The Lost Memories: The Tale of Modern Day Assassin Princess

Dear Diary, Hey again. It's me, Sapphire Ataskia Windterea Spirtuse; I know it is weird. But I like it, it's unique/different, like myself. I don’t know much about my name or even myself. My therapist says to keep writing in my journals every week to write down how I feel or whatever is on my mind; to start to understand myself and redefine who I am, since my past is a mystery. However, I keep dreaming of this night. I was probably four or five years old. Now I’m being raised by my family friend Derndeck and his daughter—Deeskita Espinoza. It is just the three of us. However, I don’t know why. Every time I look at deeskita I feel bad for her and she looks like someone I know, I think. I doubt that she likes me much. Sometimes I wonder where her mother went or her sisters. I vaguely remember she had three. She doesn’t like talking about it. I guess they died in a car accident or a fire. Fire… I hate fires. I was told that is how my parents died. The house caught on fire. I was the only one who was saved by a couple passing by. They took me to Derndeck and his daughter. I wonder if that happy couple didn’t walk by, would I be dead with my parents? I don't remember anything of that fateful night. All I know is that there was blood everywhere and painful screams. “Pitch black said the cat”. That night was pitch black. I have a dream every night that has the same line. The only difference is it has a lot more blood. People being murdered, a lot like a nightmare. But, it can’t be real, can it? (Fourteen years ago: Memories) The snow is falling, it’s pure white. It’s cold. I’m bouncing, no, I’m being carried. A pretty woman, with light brown, maybe caramel skin. Very beautiful goldish, violet blue eyes. This woman's hair was midnight black-blue goldish hair that went to the middle of her back or passed that. She looked down at me, her smile was warm but sad and filled with pain. She kissed me, her lips were warm. She has two sets of sharp teeth. I wish I had that too. Wait I do – cool. I looked to the right of the women. There was a man, he is ridiculously handsome. He had long midnight blue, black hair. A little darker skin color than the woman. A lot taller too, hmm interesting. His eyes are hazel- green with a purple outline. We are at a door, who is he talking to? I can’t see, I’m cold- why can’t we just go inside? Wait - I see something, it’s a sword, a big one. It’s a royal sword. I remember because my teacher is always showing me royal crests. The crest is weird, it’s a dragon holding two worlds with both hands. I vaguely remember it from my teachings, I believe it is the royal family crest from five or six thousand years ago, they were supposed to be extinct... interesting. The light got a lot brighter, I had to hide my face in my mom’s shirt. My eyes had to adjust to the light. My mom put me down after a couple minutes. I looked around, the house we are in is small and warm. A woman and four girls. I’m curious, but curious enough to talk to them. I stood behind my mom, she tried to coax me into talking to them, but I am so stubborn I wouldn’t do it. One of the little girls said something to her mother, I noticed her teeth aren’t like mine. But, when I looked at the man’s teeth it was like mine so I’m confused. Maybe his kids are human, well I guess I should find out. There’s a girl that looks like deeskita but younger. She had big brownish- violet with a blue outline, but she looks like her father, even have the same teeth as me. She won’t talk to me, oh well. I walk to the window while my parents are talking to the man. It’s snowing, beautiful like a pure white blanket over a dirty bed—good for when you are hot, bad if you are cold. All the adults are talking and looking at me with worried eyes, what is happening? Why am I so important? I guess there’s something I have. Mhm, I’m not that important, am I? “Hey what’s your name?” the older girls said. “Sapphire,” I looked out the window again, “Who are you?” “I’m Nicasha,” she said, she looked like the oldest out of the girls. (silence) “They are my sister, Yaya & paiya are twins and are the second oldest, and deeskita is the youngest,” she continued. “Sisters?” I asked I’m not familiar with the term. “Yes, like how your mom and dad are related to you by blood, you have siblings that are related to you too, you can talk to them, play with them or sometimes hang-out, you know?” Nicasha said giving more examples. I didn’t say something, I just stared blankly. I didn’t know what she was talking about, I was always lonely. If I had any of those siblings, then I don’t know them. But, I am pretty sure I’m the only child, just me, myself and I. Nicasha didn’t say anything else. She gave me a hug, at first, I didn’t know why. But something fell off my face onto my hands, it was wet. It came from my eyes, I don’t think I ever felt this sad and lonely before, it was all too sad, not real. They told me, this is called crying. Apparently, it happens when you’re sad or if something bad happens. Also, people or whatever can make you cry too, I guess. I don’t like to cry, to makes you seem weak, in this world any weakness is frowned upon. After I was done crying I was better, happy and lighter. I played with them, we played for hours on end. Jumping off stuff and playing tag—my mother and father even let me play in the snow. We made snow angels, snowman, and we had a big snowball fight, it was fun. But, finally, deeskita