More Than One Way To Die

Violet's POV Another regular long morning and afternoon of college gone and passed, then a short work shift afterwards, just because we were slow so I got to go home early.. Then to top off the long day with a night alone at home. I'm a young woman in the prime of her life but not exactly sure what to do with it.. I have some friends here, but since moving here with my brothers to attend this college, I ended up with not as many as I would have liked, at least so far, especially since I live off campus. My brothers make the friendship situation harder than it needs to be as well, they kind of try to keep me away from everyone.. but I'm not sure why.. If it's their brotherly protective nature over me or just them being assholes to their sister.. but either way they make the situation harder than it needs to be. So I just decide to get changed into a comfy pair of shorts along with a t-shirt and pull out my book I have been reading, to have a relaxing night by myself once again.. I was saving this next part in my book for when I was alone in the house anyways, because it's the sexy part.. and I love those parts of these books. I haven't had much in that area of relationships, but enough to give everything a try at least once.. but also enough to know I chose the wrong people to give me those first time experiences. But everyone makes mistakes in the heated moment of what they think is love. Or maybe I just have too high of standards of the men I chose to bring into my life.. Maybe from the romantic book standards that might end up being too high for actual real life men standards.. But I will probably never really know. Because every man I bring around can't stick to my standards so I dump them.. I would rather just not waste my time with another dead end. So the book worm that I am, comfortably settles into my bed just being pulled into the story, soaking in the sexually heated descriptions of the titilating moment in my book. I love to read and it's something I try to relate my life to, or at least crave to relate to on so many levels.. for example all the s*x and having men throw themselves at the main character of all my books.. that doesn't happen to me at all like the women in the books I read.. Whether their romance, crime or murder mystery books. The women sound so perfect in every way, which is why men throw themselves at her.. and it makes me crave being like them and maybe I could finally get the man I always wanted to throw himself at me. But those are the unrealistic standards I'm talking about.. I think I have my hopes set too high but it's hard to bring them down. I find myself soaking in every last word like some sort of sponge, as my heart races in anticipation of how this situation will play out. 'He pulls her into him, taking her breathe away instantly as his husky soothing voice purrs into her ear.. sending chills down her spine at his close proximity. He has a desperation in his voice, telling her that he doesn't just want her but he needs her in this moment as he declares, "Roxy you're all I have ever wanted in a woman. I need you with me, by my side, making me the happiest man until my last day." He quickly presses his lips to hers, pinning her against the wall underneath his muscular God-like frame.' I feel my insides heating up just imagining what it would be like if Kameron would do that with me. I use my very vivid imagination to create such a masterpiece of a movie in my head, because there is no way that would ever happen in real life for me.. but hey a girl can dream.. There is nothing wrong with a little fantasy in my life since I can't seem to grasp the real thing. Kameron is my two triplet brothers best friend, the three of them have been attached at the hip for many years.. making him not only off limits, but also the man that has always invaded my mind and dreams for so many years now on a very regular basis.. Probably as far back as when we first met in kindergarten. I would like to say it's just a school girl crush.. but it's not even considered a crush to me anymore.. It has surpassed the crush marker when it went over 10 years for him.. I'm just secretly in love with him and knowing I can never be with him. I came to terms with that thought long ago. For one thing he would never want me, secondly my brothers would kill me and third he always has some girl trailing behind him anyways.. that always seems a thousand times prettier than I am in everyway. I couldn't keep the ladies away from him even if I beat them off with a stick. He is just too good of a catch.. Which makes me wonder why he won't ever settle down, because he has a plethora of women to choose from. With his tall lanky frame, broad stature, soul piercing sapphire blue eyes, strong jawline that accents his knee weakening bright smile.. along with his always amazing looking, swooped to the side, dirty blonde hair.. there is no way I would ever be of interest to a man that looks like him. I'm not athletic by any means like the guys are.. Not popular, probably way too outspoken for my own good, with big hazel eyes that look almost cartoony if you ask me, with porcelain colored skintone, shorter than anyone I know at a little over 5 feet and hair as long as I am tall.. Of course I'm exaggerating the length.. but only slightly, my hair is very long and dark, as dark as the night. But no matter how much of opposites we seem to be there has always been that attraction for him and his naturally breathtaking features.. even before he became this very muscular eye catching stud. I find myself getting lost back into the book at the now fantasizing thought of what I always craved for with the man I will never have. 