My Fated Mate

10. SAY GOODBYE

POV (JASMINE)

As I walked back toward the school I tried to dry my eyes but the tears would not stop coming.  The moment I reached the dinning hall it was empty.  There was no reason to go back to class, since I was transferring tomorrow.  I might as well gather up my books and say my goodbyes.  However, before I could a shooting pain shot through my body causing a wave of nausea to over take me.  I race to the bathroom panting as I gripped the edge of the sink.  The clawing and scratching that had starting the moment Alec rejected me had turned into something otherworldly.  It felt like an actual creature was trying to escape from my body.  I thew up into the sink as my legs shook violently. It was hard to even stand up.  What the hell was going on? 

Quickly, my mind raced back to the grove and a memory of resting on Alec’s chest, as he played with the white collar on my black dress. 

“Why do witches wear black?” Alec’s voice was deeper and richer now, and it rumbled with power.  He was 13 and in two years his wolf would finally show himself.  I sat up and ran my hands through his dark brown curls as his intense eyes studied my every move. 

“We are creatures of the night and so black is our attire.”  I felt his hands leave my collar and take a piece of my hair in his fingers and bring it to his nose.  “What do you smell?  My honey suckle shampoo?”  I cooed, as I tried to tickle his sides but he seemed lost in thought. 

“Lavender, sugar, and the sweet scene of vanilla.” 

“So I smell like a sugar cookie, wonderful.”  I snapped, as I hit his chest but before I could land a blow he grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him.  He quickly sat up,  making me sit in his lap. Our eyes locked and he grinned down at me. 

“Yes, the best smelling and tasting sugar cookie in the world.”  He traced my lips with his fingers, but I dare not give in.  One look in his glowing red eyes and it was clear who was there. 

“Down boy.”  I snapped.  “Seriously Alec, can you help Aesir learn to keep his hands to himself.”  I hissed, as he chuckled and wrapped me in his arms. 

“You can't always play with Alec little witch, you need to spend some time with me.  In two years you will have to accept both of us.”  He growled into my ear, as he kissed my neck.  I stiffened at his touch, Aesir was a beast compared to Alec and he scared me.  Feeling me tense, I noticed Alec stopped moving.  It was clear he was fighting Aesir and soon a soft hand rested on my back, while his head rested on my shoulder. 

“Welcome back.”  I said, as I petted his head.  He carefully removed me from his lap and gave me a sheepish look.

“Sorry, you should take it as a compliment.  He likes you, just as much as I do.  If not a little more sometimes.”  I punched Alec, who just laughed and looked at me with such warmth that it melted my insides. 

“You know if he does not behave I might have to reject him.”  The moment the words left my mouth it was clear I had made a horrible mistake.  Alec looked so hurt and shocked and his eyes turned red for a minute. Even Aesir seemed distraught. 

“Don’t ever say that.” He growled out barely above a whisper.  Quickly he got up and walked away from me.  I rushed after him but when I reached out to touch him he pulled away harshly.  I stood their paralyzed, what had I just done?

“I'm sorry, I was just joking.”  These words did not seem to fix things.  Alec quickly turned and grabbed my shoulders and pushed me up against a tree, locking me in place. 

“Don't ever say that as a joke.  The pain I would suffer if we were mates would be unbearable.  I could die Jasmine.”  The seriousness of his words rocked me to my core and I stood there stunned. 

“Die?”  I felt his grip loosen as he sighed and looked into my eyes. 

“I care for you Jasmine and if you are my destined one, I would lay down my life for you. You would be my everything.  But, if you reject us, I'll have lost my purpose, my reason for living.  Without you I would be an empty husk and would go mad.  Most wolves don’t live to see another full moon after they have been rejected.” 

I could feel the tears falling before he had even finished.  “Then why would anyone reject their mate?”  I cried out, as I took his hands. 

“That is something I can’t answer.  However, if there comes day where you don't love me, and it is clear we are fated I'll at least take comfort in the fact that you will feel no pain.” 

“What?” 

“Because you are a witch you will not feel the pull as strongly as I will.  So if you reject me it won't hurt.  You might be sad, but it would be no different than breaking up with a boyfriend.  I would feel like my world was ending, but even so I would still desperately want to keep you safe, so the fact you would feel nothing would be a blessing.” 

Before I could stop myself I wrapped my arms around him and kissed the tear that was starting to form at the corner of his eye. “I will never reject you Alec. Never.” 

