The Wolf Pup That Lived II Alyra's Second Chance (Completed

A bright sunshine came through my window and beamed on my face waking me up from my slumber.  I got out of bed and walked out to the balcony to take in some fresh air.  Unfortunately my view was a unpleasant one.  I see Theron prancing around a young blond female wolf. He noticed me on the balcony and dropped his head to the ground, and separate himself from the blond female wolf while making his way back into the mansion. My heart cries every time I see one of my mates with another. I leave the balcony and get ready for my Queen duties plus training Xavier for the crown, but before I could reach the bathroom there was a knock at my door.  I ask "who is it?"  The werewolf on the other side says "Its me...sweetheart can I come in?" Great... my day has to start with one of my mates coming to say they are sorry about what happen, and yet they still continue there follies with others. I open the door and long behold Theron standing in front of my door.  Theron says "can we talk a bit? I know me and Connor haven't been the best of mates to you.  I...I miss you being by my side and in our bed". I still love them but my heart won't let me heal from the betrayal. I look at Theron and say "you miss me huh..but yet if you didn't notice me on the balcony watching you.  You would have had your way with little blondie wolf that just kept you company". Theron says "I swear nothing has happen between me and her...my love please forgive me.  I need you".   I close the door on Theron's face, and make my way back to the bathroom to take a hot shower. Theron walk down the grand staircase to the lobby of the mansion to meet up with Connor, who is waiting to see if Alyra changed her mind and forgave them.  Once he got close to Connor, Connor says "She still hasn't forgiving us has she?"  Theron says "No". Jaxson and Koda is waiting for their fathers to enter the office to start the day's paperwork.   While Connor and Theron walked towards the office, Connor says "lets take her out somewhere just the three of us".  Theron agrees. Dinner time came fast, me and Xavier make our way to the family room to eat.  The kitchen staff prepared homemade Barley soup.  Theron, Connor, Jaxson, Koda, and Bianca were already seated at the table before Xavier, Brianna, and me got there.  I sat near Jaxson and Brianna while the other children sat around their fathers. Theron and Connor watch me while trying to make small talk during dinner.  The children already know that their parents have grown apart. I have been thinking for months to leave the mansion completely, and live at the Rose Estate.  I wait until everyone is quiet and decide to tell my family my plans. I say "I need to talk to you all about something important".  I look at my children and say "You know me and your fathers love you all, but I need to go and stay at the Rose Estate". Theron and Connor looked at me and said "how long are you going away?"  I tell them "the mansion is not my home anymore, and I ain't planning on coming back here". Connor's face dropped and tears started  forming in his big green eyes.  Theron says "please baby...don't leave me and Connor.  I promise things will be different.  I still love you" with tears forming in his big brown eyes.  "If it has to do with what you saw this morning on the balcony I swear baby nothing happened". Connor says "I'm sorry for hurting you like I did, but me and Theron wants to start all over again with you.  Just give us another chance sweetheart.  Me and Theron want to take you out, just the three of us.  Please baby just give us a chance". Our children stayed quiet and waited for me to respond to their fathers plea for me to stay.   Xavier, Jaxson, and Koda knows I have been hurting so much over the betrayal, and that I am starting to slide into a deep depression over it. I get up from the table and leave the family room.  Connor and Theron try following out after me.  They finally catch up to me at my office. Theron closes the office door once they are in and says "I know your hurting, and I know you don't trust us anymore.  We swear there hasn't been no one in our beds since the betrayal". Connor looks at me and comes close to my chair with tears running down his cheeks.  He gets down on one knee while saying " I broke your trust, and our love.  Our love isn't completely broken yet it is just bent, and I swear on our daughter's lives I will make every effort with every fiber in my being trying to fix our love and trust.  I love you" while placing my hand on his cheek with a stream of tears flowing over my hand. Theron sits on the desk close to me and says "I see the hurt and pain in those beautiful baby blue eyes.  Tell me what I need to do, and I will do it.  This is your home baby, and I am sorry we made it feel different otherwise.  We have been married for 25 years and I thought our marriage could survive anything.  Do you still love me?" I tell them "I need time alone to figure things out and away from here.  Meaning the both of you". I get up from my chair not showing any emotion to my mates.  