions sneaking looks at him, I tried to only do it occasionally. I didn’t want to make it obvious at school, I didn’t want him to catch me doing it. He graduated the year before us, so I would only be able to see him in the dining hall after that. She knew I had a huge crush on him, probably because he was my mate, and I could already feel the pull toward him.
Why, Goddess, why? Why do I have to lose my mate? Have I not suffered enough in this horrible pack? Why am I continuing to be punished when I have never done anything bad to anyone? I am hurt, so confused, and so very angry right now when my pain truly started. I was not paying attention to them for the last few minutes, and now the pain I felt in my lower belly literally takes my breath away. I looked down at them and was instantly sorry for doing it. I see a sight that I will never be able to forget. My mate, Justin, was pounding into my sister with unbridled lust, and their pleasure was clearly all they cared about. We were not that far away from the packhouse, about a mile, and yet they were so confident in the fact that they would not be getting caught. Neither of them was trying to be quiet about it either. That made me even madder because he is mine, he is not supposed to be doing this, especially not with her. They had to have been getting together like this for a while. They were just kissing each other a few moments ago, how could it progress this quickly? Is this how fast it usually goes when people have laid?
I tried to hold on, to not lose consciousness and pass out. Emerald had told me to listen to see if they would talk, but why would they hang out talking? Wasn’t their purpose just to come out here and have laid together? I am totally disgusted with both of them, I knew that she got around. It is a well-known fact in this pack. But I have always heard that Justin was actually waiting for his mate, just like I had been, it made me even more impressed with him, as girls have been throwing themselves at him for years now. It made the knife drive into me that much farther just knowing that she went out of her way to sleep with him. Even though she had no way of knowing that he was my mate, I know that she did this deliberately to hurt me. She has really succeeded too. I have never been more hurt by her actions than I am today. They are both disgusting to me, and they can have each other, I do not want him anymore if he really likes her, and wants to be with her. The fact that he could really trade the she-wolf that the Goddess gave him to be the Aloha, instead of the Beta position, actually sickened me.
I have heard the mate bond was super strong, it said that in all of the books that I have read in the library. I have no idea how my anger at their betrayal is allowing me to be willing to let him go when he hasn’t even been able to scent me yet. It may be due to the fact that when I close my eyes all I can see is them together, physically joined together, in something that they should never have been doing. The mental picture of him thrusting into her and the enjoyment that they are both expressing. I am done with him, and her, they can have each other even as I send up a prayer for something bad to happen to him. Like the Goddess allowing his stick to be ripped off of him in some kind of a tragic sparing accident when he goes back to his training. Yes, I am angry. If I am truthful I am way past angry, and into fury right now. Just seeing what he is doing with Reagan, and the sounds that they are making, my stomach is turning. I feel nauseous like I could throw up right now. I lay back against the tree and tried to balance my body across the two branches, as I fan my face and try to fight the urge to throw up. I started praying to the Goddess that they will stop soon. My heart, and body, cannot take this betrayal, or this level of pain. I am so glad that the clothes that I found to change into were darker colors, so they won’t see me in case one of them looks up into the tree. He is now on the bottom and she is really getting into her work if the sounds that she is making now are any indication. If I had found a white t-shirt or bright color, I would have been seen very quickly by them.
I hold the groan of pain in, hoping that they could please stop my anguish. I have never felt this type of pain before, even when I had broken bones. I heard my sister making a loud choking kind of noise. A short time later, Justin made a loud moan himself, before it finally gets quiet, and my pain starts to ease up. I did not want to look down at them, but I cannot seem to stop myself from the punishment, I guess I am a glutton for it. I see Justin cuddling Reagan into him and acting like she was so precious to him, and that hurt almost as bad as seeing them having laid. He keeps peppering kisses on her shoulder, neck, and the side of her face. Her sigh of real contentment and happiness makes me want to go down and introduce her to Emerald, right before I rip her throat out.
It seems like her vicious plan to hurt me has really worked out great for her. She actually seems to have some feelings for him, or at the very least enjoys having laid with him. I have never been more jealous of my sister in my life. My perfect sister with her long blonde hair from mom and her deep blue eyes from dad, truly makes her look like a living doll. That is the only nice thing about her. She is the most spiteful person that I know, and she has never been nice to me in her whole life.