“Ahhhhhh!”  I screamed as another wave of pain crashed through me.  Lies, the stupid wolf was wrong.  I seriously felt like my soul was being crushed.  What the hell had I done?  If I had known trying to follow the wishes of my coven would cause this much pain I would have let them burn in hell. 

Ok, think Jasmin.  You are a high warlocks daughter, the future queen of the coven, you need to think this through.  I threw open my bag and took out a few vials:  Dragons tears were good for removing curses. Banshee threads could weave a person away from death, and witches blood painted on an item of emotional value could lock up pain.  Good thing Lia wanted to practice summoning rituals at home or there was no way I could have banshee threads.  Damn, was she a seer? 

Quickly, I removed the items from my bag and pulled out a knife, my hands shook as another wave of pain traveled through my body.  I sliced into the palm of my hand and let the drops of blood fall on the wolf carving from the tree.  With my free hand I pulled out the spool of banshee black thread and wrapped it around the carving of the flower, and then connected the two wooden pieces together with a forever knot. Now, all that was left to do was wash the blood away with the dragon’s tears and the bonding pain should stop. 

“Here, use this. It works better for covering up broken hearts,  than any witchy juju you are doing in the girls bathroom.”  My heart stopped, I knew that voice.  Slowly, I looked to my left and saw Annabell standing there.  I never really spoke to her, but the anger in her eyes told me she knew everything.  I watched as she snatched the dragons tears away and replaced it with a tube of concealer.  Before I could stop her she opened up the vial and poured it down the sink.  I bit my lip, trying to hide my pain and frustration.  I watched as she pulled out a brush and started to brush her curls.  I needed to get out of here and home before another wave of pain started.  Thankfully the spell was working on holding back some of my discomfort and allowing body to stop quivering. 

“You may not know this. Not many do, but many think my brother’s a player.  Yes, he smiles and flirts with other shewolves but he would never let a single one touch him.  Because he is saving everything for his mate."  My eyes widened, was that true?  Did that mean he had never kissed another girl or even held another girls hand?  Annabell's words had some how broken my spell, causing another wave of pain to rush over me.  I gripped the sink as Annabell continued.  "I was only in grade school when I saw him race off to the grove for the first time.  I was very bad at tracking him, but each time he would go I would be able to get a little bit closer.”  I was dying, she knew, she knew everything.  My hands shook as I tried to place the wooden pieces in my bag, but I missed and they were clatter to the floor.  Annabell looked down at them with a smirk as she kicked them away. 

“Jasmine you really should try this concealer it will help.”  She smiled, as she picked up the tube and shoved it into my hand with a bit of force.  I unscrewed the top and put a little on my fingers.  I looked in the mirror at my puffy face and glowing golden eyes.  What the hell?  I looked back in the mirror only to find my puffy honey brown eyes staring back at me.  What was that?  

“The monster you seek is the one you look at in the mirror.”  I felt my blood run cold.  How much had she seen?  Did she just see my eyes change, was she responsible for them?  “I have to say, Richard certainly has a way with words.  He should put down his claws and pick up a pen.  Never know, he might write the next best horror novel.”  My fingers were shaking as I tried to put concealer on to hide the dark circles that had somehow formed under my eyes.  I looked like death. 

“The truth is Jasmine, I have known for years and I hated it.”  Suddenly, Annabell reached out and grabbed my wrist and forced me to look her glowing green eyes. “You will never know what Alec has seen or has had to endure for a few brief moments in that grove with you.  The horrors his brothers have forced on him, since the day our Father died would make you shudder.”  I was certain any minute she was going to break my wrist, and and then suddenly she released me.  She picked up her concealer and started to do my makeup.  I felt every muscle in my body reject her touch as her glowing green eyes remained fixed on me. 

“Poor sad little wolf boy. Forced to clean up animal kills and even witness things that would make a grown wolf wet himself.  Oh, hold still dear, eye liner is not easy to do when you are shaking so.”  Deadly.  Col.  How had I never realized how dark and menacing the wolf clan was.  I was like a mouse being toyed and batted around by the house cat.  I knew my end was near but there was nothing I could do to escape her claws. 