talked to me. She taught me how to climb a tree. I fell out the tree a couple times. But, still, we had to spend more time with each other so we had to sneak away from the others, so that’s what we did. We climb up the tallest and thickest tree we could find. And there we stayed. “So why are you here sapphire?” Deeskita asked. “—I don’t know why,” I said, “But, I do know that the reason is good enough to make my parents scared,” I continued as I looked out at the snowy night. “Mhm... you know? You’re not what I expected for a princess,” she said as she chuckled and smiled. “Mhm really? Well, what were you expecting?” I said kind of surprised. “Well for first- princesses don’t climb trees, second- they wear dresses not pants, third- they like light and glittery colors and not dark colors, fourth- they love tiaras, fifth- they don’t cry in front of people, sixth- and they don’t notice danger until it’s too late,” she listed, that’s an extensive list. “Mhm true… but, it’s safe to say I’m not an ordinary princess,” I said smiling. “true, I noticed that right when you walked through the door, I’ve noticed that you have very pretty eyes,” deeskita said looking at me, trying to read me. “Mm thanks, I guess,” I said blandly. I and deeskita talked a little bit more. There was a moment of silence, I thought it was strange. its very quiet too quiet. I glanced towards the night sky, and the beautiful, bright stars. Then, I heard It, something or someone out in the midnight sky, getting closer. “hey, you hear that” I said, then I looked out towards the house. “No, hear what?” deeskita replied. “Nothing, never mind let’s go. They are probably looking for us,” I said as I jumped down from the tree. “hmm okay,” deeskita said as she climbs down. We walked back in. our parents were worried. My mom was close to crying, but she was crying from relief. My father was blank he didn’t look worried. I guess he doesn’t care. Derneck was look at deeskita. They were staring into each other’s eyes. It was as if they were having a hidden discussion. Both turned their attention to me. Mm…. somethings wrong, I can feel it. “’I’m sorry mommy. I’m fine, so please stop crying,” I said while hugging her, trying to comfort her. My mother didn’t say anything, she just smiled happily at me. I don’t know why that unsettled me, but the way she was smiling was like she wanted this moment to be remembered. It made the mystery of why we left that much more scary. She suddenly grabbed me, gave me a big hug then kissed me on my forehead. “Sapphire, my darling, I love you just remember that no matter what,” she said in the most serious tone ever. I never heard her voice like this. It made me afraid, like something big and dangerous is coming. She gave me her pendent “Never take it off,” she said. I looked at this pendent in my hands. My mother never took this off, NEVER. I remember he telling one of the maids about how it was her families pendent. It is unique to her linage, the linage of the first dragons tribe, the chaos tribe. the chaos tribe was said to have the power to create and destroy worlds and civilizations. The pendent is no more then 5 pounds of magical black jade, beautiful colors like you are looking at so many galaxies, with a gold frame. I looked up at my mother, her beautiful gold-ish violet-blue eyes. There was so much pain in them, she is so scared, her body may be calm on the outside but the inside, she is just an emotional storm. I found myself once again curious about what expression my father has upon his face. I slowly take my focus from my mom to my dad. Yet again I am so confused, scared, and surprised. My father is known for his very cold demeanor, but finally for the first time in all my life and his- I suspect, I can see it starting to fall away. Not in his face, No- his face is stone cold as always, beautiful but you still cant tell what his is thinking. No, this time it is in his eyes. I can see this is hard for him, he has finally came to peace with something. While I was in deep thought I realized, he let me see into his mind and dare I even say his heart, I can see the love he has for me and my mother. It takes all of his being. He nodded to me. Its his way of telling me, he understands. I guess, I am okay with this too. I looked to my mother again, I just nodded and she helped me put the pendent on. When the cool metal and stone touched my skin, I left so much power inside of me but the pendent was like a book a could put all of my power I already had and the new power the pendent unlocked. I found myself opening my eyes, I wonder when I closed them. I put my hand near my neck, the claps are gone. I tried to take it off but I couldn’t. Okay then, note to self: next time you get any magical gifts, ask for a handbook on how it works. I realized my parents are going to leave me. And I don’t know why? Or How long? Then I felt something hit me, not physically but psychically. I smelled a strong scent at the door, like a cold rainy night, filled with stars, enough to drown you on. My parents was walking to the door, about to leave, but they can’t yet. The smell is ominous, and that is dangerous. “No!” I yelled, I ran as fast as I can so I can keep the door closed. I got there as the door was being opened, and slammed it shut. “What’s the matter,” my father said, his eyes going a little soft while looking at me. “There is this smell outside. It is ominous. I have a bad feeling, so don’t leave yet. Not yet, not until it is safe,” I