Ok so this is my first story . My punctuation probably sucks I wrote this after my mom passed away . Please tell me what you think I’d like to get feedback A conversation with GOD one night as I lay sleeping in my bed so warm and toasty from my electric blanket a soft light snow began to fall and cover the now frigid ground that just the week before held in the heat from the long days of Indian summer. This however was no strange occurrence living in the snow belt of cleveland ohio, but something felt different to me that night . I knew the snow was coming because the news and radio stations were talking about it for over a week now. however I just could not shake this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach the feeling itself was strange it was neither good nor bad just there. now having been asleep for about two hours I started to wake up. The house was quiet and the children were in their beds fast asleep. As I rolled over in my bed I could feel the coldness coming from the window at the head of my bed. the street light was streaming thru the cracks in the curtain. i moved up to the top of the bed and pulled the curtain aside to see what the weather was like. The snow had started its journey still falling lightly from the sky. this was not the typical snow belt snow hitting us with its furry this snow was peaceful. I adjusted my pillow for a better look out the window and just laid there watching the snow fall. the tree outside my window having gone dormant only weeks ago no longer held its leaves . now looking lifeless holds a beauty all of its own . black and barren now the snow ,white in contrast rest upon it's branches changing yet again the beauty of this tree looking to the road I could see the cars parked for the night, there engines no longer hot grow colder and colder from the snow waiting for their owner to rise and bring them back to life. looking up I can see the main road from my window the heavy traffic of the day has long sense pasted showing no sign of the earlier hustle and bustle of drivers making their way home from there long day at work . soon to start their travels all over again. the snow that has been falling for over four hours has found its final resting place lying peacefully now on everything in sight growing deeper with every passing moment the morning commuters will find scrapping car windows and shoveling the drive part of this mornings routine i found myself drifting back to sleep with the vision of white fluffy snow falling from the sky. soon a dream began to take hold snow was everywhere my house was filling up with it but i was not cold. why was i not cold? why was my house filling with up with snow? as i was walking through my house i was over come with this feeling of warmth that covered my body it was as if i were having a hot flash . what was happening ? and then i heard it .a voice saying stay calm trust in me .all of a sudden the snow that was in my house was gone. melt your frozen hart and let me in whispered the voice. i can take away your pain I am your crutch, your life line, hold tight to to me. Then I woke up shaking and crying I crawled up to the window the curtain still pulled to the side, please let there be snow! The snow was gone. not one snow flake was anywhere . did I dream it all ? Was there ever any snow outside? Did I really hear what I think I heard ? and then i herd it again I CAN TAKE YOUR PAIN ! " "I CAN TAKE YOUR PAIN ! ""GIVE IT TO ME could this really be happing to me i was crying "where were you when i need you ?" "I WAS THERE." " Were you ?" "yes" " I COULD NOT FEEL YOU!!!!" " you shut me out. " I could not breath the pain was too much for me. you took my mom away. she was so sick and I could not help her. The cancer made her mean. She left me long before you took her. she was in pain she wanted her son. steven was weak he could not face death not after losing george so long ago and I understand that. I know That I must forgive him for that But and there is always a but I stood there and listened to her beg for him . she never called my name. she never talked to me about her dying or asked me if i would be ok or told me good bye. she never let any of us help her. all she wanted was him and i felt helpless. I truly wanted her to hold me and say I love you to me. so many things left unsaid. she was afraid of dying I could not help her. sometimes I just wanted you to take her home to you and then i felt bad I was there. I never left her side. she was not alone. you were not alone I was there for YOU ALSO . I have had such a hard time losing people that I love I feel abandoned helpless and alone. Trust in me give me your pain I can take it . I know your sorrow I to have lost my son so that all may come home to me . Do not morn them they are happy and well there is no pain for them . Now is time for healing. remember all I have promised you. Open your heart and let the anger go . Replace it with the