“My guess is you are going to leave school.”  I shot her a look which made her smile.  “Good choice.  Let your new husband protect you.  Hmmm… are you more of a rose or apricot?  Nope, I think some light pink gloss is all you need.  Don’t you agree?”  Annabell smiled, as she pulled out a baby pink lip gloss.  “Alec never cared for make up, must be a boy thing.  A few times he has even yelled at me saying I looked trashy. Me trashy?  Ha ha ha, well he is my big brother and sometimes you have to listen to them.  All done.  What do you think?” 

I felt Annabell turn me to face the mirror.  I was surprised by my reflection, I looked nice and even glowed. “Not bad for a monster.”  My stomach did flips and I knew in that moment I needed to get away from her, but before I could move I felt her claws on my neck.  “I hate you Jasmine and it would bring me no greater pleasure than to rip out your throat and let you see it, but little sisters have to listen to their older brothers and you are not worth a war.  But do keep in mind though my claws spare you today, I will not hesitate to disfigure you if you ever hurt Alec again.  Are we clear, from one princess to another?  And don't worry about the peace treaty, I'll make sure your body is never found.”

I could not speak, all I could do was slightly nod my head at her

“That's a good little witch.  Now go say your goodbyes and do your best to avoid my brother.  I am sure him sparing you is only a momentary lapse of judgement.  I do love your hair, but that rotting corpse scent is way too overpowering maybe you should work on that.  Safe travels.”  Annabell said, as she picked up the wooded carving and skipped out the door. 

I felt my knees buckle under me, as I raced to the nearest toilet and threw up.  Oh my god, she could have killed me.  Did that mean he could too?  No, there was no way.  He had said it himself, that if I were his mate he would lay down his life for me.  Slowly I felt the tension in my body fad away as I sat on the bathroom floor.  Broken, I was completely broken and I needed Lia.  Only my Lia would help me and tell me that it was ok.  I pulled out my phone and dialed. 

"My Lady?  I just got out of class, is there something you need?"  Lia said, in a rushed voice.  "I have not had a chance to call Victor, but I am going to.  Is that why you're calling?"

I sighed, as a wave of pain hit me and I had to fight back my screams. 

"My Lady?  Jasmine?  Are you ok?"  Lia's worried voice was a comforting sound.  Only when she was really concerned would she call out my name.  "Jasmine, please, you're scaring me.  If you don't answer me right this minute I am calling Elder Goldenrod."

"Lia."  I groaned out. 

"My Lady?  You sound horrible.  Where are you?" 

"Lia, you need to call Victor and have him pick us up...right now...from school."  I strained. 

"Right now?  But it is the middle of the day.  I don't..."

"Now, Lia!"  I said, through gritted teeth, as I kept telling myself over and over again.  Don't yell are her.  Don't yell at her. 

"Ok, I will.  But where are you?  I need to know that first." 

"I don't know.  One of the girls bathrooms."  I could hear Lia quickly packing things up, she was sounding out of breath.

"Are you sick?" 

"Something like that."  Suddenly the phone went eerily silent. "Lia?"

"Jasmine, I need you to be honest with me."  I felt my heart stop.  There was no way.  Not a chance in hell Lia knew.  Not not my Lia.  "Did you reject a werewolf today?"  I felt a scream recache through my brain. 

"No, are you crazy."  I laughed, as heard Lia breathing heavily.  It was clear she was running, running to me.

"My Lady, I asked you to be honest."  She gasped. 

"I am."  I grimaced, as another way of pain hit.  

"Fine.  I will accept that because the last thing I want to believe is you would ever lie to me."  I thought I was going to cry.  She knew.  All this time, why had I never confided in her?  "I will be with your soon my Lady.  I am calling Victor right now." 

As the phone clicked I felt the poison of my lies make me sick and I threw up again.  I was in hell, a personal hell I had created.  Carefully, I tried to stand but my legs wobbled.  I had never felt this kind of fear and pain before.  I guess Alec had made me safe.  I felt the tears start to well up again, as I looked at the monster in the mirror.  

"You need to calm down Jasmine.  Alec is not your prince, and Lia will be here very soon.  Now wash your mouth out and put one foot in front of the other and leave this damn bathroom."  I gasped, as the cool water wetting my lips made me feel slightly calmer, but something was unsettling me.  I took a few of my curls in my hand and brought them to my nose.  I could smell my honeysuckle shampoo and hints of mint, but no corpse smell.  What did Annabell mean? 