said in front of the door looking dead into my fathers eyes, so he can understand it is serious. Derneck and my father looked at me, worry and curiosity clear on their faces. “What does it smell like?” derneck said as he waved his wife over and said something to her that made her run off farther into the house. I took a deep breathe in, my head going all the way back. “Pitch Black said the cat, its getting closer and closer,” My father’s face turned colder. He nodded his head to derneck, my uncle called more people. I had just noticed that the voices in my head that always seems to be there, are quiet now. That’s not good, they never go quiet, NEVER. They are the only reason why I don’t feel so lonely sometimes. I finally moved from the door, Everyone needs to be far away from here. I went to go stand by my mom, in the back of the living room near the big bay window. She was talking to my uncles’ wife in hushed tones. I wonder what they talking about. From the corner of my eye I saw a black figures come into the room, I looked up and saw two dozen guards and even more outside. Mhm, interesting. I looked down at my hand and I saw a red dot. At first I was very perplexed, where did this come from? I lifted my hand and licked it up, it metallic taste to it. Then that’s when my nose started to bleed worst. My mom started to panic, getting me a hand full of towels. “Cats,” I said as it seemed the world slowed down, like we had all the time in the world. I could feel myself falling, I could see my mom she wasn’t going to catch me in time, ugh, this is going to hurt. I closed my eyes to brace for the impact, but it never came. I can feel a body holding me. I turned and looked up, all I seen was blueish black and green eyes with grey ring outline. My vison started to go fade in and out. I heard my self say ‘thank you’ and a very faint ‘your welcome, my princess’. The Last thing I saw was a warm smile from the mysterious boy. All I dreamt about was the boys teeth, like mine, smells like a cold rainy, black, starry night with eyes like her favorite black panther. “Let her go,” Sapphire’s mother said to the mystery boy holding her. “You don’t want to do this,” Derndeck said next, “I think I do,” the boy said as he lightly caresses sapphires’ face with his warm hands. Just then the lights went out. Then the door got blown off its hinges. Someone pulled the trigger, a big shot went off. Darkness filled the air, so thick you can choke on it. All you can hear is screams, shots, cries, and the loving strong smell of blood. The scent of blood was so strong, I could swear I was either cover in it or on top of it. I was starting to regain consciousness. I could feel my fingers, I moved them lightly along the floor. It was wet and sticky. I put my fingers to my mouth, a metallic taste. Yeah- definitely blood. I opened my eyes, pitch black. I vaguely wondered if I was even awake. I still smell blood then I began to sit up, I see bullets, bullet holes. And animal claw marks on the floor, walls, and furniture that’s not already destroyed. I am sitting where I fainted and was caught by the mystery boy. Near the big bay window. I looked around I saw deeskita and her sisters and her mother hugging each other in a corner near the door. There was a man over them. He reached out and grabbed Paiya, one of the twins. Her mother reached out he slapped her back down. She hit the floor so hard, it took her a minute to get up. All I saw was red, heat radiated from my body, and around me. I threw a book at his head to get his attention. I hit him in the back of the head. He turned around slowly and there I was, standing strong giving him a deadly glare, my red eyes bright as blood, glowing in the black moonlighted area. He dropped paiya on the floor, she crawled back to her mother, hugging her as tight she could, while crying her eyes out. The huge man was striding towards me, for a minute I thought he was modeling for me. Then I saw his fingers is shifting into claws. What the hell? What the hell is he? He got closer and I got ready for the fight that is about to start. Then when he was almost to me, he fell down face first on the hard floor. His head was split open with an axe. I looked up deeskita’s mom was there getting back up from her throwing stans. Wow- she has amazing aim. She wanted me to go with her and her daughters to there hiding places. But, no I need to find my parents. If I knew what I know now I probably would’ve went with them but then maybe I would dead too. I snuck away. I made my way back to the house, I had to figure out how to sneak in, there are so many enemy guards around. I know my parents are in there because I can smell them. I was about to make my move when I felt someone behind me. “What are you doing?” I said getting irritated not looking at who’s behind me. “I can’t let you do this by yourself,” deeskita said smiling. I just stared at her. I didn’t say anything, I could feel my eyes getting crimson for some reason. I looked away quickly. Great- how am I suppose to protect her while trying not to get killed or captured and help my parent? Ugh, whatever I’m just gonna have to wing it. “Fine, don’t get in my way,” I said looking for the mysterious boy. I could feel desskita looking at me very intently. “What are you looking for?” deeskita said looking curiously at the house. “No one,” I said coldly, glancing at her. She shrugged her shoulders. I know it wasn’t to me, more to herself. Like she was having an internal