Falling For My Mysterious Saviour

HIS ANGER ON ME

Mariam’s P.O.V.

“Are you really serious about what you said over the call?” I smiled while looking at Demitry. He was so looking nervous as if I was going to ask him to cut his heart out for me. I was sure that he would do that without even thinking but talking about having his child was something that he couldn’t take lightly. “I know everything about you, Dem. I know why did you reject me earlier? You are already healed but you are not sure about”, I paused because I didn’t want to be so blunt on this matter. This has been really a sensitive matter for him ever since he recovered from his accident. It was easy for him to live with the scars, but being impotent was a huge blow to his personality and dignity.

“You already know about everything, love. I don’t want to give you any false hope”, he said in a stiff tone and I huffed. He was lying next to me on the bed. “Are you willing to give up on me?” I looked up and asked him in clear words. He immediately jerked his head backwards and looked at me angrily this time. “You know that I can’t let you go no matter what the situation is in front of us”, he said in a firm tone and I smiled this time. “You already have destroyed our agreement and now I am sole responsibility of you. So, we have to cross the bridge together whenever we reach there”, I said with a word of finality and he took a deep breath. “You know”, he paused and then held me tightly in his embrace.

“You are putting your whole life at stake here with me, right?” he said and I nodded. “I know”, I said and snuggled into his embrace. “What if… I”, he paused again and I was now hell annoyed. I craned my neck up again and looked at him annoyingly. “Do you have any problem with having s*x with me?” I asked him in an annoying tone. “Of course not… why are you saying like this?” he immediately retorted in a confused tone. “Then… why are we discussing this thing right now? You know that I am not in …. In the condition that… that… we can satisfy you and”, I paused because I didn’t want to voice out my insecurity here. “And?” he said in a low tone. I lowered my head and said, “Forget it… I don’t want to say anything more. I want to sleep”.

“Mariam”, he called my name immediately, but I didn’t answer him. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep. I felt his hand on my face and he lifted my face up. “Look at me”, he ordered, and I sighed internally. I guess there was no escape for me right now. I opened my eyes and looked at him innocently. “Tell me… what’s going on your mind?” he asked me in a calm tone. “You know why Warrick cheated on me?” I said in a low tone and he furrowed his brows. “I…. I.. am afraid that”, I lowered my eyes because I couldn’t muster the courage to speak those words for Demitry. “Look at me”, he said in a cold tone this time and I took a deep breath.

I looked up and saw his fiery eyes. He was clearly angry now. “So you think that I will turn to another woman because you can’t fulfil my needs right now, huh?” he asked me in a cold mocking tone and I gulped hard. His grip on my waist tightened and I felt a little pain at my waist, but I bore for the time being. I had never seen him being angry so much or should I say that he never showed his anger in front of me before. “You think this lowly of me, huh?” he asked me again and I immediately shook my head. “No… it’s not like that, Dem… it’s ju… just”, my voice cracked this time. “I don’t want to lose you”, I said in a choked voice as tears started building up in my eyes. I was never so weak, but I always showed my true emotions to him only.

“Do you really think that I will let that woman go who brings all happiness in my life, huh?” he asked me in a cold tone again and I just shook my head in no. “Then how can you think that I will let any other woman than you even touch me, huh?” this time he couldn’t suppress his anger and I didn’t lift my eyes up. There was now a thick tension between us. “You should sleep now. I need to take care of some matters”, he spoke in a cold tone and then slowly put me down on the bed. I didn’t expect that he would leave me after getting angry. I removed my hand from his body and closed my eyes. I didn’t know what to do now. I heard the opening and closing of the door and it shattered my heart. I opened my eyes and blinked to back off the tears. I saw the nurse inside the room.

“You can go and rest”, I said coldly to her. “Sorry, ma’am… I can’t leave you alone. This is a strict order from Mr Davenport”, she said in a polite tone and I lost my mind. “I said.. I want to stay alone. Can’t you understand a simple order?” I said in an angry tone. I could see the conflict on her face. Of course, Demitry was paying them. So, she couldn’t offend him. “Fine… just stay where you are and don’t come close to me no matter what I do. I don’t want you to even touch me, okay?” I said and she immediately widened her eyes in suspicion. I was now mad at Demitry but more on myself. I was never so dependent on someone else than myself. How on earth I allowed him to affect me so much.