Once the bathroom door closed behind me, and I was finally out in the hall, I breathed a sigh of relief.  "Good girl, now get to to front of the school and wait for Victor to show up."  Yet, as I walked I started to noticed I was passing empty class rooms.  Empty?  What time was it?  I grabbed my phone and looked at the clock.  It was 1:30PM.  How were there no people in class?  Suddenly, I found myself running, where was everyone? The moment I turned down the hall I saw them.  Three big wolves growling and snarling at a group of witches.  My girls!  Every instinct told me to turn away.  Annabell had made it very clear that I was to stay far away from Alec, but I would not leave my girls, my coven.  We had been together for 6 years.  

The first day of class I had tried to find Alec, but he was nowhere to be found.  I was crushed and that was when I met my girls.  Lillith, Crystal and Margaret.  We referred to ourselves as the Ashfork Coven, much like how Alec had become the Alpha of the Ashfork werewolves.  I was the head witch for my girls.  We had grown very close but not close enough to tell them about Alec.  Maybe that had been my mistake too. 

I watched in horror as Crystal cast a fireball at a big black wolf.  Was that my Alec?  Mine, who was I kidding?  Yet, this wolf’s eyes were not blue but red.  Oh dear Satan, it was Aesir.  I watched as a golden yellow wolf stood in front of the fireball and howled in anger, that had to be Thomas.  A big reddish colored wolf growled, Bryan I was certain, and snapped at my girls.  I needed to save them.  But as I took a step closer I felt an arm grab me from behind. 

“It is about time you showed up!”  It was Richard.  His face was scratched up and his glasses were gone. What the hell was going on. 

“Alec stop!”  I saw Annabell cry out,  but the red eyed wolf would not listen.  “Please, don't do this.”  Tears were running down her face as Thomas pushed her back,  as Alec let out a howl that shattered the glass of every window in the school.  I prayed Lia was far away and would not see this. 

“What is going on?”  I said, as Richard glared at me. 

“It’s all your fault.  Do you have any idea what damage a wolf goes through after their mate rejects them? Alec is an Alpha, and you were the only thing keeping his wolf at bay.  Without you, he has become this!” Richard pointed to the red eyed wolf, whose fur bristled and his jaws snapped at anyone who came near, even his baby sister.  I covered my mouth in horror. 

“What can I do?”  Richard turned away from me disgusted but I grabbed his arm. “Please! I'll do anything.  I never wanted this for him.  I thought it was for the best.”  Alec let out another blood curdling howl which caused even his wolves to cower. 

“Does this look like the best for him?  You are certainly something Jasmine Goldenrod.  Not only have you broken my Alpha but you have chosen to run away.” 

"BACK OFF WEREWOLF!"  I stood there shocked, as Lia had some how jumped in between Richard and myself. 

"Who the hell are you?"  Richard growled, as his brown eyes started to glow.  However, to my awe Lia did not back down.

"I know what you want her to do, and it is not happening."  Lia glared, as Richard eyed her. 

“What does he want me to do?"  I said, as I clutched my chest and fell to my knees. 

"My Lady?"  Lia said, as she quickly came to my side.  "This wont do, we need to leave." 

"She is not going anywhere.  She has to reject him first."  Richard snarled, as he reached for me, but before he could lay a hand on me Lia slapped him away.  I heard a growl echo from his chest. 

"She is not going to do that.  So it would be in your best interest to stop your Alpha's temper tantrum." Lia hissed. 

"Temper tantrum!"  Richard growled, while I watched in horror as he snatched Lia off the ground and pulled her to face him.  "Then what am I suppose to do about that?"  Richard barked, as he pointed to Alec howling and ripping lockers from the wall. 

"At least I now know who ruined my locker."  Lia muttered, as Richard just shook his head at her in disbelief. 

"Who are you?"  Richard said, causing Lia to give him a cocky grin. 

"I am the little witch whose term paper you ruined this morning with your monstrous werewolf feet."  Lia snapped, as Richard slowly lowered her to the ground.  I could not decide if Lia had lost her mind or if Richard was actually so shocked he did not even know what to do.  Lia did sometimes have that effect on people when she got overall emotional.   

"We are leaving, and I don't expect you to stop us again."  Lia said as she pulled me up by my arm. "Don't worry, I've got you my Lady and Victor is on his way."  Lia said, as I leaned on her, but before we could take another step Richard shouted out. 

"Then he will die because of you Jasmine, which is clearly what you want!" 

