Dirty and Raw

Kabanata 1

I am just a simple woman, who has a dream of having a perfect relationship with a man who's in relationship. Sa edad ko na ito ay mahirap makahanap ng lalaki na may paninindigan.

The boys at my age want to collect a bunch of beautiful girl that the called their ex, mga babae na napaikot sa kamay nila, at kapag tapos na at nag-sawa na. Iiwanan sa ere, and I want to avoid that.

That is why I am envy at those woman who has a mature man, they can lean on them at matatawag na knight and shining armor.

"Wow, another flowers from a secret admirer!" I looked at the flowers at my desk, nag-uumpisa silang asarin ako at kantyawan. I don't like flowers, ayoko ng ganito, they find it weird since naiwas ako sa mga manliligaw ko. Even my own parents want me to enjoy my teenage life, I can enjoy that on my own way, hindi sa paraan na sinasabi nila.

"It's too early for some kind of this stuff," saad ko bago inagat ang bulaklak, tinapon sa basurahan at nagbulungan sila.

I heard that they think I am a lesbian, dahil never ako nag-entertain ng manliligaw, but the real thing is, I want a secret relationship. I love the feeling of hiding, may thrill at higit sa lahat ay mas matanda sa akin.

If they want to date me, huwag nila gamitin ang pera na bigay ng magulang nila. But most of them, niyayabang ang mayroon sila na bigay ng magulang nila sa kanila. Anong nakaka proud sa bagay na hindi naman galing sa sariling pawis.

Bumalik ako sa upuan ko at padabog na umupo, inalis ang mga petals at may naiwan na letter doon, I opened it and read each words.

You are such a blessing in this world.

God is really good at creating beautiful creatures.

You are the perfect one.

I'm so obsessed with you.

-your admirer

Nilukot ko ang sulat at tinapon sa basurahan, muling bumalik sa upuan ko at inilabas ang mga text books at assignments na ipapasa mamaya. I wear my eye glasses and start checking each of them.

"You look gorgeous, and it complete my day." May bulaklak na naman na nasa harapan ko, at nakatayo ng maayos ang lalaking hindi ako pamilyar kung sino at saang lugar s'ya nag-mula.

"Stop wasting the money that your parents gave to you, this flowers is bullshit. I won't accept anything that you are giving if that is not from your own pocket." Hinampas ko ang bulaklak at nag-walk out.

I just want to study and have a normal life, I keep avoiding some guys who's trying to enter my life, not because I am a man hater. But I am actually saving myself to a man that I can't have.

Umakyat ako sa roof top, walang tao at nag bell na, means the first subject is going to start.

Naupo ako sa bench at nilabas ang lighter at sigarilyo ko, I start smoking and look at the sky.

Nakakapagod na rin, hindi matatapos ang araw ko ng hindi nakikipag bangayan sa manliligaw at mga babaeng naiingit sa akin.

They thought that I am doing that because I wanna be famous, hindi naman masama na maging normal na estudyante, school meant for studying, hindi para lumandi.

"Fuckers," saad ko bago binuga ang usok, naitapon ko ang sigarilyo ng bumukas ang pinto, niluwa non ang lalaking nakasalamin at gulo ang uniform.

Pawisan ito at mukang bago sa school, he is not familiar with me and I know most of the faces of my school mates.

"Hey, are you alright?" I asked and he looked terrified. May sumisigaw at pakyat sa hagdan.

Mabilis syang nagtago at naiwan ako sa harapan ng rooftop. Bumungad ang muka ng bully sa school at nilibot ang paningin sa taas. "Have you seen a weird guy who's wearing a cheap eye glasses and that new kid owe a in-"

"Shut the f**k up Maverick, see me here right, so the rooftop is mine. At wala akong nakita na lalaking sinasabi mo, lumayas ka rito bago pa ako mainis at sipain yang betlog mo," asik ko at inismiran ako nito.

"Be thankful that you're hot and I like you, kasi kung hindi-"

"You can't scare me like that, I am not buying it, bumalik ka kapag kaya mo na lumaban sa pang aapi sa'yo ng mga kinikilala mong pamilya." Tinulak ko ito at nilock ang pinto.

Lumabas na ang lalaki at napaluhod sa harapan ko. "Thank you so much, I owe you a lot." Yakap nito ang bag n'ya at sumimangot ako.

Nasayang ang sigarilyo ko at naitapon dahil nagpanic ako. "No, you owe me three packs of cigarettes. Naitapon ko ang sigarilyo ko kasi akala ko mag ccheck ang teacher sa rooftop." Umupo ako sa tabi nito at binuksan n'ya ang bag n'ya.