I didn’t think about the consequences and tried to curl up my body. I screamed in pain due to the sudden movement of my body but immediately put my hand inside my mouth to muffle my scream. “Ma’am…. What are you doing?” Layla, the nurse, screamed and ran towards me. “Don’t…. don’t come near me”, I immediately warned her while taking long breaths. “I will be fine… this pain can’t hurt me much”, I talked with myself internally while trying to move my body. All I want is to curl my body and hug myself to comfort just like I used to do in the past whenever I got upset or sad about anything. My teeth sank in my hand when the pain became unbearable for me.

“Are you crazy?” I heard Demitry shouting at me. Before I could open my eyes, I felt his hand holding my shoulder. “Go away from me….. don’t touch me”, I screamed and slapped his hand. “Mariam… what are you doing?” I heard him yelling again but my mind was not in my control now. I didn’t want anyone to touch me right now. So, I started thrashing my hands in the air so that no one could touch me. Perhaps the movements were so much for my body that I screamed in pain again. My vision was now completely blurred due to tears in my eyes. “Mariam”, I heard Demitry yelling again but I didn’t want him to come close to me now.

“What happened?” I heard mom’s worried voice this time. I tried to move my body again and screamed in pain again. Why do I have to be in this situation? My anger on myself increased due to my helplessness. “Mariam… what are you doing? Are you crazy?” this time mom shouted at me and held me strongly from my shoulders. “I want to go from here. Let’s go back home, mom”, I said while crying bitterly. I held her hand on my shoulder and said again, “I want to go home”. “Okay… okay… we will go home.. okay… you need to stop hurting yourself. O My… your hand is bleeding”, she suddenly screamed and took my hand that I had put in my mouth in her hand.

“Mom… I want to go home now”, I screamed like a madman while snatching my hand from her hand. “Mariam”, suddenly I was pulled in a strong embrace. I tried to move my body away from him but he held me tightly. “You are hurting yourself. If you want to beat me, beat me later but now… please calm down”, I heard him coaxing him but I didn’t listen to him and started hitting him with my hand. “Don’t touch me… I want to go home”, I said while hitting him hard. I was still crying and still not able to see clearly. The pain in my whole back was increasing with every passing second. I felt that I was not able to breathe properly. “Ssshhhhh…. Calm down… calm down”, I heard him whispering to me while holding me tight in his embrace.

I stopped hitting him when I was not able to bear the pain anymore. I gave up and closed my eyes. “She will be okay”, I heard him saying to probably my mom. “Her hand is bleeding”, I heard her cracked voice. All my anger instantly vanished and I regretted my action now. I couldn’t stand my mom’s tears. After my father’s death, I never did anything that would make her cry. I hid my face in his stomach in shame. I was now ashamed of my reckless behaviour. I could solve this matter calmly but I lost my temper. There was no sound in the room other than my sobbing. “I am sorry”, I heard him whispering while putting me down slowly on the bed again. I was still in his embrace. I didn’t respond and kept my eyes close. “You can’t hurt yourself because you are mad at me”, he scolded me in a light tone but it flared my anger again. I chose to stay silent because I didn’t want my mom to cry again.

“I … want to stay alone”, I said in a hoarse voice in between my sobs. “Do you really think that I am going to leave you again, huh?” he asked me while hovering over me. I opened my eyes and our gaze met. I could see the pain in his eyes. I bit my lip to suppress the pain in my back. “I am calling Layla. She will give you an injection for the pain and don’t make any movement now”, he said in a warning tone this time and I looked around. There was no one inside the room except us. He pulled my face towards him and looked straight into my eyes. “Are you listening to me or not?” he asked me angrily again. “I want to go home”, I said again in a low voice because of the pain while lowering my eyes. He didn’t answer me but called Layla. She came inside and I looked at her. She was looking so scared right now.

“Give her something to suppress the pain”, Demitry instructed her and she immediately nodded. She immediately came near to the nightstand and then prepared an injection from the medical box lying there. “Please don’t move your hand, ma'am. I am going to give you an injection for your pain”, she pleaded while looking with fearful eyes. I didn’t want to make her job hard for her. So, I only nodded once. I didn’t move when she injected me. The pain already had drained all my energy. I just gave up and slumped my body down. After giving me the injection, she went out of the room and closed the door behind her. I closed my eyes again and let the tears flowing down. I felt him caging my body under his body and he held me tightly by my waist. I heard him sigh aloud and then felt his head inside my neck. “Stop crying now, please… I can’t stand your tears, princess”, he whispered in my ear in a defeated tone. I didn’t say a word again. I have decided to talk with my mom tomorrow and make arrangements for going back. My time was up here.