I grab a bunch of files and make my way out of the office. My children look at me while I head up the grand staircase going towards my room.  They see their fathers coming out of the office broken and knowing their marriage is in a big deep hole unable to get out at any direction. Xavier says "What do you expect from mom?  I have been watching her for months depressed, angry, and I even heard her say one day that she wished her parents had killed her when she was young.  This family has been torn apart for a longtime, and you are just trying now to make up with mom". The rest of the siblings stayed quiet waiting for their fathers response to Xavier's outburst. Theron and Connor didn't know what to say.  Xavier just shook his head while walking away towards the library to finish his work, and his studies for the day.  While the girls went outside, Jaxson, and Koda headed for the training fields. Once I am in the room I call Sam and ask him "can you make sure the Rose Estate is prepared and ready for me and Xavier to move in at the end of the week".  Sam says "need time to think huh".  I tell him "yup, I need to make a decision, and I need time to myself to make this decision".  Sam says "very true.  I will have the Rose Estate ready for you and little Xavier.  Try to have a good day. Bye". Theron and Connor didn't knock on the door this time instead they walked into my room.  Theron sat beside me while saying "If you go to the Rose Estate I am going to visit you everyday I promise you.  I still want to take you out tonight.  I want sometime with you" while putting his hand on my face and bringing it close to his.  He tries to kiss me but I pull away from him.  He felt hurt, but not as much pain I have felt over the year, and I didn't even care if it did hurt him. Connor noticed my reaction with Theron and knew something has to change.  Connor says "I need to go to the training fields my love, but when I am done I am coming to be with you.  I love you".  Connor pulls Theron off the bed and says "we have to go".  Theron kept staring back at me wondering if I would watch him leave my room, but I turned my head back to the pile of files I needed to get done. I started the fireplace and watched the flames from the burning logs while being lost in old memorizes of me and Caleb.  The time we drove from Seattle to Hope, and the wonderful site seeing, his smell, touch, and laughter.  I wondered would I have landed up with the same outcome like I have right now with Connor and Theron. Connor comes into my room and sits beside me on the couch while I stare at the flaming logs.  He grabs my hand while holding it in his, he sits quietly waiting for me to say something.  After an hour you could see him wiping his tears off his cheeks looking for words to say to me, but he knows whatever he says can't change what happened, and how far we grew apart. Theron walks in and sits on the other side of me.  Theron watching the pain in my eyes knowing he caused it. Both men just sat there quietly waiting for me to acknowledge their presence, but my mind still wondered to the time I spent with Caleb before his death. Connor says "baby..baby" while rubbing my hand with his thumb and saying "you want to go for a walk in the woods or in the flower garden?"  He finally broke me from my memorizes and I said "sure". All three of us walked in the flower garden together like old times.  Theron and Connor just watched me smelling the flowers and walking further away.  Both of them not sure what to say or do, but they both know they wanted their mate back in their arms like old times. Connor stopped Theron and mind link him saying "Xavier is right, we waited to long and I am afraid of losing her".  Theron says "we can't give up, we need to show her that we still love her, and care for her.  Remember what you said "were not broken just bent," and we need to start unbending our mess and the pain we caused her". Once we entered the mansion, I went looking for Xavier to inform him that the end of the week we would be relocating to the Rose Estate. Theron and Connor said "we will bring Jaxson, Koda, Brianna, and Bianca to visit everyday while you and Xavier are there.  Hopefully you will allow us to spend sometime together alone, but it is up to you...my love". Xavier says "I will be packed and ready mom, don't worry you have enough on your mind", before leaving me alone with his fathers. I have such a hard time to look at my mates anymore, and I can't stand being extremely close to them, because all I can smell from them is the she wolf they were with. I try moving away from them but Theron grabbed my waist and pulled me close to him.  I tried getting out of his hold but he wrapped his two strong arms around me.  He kissed my head saying "I love you" while taking in my scent for the small amount of time I was in his arms.  I tell Theron "let me go I need to sleep Theron, and I will see you tomorrow".  Theron says "Come and sleep in my room with me and Connor tonight".  I tell him "no..I am good in my own bed alone.  Good night both of you" I leave Theron arms and make my way to my room.  Theron punches the wall with his fist with tears running down his face.  