He look dirty, puro mantsya ang damit n'ya. "You're new here, right?" I asked and he nod sweetly.

"Transfer from other country, my mom was a pilipina, my parents are divorced and I chose my mom." Nilabas n'ya ang PE uniform na nasa plastic ngayon.

"That guy are chasing me, I didn't gave some money, he said that I need to give him some cash, so there's no need for initiation, but I don't have cash, I am trying to withdraw some money when he got bored and throw the ice cream that he's eating." Tinuro n'ya ang ice cream na mantsya sa puting uniform n'ya.

"He's a jerk at all times, but don't worry. I got you," I pat his shoulder at ngumiti s'ya ng payak, hinubad ang suot nyang uniform, revealing his hard and wet abs.

He move effortless, pero magaan ang kilos n'ya, it looks like he can't kill a ant or mosquito.

"You workout?" I asked him randomly and he smiled, "Yes. Actually I am a athlete when I was in England, a football player there." My hands have their own minds, hinaplos ang abs nito na pawis at ngumiti.

"I am Jeana, you are?" I asked and he gulp like three times before he answer my question. "G-George," he said while shuttering.

"What a nice name of yours," I answered back and went closer to him. "Want to have fun for a bit?" I asked again and bite my lips after saying that, napalunok ito ulit at gumagapang ang kamay ko papunta sa hita nito.

"I-I gotta go!" sigaw n'ya at tumayo, iniwan ako sa puwesto ko at nanakbo pababa, I groaned and light a new cigarette.

Naiinis na nag indian seat at binuga ang usok. I heard some footsteps and someone is behind me.

"I saw what you did," he said in dramatic tune, here we go again. Rafriel, acting like a p***y.

"Come on, Rafriel. It's too early for your drama, palipasin mo ng hapon okay?" Mabilis ko na inubos ang sigarilyo at tinapon kung saan.

Tumayo ako at hinarap si Rafriel, he look neat, as always. He really look like his brother, and all I can say is Rafaello is more handsome, because I prefer him.

"What?" I scoffed when he tried to block my way. He is not my type, after that incident that I gave him a hand job and he fingered me, nabalitaan ko na halos maghapon s'ya sa church sa loob ng isang linggo.

Why he act like I am a sinner, and if he can't give the pleasure that I want at igugugol n'ya ang panahon n'ya sa simbahan then I can't use his body or his big and warm hand.

"Wht can't we stay like a normal person, I will court you and no s****l-"

"No, if you cannot give what I want, then I will look for other people, or your brother can do that to m-" I didn't finish what I am about to say, he just grabbed my neck and kiss me hard.

Parang mapupunit ang labi ko sa bawat hagod ng labi n'ya sa akin, his harsh kisses makes me wet, I love the feeling of forcing me it was like a spice in every s****l activity.

I groan when he kneel in front of me after he pinned me on the wall. He guide me to open my legs wider and he is there, dahan dahang binaba ang underwear ko, revealing my wetness.

Rafriel lick his middle finger, after that he tease my labia and went to my c******s, he just tease it, yet it makes my knees weak.

"Oh god, Rafriel, you're getting better." I bite my lips after I moan his name.

"I will try my best, because I don't want you to see with other men." My eyes went up and let him make me feel how good his fingers.

"Oh s**t!" Rafriel start hitting the perfect spot, where I can feel the goosebumps on my body.

I close my eyes when I feel his warm tongue on my clit now, cleaning every single juices that came out on my p***y.

Rafriel cover my mouth when he heard a footsteps, nasa tagong parte naman kami at hindi gaanong tinitignan ng teacher ang lugar na ito.

The way he fingered me became harder this time, and his groans are making me feel crazier now.

"Don't make a noise baby, if he heard us. He will report us," Rafriel said and my grip on his arms went tight.

I keep holding and when the teacher is gone, I finally let it out. I came and Rafriel clean every single juices that came into my p***y.

"Rafriel, let's fuck." I said and removing my uniform, he didn't respond, but he just walk away with his hard d**k.

"You're still a p***y!" sigaw ko at napaupo sa sahig, nanghihina ang tuhod.

Maybe sa second subject na ako babalik sa room, and I swear hindi na ako papayag na maulit ito kung ayaw n'ya at iiwasan ako kapag intercourse na ang sinasabi ko.

"I hate you and your brother!" sigaw ko muli at nanghihina na sinuot ang damit ko at panty. That was nice and magical.

I wish I can feel his p***s, but if Rafaello is available, I will definitely came to his room, gonna rape him.