I felt my whole body stiffen as Lia looked at me and shook her head.  "You can't, he might kill you." 

I gave her a weak smile. "I can't let him die Lia."

"Then I am coming with you.  You can't even walk straight, so just look at me like a crutch or emotional support."  I stifled a laugh, as I gripped on to Lia, as we started to walk towards the raging wolf. 

As we walked past witches and werewolves I only then realized how hopeless everything had been.  There was no way we could be together.  Even if my heart wanted it the angry disapproving looks of my friends made it clear this had been doomed from the start.  How could the Moon Goddess be so heartless?

“Jasmine!  What are you doing?” Crystal called out 

"Oh, my Satan, is she going to fight him?"  Lilith shouted. 

"Ignore them and just focus on him."  Lia said, as I suddenly realized we were standing right in front of Alec.  I felt Lia tighten her grip on me, as Alec snarled, but the moment his red eyes met mine he stopped growling. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes and he looked at me with such hate that I hoped he would kill me, but Lia was with me and I would never forgive myself if something happened to her.  And so I began.

“I know you hate me and I don’t blame you.  But I promise every word I ever told you, you not anyone else, was true.”  Alec growled in disgust.  It was clear there was no reasoning with him, but I wanted to.  I wanted him to know I still loved him, was that wrong? 

“Please Alec.  I accept that I hurt you and if you never want to see me again I will accept that too."  My whole body was shaking.  Was this what it really felt like to reject someone.  "Please stop Alec,  can’t you see how worried everyone is?  There is no need for you to behave like this.”  Alec howled again and it was clear that every word I said was only making things worse. 

“Damnit Jasmine.  Hurry up and reject him!”  I watched, as Richard removed his shirt and quickly turned into a dark chocolate wolf.  He howled to Thomas and Bryan who quickly answered his call.  Suddenly, I heard them.  Richard had not been howling for his brothers,  he had been howling for everyone.  He was going to put me on display and allow the wolves of our school to tear me apart.  Lia flashed a look in his direction, as he opened his mouth revealing his fangs.  He was such an ass.  

"Jasmine, do you know what to say?"  Lia said, I could feel her hands were starting to shake.  I looked at her wide eyed. 

"It is a break up right?"  The moment the words left my mouth Lia groaned. 

"You were dating a werewolf and you don't even know how to reject one.  Oh, Jasmine." 

Suddenly, Alec charged us knocking Lia to the ground and pulling her away by her dress with his teeth.  She kicked him in the jaw to let her go, causing Alec to growl and snap down at her.  She quickly rolled away from his open mouth into a mess of lockers.  Suddenly, Lia was pinned and Alec was growling and snarling in front of her.  His mouth was thick with foaming saliva, I thought I was going to be sick.  It was like everything was happening in slow motion.  I watched as Lia looked behind her and then at Alec, her golden brown eyes shown up at him with pure rage, as Alec raised his giant paw and prepared to kill her.  I screamed with everything I had. 

"ALEC NOOOOOOO!" 

Suddenly a flash of white light flew by, causing Alec to jump back startled.  

"Are you alright Abelia?"  Victor said breathless, as he held my Lia in his arms.  Her cheeks were flushed and I felt my body crumple to the floor from the shear pain of having thought I had lost her.  

"Victor?" Lia said, as he smiled down at her. 

"Looks like you are always falling into my arms."  He said, with a chuckle, as I watched him slowly put her down on the ground, but it was clear he was furious.  He eyed Alec with disgust.  "What the hell is wrong with him."  He said, as he placed a protective arm around Lia and glared at Alec. 

"He's heart broken."  Lia sadly announced, as she looked at me and began mouthing some words.  

I watched her lips and quickly, repeated after her.  “I Jasmine Goldenrod, reject you Prince Alec Holloway of the BloodMoon Pack and reject ever being your Luna?” 

Alec looked down at me and all I could see was hurt in his eyes.  Yet, the moment the last word was uttered, I felt something break.  I clutched my chest and gasped for air. 

"Jasmine!"  Lia shouted, as she broke away from Victor and raced over to me.  I collapsed to the ground but my eyes never left his. I waited until those red eyes returned to blue.  He was there again, the proud prince of the Holloway line.  His fur stopped bristling and his breathing calmed. I felt my head get heavy and I rested it on Lia's shoulder. 