Connor tells Theron "maybe tomorrow night.  Come on lets get some sleep".  Theron says "you go to bed I don't sleep much anymore.  For months now I have been waking up every hour looking and reaching out for her in our bed.  It kills me not having her close to me". Theron walks to the foyer and pour himself some whiskey in a glass while seating near the fireplace drinking his sorrows away.  At midnight Theron wonders into my room and seats on the couch near the fireplace while watching me sleep.   For the first time in a year I see one of my mates in my room, drunk of course and passed out on my couch.  I take one of the spare blankets off my bed and put it on him to keep him warm.  I know its Fall I could sense the change in weather, and the smell made me happy every time.  Theron looked up at me with tears in his eyes saying "I love you and I want my mate back".  I didn't know what to say to him so I left him on my couch and got ready for the day. Theron was still in my room when I put the finish touch on my outfit for the day.  He says "you look beautiful".  I told him "thanks" while still not looking at him.  He walk up behind me holding me by the waist and laying his head on my shoulder blade taking in my scent once again.  I tell him "I got to go, Xavier will be waiting for me".  Theron turns me around quickly facing him and leaning his forehead on mine while saying "I will never give up on us.  I love you so much and I should have never left Brit in my bed.  I am so sorry being with her and not with you". I started to breakdown but kept myself from crying and told Theron "you know what hurts me the most is that you slept with her over and over knowing I was around seeing it and hearing it".  I walked passed him and slammed my bedroom door hard before heading to my office. Connor heard the conversation I had with Theron and tried stopping me in the hallway, but I moved passed him and went straight down the grand staircase.  Connor went to my room and opened the door, and saw Theron seating on the side of my bed with his head in his hands crying.  Connor says "your not the only one that betrayed her with Brit.  We both did.  Why do you think I sent Brit to another pack.  I knew we hurt our mate so much, and we were losing her because of it.  We left it go on to long Theron, a whole year we left our mate alone, and took Brit around acting as our mate.  Even going to the point of sleeping with her".  Theron says "It should have never happen in the first place.  My parents would be ashamed of me".   Connor says "you don't think my parents would be.  They raised me better then this, but yet I still did it, and I can't change it.  I love her and I hurt her in a way a husband should never have done" while tears coming down his face.  "We need our connection back to her, and work through this together.  Haven't you noticed she doesn't seem to be with us and the children most of the time.  Xavier right she is depressed, she does what she needs to do, and then she drifts away from us.  It hurts seeing her like that everyday and knowing I am apart of the pain that started it.  I don't want her to leave, but maybe it will help her heal a bit from what we have done".  Theron says "she told us Connor that the pack house is not her home anymore.  If she leaves she will not come back to us.  When she is here it reminds her of what we did, and that is the reason she is moving out". Connor says "then we go visit her everyday like you said, and spend time with her to remind her that we still love her, hopefully someday she can forgive us and come back home.  The boys are waiting for us at the office".  Theron says "I know but I wish she would let our mind links go through so I could talk to her during the day.  I am always worried something happen to her.  I mind link Xavier a lot to make sure both of them are okay".  Connor says "In time she will Theron". Connor and Theron walk out of my room and head towards the office to Jaxson and Koda.  Once they enter the office Koda says to his fathers "I thought I would have to send old yeller out after you two".  The golden lab just lays in his bed grumbling a bit at the comment.  Koda and Jaxson start laughing.  Theron and Connor tells the boys "what have you done so far?"  Jaxson says "well you are 25 minutes late old man, so we started with all the paperwork, and just finally finished it.  Just a few files to put away and start dealing with today's mishaps from the pack.  Me and Koda has this covered why don't you see if mom and Xavier needs some help".  Connor says "I don't think you are ready to run a pack".  Koda says to Connor "well let us try it for one day, and then you tell us what we need to improve on.  You know this year we go to the mate convention, even Xavier".    Connor says "I know.. and your brother will be representing the crown while he is there, and you two will be representing The Moon Claw Pack Alphas.  I can't believe its been this many years, and the girls will start next year going to the mate convention".  Theron says "fine.. you can run the pack today only.  Lets see what kind of Alphas you are".