conversation. Mhm, interesting. “Let’s go, follow my lead,” I continued. Creeping from the side of the house we was hiding near. Deeskita followed closely at my heels. We came to the back door, there was two guards there. I checked to see if there was anyone else near. I didn’t see anything. I moved my hand into position claws grew, like the man earlier. Okay that’s freaky. I jumped on the closest guards back and covered his mouth then shoved my clawed hand into his chest then ripped his heart out. It was beating for a seconds then it stopped. It was still warm, so much blood on my hands, it so beautiful. I heard a thud, the second guard fell due to deeskita sliding a dagger into his heart. There… perfect, quiet and most importantly quick. We did that several times before we got to the living room with the big bay window, I saw my parents sitting in chairs side by side, tied by their hands and feet. We was well hidden so no one can see use. I looked around I didn’t see anything, no guards, no one- good better be no one around so we can get out of here. “Mom, mom, wake up, are you hurt,” I said shaking her so she can wake up. Then went to untie her, I motioned for deeskita to help my dad. “My lord, Sapphire, what are you doing here,” my mother said hugging me tight. “I couldn’t leave you guys here, you both are all I have,” I said whipping my mom’s tears. She didn’t say anything just hugged my so tightly I thought I was gonna die from suffocation. Deeskita finally got my dad untied, he thanked her and said her her biological father will be proud. Her biological father died, but I don’t know how, but I bet my parents know why and derndeck and her mother. “Enough, we need to leave now, before they come back,” my father said looking around. “Yes, that would be the best bet,” derndeck said coming from the hallway, with deeekita’s mother and sisters. “What the hell you doing here? I told you go to the hideout!” my father said getting increasingly irritated. “We was, but we realized Sapphire, and deeskita had disappeared,” derneck said while sending deeskita a warning with his eyes. Deeskita’s eyes widened then looked down. “Aww, how nice? The whole family is here,” a man said. He had cold lavender eyes. Silk black hair, in a ponytail at the back of his neck. He was kinda handsome in that bad boy, evil villain way. His skin was a bronze color, he is tall, but lean. He looks like one of those mall models. “It does look that way,” the mystery boy said standing next to him, looking at me intently. Since I can see him clearly now, he is cute, a little darker than the man. He is dressed in all black, everything is covered except for his face. His hair looks rough but I can see tight curls so it might be soft to the touch. He is beautiful. I wonder what his name is. My father pulled me closer to him, until I was completely behind him. He pulled out his sword but there was something different about it. It was like it was pulsating like it was alive. I guess in a sense it is because I saw power coursing through it. Suddenly the lights went out again, I ran towards derndeck’s wife and kids, we hid by the couch, on the left side of the wall. It was so dark again. But all I can see is red sparks or flashes of power. I crawled towards the window towards the window to get a better look inside the living room. I felt the rug squish under my knees, its so wet and warm, what’s on my hands? I smelled it… blood! “Look at what we have?” a voice said. I looked up it wasn’t the beautiful mysterious boy, it was a big scary man, with this look in his eyes, all I know is I definitely don’t want him to catch me or else I will be in deep s**t. He grabbed for me, I scrambled out of his way. The big mans hands light up with beautiful red flames. I was momentarily mesmerized but I knew if those flames connected to my bare skin, I’m so toasted literally. “Get away from her.” A delicate female voice said. At the same time, the small figure grabbed the big mans burning hand. She was close enough I could see her, it was derndeck’s wife. What is she doing? She’s gonna die that way. He pushed her to the ground, then in one motion he threw the ball of fire at her. She looked at me with tears in her eyes, wide but at peace. We stared at each other for would seem like an eternity, she mouthed sorry then looked to something behind me, with so much love and sadness, then the flames engulfed her whole body and she was no more. Just ashes, nothing left, I went to where her body was, it was just ashes and bites or bone crumbling into dust with one touch. I don’t know what it was but I think I just broke, my power ripped out of me. So much pain, but I couldn’t see anything, I just saw crimson. Next thing you know the big man’s head and heart was in my hands. I could feel the tears streaming down my cheeks and down my neck. I walked to the sisters and was standing in front of them with the man’s heart and head that killed their mother. I offered it to them, like a gift. They was staring at me even though I was staring at the man’s head and heart. Deeskita the youngest came up to me. Then she did the unexpected… she hugged me? Then the whole world went pitch black so dark, I smelled smoke while fading into the dark with voices and screams all around me. It was suffocating. I hope this is just a dream and not real, if it is then derndeck has been lying all my life. But the most important question is ‘what is that man, and boy? And why do I feel like I know them?’.....