Fury now explodes in my chest, as I fully realize what she has done to me. She has tricked a good man into becoming her mate just to try to hurt me and take over this pack. She did this to hurt me in the biggest way that she could. She had really put some thought into it, for her to come up with this plan. The worst part was that Reagan and Justin didn’t even know that he was my mate yet. She will know soon, probably tomorrow, as he will eventually catch my scent, I can’t avoid him forever. Emerald hides our scent all the time unless we are safely secure in our room. No one ever comes to check on me in my room at the end of the hallway on the Alpha level. I keep my door locked, and there is a room before mine as a room splits me from my parent’s room. Reagan has the room at the front of the hallway. We run down one side of the packhouse with a total of 4 rooms. The other side of the hall has four rooms as well. Three belong to the beta couple, one for them, two for their children, and one for important visiting guests. I don’t care at this moment if he does find out that I am his mate. I will not accept him as my mate anymore. Just knowing that he was sleeping with someone that he knew wasn’t his mate, just to become an Alpha absolutely disgusts me. Being an Alpha doesn’t make you a good person or make you better than anyone else. It was literally a lot of hard work, putting your pack first unless you really don’t care about your pack. With these two in charge, I am sure that they plan to just get what they wanted out of it, and they will drive it into the ground. It is the beginning of the end for the Silver Blade pack.
I cannot figure out what is so wrong with me, why no one apparently wants me. Is there something wrong with me? I mean no one has ever tried to approach me to even ask me out on a date. I am not ugly, far from it. I mean I don’t wear makeup, but I still look nice. I just don’t have any makeup. My sister and mom are the only Alpha females that have it here at the pack. My long black hair is always in a ponytail, but it still looks nice. I have a pretty face, long hair, and beautiful eyes that are truly stunning. I am not bragging, I believe that my eyes are my best treasure. I have seen the guys in my class looking at me before they noticed that I had caught them looking at me. They then looked away from me with disgust all over their faces. But I saw them looking at me with approval before they got caught. They were interested in me, and then pretended to be disgusted, but why act like that at all? I am tall, 6’0 even, to Reagan’s 5’10”, which also makes her mad. Because she wanted to be able to look down on me, but it never worked out for her. I don’t know why she thinks that she is so much better than me. I think that we both have attributes to be proud of in each of us. But from what I have seen, if you like me, you are going against the rest of the Alpha family, and no one is strong enough to even want to try. She really does hate everything about me, and with the way my parents act, they clearly do too. Her whole goal in life is to make me look bad, and be the Luna of this pack. Well, it is done now, she can have freaking have this worthless pack of them. Emerald and I will be leaving, and soon.
“I can’t wait for mom and dad to announce to the pack that we will be the Alpha and Luna tomorrow. This is something that I have really wanted for the last 8 years. I am so glad you decided that we could be chosen mates. I am also glad that you are willing to lead the Silver Blade pack with me. I have a feeling that my freak of a sister who keeps staring at you is going to be crushed when she finds out that we are together. You dodged a bullet by deciding to accept me as your chosen mate. I know that she has a crush on you, so she would probably try to ask you out or something when she sees that you are back from break. I think we will be so happy together. Raven will be so angry when she finds out that we planned this months ago. I cannot wait for her to find out. I even told mom to have her sit on the front row for the pack meeting tomorrow, so I can see her face when dad makes the announcement. I am going to put her next to you so it will hurt her more when dad calls you up on stage. When she realizes that her crush is going to be my mate, she is going to be so jealous of me. I am so going to get a picture of her face when she finds out, as I will want to remember that moment for a long time” I heard Reagan say to him, and I was so choked up I couldn’t hold in the sob of pain that managed to escape. It wasn’t loud, but with werewolf hearing, it was loud enough. I just stayed completely still and prayed that they hadn’t heard me, but Justin started talking when my sob escaped, and they had no reaction, so I think I am safe.
“I have always thought that you were a beautiful she-wolf, Reagan. I am so glad that you came up to my training with your offer, and for us to get extra special time together. If Raven were allowed to move around the pack, I don’t think that she would be missing the fact that she is my mate. I scented her today when I got back to the pack and confirmed she is my mate. Per our agreement, I don’t mind rejecting her, as I am clearly getting the better sister out of this deal. I would have been embarrassed to have to call that freak of nature my mate” Justin said, and with it, my heart was completely crushed. These two evil people deserved each other, and I will not waste another tear on his betrayal. He “chose” her, so he can freakin keep her. She will never be faithful to him, and he will not ever be able to trust that their children are his either. She was just doing this to insure that they become the next Alpha and Luna. She is what he wanted, so she can have him. I am thoroughly disgusted by both of them, and I will not allow them to make me sad one more day. I had already decided to get out of this horrible pack, and I will not miss the Silver Blade pack for a second.