'Drake's hands trail underneath her dress, taking hold of her thighs and pulling her up until she instinctively wraps her legs around his waist. Connecting them in a tight hold, giving them both just what they want, before they seem to lose all control of their natural urges that are just aching for each other.' "Ooooh what are you reading about? You look completely enthralled... and even a little flushed like you actually did a work out for once." My brother Vincent startles me, catching my attention instantly by making me jump, I was just not expecting to see anyone right now. "Nothing.. don't worry about it.. it's not like you read books anyways... I can honestly say I don't even know if you know how to read Vinny." I spat back at him because this is how siblings are with each other. "Ooooh look at that.. it's not even a crime novel in her hands, it's a romance novel... is our innocent baby sis reading girl porn?" My other brother Vance says outloud making me blush. "It's none of your business what I'm reading, don't act like you could even comprehend any of it anyways.. and I'm not your baby sister! You both were born a minute before me!" I spat as I see Vance reaching for the book in my hands. I pull it out of his reach as Vincent reaches towards the book, that is now closer to him. I pull it away from him as well, trying to lean over the bed away from them. I throw my bookmark into the pages so I don't lose my spot as I dispose of my comforter at my brothers, keeping them distracted and occupied for a moment so I can hide my book and myself from their brotherly torment. That is until I feel two arms wrap around my waist, throwing me back down and quickly getting pinned to my bed from that beautiful man who always invaded my mind without my consent or even objection. He is hovering over me, holding down my arms as his body weighs mine down. His smirk that I seem to love, just takes my breath away as he says. "Let's find out what's gotten you all riled up.. I would really like to know." He says in his smooth baritone of a voice as his amazing musk fills my nostrils making my heart race even more than before. Kameron quickly swipes the book out of my hands, still sitting on my body, holding me down with his weight as I honestly don't even try to get out, just loving his very close proximity. Until my breath hitches at the sight of him opening the book to my marked spot as he reads out loud for everyone in my room to hear. "Drake plunges his length deep inside of Roxy, still pressing her against the wall in a haste to taste all that he has been craving for so long. This is everything he imagined feeling and well worth the wait." He smirks down at me as I start to struggle under him in complete embaressment. I can feel my face heating up and I'm sure by how embaressed I feel in this moment, that I can put a tomato to shame with my natural blush. "Ooooh Vi, I never knew you liked this kind of thing." Kameron says in an almost teasing tone, as he winks at me sending my embaressment completely over the top. "Oh she is not even denying it. We caught her getting all hot and bothered.. how embaressing for you little sis." Vincent mocks me even more as I hear a soft reply from above me. "What a pleasant suprise. I can't help but feel jealous of this Drake." Kameron's comment catches my undivided attention as he stares down at me still holding me down and not even looking like he is getting up anytime soon. I don't know if I should hate or love this moment. I don't know what he means by that comment, but it gets my mind reeling. Does he mean he is jealous of the people in the book who are getting s*x? Or is he jealous I'm not thinking of him, even though I was.. but he doesn't need to know that... He has never been interested in me so he can't mean that.. It's obviously something I'm not thinking of. We stare at each other for the longest moment of my life.. or that's at least how it feels.. not saying anything at all as Vance yells, "How pathetic, can't get a guy desperate enough to actually do this for you anymore, so you have to try to imagine it in your head to make yourself feel actually desirable." I roll my eyes and look away because there is no denying that.. I can't find a guy I'm willing to give myself to again after my falling out with my Ex and they know it. "Can't deny that comment either huh? Hit that right in the Bullseye." Vincent says to me spitefully like he always does.. making a hand gesture showing a bow that he pulls back and shoots at a target. My brothers always act like this around me.. Always ganging up on me any chance they get.. But I guess that's brothers for you. "She just hasn't found the right guy yet that's all.. She is a catch so I know she will find him.. eventually." Kameron says about me gaining my attention once again as we get locked into another stare down, successfully taking my breath away in nervousness. I just honestly hope he is right and I will eventually find someone instead of dwelling on the fantasy that will never happen for me.. I'm just going to pray it's sooner over later so I won't be alone forever. The loneliness is starting to really get hard being in college when everyone else around me has someone even if it's just for a little bit, they at least have someone.. I don't have anyone for me.. Which seems to get lonelier the older I get, even with me being use to being alone and just occupying my own time my own way, which normally consists of books. I can hear both of my brothers scoff at his comment about me louder than needed and more dramatic than they normally would. "No way, she is just going to die alone clinging to her books, doing what she has always done and never taking what she wants, just day dreaming about a fantasy man to sweep her off her feet, then hopefully eventually plunging his length inside of her." Vance mocks me as I groan hating my life because they always make me feel so dumb no matter what I'm doing. I put my hands to Kameron's chest pushing him off of me to my dismay, getting myself out of this awkward situation and onto the other side of my bed.. I quickly get out of my bed and standing up before spatting back. "Ok I get it, I know I'll be alone forever because I can't get the fantasy man I always wanted.. you win.. Is there an actual reason you have decided to come into my room and harass me making me feel even more pathetic than normal?" I cross my arms awaiting an answer to my inquiry. "We were going to tell you about this party off of campus in a little while, later tonight actually.. We wanted to see if you weren't too lame and wanted to actually go with us." Vincent reluctantly asks rolling his eyes at me. "What's your real reason for inviting me?" I ask suspiciously because they never invite me to hang out with them.. ever.. no matter how many times I asked to tag along, they always turned me down acting like I was the biggest nuisance. "We just want you to get out of your books every now and then.. and maybe get some actual real life d**k for once instead