The Lost Wolf

AVA'S POV              Looking back in my life, I have begun to wonder if it has gone how I wished or followed more of what was expected of me. My parents have always had great expectations for me, but they never felt like they were my own.  I have always felt like a part of me has been held back, but no matter what, I still feel as if I am bound to my life as it is.  Some days I feel like I am living a life in which belongs to someone else.             I never expected what was to come and who I was to be.              As a kid, I always had great dreams for more and to be more.  When did I find myself not following the path in which I foresaw for myself?             I have always considered my life to be a happy one, but it has always felt like it was not meant to be mine.  There must be more out there for me, but not matter my wants, I cannot seem to break free and I continue to feel this battle within myself for more.             As the night begins to fall, I begin to realize that I must push through what is expected and find my true internal self.  I don’t think my family or Alex will understand this feeling, but I can’t continue to follow the path of ease which I have always found myself bound to.             Can I break through the barriers of expectation thrust upon me?  Or will I continue to follow the normal expectations.              I like to think I can, but I do not want to disappoint my family and loved ones.  I have always felt like they have held me back from being truly me so I know they will not understand the internal battles in which I am inflicted with.  I have wondered if love was what they have bestowed upon me. My inner self has always felt like something was missing.             Can love truly be just rules and protection, or is there possibly more?             Maybe I am just overthinking, but to me, there is this mere possibility that I am right and that there should be more.