Save Me Alpha

CHAPTER 2

    My eyes flutter open from the shitty nightmare I always have, this same nightmare that haunted me for years repeatedly. 

The first thing I see is a car roof, why am i in a car? What's going on?

I try to lift my head but it feels weighted down and is swimming. Hangover here I come! Ugh my mouth feels like a sewer, maybe I actually died and this is hell.

"Ros? She's waking up Max!" Aunt Sofia? I slowly sit up and put my head in my hands trying to steady the thumping in my head. I feel Sofia rubbing my arm to comfort me but I swat her hand away.

"Sof? What's going on?" my questions come out hoarse slightly, i rub my hand across my face and look at Sofia in the front seat.

 She looked just like her sister, my mom. Except she had dirty blonde hair, whereas my mom had brown hair like my natural hair colour. She looked at me with concern and worry, she smiles at me handing me a bottle of water and what looks like painkillers. "Take these sweetheart, they'll help with your head". 

I take the pills and water and give her a forced smile back. I could never be mean to Sofia, she's the only person left in this world I felt even a glimmer of anything for. I take the pills and wash them down with some water, I look out the window and see nothing but forestry with the sun peaking it's rays throughout.

"Ros, you promised last time you tried to doing something stupid that you wouldn't do it again! You PROMISED me!" Sofia speaks sternly at me, I take a deep breathe readying myself for talking to like I'm a damn teenager again. 

"Ros? Don't just ignore me! Why would you do it again? Jack rang explaining he had left and you were left in the apartment on your own, so Max and I came straight over! What if we hadn't reached you in time? It looked like a goddamn crime scene when we got there!" I winced when she mentioned Jack's name, f*****g asshole snitch Jack. 

I looked at Sofia, her eyes were glassy where she was holding back her tears. 

Guilt

Disappointment

Pity

That's what I see in her eyes when she looks at me and that's what I feel inside myself.

"I'm sorry ok Sofia, but I was feeling low. Jack upped and left... and why do you even care? You only visit on my birthday and f*****g christmas! Why did you bother f*****g coming?" I didn't realise the last words came out a tad loud. 

Sofia goes to say something, tears fall from her eyes letting me know I hurt her feelings. Like a punch to the gut. 

You deserve the pain Ros! Always upsetting her, you b***h!

"Don't you speak to your aunt like Ros, you might be a grown ass woman but you will not disrespect her like that", Max had finally piped up. 

Let me tell you about Max, he's a d**k. A cold heartless shitbag who took my aunt from me when I needed her most, he barely says two words to me at a time. 

They've always been together as far back as I can remember, what you don't know is that the creep is part of a cult! Yes you read that right! 

A f*****g CULT!

When my parents died, they explained that they live in the middle of the forest inside a gated community, I mean I believed that part but then Max started saying that I could never leave once I was there. That there were set rules and curfews to abide by, he really set my alarm bells ringing when he said that there was no social media there and I would have to leave my old life behind. 

Obviously I said f**k no! And Sofia just left with him! She left me, she sent me details of a bank account left to me by my parents which I bought my apartment with. And that was it, I went from speaking to Sofia almost everyday to like once a month to make sure I was alive. 

Max convinced her to stay away from me.

He took her from me.

Acting like he owns her.

Pig!

My jaw hardened as I set my gaze on Max driving, "Excuse me Maxi, nobody asked for your f*****g opinion! So how about you don't speak to me like that! Ass!". 

I could see his jaw hardening and ticking, I laid my head back and breathed through my nose. 

Sofia put her hand on my leg and gave it a squeeze, "Look sweetheart, I can't lose you ok? I can't keep worrying that one day you're gonna finally have been able to do it. Your parents would never forgive me, now here's what is gonna happen... you are moving to the community with me and Max where I can keep an eye on you. We're gonna make you better OK?"

Umm did she just say I'm moving in with them?

"Nope! I'm not going to that cult! Hell no! I ca-" I get cut off by Sofia shushing me and shaking her head.

"This is happening, I will not lose you. Do you understand me? Just do this... for me?" She looked at me pleadingly. 

I huffed like a child and spat out a "fine" before I kept looking out the window. 

If I start seeing some Charles Manson s**t going on, I'm out!

I look down at my arm covered in bandages and saw I'd been changed into clean black leggings and one of my ACDC t-shirts. 

Sofia took one last motherly look at me before she turned back around facing front. 

I hope she doesn't fuss too much, I can't take it.

This is going to be weird but you know what? I have f**k all else to do with my life now so why not!