of imaginary dick." Vance responds pretty quickly as I put my hands on my hips with a look of disbelief across my face just for them because I don't buy that explanation and they know it. They groan as Vincent retorts, "We need a DD tonight and don't know anyone who doesn't drink except you.." "I do too drink, just not as much as you guys." I respond as they roll their eyes and Vance spats back. "So can you come with us or what? You're lucky we are even inviting you.. You're such a bore really.. Besides, the party shouldn't be too far from our place so just give in for once and have a little fun.. it won't kill you." "Or with our luck maybe it will." Vincent replies jokingly as Vance and him high five so I flip them off. "And this is suppose to convince me?" I ask spitefully as they groan and roll their eyes together. "Fine please come with us instead of staying in our place all alone for another Saturday night." They say in unison again. They act just like twins and I'm the outsider of the group when it comes to them. It's like we don't have anything in common, which makes hanging out with them even harder, but we try by getting our house together all four of us; Vincent, Vance, Kameron and myself of course. Our place he says? It's barely my place, because anytime I come out of my room my brothers harass me for coming around their guy friends.. They never have girls around, just their guy friends hanging out all night. So they just tell me to stay in my hole of a room and I do it without argument, because I normally have homework, work or want to read anyways.. I think they are embaressed of me by the way they act when I come around, but then also expect me to do all the cleaning around the house, like I'm their maid or something. The only one I never have to clean up after and always helps me out is Kameron. He is also the only one who ever helps me with cooking and invites me to join their fun excursions.. I think out of pity.. but my brothers always quickly dismiss his invitation and sending me away. The four of us share a house closer to the college we all attend together. It was easier to split a rent by 4 and still having our own space away from home. I turn around and open my window as I say over my shoulder to them. "I'll think about your not even remotely genuine invite." I say climbing out and onto the roof to get away from them. My brothers hate heights and hate me being in the house, so this spot is the perfect place to get away from them if I ever want to, because they won't follow me. I climb close to the top as I sit, then lay down staring up at the colors of the dark sunset. It's almost done and gone, so it's mostly just reds purples and blues turning into a dark night sky. I let out a deep breathe as I hear someone climbing up to me and try to not let my heart race knowing exactly who that is. "Vi don't let those guys get to you.. This is how they always are, just ignore them.. don't let their negativity get to you." Kameron says to me as I look at him but I don't answer him.. mostly because I don't know what to say.. I was just embaressed by being almost caught in the act thinking about him in another sexy situation. He sits down next to me, then lays right besides me and softly says. "Come with us tonight Vi.. it should be fun." "I don't want to be your guys DD.. If I'm going out, I want to have some fun and loosen up for once. I'm really thinking I need that." I say glancing over at him and he is staring at me which makes my heart skip a beat every time. I'm sure if it wasn't getting dark he could probably tell I was blushing at him staring. "Well then don't be the DD and we could walk home together.. It wouldn't kill them to walk." He says to me as my eyebrows scrunch together in realization. "Wait you want me to actually go? Why? Are my brothers planning some prank or something on me to embaress me more?" I ask confused about why he would want me to come.. He always asks me to come but never insists upon it like he is now. "No Vi, I just thought it would be nice to see you out and to actually have a drink with you.. You and I never get to hang out no matter how many times I have asked you to come with us." He says to me as I get an even more confused look on my face.. Is it me or is he hitting on me? No that's not right. "I just figured you never really wanted me there and just invited me to be nice to me out of pity." I say so honestly staring up as I watch the sky get darker by every minute that passes. "I always wanted you there, that's why I invited you." He says to me as he leans up on one arm looking down at me before he adds. "So will you come out with us?" I groan as I say, "I don't want to be seen with my brothers, thanks though." "What about being seen with me?" He asks as I stare up at him and swallow the lump in my throat before responding. "I'm sure you will be busy with the million of girls following you around daily to even notice me." "I WOULD notice if you weren't there.. please come Vi." He says to me as I bite my lip staring up at him into his gorgeous breathtaking eyes as I reluctantly nod because no matter how hard I fight it, I don't think I can actually say no to him. His smile gets so big with his victory as he stands and extends his hand to help me up. I take his hand as he pulls me up but steadies me once we are all the way up.. and I just let him.. I'm clumsy and need all the help I can get. He leads the way helping me down and back into my room where my brothers are waiting for us. "So what do you say Violet? Are you coming tonight?" Vincent asks as I glance at Kameron and he smiles at me. I groan as I nod at them.. they get excited and say, "Good, now get ready, because you're going to be seen with us out in public, I don't want you to look like dog s**t, making us all look bad.. and maybe you will find your mysterious fantasy man if you actually put some effort into the way you look." Vance states to me so sarcastically that I roll my eyes flipping him off as I turn and head towards the bathroom. "Ok fine I'll get ready so please get the f*#k out of my room." I spat back at them as I shut and lock the door behind me so I don't have to worry about them for right now.. They always try to play tricks on me making me miserable for whatever reason.. So I'm always on my toes when it comes to my brothers. But with them you have to be.