"Go!"  Lia shouted, as if she were trying to scare off the a neighborhood dog. "There is nothing here for you, leave.  All of you."  Lia growled.  Wait, did Lia does growl?  I watched as Thomas, Richard, and Bryan looked at her with confusion. "I said leave!" She shouted. 

Richard snarled at her and then they were gone and everything faded to black.

"Is she going to be alright?"  Victor said, as he put me in the backseat of his car, while Lia pulled out a vial of some purple liquid and forced me to drink.  The pain was slowly subsiding.  “Who was the wolf?”  Victor said, as he removed his jacket and placed it over me. “I wont hurt him, I just need to know his rank. Depending on his status it will dictate how severe this could be.” 

"He was an Alpha."  Lia said, as she placed a cool hand on my forehead.  "It looks like the worse of it is over.  She will most likely sleep for three days."  Lia said, as she rubbed her eyes.  "How am I going to explain this to Elder Goldenrod?"  She wined. "He's going to be furious with me."

"We don't have to tell anyone."  Victor said, as I watch him grab Lia's arm.  Why was he lying to himself?  It was so obvious who he wanted. 

"Stop that Victor."  Lia sighed, as she shrugged his arm away.  "I have to tell them.  It is my obligation as their..." 

"Servant."  Victor said, as he crossed his arms and looked at her.  I watched Lia bite her lip and look away. 

"It is just my obligation, ok."  Suddenly, Victor grabbed her and pinned her to the car.  I could not believe what I was seeing. 

"Do you have any idea what I think about your stupid obligation to the Goldenrod family?"  Victor said, as Lia tried not to look him in the eyes. 

"Let go Victor." 

"Your obligation to that family could have cost you your life!"  I froze, he was right.  Alec was going to kill her and if Victor had not been there Lia would be.  I could not bare to think it, it was too horrible to believe the two people I loved the most could have been killed.  If Victor had seen Lia dead he would have ended Alec without a thought and a war would have begun, and it would have been all my fault. 

"And I would have gladly accepted that!"  Lia shouted.  No, there was no way, she could not think that. 

"You can't be serious?"  Victor said, as he released Lia in dismay. 

"I mean every word.  Jasmine is the most precious thing to me in this world, and if I had to die for her I would do so gladly.  That is something you better remember, since she is your bride."  

"Lia?"  Victor called out with such tenderness it caused my heart to stop.  He called her by her informal name. "Please, you know I." 

"Don't Victor.  I can't take this anymore.  It was one thing when we are children, but we are adults now and we have responsibilities."  Lia said, as she walked from him.  "Just take Jasmine away for a few days.  I will tell the Goldenrod family you wish to... I don't know... introduce her to your friends, or something, at Ridgeback."  Lia said, in such a pained voice that I could hardly handle what was happening. 

"Come with me."  Victor said, he eyes pleading for her. 

"No, I have to stay here and cover for her.  Please, just go."  Before Victor could stop her Lia took off running.  I heard Victor sigh, as he entered the car and rested his hands on the steering wheel. 

"Why did you not go after her?"  I said, as he leaned back in the seat. 

"Because she told me to go take care of you, her most precious thing."  He said, with slight disgust as he started the engine.  "I told you Jasmine to look after her."  I could hear the frustration in his voice. 

"I do." 

"You do not!" He shouted, as he turned to look back at me, causing me to flinch.  "You fail to take care of her on every front!  You allow her to be a servant in your house, but still have your family's name!  You let her accept that she is suppose to die for you!  You watch as she faces off against an alpha werewolf, your werewolf,  when she can't even cast a simple fireball spell."  He groaned, as he ran his fingers through his blonde hair.  "You are a selfish witch Jasmine Goldenrod.  No wonder my mother thinks you will make a perfect queen." 

I bit my lip and tried not to cry.  I was tired and sick of crying, but Victor was right.  Oh how I hated this man.  Everything about him was not meant for me.  I did not fit in his arms.  I could not talk to him for hours about nothing.  I could hardly even look at him past 30 seconds and the last thing I wanted was to be his damn queen.  As I looked out the window my heart stopped.  Sure enough standing there regal and proud flanked by a golden wolf, a red one, and a dark brown one was my once beloved Alpha.  He did not howl or make a sound, he just watched with those intense blue eyes.  As my eyes started to get heavy, I only wished I had let him kill me so at least Victor and Lia could be together.